sometimes he wakes so far from himself that he can’t even remember who he is. “where am i?” he asks, desperate, and then, “who am I? who am I?”
and then he hears, so close to his ear that it is as if the voice is originating inside his own head, willem’s whispered incantation. “you’re jude st. francis. you are my oldest, dearest friend. you’re the son of harold stein and julia altman. you’re the friend of malcolm irvine, of jean-baptiste marion, of richard goldfarb, of andy contractor, of lucien voigt, of citizen van straaten, of rhodes arrowsmith, of elijah kozma, of phaedra de los santos, of the henry youngs. you’re a new yorker. you live in soho. you volunteer for an arts organization; you volunteer for a food kitchen. you’re a swimmer. you’re a baker. you’re a cook. you’re a reader. you have a beautiful voice, though you never sing anymore. you’re an excellent pianist. you’re an art collector. you write me lovely messages when i’m away. you’re patient. you’re generous. you’re the best listener i know. you’re the smartest person i know, in every way. you’re the bravest person i know, in every way. you’re a lawyer. you’re the chair of the litigation department at rosen pritchard and klein. you love your job; you work hard at it. you’re a mathematician. you’re a logician. you’ve tried to teach me, again and again. you were treated horribly. you came out on the other end. you were always you.”
“and who are you?”
“i’m willem ragnarsson. and i will never let you go.”
Here is the Harold and Jude’s “my sweetheart” scene if anybody is looking for it, i thought this song would fit Jude’s inner thoughts well
‘you’re my baby’, say it to me.
Here is a Jude&Willem edit i made after finishing A Little Life’s play, it was honestly a hundred times better than i expected; The actors held nothing back and seeing Jude and Willem’s relationship on screen made me incredibly happy.
Hope you’ll enjoy this little edit I made that took way too long to finish, but nevertheless i like the outcome.
Also if you’d like, you can read my Jude x Willem comfort fanfic here on AO3 or here on tumblr!
Please don’t repost without credit to watermark, thank you so much!
how do people read a little life and come to the conclusion that yanagihara is saying that if you’ve experienced trauma, you should just give up? excuse me but there’s approximately 700 pages that say the complete opposite did we read the same book?
Here it is! The full performance of Een Klein Leven, in its 4-hour-long glory. Note that the portion originally missing from the English stream is not subtitled but features precious little dialogue anyhow. My endless thanks to _ZERO-ErRoR_ZROE for putting all of it together. Further thanks to all of you who contributed your recordings–none of this would have been possible without you.
Enjoy!
thinking of Harold telling Jude that no matter what gets damaged, life compensates for your loss, sometimes wonderfully, and then reflecting on his own son and Jude (perceiving them both as his children). Maybe he thought that way when he was planning to introduce the adoption, the thought of it never fails to break my heart.
Simon and Wilhelm's "we haven't done anything wrong" conversation is one of the most important moments of queer representation on TV.
Remember that time I read a book everyone said was heartbreaking and I said I’d be fine because nothing like that ever bothers me???
And then I cried through the last two parts???
And I can’t stop thinking about it???