Workouts You Can Do In Bed

this is why i’m on right now :/

Ok so...

Guys I can't be alone in this,

Did y'all ever just try to recover for like a few months and then relapsed but your ed is different?

Like before the recovery attempt you could go weeks without binges and exercise everyday no question

And know that you've relapsed you want your ed to be at its "worst" again but now if u make it past 3 days it's a miracle?? 🤔

I can't be the only one who feels extremely nostalgic for the worst time if their life?

I’m starting this 10 week challenge. Whose with me?

I’m starting this and going to try my hardest to continue this for the next 10 weeks. I’m starting today (August 18, 2019) and will do this workout everyday after school. I will eat only dinner (and maybe a small lowkey snack if I feel faint). I will check in every Sunday and update you on my consistency, weight, mesurements (when I get a measuring ribbon) and anything else that Id like to. Stay safe, love you :)

August 18 - Weight: 119.4

me: gets slightly angery because of someone

my mind: well guess what?? i’m gonna starve myself now and it’s ur fault >:)

Eating disorder movies and shows

To the bone

Sharing the secret

Perfect body (about gymnastic too)

Hunger point

Dying to dance

Starving in suburbia

My friend Ana

A secret between friends

Little girls in pretty boxes

Feed

The Love of Nancy

Girl Interrupted

May I be at peace

(Crossed out = what I have seen, planning to go through the list.)

You’re welcome to add more suggestions in the notes.

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

i wanna just starve myself to death but i’m not skinny enough to die yet.

I don't think many people get it, but

if you join the "ana community" you are already in. Yes, the goal is to lose weight, but there is actually a reason you do this the unhealthy way. Ever thought that if you ate healthily instead of starving or binging or purging you would be thinner by now? Yea. Can't give it up now can you? Cause there is a problem within you that you probably aren't ready to face or are tired of facing. Either way you don't know how to cope anymore so you focus on food. That one constant that is always there when shit goes downhill. Can't get out because you are way too deep in.

having anorexia has caused me to develop some sort of binge eating disorder too bcuz of food deprivation. now i’m gaining instead of losing. wtf ana this isn’t what i signed up for

ed shows/movies you recommend?? i’ve seen supersize vs super skinny and to the bone :)