"I Think I Lost My Mind."

"YAyy-*ugly hacking noise*"

"DeNnY's!!...cough..."

fight me. - lots of love the Norman Ask blog

“Norman, you’ve been gone for two months. Why are you coming back with so much anger and hatred towards me? I’m not fightin’ you—I’ll lose.”

“Come back when you’ve simmered down.”

I think it's pretty brave of you to vent. I can relate to what you're feeling. I don't know if I can tell you that things will be looking up soon, but I can tell you that I hope it will get better soon and I'm here to support <3. I'm really sorry what's happening and again, I'm here for you. *Hugs* I don't know if this helps, but I feel like this a lot too and I just wanted to say..this vent..makes me feel less alone with my problems. Thank you.

Vent post

Warning for vent, mentions of death/suicide and mentions of running away

Hey guys. Sorry to drop this out of nowhere. I just need to tell someone. To get this off my chest.

I hate where I am right now. I hate school. I hate having people expect something of me. I feel like I’m forgotten. That no one cares. That people just use me or don’t really care about me.

I feel like I’m a ghost in my family. I feel like they’re so busy that they barely care. I sometimes wish I wasn’t born or that I wasn’t here. I know I could never hurt myself though. I wish that I was anywhere but here. Either past of future.

I feel like no one would care if I left. I feel like I what to runaway but I’m not sure if I want to or if I could. Maybe for just a day as then I’d come back home. Still.

I hate myself sometimes too. How lazy I am and how I’m not good. Sometimes I want to rip my heart out so that I would never be hurt again. I feel like I inly hear bad things anymore. No goodness.

I’m so f#cking tired. SO TIRED. I’m tired of all the arguing, the death that’s happening, the being pushed behind and forgotten. I just want to leave. I hate this. All of this. I want to just be free to be myself but I know that I can’t.

I’m in so much pain. I’m trapped and I don’t know what to do. My therapist doesn’t help me but everyone thinks that therapy is “working.” I hate it. So much. Nothing meaningful comes out of it. I’m just tired. I want to be okay for once. But will I ever be?

I hate this. Hate this all. I feel forgotten, pained, and I just… I want to leave it all behind and hardly ever look back. I want to be in the future. I want to be okay.

I swear if one more bad thing happens I might just leave. Run away. I don’t care if people come looking for me. Hey, maybe it’ll make me noticed for once. Haha… ugh. I just want to know I’ll be okay. I want to be okay RIGHT NOW.

Sorry for the vent. But I don’t know why I should be sorry for saying how I feel, due to the fact that everyone’s always telling me to do so. Or whatever. I’ve said what I’ve need to say.

Hudson’s reaction to Ray wearing eyeshadow? (Or any makeup, really)

Hudson Andrew Hendrick's age scale!

17-18 year old Hudson: his goal was to grow out his cadet haircut (which he was successful at!) and lived by the employee dress code. He also tried smiling with his teeth!

19 year old Hudson: His hair grew slightly darker at the tips and he tried branching out to colours! As well as trying short side burns. Overall, not much. He also gave up smiling with teeth (thought his smile was ugly).

20 year old Hudson: his face is a little longer, his hair got a little more in control. He accidentally consumed ink at this time. This impacted his mind and caused him to be more paranoid and insecure. He no longer wears a vest due to being indecisive or in a rush. He also grew a little.

21 year old Hudson: hair grew darker and dishevelled as well as tie and collar (not caring to button it up all the way). He is way more aggressive which leads to all sorts of scuffles and is way more visibly strained. He doesn't usually have facial hair, but is more careless with his appearance. Shaving not being that much of a pressing issue as it once was.

What hardly changes (some may not show due to no colour)

The scar on his right brow.

His eyes are brown.

Freckles.

Pale ivory coloured skin.

Slim and short build. (He actually has strength in his arms tho!)

Tie, belt, and slightly pointed nose.

Amazing doodle and Hudson looking dead inside is now cannon <3

Ce genuinely just reminded me that I have this by posting art of Hudson, omg I’ve been gatekeeping it, I apologize—

@unnoticedunawarestillhere’s Hudson lmao <3

Random art of my oc: Andrew Teller who was a doctor during the great Influenza! I made this oc for with a friend of mine.

what would Hudson look like if he lived in a different decade? Like what would he wear?

I couldn't decide so I drew these times that he might have been in if he wasn't a BATIM oc. (Though, I still believe him being in the 20's is a good match)

MY APOLOGIES FOR THOSE WHO HAVE SENT ME ASKS. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DRAW FOR THOSE ASKS BUT I NEED TO FIND THE STUPID TIME ARGHHhHh

Hudson if he actually went to The royal Canadian Air Force during WW2.

This would be the Poppy Field AU where Hudson actually survives the studio. No telling if he survives the war though...

GUYS I LOOK SMART FOR ONCE WHATTTTT?

THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE THIS! THE HANG OUT! NOICE!!

first drawing of 2025!!

I didn't know what to draw them doing then I realized that all the moots I drew are also artists and I was like "I SHOULD DRAW THEM DRAWING TOGETHER!!"

They're talking about BATIM and FNAF together, sharing AUs and theories >:]

@unnoticedunawarestillhere (standing)

@goblin-the-clown (sitting in the beanbag chair)

@zigadoodle ( laying on floor)

Me :]

(ok I'm going to bed now!)