“I am always between two worlds, always in conflict. I would like sometimes to rest, to be at peace, to choose a nook, make a final choice, but I can't. Some nameless, undescribable fear and anxiety keeps me on the move. On certain evenings like this, I would like to feel whole. Only a half of me is sitting by the fire.”
— Anaïs Nin, from “The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934.”
Me at me: feeling violent today arnt we? you lil shit
For old times sake is actually such a heartbreaking and beautiful sentiment. Like, let’s do it for the love that used to be here. It is reason enough.
will i always be this angry?
Why try to fit in when I can become the most offputting and haunted individual in the family bloodline.
idk who needs to hear this right now but I'm going to beat you to death I'm going to hurt you and you're going to die and you suck and I hate you
Anne Carson, from Grief lessons: Four plays by Euripides.
— Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Vera
Trista Mateer, from Small Ghost: Poems; "Small Ghost Checks Her Self History,"
Learning so much about myself as I sit in the discomfort of my past