I Need This Butch So Bad

Ever since I read the sunshine court like a month ago I have been plagued by visions of long-haired Jean Moreau

something something growth and acceptance and healing and becoming a Person

yes yes payneland is very cute and "we have literally forever to figure it out" but consider, aromantic charles in a qpr with edwin

I keep seeing this take that I feel fundamentally misunderstands Edwin's comment about Charles' reaction to The Night Nurse being "extreme".

Charles obviously took it the way so many people are taking it. As a judgment. He's already insecure, already afraid he's a bad person, that he's violent, and Edwin's comment confirms it to him.

But I don't think that's what Edwin meant. I think what he meant was that that reaction was extreme for Charles. He's known Charles for more than thirty years. He's seen how Charles reacts to threats and how he uses violence exclusively in defense against others' violence. And, in comparison to Charles' reaction to The Night Nurse in 106 (trying to convince her to let them go or even to let Edwin go and take him instead), his reaction in 104 is markedly different. Which, to me, suggests that, if there weren't other things going on that Charles was struggling with, this is how he'd have reacted in 104 as well.

Edwin is well aware that this isn't how Charles would normally react, so he knows something is wrong. He's not judging Charles. He's worried about him.

who's up thinking about how fast edwin was charmed by niko and allowed her into his life and how easily they became friends and how much they trusted each other and how fast she was taken from him while he could do nothing but watch as blood seeped into her clothes as she fell to the ground slowly?

Maybe it's just in my neck of woods (Tumblr) but I'm surprised how it's only "cute Monty" all around and not "poor incomprehensibly brutally abused Monty".

Don't get me wrong, absolutely no judgement, I definitely think he's cute and kind (in his own clueless way) and I love our little crow boy.

BUT I haven't seen anything about the absolutely horrific, stomach-turning, beyond-cruel transformations Esther made him go through both times. She literally butchered him and tore him to pieces alive! Every time I think about it I feel myself shying away from remembering, horror gripping my spine.

I guess that's maybe it? It's so horrific that we all collectively decided not to talk about it? I'm really curious.

Carter is ready and raring to go. Let's get this man NAKED

*it's hard to describe so i recommend searching it. 90% of the time people leave it in the tags of a post about a character they like

You’ll have to call back later, our best detectives are very busy at the moment (click for better quality, close ups below)

This is why we didn't get an Andrew POV.