Yeah #nightbeforeclub

oh yeah all the time

iCarly

I just realized the episode about the Dingo channel copying iCarly channel is a jab at Disney channel. Charles Dingo aka Walt Disney's head is frozen. Dingo. Disney. Also Dingo is way more popular than iCarly even though iCarly thought of it first. I guess Nickelodeon is saying Disney steals their ideas and makes more money off it too. Nice jab, Nick.😂😂😂Made me laugh when I realized it. Especially because Sam beats one of the employees with a butter sock. I think Nick must really hate Disney.😂

this song captures my pisces venus, libra moon, aqua dom self perfectly.

STUDIO GHIBLI + FLOWERS

Ponyo (2008) Pom Poko (1994) Castle in the Sky (1986) Spirited Away (2001) The Secret World of Arrietty (2010) Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) When Marnie Was There (2014) The Tale of the Princess Kaguya (2013) Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989)

if you’ve ever taken a shower to muffle your sobs, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever eaten alone in a bathroom stall, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever used makeup to conceal evidence of pain, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever looked in a mirror and wanted to change what you saw, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever questioned your worth because of someone else, I’m sorry and I love you. you’re not alone, and you don’t deserve the hurt you’ve experienced. you are good enough—more than good enough. you and valid, you have meaning, and you are loved even when you don’t know it.

falling through, libra moon

Let’s play a game

Reblog with the first thing you think about when you read falling + your moon sign

I’ll start: falling apart, pisces moon

how to live life like a ghibli film

1. go out in nature more. every studio ghibli film has some aspect of nature intertwined with the storyline. sometimes its hard to get the energy to go outside, but just going out on your deck or opening the window in your room or taking a walk around the block is enough. if you feel like it, go for a hike! go into the woods and look at every flower, and every tree. look at the mushrooms and streams and notice the beauty of them. look at nature like you’ve never seen it before. wake up at 4 and watch the sunset. put plants around your room. realize how beautiful the world is around you. appreciate it. 

2. get a hobby! this step is certainly easier said than done, but its so worth it. struggling with mental illness makes it especially hard to get a hobby, but its very important that you don’t spend the majority of your time on social media. Start small. If you want to start drawing get a coloring book and fill in a picture with beautiful markers! If you want to write find a random prompt online, give yourself 30 minutes and see what you can come up with. Want to try baking? Start with an easy recipe, like chocolate chip cookies, and share them with your family or friends, or just yourself! Try out a bunch of hobbies, and see what you like best. Maybe you like making jewelry or writing poems or creating digital collages or making video edits or decorating your room or riding a bike or sewing or reading. The possibilities are endless, and getting a hobby you enjoy is very important, and fun.

3. start appreciating small things and noticing details. I don’t know how to explain this step, but in studio Ghibli films, small things always stick out. There are beautiful tiny details that make the story so much more magnificent. small details make the studio Ghibli films what they are. maybe on your way to school/work the sky was a really pretty color. Or the tea you made in the morning was perfectly steeped. appreciate small details of life that you don’t normally notice.

4. appreciate food. Pay attention to your food. If you can, try and make/bake your own food! But if you can’t, just be mindful of your food. Try not to eat while you’re on your phone. Dedicate times to just eating. Appreciating the food in front of you. Make yourself the ponyo drink with milk and honey, or ponyo ramen! Make yourself your own blend of tea like the Baron!

5. be kind and help others. Being kind doesn’t have to be a grand gesture, it can be smiling and waving at a baby in a café, or helping your mom finish the dishes, or paying for a friend’s coffee. Small gestures not only put good out into the world, but they also make you feel better. When you can, help others. Try volunteering at an animal shelter, or babysit for your aunt without charging her, or just listen to your friend when they’re going through something and be there for them. In every Ghibli film, the main character is always helping others, and being kind. Try to be like kiki, when she returned the pacifier to the mother who forgot it, or like chizuru from the cat returns, who risks her life to save a cat. Kindness comes in all shapes and forms, so just try your best to do what you can!

6. be your most authentic self. Stay true to who you are. dress how you’d like. Cut your hair like you’ve always wanted to. Stay confident and true to yourself. We all feel insecure sometimes, but we need to remind ourselves that we are great. Don’t try and force yourself to be someone you aren’t. Kiki felt insecure in her abilities as a witch, but she stayed true to herself, and believed in herself, and it paid off. Love and appreciate yourself, just the way you are.

7. (not really a tip but a fun suggestion) start collecting something! This is just an extra step that I wanted to include because I think its nice. But start a collection of things that interest you. It could be anything! Candles, stamps, teacups, antique figurines, 19th century photos, lip balms, books, key chains, flowers, hats. The choices are endless.

I am attracting a man who gives me before I have to ask, who treats me to luxury just because, who invests in my dreams because he has faith in my vision, who cares deeply for me and my safety, who notes what makes me happy and strives to bring more of it into my life. I am deserving of all of this and more.

woowwwwwwwww

Psychopathic types

I published a post a while ago where I asked people to take a psychopathy test on the internet and to send me their results and MBTI personality type. The respond has been amazing; 422 persons sent me their answers, and here are the results:

The test that was used in this survey consists of 27 statements, which you answer to by checking how much you feel each question applies to you on a scale that varies from “disagree” to “neutral” to “agree”. After finishing the test you receive two scores that shows where you landed on the Levenson Self-Report Psychopathy Scale (LSRP), which is basically a scale on how psychopathic you are on a scale from 1 (low) to 5 (high). The first score is where you landed on the Primary Psychopathy scale, which consists the interpersonal and affective aspect of psychopathy. The second score is where you landed on the Secondary Psychopathy scale, which consists the social deviance aspect of psychopathy. (Link to test)

Here is a chart of how the average person from each type scored based on the answers I received:

ENTP         33

INTP          61

ENTJ         10

INTJ           84

ENFP         17    

INFP           52 

ENFJ          9

INFJ           82

ESTP         12

ISTP          13

ESFP*         2

ISFP          13

ESTJ          6

ISTJ          16

ESFJ          3

ISFJ           9

  PP= Primary Psychopathy

SP= Secondary Psychopathy

*Because of few responds from ESFPs, the statistics for this type are very uncertain.

So what is a psychopath?

A psychopath is a person with antisocial personality disorder (APD). Common traits for psychopaths are:

◦   An inability to possess feelings of regret and remorse

◦   A disregard for rules and norms

◦   A disregard for other people´s rights

◦   Tendencies to display violent behavior

Psychopaths are persons who do not have a moral compass like healthy persons do, and they do often have other personality disorders in addition linked to APD such as narcissism and sadism. Tendencies like torturing animals, bullying, using deception, and irresponsibility is often early signs at psychopathy, and they usually start showing when the person is around 15 years, but they can emerge even earlier. 

This test divides between the terms primary and secondary psychopath, and this is what we often call “psychopath” and “sociopath” in popular culture. Primary psychopathy is what most people would call the “original” psychopath. Description of primary psychopaths: “Primary psychopathy is the affective aspects of psychopathy; a lack of empathy for other people and tolerance for antisocial orientations.” This is our Hannibal Lecter and Patrick Bateman from American Psycho. They do often have a normal life, a family and a steady job, but all this is a part of a social mask they put on for others to hide their personality. They go under the interpersonal aspect of psychopathy, as earlier mentioned, and this is because they are very careful about showing their true self. To keep their social mask on, they do often find a victim, like a partner or a coworker, to control and mentally torture in private.

Secondary psychopath is the sociopathic type. Description of secondary psychopaths: “Secondary psychopathy is the antisocial aspects of psychopathy; rule breaking and a lack of effort towards socially rewarded behavior”. Sociopaths are more spontaneous and impulsive than the “original” psychopath, and do often live on the edge on society with criminal records. This is our Alex from A Clockwork Orange, the Heath Ledger´s Joker, and Jim Moriarity from BBC´s Sherlock. They are not as concerned to keep their mask on, and do often display antisocial behavior. Sociopaths can form bonds with a few persons or to a group they want to protect because their psychopathic behavior is focused towards society. 

Most psychologists today do not divide the terms sociopath and psychopath anymore because a lot of people with APS show tendencies from both types, and they are caused by the same problem. The only places where they still divide between these terms are in prisons, due to different behavior. 

Most people have some psychopathic tendencies, but it´s different how many and how strong they are from person to person. APD is a mental illness, which has no known way to cure, and to label someone with this mental illness takes a bit more than asking them to take an internet test.

About the results:

Highest rating:

An ESTP was placed on 4,9 and 4,9 on both the primary and secondary scale

Lowest rating:

Both an INFJ, who was placed on 1,3 on the primary and 1,1 on the secondary scale, and an INTP who got 1 on the primary and 1,4 on the secondary scale.

ENTPs are known to be the most sociopathic type, which this something these statistics confirm.

You may have noticed the types have different colors that indicate which temperament they belong to. When you look at how the types inside each temperament, they are spread out a lot on the diagram.

Instead you can spot a clear connection between the types who shares the same rational function placed either as their dominant or auxiliary function. So I made a chart for the how the average TP, FP, TJ, and FJ scored:

(ESFPs scores not included)

It came as a bit surprising at first to me, but it is actually very logical. Both the FPs and the TPs were placed higher on the secondary psychopath scale than the Js. Perceivers are the most spontaneous types due to their Se/Ne, and are likeliest to take spontaneous decisions. Judgers on the other hand are more organized and are more likely to come up with one plan and stick to it. TJs scored the highest on the primary psychopath scale, and this is most likely due to their Te. Te is more about controlling and organizing the environment around itself, and down in the left corner you find the FJs - the least psychopathic types. Their dominant or auxiliary function is Fe, which often makes these types the most empathic in the sense of caring for other people feelings, which is the exact opposite of psychopathic behavior. 

The test

I have also received some feedback about the test. Some people complained about the statements you were asked to answer being unclear and difficult to understand, and I agree that the test was not the best. Questions like “When I get frustrated, I often “let off steam” by blowing my top.“ and ”I make a point of trying not to hurt others in pursuit of my goals.“ can be interpreted in a lot of different ways, and this is why it was important that I received a lot of answers from each type, so the inaccuracies did not affect the results too much. And this is an free internet test, so it´s expected to not be the best.

How many psychopaths answered?

It is estimated that the percentage psychopaths in the US population is between 1%-4% (fun fact: That means it is more likely to be a psychopath than an INFJ or INTJ). Most psychopaths are high functioning and manage to live a normal life. “Not all psychopaths are killers, but most killers are psychopaths” - M.E. Thomas (author of Confession Of A Sociopath). So I decided to how many persons (in percentages) got abnormal high and low results compared to the rest. I chose two limits; an upper and a lower, based on what most people answered. The lower limit was scores from and under 1.5, and the upper limit was 4 or higher.

How many who scored abnormally low: 09.4%

How many scored abnormally high: 10.4%

So how many psychopaths answered? Probably none. I received some messages where they were a bit concerned because they scored high on one of the scales, but none of you should worry. Firstly, this was a random internet test, and secondly (and most important): this is Tumblr. You would need to search for a long time before finding a real psychopath.