My Dearest L...

My Dearest L…

My b-day is next week HAHA who would have guessed that I would still be here to see my 21st b-day cuz I sure and hell didn't. this is probably the part when I drift off into some random thought that pops up in my head. like it smells like chocolate in my room. I don't even have any air fresheners in here strange. sometimes I struggle to write things down on this blog and I think it shows sometimes. but sometimes I don't want to write but nothing comes out at all, so I just mash a bunch of random thoughts in my head into one paragraph.

My Dearest L...

i wounder if tonight my mind will let me rest easy.

My Dearest L...

V-day is coming up tomorrow, it’s a dreadful day for me and the rest of the singles out there, no matter how hard they try to tell themselves they're happy just lying to themselves they know damn well. Just like I do that V-day is just a day the world made up to say “fuck you” to all the singles out there. Then on the other hand I wish I had someone to hold me at night and call my own...but till then I’ll just wait and keep calm for my time to come. They say if you stop looking love will come to you, but how are you gonna find love when you don’t put yourself out there. That’s almost like when you in an R-ship everyone wants you and when nobody wants you. I find it so weird how the world works sometimes...

My Dearest L...

I woke up today at 4 pm and I didn’t feel sad for once I just feel what I think is “happiness” It such I weird feeling to me but I wonder if this year will be my year to finally spread my wings and fly. I might go on a walk tomorrow it’s supposed to be a nice day out tomorrow so I might as well enjoy some fresh air. I think I’m going to open my window after have it closed for 8 months now...:)

My Dearest L...

How can I miss someone I’ve never met? I miss those soft eyes glancing up at me as the morning sun comes beaming through the window, I miss the feeling of your hands brushing over my delicate skin during the midnight hours in bed, I miss how you would keep the sheets warm at night when I’m cold. How can I miss these things when I haven’t even laid my eyes on you yet???

My Dearest L...

Will i ever find the one that will make me happy to be alive??

it's really lonely here without you...

♡ marmalade boy ♡

“How amazing is it to find someone who wants to hear about all the things that go on in your head.”

— Nina LaCour

Dear, Elisa Lam...

Before I go to bed tonight, I have to tell you something. I am not convinced that you did this to yourself at all, I truly believe that the hotel is hiding something from us. That manager from the new Eisa Lam documentary on Netflix has got me so damn angry!!! all she cares about is her stupid little hotel not looking like a fucking drug house. Well smell the roses hun it’s already home to the night stalker and a bunch of other prison rats. She didn’t even shed a damn tear for Elisa and don’t even get me started on how I think they made this Elisa lam documentary to cover up the real truth behind this case uggghhh fuck this makes me so damn angry!!!!