Like A Deep Breath At Sunset

How to start...

I just want to be as honest as possible and get some things off my chest I haven't been able to say out loud.

I don't have any followers so I have no reason to pretend. I have no reason to act different than I am for the crowd. No one on here gives a single fuck about what I do or say.

So let's begin...

If you are concerned that something’s wrong, you should see a doctor immediately. Your health is not something you should ignore, and most of these problems can be reversible if treated in time (although many can be permanent). I hope you will consider recovery before you are faced with medical complications or even death. Eating disorders can do a lot of damage to your body. Recovery is always an option. ❤ I love you lil bean.

heart palpitations

slow or irregular heartbeat (brachycardia)

fast heartbeat (tachycardia)

cold/icy hands and feet

fainting

chest pain, burning or tightness (angina)

bruising very easily

pain in your shoulders, back, neck, or jaw

red spots on the insides of your arms and legs

blue tint to nailbeds, lips, and skin

tingling in your limbs

blood clots

swelling of your ankles, feet, or abdomen

sweating

weakness or dizziness

coughing up white sputum

cramps or pain in your legs

fullness/choking feeling

shortness of breath

yellow looking skin (jaundice)

yellow eyes

pale, bloody or tar-like stool

swollen or tender abdomen

dark/foul smelling urine

skin rashes

diarrhea

persistent nausea

loss of appetite

exhaustion

bruising easily

excessive or constant sweating

sudden weight gain and high cholesterol

low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)

metabolism slows down

pale or foamy/bubbly urine

urinating very often or very rarely

swelling of your legs, ankles, and feet

shortness of breath

exteme fatigue or drowsiness

nausea that doesn’t go away

feeling cold (anemia)

swollen, puffy face

food tastes like metal

your breath smells like ammonia/fish

brown, red, or purple urine

pressure when urinating

fever

chronic constipation

cramping

pain or difficulty when going to the bathroom

bloody or black stools

foul smelling stools

persistent gas

anal hemmorhoids

sudden extreme urge to go to the bathroom

seizures

mental fuzziness/lack of concentration

memory problems

nightmares

anxiety, depression and paranoia

insomnia and other sleep issues

development of binge eating

suicidal thoughts or thoughts of self harm

compulsive behaviors/rituals

hysteria

feeling restless

impaired or worsening vision and hearing

speech difficulty

irregular breathing

physical numbness

mood swings

bleeding from your ears

stomach pain or cramps

pain when pressing down on stomach

burning sensation in stomach

acid reflux

coughing or vomiting blood

ulcer(s)

coughing white or pink mucus

headaches

chills or fever

diarrhea or bloody stools

bloating

sensitivity to cold

nausea and vomiting

loss of menstrual cycle (amenorrhea) can point to infertility

tooth decay, gum disease

swollen glands in neck

excess hair growth all over your body and face (linugo)

dry, blotchy skin

bones easily fracture and break (osteopenia/osteoperosis)

hair loss

brittle nails

painful esophagus can be a sign of rupture

loss of sex drive

erectile dysfunction

thyroid disorders

getting sick very often (immune system)

dehydration

weak muscles

These are not all of the symptoms and medical complications that can occur because of an eating disorder. It’s important to recognize that an eating disorder can lead to death if left untreated. Please take care of yourself. Recovery is always an option, and you deserve to be healthy and happy. Check out my help page for info on where to start with your recovery. Text 741-741 to chat with a crisis counselor.

My backup blog is @thefitnessdiarist!

Who am I ?

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For the record...

I won't be posting any thinspo or proana/mia photos, memes, quotes, or blogs. I'm not here to share any motivation for pursuing the fucked up illness we're working through. I'm not your enabler. I'm just here to tell the truth. And hopefully offer some guidance.

So if you want any of the aforementioned, this is not the tumblr for you.

Actually.

Somebody better call Saul.

whoever the fuck invented arm fat will be speaking to my lawyers

I thought I'd hit rock bottom...

Such personality! How could you ever eat that? 😔

She summarized what I've been feeling so well.

HAHAHAHAHA! So accurate! <3

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I believe when George said this, he was speaking for everyone who lives on Mother Earth. No matter what country you’re from. 

Rest forever young, George Carlin.