I Think When Judas Kissed Jesus It Was Sloppy And With Tongue

Changed my icon to an angel @haxxydraws designed based on an emoji prompt. If 90% of my blogs content is going to be about religous trauma I might as well have an icon to match!

Just remembered how as a child I was really weirded out by the idea of marrying a man. So my dream was to live with my best friend who was a girl in the city and adopt a puppy together. I was like, "Haha I don't need boys i have my friend who I'll cuddle with in our king sized bed."

Anyway I'm gay and I don't know how nobody noticed.

Soul of her

Update:

So we are on speaking terms. The elders aren't pushing too hard about meeting or formally disassociating because the CO (their higher up) was visiting at the same time. Despite all their freaking out they contact me like nothing has changed now.

I plan to leave things like this for now and am glad I can still talk to my younger brother. Curious to see if things will change as I'm more honest online.

I finally moved out and told my parents I was leaving the cult. Moving was fine i suppose but the phone conversation explaining my stance was much more emotional than I expected.

My parents aren't the type to question their beliefs so I wasn't going to put effort into explaining myself, but they kept pushing. They had preconceived notions that I was just bitter or foolish and kept poking only to have me explain how their bigotry made my life hell. My dad tried to play off the slurs and awful things he said as jokes only to have to come to terms with the fact that I grew up feeling unlovable and disgusting because of him.

Now I'm waiting for them to decide if they ever want to talk to me again. They're crushed but still miss the point. Rather than realizing "homophobia bad" they took "we did homophobia wrong". While I can't say I wanted to spill so much to them, I'm happy that they have to live with what they've done.

Love it

Tumblr would enjoy this I thought

I want PIMOs here to know that there are "worldly people" kinder than you can imagine. Friends you'll gain that aren't conditional in their support. New experiences you never even considered, but that bring you immense joy. Parts of yourself that you'll find and can now let free.

Your life isn't over for waking up, it's about to begin.

Another thing that gets me is how they use the growing visibility and acceptance of queer people as the most obvious sign of the world's depravity. Even though, they have no reason to get so upset besides "the bible says it's bad in our outdated translations". Other things like sleeping together outside of marriage should be a similar sin within their rules, but it doesn't hold the same disgust to them. Regardless of what they say, they're obvious bigots.

So when they tried to fearmonger by saying that "they let middle schoolers twist morality with GSA" it wasn't surprising, but I wanted to fucking scream.

Meetings really only exist to encourage my deconversion at this point. I don't know how saying that "feminism making women think they should be fully equal in the marriage is damaging" will make me, an afab person, agree that God knows best lol.

Like no. I don't know about you but I don't want to be in a position where my partner can abuse me without consequence.

Anyone have PIMO birthday ideas? My birthday day is coming up and while I can't exactly throw a party I want to do something nice in the spirit of rebellion. Especially since this will essentially be my first!

I ship dis fellow and dis fellow. They are gay.

Call that a disfellowship