24/08/2024

31/08/2024

I continued doing my discussion today. It’s coming along slowly, but I think I’m doing okay. I should be able to meet my deadline for this Friday. I also finally went through that maths paper I’ve been meaning to look at for days. 84%!!!! I’m so happy :)

Things achieved today:

Done more EPQ

Marked and redid some questions for a maths paper.

Started another maths paper that needs to be handed into my teacher this week

My priority now needs to be to finish my EPQ discussion ASAP and to finish my summer work.

Things to do tomorrow:

As much EPQ as possible

More of the maths paper I started today

Sorry to break it to you but you literally have to face your fears and slaughter them. Otherwise you will live a small life that you do not want. You literally have to view your biggest fears and attack them head on. You have to fall into the abyss to find your way out. The easy path does not exist. There is no get out of jail free card. You have to allow yourself to die a spiritual death over and over again in order to reinvent yourself into the person you are actually supposed to be. And you have to be painfully honest with yourself and the people around you. It’s horrible but it’s truly the only way.

26/08/2024

The time I didn’t spend doing EPQ today I spent thinking obsessively about EPQ and trying to plan what the next steps I need to take are.

Things achieved today:

I created a pretty solid outline for the discussion of my EPQ

I began doing a very rough first draft of my EPQ

Spent an hour doing some of a maths paper

Maths is proving to be something of a problem for me. I can do it - i know I can do it because I study hard for it and get some good grades - but me doing well relies hugely on my mindset. I really struggle to break out of the panic feeling when I can’t do a question, and everything spirals downwards from there.

Even when I am doing well though, I go so slowly that I always run out of time.

I think I just need to practice more so I’m faster and more confidant.

Things to do tomorrow:

More EPQ, basically

It’s crazy and fucked up that being yourself is actually the solution.

28/08/2024

Except for the maths, I didn’t do a lot today. My EPQ session was entirely unproductive since I’ve run into a dead end for the time being, and I’m not sure how to get around it. I finished another maths paper and got an A because I didn’t freak out if I couldn’t do a question. Staying calm is the biggest battle for me when it comes to maths.

Things achieved today:

Did another maths paper and got an A.

Tried (but did not succeed in) working around the block I’ve got at the minute with my EPQ.

My EPQ deadline is a week on Friday, and I also need the first draft of my personal statement finished by then as well. I am not on track to achieve either of those things :)

Things to do tomorrow:

Make more progress on my EPQ so the day after (Friday) I am ready to start referencing my work

Go through the maths paper I did today

28/10/2024

I am very happy with how I did today! I managed ~5 hours of revision today, which is what I need to be doing if I want good grades in my mocks later this week. I achieved all the goals I set myself yesterday!

Things achieved today:

Completed and marked my biology paper (65%, which is good but I aim to do better in the real thing).

Did some review questions for stats and mechanics, and I’ve improved on a few areas I was struggling with and have some questions for my teachers tomorrow.

Revised some biology content.

Though I’m happy with today’s progress, it has highlighted some areas I am not confident with, so I need to work on those in the next few days.

Things to do tomorrow:

Revise year 13 biology (energy transfers)

Revise and do questions for speciation, classification and selection

Go over some of the flash cards I’ve made over the past week

Mock countdown:

Biology: 4 days

Maths: 4 days

Chemistry: 3 days

27/09/2024

My form tutor liked my personal statement!!! I’m so happy, I was so worried about it for months.

My EPQ is also almost ready to hand in for Tuesday, only a few things to change now.

Everything feels like it’s coming together!

27/08/2024

I spent 4 hours and 20 minutes on my EPQ today. My will to live is gone, my eyes are burning, and all I know is pain.

Thing achieved today:

I’ve done the outline for most of my EPQ

Got to play Roblox with some friends in the evening, which made everything okay again :)

Things to do tomorrow:

Even. More. EPQ.

27/10/2024

I am absolutely tired of studying even though I haven’t done much today. The stress about mocks is starting to pile on, but am still procrastinating far too much. Still, I did do some studying and also played an hour of badminton.

Things achieved today:

Completed and marked a Chemsitry paper (78%!!)

Began a biology paper

Made some revision sheets on protein synthesis

I also started to look at plant biology but it is not my favourite and I couldn’t bring myself to do it :/

Overall not happy with the day but I have decided to believe in my ability to turn things around tomorrow.

Things to do Tomorrow:

Revise plant biology

Complete, correct and mark biology paper

Finish stats review exercise 1

Mock Countdown:

Chemistry: 4 days

Maths: 5 days

Biology: 5 days

So

My mocks are all done and over with!! My biology and maths papers were pretty good, but my chemistry paper was an absolute nightmare. My chemistry teacher told us all to revise the wrong topics, so the whole class is screwed.

My focus now mocks are over with is to catch up with and learn some of the content from year 13 that I haven’t yet got the hang of yet with a particular focus on maths. I also want to do some extra curricular reading as well, complete my singing and piano music grades (which I will probably write a bit about), and just focus on picking up my hobbies again.