Wanted To Look At Old Doodles To See My Progress. This Sketchbook Is Mostly Undated But I Finished It

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used pen instead of pencil today, i liked it. did 1 hour practice and then some 10 minute pics. some pics are bad (mostly the penultimate one) but mostly i am satisfied and had fun.

i know i've said this before but i'm going to say it again because the more i work with geriatric women the stronger i feel about the fact that the only anti-aging that women in their 20s/30s should be obsessed with is building strong bones and muscle mass. that's like the most important thing you can you can do right now to lay a good foundation for healthy aging. you can botox the shit out of your face but that's not going to do anything to save you from dying prematurely from a fatal hip fracture that you can't bounce back from because you didn't do anything to prevent yourself from becoming frail and breakable. like i know that sounds harsh but that is reality for a lot of older women and i don't want that to be you.

have you noticed how the title of boss in mgs is almost mocking, and those who have it are a tool of some forces they are unable to deny?

the boss has respect and obedience of people around her, such as strangelove and other researchers, snake, the cobras, volgin etc. but she earns it exactly by giving her all to whatever task she's assigned to, which were often harmful to her or suicidal. she clearly doesn't want to kill the sorrow or convince snake she's a traitor, and mb she didn't want to go to space and do other stuff either, but she either was blackmailed into those missions by threatening her child or thought it was her responsibility to tie up loose ends or smth. so, what leads to her being the boss is really extreme obedience, often contrary to her own interests.

when snake is "awarded" the title of big boss, it already looks like mockery as it is: he and you, the player, know there's not much heroism in killing the boss. i haven't played mg, mg2 and mgs4 yet, so this might be canonically disproven, but mgsv seems to me like it takes the extreme obedience even further: some organisation says "we're giving your identity to some other guy" and he's like "ok yay ❤️ 🚬🏍️". it is also notable how in portable ops and peace walker he fights people whose ideas he will directly adopt (nation of mercenaries and metal gear). of course he is the next legendary soldier and his followers respect and obey him, but it seems he earned that by fulfilling some organisation's plan (not in form of direct missions this time) with great skill and dedication. it was interesting to see his path from solo stealth operative to a leader in portable ops, and it does seem like people follow him bc of his field skills (and bc of being put in the brig) than management skills (although he is a charismatic leader).

if you replace "boss" with "tool" or "weapon", it makes just as much sense in terms of passing down the code name. their authority only exists among soldiers and scientists and pows and doesn't exist at all for the people who use them. and it seems that in metal gear when there is a super soldier, the government (or patriots or whoever else) is always training a new one that could kill them if needed. so, both people who get the codename get it after proving they can be made to do anything no matter how much they dislike it, which is ironic.

text and more cringe sketches below

today's results are bad ngl but i'm glad i did it anyway. got a lot of men pics for the last sketch lately, so today i skipped pics until there was a woman. didn't draw her nice but whatever. both of my common issues - small feet and too long torsos - are present. this is supposed to be a bad art diary to make other people less shy, so here it goes. also i liked the shorter sketches (pics 1 and 2).

the most cringe are the 3-5 minute ones below:

mb i should practice drawing women specifically. although might take a break from drawing - or not, will see how it goes.

head practice. my skill sucks so far but i enjoyed it and we'll get there. now it's even possible to see the emotions. might or might not do figure drawing practice after this

more monsoon

i can't draw lips but i'm learning on him

took sleeping pills yesterday and had funny dreams, among them - having to draw miller on a chalkboard, struggling to draw his glasses for some time but only being able to draw o-o, and then abandoning the effort, lol. didn't even attempt to draw his face or figure

this one was supposed to be better but i give up. might retry later, he doesn't even look angry enough(9

my favourite mgsv fan service moment, worthy of beating the final boss

a metal gear themed birthday card from @ultraeyepiss <3

i am not a private but i hope i still have time hehe