Tremorhound - I'm Just A Shadow, Cursed To Wander.

what sucks about being fat and having the inevitable internalized fatphobia is that you end up feeling guilt from both sides at once. You're having a real dysphoric day and you start to feel bad about your weight and the moment you do the guilt hits, 'cause you know you "shouldn't" feel bad about it, and it becomes this really frustrating cycle of being mad at yourself for being fat and mad at yourself for being upset about being fat and it just sucks.

i just. the spice that makes drag so transgressive and femboys so sexual and calling your favorite fictional man "babygirl" fun is transmisogyny.

crossing the line from "male" to "female" is the ultimate gendered taboo in our society, you know it, i know it, we're all acting on it. but when trabs women say "hey we're actually living that transgression and it makes us, specifically, vulnerable" the fun music stops and everyone pretends they dont know what shes talking about.

you stand here enjoying and celebrating and profiting from the aesthetics of transfeminity, all while ignoring the societal hierarchies that make it so enticing. all while rejecting the people most harmed by that stigma.

if you ever wonder why trans women dont like drag or are so mean to femboys or whatever just sit on this and maybe have the barest minimum amount of self reflection.

THIS TOWN IS FULL OF MONSTERS. HOW CAN YOU SIT THERE AND EAT PIZZA

“reasons to not kiss him: 1. you weren’t raised to love tender. 2. when he’s around all you do is tremble. when he’s around you want to get on your knees. look how much power he has over you. it’s dangerous. 3. he’s too good at forgiving and you’re too good at violence. 4. you know what they say about monsters. you know what happens to the boys who love them. are you going to do that to him? 5. your hands don’t know how to be gentle. think about the last beautiful thing that shattered in your palms. the fresh rosebuds crumbling between your fingers like a bruise. you wolf-boy, you war machine. you wouldn’t know how to hold something magic and not destroy it. 6. if you hurt him it might kill you 7. if you hurt him you might kill yourself. 8. you are very bad at rehabilitation. this is one addiction you’d fail to give up. he’s going to ruin you for all other kisses and all other boys and you’ll spend the rest of your life trying to forget his name. 9. you still aren’t sure he isn’t a dream. 10. if you kiss him, you might wake up. reasons to kiss him: 1. because he’s beautiful. 2. because he asked. 3. because he preceded please with, i’m not afraid of you.”

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yes & no // Natalie Wee

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"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

even if 'dude' were gender neutral why do you insist on using gender neutral language specifically for trans women? hm? hm?????

保護猫たんぽぽと虹の橋の柴犬アンちゃん on X: “もこもこー https://t.co/ydz50uMshR” / X

For me this isn't even about empathy or sympathy (though there's value in those as well), it is just straight-up a human rights thing. Once you have decided that there is *any* category of human that can be treated as less-than-human you've said that humanity is conditional, and so are the rights that come with it. You've already lost, you've granted the fascists their point because *you agree with them* that some people don't deserve to be treated like humans.