Hudson When The Studio Was Going To Shit.

I gotta ask, Hudson and Jack are both trapped in the cycle, so has Hudson met searcher Jack? If so, how does he regard him?

He probably has!

He still regards Jack as a father figure, but not a protector.

Hudson still cares about Jack and protects him. He shows Jack that he cares by doing small gestures such as opening the elevator, helps him collect things and keeps Jack's space well-lit.

HOWEVER:

Hudson is still very resentful to Jack and feels like Jack could've saved him from Sammy. He's also like: "I TOLD YOU HE WAS TRYING TO KILL ME". Thinking that Jack could've just listened.

Hudson feels betrayed, but is sympathetic to Jack, understanding where Jack is coming from

He refuses to talk to him though. Only offering his silent help and gestures.

HOLY SHIT-

THIS LOOKS FANTASTIC :O

The angst is crazy man XD

HOW DARE YOU BE SUCH A GOOD ARTIST >:/

LOONIE ANGST HAS A FUCKING CHOKEHOLD ON ME HOW TF DID THIS HAPPEN :|

@unnoticedunawarestillhere and @thelocalmoth THIS IS YOUR FAULT HOW DARE YALL BE SUCH GOOD WRITERS >:( /hj

BRO LOOK AT IT.

FATHER AND SON MOMENT AT IT'S FINEST WHAT-

(Bro ofc you have my freaking consent, you're awesome what-)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

Based off of a roleplay I’m currently doing with @unnoticedunawarestillhere :O

Uhm. This is angsty. So is the roleplay though so yeaahhhh! Hahaha…. Anyways, if this gets enough reception maybe I’ll post like, an edited transcript of it with Untitled’s consent <3

For the mean time, father-son moment.

EDIT: JUST REMEMBERED I REFERENCED A SONG HERE OOPS LMAO

Lyrics are from Race by Alex G

THIS LOOKS SO GOOD!!

Reblogs appreciated!

New PFP yippee!

rip Dracula PFP you will be missed.

I feel like every time I draw a background it looks really ethereal.

I had to do a prompt for my art class. Pick a song and create a response to it (ex: drawing).

Though I'm not that big of a fan of Olivia Rodrigo, I do like her song "Jealousy Jealousy".

I think it's pretty brave of you to vent. I can relate to what you're feeling. I don't know if I can tell you that things will be looking up soon, but I can tell you that I hope it will get better soon and I'm here to support <3. I'm really sorry what's happening and again, I'm here for you. *Hugs* I don't know if this helps, but I feel like this a lot too and I just wanted to say..this vent..makes me feel less alone with my problems. Thank you.

Vent post

Warning for vent, mentions of death/suicide and mentions of running away

Hey guys. Sorry to drop this out of nowhere. I just need to tell someone. To get this off my chest.

I hate where I am right now. I hate school. I hate having people expect something of me. I feel like I’m forgotten. That no one cares. That people just use me or don’t really care about me.

I feel like I’m a ghost in my family. I feel like they’re so busy that they barely care. I sometimes wish I wasn’t born or that I wasn’t here. I know I could never hurt myself though. I wish that I was anywhere but here. Either past of future.

I feel like no one would care if I left. I feel like I what to runaway but I’m not sure if I want to or if I could. Maybe for just a day as then I’d come back home. Still.

I hate myself sometimes too. How lazy I am and how I’m not good. Sometimes I want to rip my heart out so that I would never be hurt again. I feel like I inly hear bad things anymore. No goodness.

I’m so f#cking tired. SO TIRED. I’m tired of all the arguing, the death that’s happening, the being pushed behind and forgotten. I just want to leave. I hate this. All of this. I want to just be free to be myself but I know that I can’t.

I’m in so much pain. I’m trapped and I don’t know what to do. My therapist doesn’t help me but everyone thinks that therapy is “working.” I hate it. So much. Nothing meaningful comes out of it. I’m just tired. I want to be okay for once. But will I ever be?

I hate this. Hate this all. I feel forgotten, pained, and I just… I want to leave it all behind and hardly ever look back. I want to be in the future. I want to be okay.

I swear if one more bad thing happens I might just leave. Run away. I don’t care if people come looking for me. Hey, maybe it’ll make me noticed for once. Haha… ugh. I just want to know I’ll be okay. I want to be okay RIGHT NOW.

Sorry for the vent. But I don’t know why I should be sorry for saying how I feel, due to the fact that everyone’s always telling me to do so. Or whatever. I’ve said what I’ve need to say.

Based off of this:

Shout outs to @thelocalmoth !

Jack and Hudson's bond can never be unbroken, no matter how fucked up it actually is :]

Audio log #?

You wouldn't believe what just came in the mail today!

Oh man, I just bolt out of my apartment and what do I see? A letter! Addressed to me from good ol' Cassidy and her husband.

Have to admit, I'm surprised that they remembered to include me, considering I'm not actually Cassidy's brother.

Of course, I wouldn't dare to say that out loud. I would get smothered in reassurances and hugs and...augh....

This picture is totally going up on my bulletin board! How could it not? It's my niece and nephew! I'm an uncle!

I never thought I would be...

I can't wait for the holidays and winter break! I've already bought Steven a good sketchbook and pens and for Eliza, a pocket knife and a lighter! Plus some little fireworks I found on the market.

'Course, I'm probably going to have to give her her gifts..out of her mother's eyes.

Hey! You're never too young to learn how to use a knife and lighter. As a proud Boy Scout of Ontario, I should know!

. . .

I promise I won't stop loving you two, alright?

Uncle Hudson out!

Ranting

I'm so tired of comparing myself to others. I know it's stupid, but I really can't help it. All day goes like this: I should be tall like that guy. Oh, I should be as positive as that girl, I should be funny like that person.

I've changed a lot about myself and now I'm not sure if the guy I look like, is really me. I wish I could dress the way I want, but the social norms don't seem to let me (not without getting noticed and bullied by it). I want to wear suspenders! Why? I like vintage things! But even though it's freaking Halloween, I still got made fun of because I wore suspenders.

I need to wear my glasses daily. I know that. But do I wear them? No. Because I keep getting made fun of. I'm so sick and tired of all this. I wish it would end, but I know it won't really. I've even changed the way I've talked.

I wish people wouldn't make fun of people for something they can't control. IT'S SO FUCKING STUPID. I can't help it that I'm short! People know that. And yet: I keep getting made fun of, compared to, etc.

"I'm taller than you." They say. Buddy. You think I don't know that? "No offense, but you're really short." Oh no, really? "Yay! I'm taller than you!" I'm glad you feel better while you make me feel like shit. Yay!

I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of the way I look. I'm just really tired. I wish I was tall, but I'm not. I wish I was confident, but I'm not. I wish I was respected, but that's NOT gonna happen anytime soon.

I don't know. I'm just tired. And really frustrated.

Your art style is so pretty btw! :3 Who is your favorite character to draw?

Oh thank you!! ^ ^

Hmm, my favourite character to draw? Hm...that's tricky.

I like drawing Hudson because he's unpredictable. But I do like drawing Susie, Alice and...hm...I'd say Buddy!

Drawing my Sammy..is a pain.