Blythe Baird, From If My Body Could Speak; “What I Couldn’t Explain Via Text”

“Everything is burning, my soul, body, outside, inside, heart, flesh. Do you understand? Do you really understand?”

María Casares, from a letter to Albert Camus written c. March 1952

My whole life someone told me to be a weapon, when all I wanted was to weep.

— Azura Tyabji & Jackson Neal, from “Black Fire Ballad (I Feel Most Evil in My Mother’s Gowns),” Teen Titans, Dear Azula, I Have a Crush on Danny Phantom

Where did everything go wrong again

WHAT IS POLYFRAGMENTATION

a common misconception i see in the community is that polyfragmentation refers to having a high alter count, and id like to talk about what it actually means polyfragmentation is characterized by a complex system structure, complex splitting patterns, a large number of fragments, a lack of non-dissociative coping mechanisms, and often trauma that began at an early age and impacted all areas of life COMPLEX SYSTEM STRUCTURE - often involving layers, subsystems, or other divisions within the system that keep alters separate in groups COMPLEX SPLITTING PATTERNS - this involves splitting in groups, splitting multiple alters to hold different parts of the same trauma, etc LARGE FRAGMENT COUNT - polyfragmented systems will have a high fragment count, fragments are alters who lack a full sense of identity LACK OF NON-DISSOCIATIVE COPING MECHANISMS - where splitting would typically be a last resort for most systems, polyfragmented systems can be pushed to the point of splitting much easier, even from daily life stressors EARLY LIFE TRAUMA - according to richard p kluft, polyfragmented DID is often caused by longstanding severe abuse beginning early in life - grey

“You can romanticize me all you wish, but the devil wrapped in silk is still the devil.”

— A Word To My Lovers

I love music so much, I hope I'm a pair of headphones in my next life