What’s Your Mood On A Scale Of Neil “i’m Fine” Josten To Neil “you Know, I Get It” Josten

lots of fanfic makes nicky out to be completely clueless and hyper but in the books, neil says he thinks that nicky has to act more outgoing to make up for the twinyards antisocial tendencies, and he’s actually pretty perceptive - normally realizes as soon as he makes someone uncomfortable, could tell when neil was anxious near the end of the kings men leading up to raven game, just genuinely tries to help others and be a good person but he has to put up an act all the time

hc that andrew’s wardrobe is entirely black... except for his socks, which are super colourful with ridiculous patterns

okay uhhhh describe what neil looks like in your head (hair, if he has freckles, is he pale? etc.)

omg thank you for reading my tags and sending this ask hahah ily anon <3 okay so for me, neil has like wavy wiry hair and it’s a dark red/auburn, he has faint freckles but he wears hoods and so many layers that he doesn’t have a ton bc he’s protected from the sun, his eyes are just slightly too calculating and make him v intimidating (esp without the contacts), and he’s definitely pale - i get people wanting him to be tan but like,, have you ever seen a redhead tan?? nope! me neither! bc they burn and/or freckle (so i guess i picture him w extra freckles in the summer then too)

Marissa: hey neil, what's your number?

Neil, visibly texting: i don't have a phone.

i have not sent an ask in SO LONG (sorry btw) but hi hello i can’t get medicated andrew out of my head and i need to know your thoughts on how sober andrew views/reconciles with the time he spent medicated

oh my gosh hello again!! i always love your asks <33

medicated andrew makes my heart ache. i think that andrew probably tries not to look back on that time - he can’t do anything to change the past, and i wouldn’t say that he’s made peace with it but he kind of,, accepts it? is resigned to it?

when he was on his meds, andrew couldn’t truly control what he was doing, and dwelling on that loss of control would do more harm than good. his choices and free will were stripped away, and he became a prisoner in his own mind. he might look back on that time with flashes of rage, but he’s pretty good at smothering his emotions, and i’d imagine he’d repress most memories associated with that time, because looking back would be unproductive and pointless

in the future, i could see him looking back on those years with some bitterness maybe, but i don’t think he’d really see the point. the past is the past for him, and he made no promises of revenge for the torture his meds put him through, so i’d imagine that he would generally just opt to completely ignore it. the only exception i could see to that would be in therapy sessions with bee when he was first taken off his meds to see how he was adjusting

i love when people say that andrew gets good grades because of his eidetic memory because it insinuates be a) goes to class, b) actually listens instead of sleeping, and c) doesn’t purposely answer questions wrong so that he gets exactly a passing grade

“My Things”, Part 2 of this project complete! If the last one was an action heavy climax from Neil’s perspective, this is the cool down from Riko’s perspective. And what could cool down something better than Andrew and Neil’s icy stare?

My gosh, trying to capture Andrew’s ‘bored’ stare-down is like capturing lightning in a bottle. Neil’s shit eating grin, I can’t decide, is either trailing from his baiting Riko, or his exhilaration at Andrew’s definitive intervention. (probably both)

This was such a fun project - and a great exercise in anatomy and lighting. By popular request, this pair of artworks is available in my print shop that will perpetually donation portions of proceeds to The Trevor Project! (link posted in bio ❤️ )

ok you know how neil counts to ten to calm down? has that worked a single time in this series?? i stg he always gets to like 6 and then just fucking SNAPS

i relate to seth gordon because i, too, laugh at the most inappropriate times

andrew definitely sets alarms for like 6:13 and 8:19 and it makes kevin So Mad