I Keep Checking If This Is Really Meant For Me…there’s Literally No Way WHAT I’M SOBBING STOP

I keep checking if this is really meant for me…there’s literally no way WHAT I’M SOBBING STOP

I genuinely love my boyfriend SO MUCH WEEE

This is a post all about how I love my boyfriend! Contains gay! Be warned!

I’m genuinely crying rn because he sent me the sweetest message right at midnight for him (we live in diff time zones) because it’s our one year anniversary tomorrow and WHEN I TELL YOU THAT I LOVE THIS MAN

the extent to which I feel the intense need to spend the rest of my life with him is fucking insane. There are teardrops dropping onto my phone as we speak because I am rereading his messages over and over. How does one accomplish being as ethereal as he is?. I’m baffled by his unrealness as if he has descended from some higher plane of existence. And this beautiful creature lays such compliments upon ME, a mere mortal in his presence. I’m so average compared to him that it would be adequate to say one’s mind is blown to see us standing next to each other. I want to kiss him all over his lovely face and hear him talk all day

he claims he’s unattractive and not good with words or feelings but I get whiplash every time I look at even a photo of him or hear his voice through a recording because his mere aura throws my mind into a whole seperate space of pure euphoria - such majestic beauty has never ventured into my life as fucking casually as this

TELL ME WHAT I DID TO RECIEVE SUCH FAVOR FROM GOD THAT I WOULD BE BESTOWED UPON WITH THIS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL THING. WHAT IN THE SHIT

I don’t think he knows how much I appreciate and love him and I don’t think he ever will because there aren’t enough words in every language in the world to capture and put down the feelings I experience at the mere nanosecond of a thought of him.

he deserves the world and I will do my utmost and use my whole fucking soul to either give it to him or burn it to the fucking ground for him

I swear my whole heart, soul and being to you, Tonio, forever and always.

I am forever grateful that you would even think to grace me with your time, energy and presence, I am the luckiest boy in the world. And yet I will become luckier when I am able to hold you and kiss you and put the prettiest ring on your finger because it’s the BARE MINIMUM of what you deserve.

I love you so much. Happy anniversary, lovie.

@toniothegammafish <333