(tiniest Little Mouse Voice You Could Ever Imagine) We're Gonna Take A Step Back Ok. 1! 2! 3! Back Up...!

btw i figured it all out and life is about laughing with your friends & listening to your fave songs. you’re welcome

mental disorders are just names which group together observed experiences as made visible by psychiatric institutions and i wish this was more widely understood theyre not like some ontological attribute in your brain

my side blog that i use more often: @paranoidtranssexual

i'm just thinking abt how many providers i've had who heard my story abt psychiatric abuse + immediately individualized it. "oh, you're so smart + kind+ obviously sane! you didn't deserve that! i can't believe they gave you that diagnosis when you're obviously not like that! they shouldn't have treated u like that when all you did was xyz! they shouldn't have assumed you were crazy like that!"

there is always a third person haunting this interaction- the patient who does deserve that, who is "actually" that evilscary diagnosis, who did Have To be treated like that. if i want to soak up the affirmations of these providers, i must be careful to never become this third person. i must affirm myself by setting myself apart from her- i did not deserve to be treated like that because i am not like that.

i reject this. not only was i like that, she + everyone else like that deserve everything i deserve. they are my siblings + my friends + my lovers. i do not need to cut them out of me to believe i deserved better. i refuse to comfort myself through the lens of someone else's dehumanization. the tragedy is not that psychiatric violence was applied to someone who not insane enough to warrant it. the tragedy is the violence.

Me in every situation ever:

"boy lesbians" you should kill yourself I think

Some resources for you:

Stone Butch Blues PDF

InQueery: The REAL Meaning of the Word "Butch"

Gender Outlaw: On Men, Women, and The Rest Of Us pdf

The Lesbian Community and FTM Transsexuals: Détente in the Butch/FTM Borderlands (2007)

Boydyke Meaning 1

Boydyke Meaning 2 (Lesboy)

Boydyke Use 3

“I Know What Butch Is” from Butch is a Noun

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*touching his extremely defined six pack* who did this to you.....

respectability politics DO NOT WORK on a large scale. if every single transexual were to be gender conforming, straight, quiet, never ask for more than the bare minimum, conservatives, maybe they wouldnt hate us. but. if transexuals don’t have the right to be nonconforming and weird then we aren’t free, we’re suffocating ourselves in the name of protection.

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Doofenshmirtz is one of us