I Really Wanna Have Abs

HOW DO I GO THROUGH WITH IT HOW DO I NOT BINGE HOW DO I NOT LOSE MOTIVATION IM SO SICK OF THIS CYCLE

100 days til new years :)

100 days of no binging.

100 days to get to ur ugw (or pretty close).

100 days to finally do it.

feel free to use this if you’d like :)

*dont forget, stay safe! eat if you need to! don’t push ur self so hard ily <33

Eating disorder movies and shows

To the bone

Sharing the secret

Perfect body (about gymnastic too)

Hunger point

Dying to dance

Starving in suburbia

My friend Ana

A secret between friends

Little girls in pretty boxes

Feed

The Love of Nancy

Girl Interrupted

May I be at peace

(Crossed out = what I have seen, planning to go through the list.)

You’re welcome to add more suggestions in the notes.

cr: annaolympiaa

How to keep going when you've lost motivation:

Remember why you started.

Think about how far you've come. It would be a waste to just give up now.

You do this because you can't stand the way you feel right now. Change for the better.

Every single decision you make will lead to a result. It could be a good one or a bad one. It's your choice.

It's gonna be hard for the first couple days, but your body gets used to it. It gets easier.

You'd feel like a failure if you just gave up and ended up back where you started.

You never feel good after binging.

You are strong af! You can do anything if you just try hard enough!

You deserve to love yourself.

You deserve to be happy.

When all this is over you'll feel proud of yourself and there is nothing better than that.

🌸 stay safe 🌸

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

why am I doing this?? 65 reasons (so far)

because I literally can’t fit into 90% of my clothes

because I hate that I gained weight in quarantine instead of glowing up

because I feel too ugly for pictures

because I feel too ugly to go swimming

because I’m past the point of thicc, I’m just fat

because I want to start my new job and have people think I’m fit and smart and beautiful, instead of another lazy and fat girl

because I’m tired of being asked if I’m pregnant

because I want to buy clothes with a single digit size

because I hate the way everything jiggles in the mirrors at the gym

because I would love to be taken seriously by my doctor, instead of being told I should just lose weight

because I want people to smile when they see me eat, not stare

because I want to look younger than I am, not older

because I miss how big my eyes looked when I was skinnier

because I want my family to gasp when I go visit them in the fall

because people hate fat people

because people are disgusted by fat people

because my roommate’s girlfriend said “fat people don’t deserve love” and I couldn’t help but blush

because all my roommates noticed me blushing

because my boyfriend’s brother asked how we cuddle comfortably, because how could I not crush him

because I’m tired of seeing my friends lose weight and glow up

because I wish I could wear designer clothes

because I want to share clothes with my friends

because I’m going to a black tie wedding next year and I want to make heads turn

because when I told my dad I was going to the gym again his first comment was “good, you need to lose weight”

because the thing that makes my mom smile the most is when I tell her how many pounds I’ve lost

because if I could quit smoking, I can quit food

because I’m tired of failing

because I don’t want to have to hide my body during sex

because when my boyfriend told his friends I was out of his league, they replied “more like out of your weight class”

because I want to have a jawline sharp enough to kill

because I wish I knew what it was like to have a medium or large be baggy

because I want to be able to wear highwaisted jeans with a shirt tucked in

because everything looks better on skinny people

because even my necklace has gotten too tight

because I want to be able to wear flared pants

because I hate the cellulite on my legs

because I’m tired of how exhausted I get on easy hikes

because I want to be comfortable flying

because I don’t want people to glare at me when I sit next to them on a plane

because I want to be a lightweight when I drink

because I hate having a double chin

because I can’t even wrap my hands around my neck with my fingers touching

because I wish I could do tiktok dances without jiggling

because I’m tired of people saying that I dress well for my size

because I’m tired of people saying that I’m pretty for my size

because I want to be able to post bodychecks

because I want to look like I’m not faking an eating disorder

because I’ll probably be engaged by the end of the year, and I don’t want to have sausage fingers for the photo

because I want to look beautiful on my wedding day

because I want to pick any dress instead of just the one that fits

because I wish I could post aesthetic pictures with me in them

because I wish people would ask me to be in their photoshoots

because I’m tired of being plus size

because I’m embarrassed to shop at torrid

because I hate the stretchmarks on my stomach

because I haven’t been under 200 pounds since I was 14

because I want my boyfriend to be able to pick me up

because I want to be elegant

because I’m tired of only getting fatter and fatter

because I hate the way I look

because I hate feeling helpless about the way I look

because I hate the way I feel

because I want to be beautiful

because I want to be envied

because I want to be wanted.

am I the only one that has those times where you literally have no motivation to go on. Everything is a burden and you feel heavy and loopy and you want to sleep your life away. The things you loved to once do become chores and the sunny days you used to adore now seem dull and your favourite food tastes like cardboard and your favourite song doesn’t make you sing along. It’s just scary but hey the show must go on...

cravings masterpost

over the years, i have been taught what certain cravings mean and how i can replace them in a healthy way. so i figured, why not share it with you guys? 

if you crave chocolate…

your body needs magnesium. a quick fix for this is raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave sweets…

your body might need some of the following: 

-chromium - have some broccoli, grapes, cheese, or chicken. 

-carbon - chow down on some fresh fruit. 

-phosphorus - chicken, eggs, legumes, or grains can help. 

-tryptophan - similar to magnesium, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave bread or toast… 

your body needs nitrogen. have some high protein foods such as fish, meat, nuts, or beans. 

if you crave fatty foods… 

your body needs calcium. broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help. 

if you crave alcohol… 

your body might need some of the following:

-protein - think seafood, dairy, or nuts. 

-avenin - chow down on some granola or oatmeal. 

-calcium - broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.  

-potassium - bitter greens or seaweed usually do the trick. 

if you crave ice cream/shaved ice… 

your body needs iron. some suggestions are fish, greens, seaweed, or black cherries. 

if you crave burned or grilled food… 

your body needs carbon. chow down on some fresh fruits. 

if you crave soda and carbonated drinks… 

your body needs calcium.  broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.

if you crave salty foods…

your body needs chloride. goat milk (yes i know that’s a little odd) and fish help. 

if you crave acid foods (burgers)… 

your body needs magnesium. just like chocolate, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits. 

if you crave cool drinks (milkshakes or malts)… 

your body needs manganese. some suggestions are walnuts, pecans, almonds, pineapple, or blueberries. 

if you’re PMS-ing… 

your body needs zinc. red meat, seafood, leafy greens, and root vegetables are helpful. 

if you’re overeating… 

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds are a quick fix. 

-tryptophan - eat some cheese, raisins, sweet potatoes, or spinach.

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements should do the trick. 

if you crave tobacco…

your body might need some of the following: 

-silicon - nuts and seeds help, but stay away from refined starches. 

-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements or red, orange, or green fruits and veggies can help. 

disclaimer: i am not a health professional in any way, this is just advice i have been given over the years. 

EATING DISORDER BOOKS MASTERLIST

A Dance of Sisters, by Tracey Porter

A Stranger in the Family

A Trick of the Light, by Lois Metzger

After the Strawberry, by Kathryn Pope

Almost Anorexic, by Jennifer J. Thomas

Anorexic Annie, by Sarah Burleton

Beautiful Me, by Natasha Jennings

Being Ana, by Shani Raviv

Between, Jessica Warman

Confessions of a Failed Anorexic

Confessions of a Teenage Ballerina

Diary of An Anorexic Girl, by Morgan Menzie

Diving in Deep, by Nora Ballew

Dying For the Part: A Novel, by Jessica Ehredt

Dying to be Perfect, by Susan Barry

Elena Vanishing, by Elena Dunkle

Eli’s Wings, by Elizabeth Best

Eve’s Apple: A Novel, by Jonathan Rosen

Fasting Girls, by Joan Brumberg

Fat Chance, by Leslea Newman

Feeling for Bones, by Bethany Pierce

Flowers in Bone Cages, by Sophie Glynn

Frio, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Girl in the Mirror (Carrie Years), by Janet Fiorentino

Girl Interrupted, by Susanna Kayson

Girl Over the Edge, by Amy Z Kinzler

Girls Under Pressure, by Jacqueline Wilson

Going Hungry, by 19 various authors giving accounts of their ED

Hollow: An Unpolished Tale, by Jenna Morrow

How To Disappear Completely, by Kelsey Ozgood

Hunger Point, by Jillian Medoff

Hunger, by Jackie Morse Kessler

Hungry for Change, by Amy Lewis

In Her Shadow, by August Mclaughlin

Insatiable: The Compelling Story of Four Teens, Food and Its Power, by Eve Eliot

Kessa, by Steven Levenkron

Kim: Empy Inside, by Beatrice Sparks

Letting Ana Go, by Anonymous

Life-Size, by Jenefer Shute

Losing It, by Jasmin Dalton

Loud in the House of Myself

Massive, by Julia Bell

My Perfect Little Secret, by Rebecca Coppage

My Sister’s Bones, by Cathi Hanauer

Never Enough, by Denise Jaden

One Wish, by Leigh Brescia

Paint Me Beautiful: a Tale of Anorexia, a Love Story, and the Rebirth of Claire Simone (A Duet), by C.M. Stunich

Paperweight, by Meg Haston

Perfect, Ellen Hopkins (one of four main characters is anorexic, but its revolving perspective so ¾ of the book isn’t, just a heads up)

Pretty Bones, by Aya Tsintziras

Purge, by Sarah Darer

Running Lean, by Diana Sharples

Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder that Fed it, by Rachael Rose Steil

Second Start to the Right, by Deborah Hautzig

Size Zero, by Victoire Dauxerre

Skin and Bones, by Sherry Shahan

Skin, by Adrienne Maria Vrettos

Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik

Skinny: A Novel, by Laura Smith

Slim to None, by Jennifer Hendricks

Spoon Fed - A year in the life of a teenage anorexic as seen through her eyes!, by Jake Jacobs

The Best Little Girle in the World, by Steven Levenkron

The Disappearing Girl, by Heather Topham Wood

The Hanged Man, by Francesca Lia Block

The Hunger Scream, by Ivy Ruckman

The Passion of Alice, by Stephanie Grant

The Secret Life of an Anorexic, by Kristen Noel

The Stone Girl, by Alyssa Sheinmel

The Year We Seized The Day, by Elizabeth Best and Colin Falconer

Thin, by Grace Bowmen

Thin, by Laura Greenfield

Thinspo, by Amy Ellis

Unbearable Lightness, by Portia de Rossi

Wasted, by Marya Hornbacher

Wintergirls, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Zoe Letting Go, by Nora Price

Feel free to add more~ ❤️❤️