I do not wish to be known.
I want to move far away, to be a stranger in a new place. To experience life without anyone knowing me.
I want to be myself, and I can't do that with people. I feel much more alive when I'm alone.
to want and be wanted
georges bataille / emily palermo / olivia laing / @chaandajaan / georges bataille / cj hauser / @kvetchkween / @nicholasbraungf / vi khi nao / silas denver melvin
I'm so fucking sad it hurts. I honestly don't remember the last time I truly ever felt happy even as a small child. I remember feeling depressed but not knowing what that was. I felt such satisfaction from traumatic things, inflicting pain and violence, self torture and hatred. I don't know if I truly deserve to be happy I don't know what to do.
@ yungflowergun
"You are slowly losing interest in me and I fucking hate it. I can feel the love between us fading and the worst part is: there's nothing I can do about it."
- M.C.
Psalm 58:6
• if I stay cold enough, I won’t want to get up and follow things around
• if I only use the same websites/watch the same shows/don’t answer unknown calls, I don’t get paranoid.
• if I don’t make friends, I won’t stay up all night wondering about what they’re plotting against me.
• if I stay inside, nobody will be watching me.
• if I don’t speak or think, no one can hear me.