wear your favourite outfit with your tallest shoes. order that ridiculous drink and ask the server to add espresso. run that extra mile and see the river. make your favourite breakfast and add more flavour. clean your room with ghibli music in the background. do your homework with your feet on your desk. live life to its fullest extent, but don't push off your responsibilities. find your balance. dont settle for mediocre. take care.
I'm not crying you are đĽş
actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.
You have an eating disorder but it doesnât look like you do.
this!!!
I have a boyfriend since a month now and I slept over at his place from Friday to Sunday and my parents were super mad because we only talked about staying from Friday to Saturday and I betrayed my family and chose his family instead. They also said that I have to move out, they will sell the house and go to Italy (that part was definitely exaggerated) but I don't think they were lying when they said I have to move out til Friday. Like bro. I am not able to move out like from what money lmao. I am so scared they will throw me out. They threatened to do that before and now they added that they threw out my stepbrother (he is 30 now) a few years ago I can't remember how old he was then. I just want to spend time with my bf because he makes me feel like there's nothing wrong. When I'm with him I don't have to think about how bad I want to d word and how shitty everything is and how shitty I feel all the time. When I'm with him everything bad is just gone. We don't know each other for that long so I'm not sure if it is because I'm not too comfortable with showing my emotions but I legit cried in front of him because of a movie (more than once actually) and I didn't feel bad for crying in front of him.
I can hear my parents talk in the living room and I am getting so nervous because I just assume that every time I hear them speak they are talking about me. I don't want to be home but I don't want to be anywhere else but my room. Why does everything always have to be so complicated
i think my body is too stupid to lose weight
someone else's thinsp ideal changes from day to day? some days I wanna be boney and some days I'm okay with wanting to be skinny fat
it doesn't make any sense yet here I am
you donât need to be skinny to be beautiful!
now, me on the other hand
âI hope that one day someone will make flowers grow in even the saddest parts of you.â
â vacants
I don't feel like I'm made for life. I am constantly stressed and anxious because of â¨đľđ˛đŻđŽâ¨ especially when it comes to applying for shit like wtf I don't have any special qualities at all. why you should hire me instead of others? bro idk. I'm bad at everything I don't know anything alright lmao. I just wish I could end myself