Depressed Again

Soooo yep. Here I am again.

Okay, I ship Phan, but this isn't about romance and crap. I re-watched some Dan and Phil videos and the way Dan looks at Phil got me.

Not because I was like:

"Omfg they are amazing together you can see him stare with love fkwvlsvslabsksv d's kqkabd"

I do, do that, but this was different. You can literally see the 'care' in his eyes for Phil, even if they're joking around. You can take it in a romance or friendship way.

I just broke.

I started to cry at fucking 4:17 am with no sleep, because I feel like no one will look at me that way. I'm not talking about how your family cares for you, or how your best friend loves you (in a platonic way), but with 'care.'

I feel alone in my head. Like "Freeze your Brain" from Heathers.

"Shatter your skull fight pain with more pain. Forget who you are, unburden your load. Forget in six weeks you'll be back on the road. When the voice in your head says 'you're better off dead,' don't open a vein."

I don't know, I'm not good with emotions. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I bottle my emotions up and help other people to avoid my internal war/battle.

So, if you ever, and I mean EVER, find someone who looks at you with care and understanding, even if it's in a friendship or romantic way, don't lose that. If you lose it, you may never see it again.

All my love goes out to the people who read this, and to @danielhowell and @amazingphil for making my world a happier brighter place.

💙

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