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ANYWAY THIS IS @amorvincitomnia-14 BUT MY OLD ACCOUNT GOT DELETED OR SOMETHING IDRK WHY IT HAPPENED anyway this is my new account and I missed you 😭😭😭

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this is important

are there any fics where Casey and April start dating and Raph and Donnie are sad about it?? if not I gotta write it

I FINISHED WOOHOO

Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types Summary:

Raph and his brothers are fighting some Foot Soldiers, something they had all done about 1000 times. But this time is different.

Raph has been having anxiety for a while now, and he finds it is coming to head during this battle. It doesn't help when he accidentally kills one of the Foot. It is the first time he, or any of his brothers have killed anyone before, and he doesn't know how to handle it.

(Read notes if you are here from my It works)

Shut up he's so cuteeee

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WHERE ARE THE 2012 TMNT FANS AT?!?? WHERE ARE THEY?!?? WHERE'D Y'ALL GO😭

What's everyone's least favorite tmnt episode? I'll go first. Mine is a foot too big.

Oh you know I'm gonna put my own Raph-centric fic recs

Blood Red - @veritas-dolos ~ Raph is thrown into an all-white room and left there. He's there too long. ~ This is probably my favorite fic ever. it actually made me cry and I've read it about 100 times.

Three Turtles Left - @veritas-dolos ~ Splinter died on the roof of the Wolf Hotel, and the Shredder was killed in the trash compactor by Casey Jones. Consumed by grief, Leo commits suicide. This is the aftermath, and Raph, Donnie, and Mikey are the three turtles left. ~ This fic also made me sobbbb. Its honestly so well written and so good.

Happy For You - veritas_dolos ~ Raph goes to Leo with some big news, but has a hard time believing Leo's reaction. ~ A really good hurt/comfort fic where Raph comes out to Leo.

The Road To Hell Is Paved With Good Intentions - veritas_dolos ~ He just wished his family would accept it and not shame him. He didn’t want to be turned away just because he had scars. They all had scars, but most of theirs were different from his. Or, Raph tells his family about his past self harm. Their reactions vary. ~ This is soooo good. I've read it a billion times.

When You Have Anger Issues - dudehowshouldiknow ~ Raph doesn't understand why they don't care. ~ This was one of the first tmnt fics I ever read. It really started my spiral into the tmnt fic obsession. It's less then 2000 words, so Its good for a quick read!

Raph and Stimming - burnt_milque_and_toast ~ It was no secret that Raphael was a very expressive turtle. He had a lot of emotion and energy to bottle up in such a small frame. Usually, though, it was much easier if he just… didn’t. ~ I really really liked this fic a whole lot. I read it in school, and I didn't stop thinking about it for the rest of the day. It's still lightly angsty, but more of a light read than the rest of the fics on here so far.

Under The Skin - Red Dragon (Red_Dragonn) ~ Bugs are bad enough when they're not trying to lay their eggs in your fucking flesh. Raphael has a run-in with a very nasty mutant. ~ I actually heard about this one here on tumblr, so I know It's been talked about on here before. But I can't recomend it enough. It's so good.

Traum - Empress_of_Weebs ~ After Raph gets into contact with an unknown gas, he becomes high. While in this state, he says some funny things to Leo. But he can't possibly mean them. Can he? ~ This is one of the only comfort fics I really really enjoy. It just really stuck a chord with me.

Fade Me Away - treluvd (thats me!) ~ After a battle with the Krang, Raph finds himself stuck between a large piece of debris and the wall, unable to free himself or to call for help. His brothers are racing against the clock to find him in time.

Now that he is home, his brothers do everything they can to nurse him back to health. ~ This is my current fic that I'm actually obsessed with right now. I'm about half way through, and I actually can't stop thinking about it. Give it a read pleaseeee.

Raph-Centric Fic Recs Pt. 2

pt. 1 is here please feel free to reblog this with your own recs. :)

2003:

Anger (and What Lies Beneath It) by GreenGoddessSmoothie. raph needs some help, and donnie is there to give it. such a good brains and brawn fic.

April and Cub by Flynne. april being a good big sister. short and sweet!

Bite Down on This by RealityBreakGirl. raph takes a hard hit. really good whump!

Cold Weather, Cracked Hands by RealLifeorFantasy_97. april helps raph out with his dry skin. super cute and really funny.

Frost by redstringraven. what raph thinks about while leo is recovering from the shredder.

The Frog Pond by frogs_in3_hills. raph being a knitter. sooo cute.

Tooth And Nail by roktavor. raph goes too far during a patrol, and there's a lot of guilt and grief that comes with it. y'all, this fic is AMAZING.

2012:

blurry remembrance by 14Muffinz. raph, post-brain worm. you guys know i can never get enough of brain worm fics lol.

dislocation sensation by tacit_semantics. mikey's hurt. raph copes. one of the funniest fics i've ever read.

eye for an eye (series) by whatno. raph tries to hide his pain, and it doesn't go well.

last hurrah by ninjnerd_Anaklusmos. raph doesn't know quite what he's feeling. leo helps.

One More Second by itz_me_E. raph's going to change the past, no matter what it takes. this fic is SO SO amazing i seriously can't get enough.

turning over stone by angelmichelangelo. mikey and raph talk about anger. such great sunset duo feels!

ROTTMNT:

Arms Strong Enough to Lift (Heart Soft Enough to Hold) by ASamwich. raph takes care of his family, and then his family takes care of him.

better luck next time by Somethin_Strange. heed the tags and grab some tissues. this destroyed me.

doubt comes in (and kills the lights) by paperxcrowns. the brothers are trapped, and it's up to raph to figure things out. super good and brownie points for having a hadestown title lol.

Everything I Don't Want to Be by goldenspecter. raph meets his future self and doesn't like him—at all. y'all this fic has such AMAZING characterization and really really does raph justice. it's incredible.

haunted by things i can't remember by starlight_artemis. raph still thinks about the krang. this packs a heartbreaking punch in very few words!

May we be reunited by spiromachia. raph dies first in the apocalypse. he'll wait for his brothers as long as it takes. the emotions this made me feel... AGH.

obedience by splinnters. raph's not doing okay after the krang. amazing angst!

Raphael somehow thinks being killed in a no-longer-existing future is a shameful failure that must be absolved (series) by 7thSpaceCadet. the title says it all, and BOY does it hurt.

if you've got any recs to share, please reblog this and add them!

Update on Fade Me Away! 

Chapter 2 is here! Please leave commentssss <3

Oh, you know I will be joining this 💯💯

HEY! ARE YOU A RAPH FAN?

ok! now that i've got your attention, THIS FRIDAY is the start of the march for raph event that @/yellowhollyhock and @/therebelinred have put together.

HERE IS THE PROMPT LIST!

you should totally participate if you can! it'll be awesome to spread some love for our favorite red boy :)

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Hiiii!!!! I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT DAY AND I THINK YOU ARE SUPER DUPER AWESOME!!!!!! 💞

HIII I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT DAY! YOU ARE SUPER AWESOME!!

Here's the answers your emojis! (thank you sm for asking!)

❤️ (What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?) - this one is realllllly hard for me! I really like this piece from You Idiot Kid- "Raph barely cried, and he never sobbed, but, god was he close now. “Leo! Please just tell me you won’t tell him! He- He’d hate me! I don’t want him to know! Please. Promise me Leo. Please. For me.”" But I also love this from Leaving Old Memories (MAJOR SPOILERS) - "He had pressed the cannon button. He had Shredder's head in the cannon. He knew it would jam and kill not only The Shredder, but himself, too. He wasn’t afraid. His brothers were safe. He wasn’t afraid, he really wasn’t, but there was a squeezing in his chest. Even in his last moments, all he could think about were his brothers. But they were safe. He had made sure of that. He closed his eyes. I’m sorry I couldn’t keep our promise, Leo." both of these break my heart oml.

🎁 (Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?) - I'm so glad you asked this becuase I actually have two wip's that I'm really happy about right now. One of them is an angtsy Racey fic, and the other is a pretty wholesome comfortish fic. Heres one of first paragraphs from my Racey fic - "The amount of times he looked through he and Casey’s text messages in the last 24 hours was alarming. The amount of times he had looked through their pictures together was even more so. He knew he was being dramatic, he could still be friends with Casey, he knew that, but he still felt like he had lost one of the most important people in his life. He knew Casey didn’t like him like he did, but still, the confirmation hurt." And heres a piece from my more fluffy one from Donnies perspective - "Depending on how severe the nightmare was, he sometimes would make a nest of blankets on the ground next to Raph’s bed. Though he didn’t like to admit it, he found it really comforting to sleep in Raph’s room, away from all his beeping and buzzing machines that he lived with. Eventually, he would come to Raph’s bedroom not only when he had nightmares, but also when he was frustrated with whatever he was working on late into the night. He found it helpful to rant for a short time, then curl up and sleep in the soft warm light coming from Raph’s night light."

💕(What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?) - Probably Fade Me Away! I like, can't stop thinking about it. Not that anyone reading this is probably interested, but my favorite of my It fics is probably Seeing You Makes it Better. I just think theres something so romantic about it that I haven't been able to bring into my TMNT fics at all.

🦈(Which character is the toughest to write?) - Definitly Mikey 100%. Don't get me wrong, I love him so much, but I just feel like it's really hard for me to relate to him. He really reminds me of my little sister, though, so I just try to think of her when I write him!

🚦(What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?) - My favorite to read and write are defenitly really sad angst fics, but with hopeful endings. Especially in my It days, I would often have the last sentences be that way. Examples, "Even if things weren’t exactly okay right now, Bill was certain they would be, as long as he had Stan on his side." Or, "Bill felt the weight of the night lift off his chest. He was safe with Stan, and he always would be. Stan was enough of a home Bill would ever need." I like the fic to really hurt, but I don't like to leave people walking away feeling compleatly unhappy lol.

💡(How many WIPs do you currently have?) - 6! 4 TMNT ones and 2 It ones, but the It ones are realistically pretty abandoned.

🎯 (Do you have a writing milestone you’re working towards?) - Not really! Though I'm almost at 50,000 words on ao3, so that'll be fun to hit!

🎨(If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?) Omg anything really. Thats like a dream of mine. I guess if I had to choose, Raph with his mechanical arm from Fade Me Away would be really awesome!