the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.
Interviewer: Do you think suicide is courageous or cowardly? Elliott: It’s ugly and cruel and I really need my friends to stick around, but dying people should have that right. I was hospitalized for a little while and I didn’t have that option, and it made me feel even crazier. But I prefer not to appear as some kind of disturbed person. I think a lot of people try to get mileage out of it, like, “I’m a tortured artist” or something. I’m not a tortured artist, and there’s nothing really wrong with me. I just had a bad time for a while.
I get a genuine stomach ache when I remember I never have and never will be even alive at the same time as elliott smith
postcard sent by elliot smith to friend sean croghan after moving from portland to la c. 1999
Elliott Smith invented coquette core 🎀✨