Silent Hill (1999)

“Most persecutors are just misguided protectors” I’m going to bite you

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

[i want you to tell me i might never recover]

— Jay Vespertine (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

Anne Carson, from Grief lessons: Four plays by Euripides.

Mexican red-rumped tarantula By: Chris Mattison From: A Practical Guide to Exotic Pets 1994

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

Safia Elhillo, from Home Is Not a Country; “The Coward”

Guilt over being alive

Yohji Yamamoto - Talking to Myself // Richard Siken - Little Beast // xxxxxxxxxxx // Claudia Rankine - Don't Let Me Be Lonely // John Green - Turtles All The Way Down

I keep getting harassed for my abusive past actions even though i'm trying my best to recover and said sorry, it makes me feel sometimes like I'm unfixable and just destined to be a monster forever, and that I deserve to feel in pain, how do I move on from that?

You aren't a monster or incapable of change. All you can really do though is keep your side of the street clean; keep doing better, and give yourself grace. We are allowed to be kind to ourselves, even when no one else is. We can't change the past, and we can't change how it affects other people, nor their response to what happened. I know it's a sucky thing to accept, and accepting that doesn't make any of those permanent, dehumanizing judgements true.

You are who you are today; not who you were before you learned better. Set boundaries as you need to, and remember there will always be people who will support and love you. People are complicated and far from perfect. There is a future for you, and that future can be bright and peaceful. Just stick around and keep going, and you'll find it. ♡