experiencing a sorrow that is so personal is incredibly ugly. pain felt selfless is kind of poetic in a way but when you take it deep- when it becomes too personal, too painful only on your own behalf it becomes so ugly that it erases everything. you turn into an old pile of grief. they way you look- the thoughts. they will flood your brain and you'll scrunch your face in disgust, now you became entirely what you have been feeling. that is who you are right now; broken glass shards shoved under your bed, a sink full of dishes with flies flying on it, the never happening possibility of becoming someone- something. all the figs on that tree is rotten. this is incredibly ugly.
when i was a kid i always fantasized about grabbing romeo on the shoulders and asking him do you mean it? do you really feel it? is it sincere? is it? are you an act? are you feeling?
if im not great then what am i
EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP BLOODY BARRY ALERT
And at last, the Archivist looks up.
i think bill's human form would be really uncanny. he can copy a human really really well but it's obvious that he isn't one- it's just a replica. almost like those uncanny valley people or incredibly realistic wax figures. there'll be always something off with his expressions and the way he acts. too human-like to a point where it looks inhuman.
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shoutout to taigen for being the most expressive character in the entire show.
you will never not know whatever the hell he is feeling or thinking at the moment because he will literally tell you (either very earnestly like when he traumadumps to mizu or very sarcastically which is the other 99% of the time he talks to mizu) or you will see it plain as day on his face.
this is the textbook definition of a man wearing his heart on his sleeve. look in the dictionary for what a "simple man" means and you will find taigen's face there.
like once you cut through the massive ego and pompousness he uses to mask his own insecurities and traumas, he is literally just some guy. he's not evil or stupid. not super kind or super smart either. an asshole but not the worst there is. he's incredibly skilled but he's not the strongest ever or even the most skilled. he is literally! just a guy!
y'all can hate him all you want but let's be real, taigen is actually the most relatable character out of everyone. like this man is POOR, he is PATHETIC, he is COMPLAINING ALL THE TIME, and most of all he is OBSESSED WITH MIZU. if that shit ain't relatable idk what is.