Struggling With My Heart, Cause Sometimes You Don't Want My Affection And Hugs, But When I Am Really

I shouldn't have told that

I don't who should I talk to...Cause I always have this conversation with the same person.

I regret again, my eyes hurt, I can't breath, I can't scream even when it's the middle of the night and there is no one around.

I shouldn't have told you what the person I think you would date, And my word agh : "She would be thin, with dark straight hair, more small than you are", and I don't look like that.

I don't even know why I say that. I am regretting every second you sounded happy for someone it's not me.

I want to move on, but I'm afraid there is not gonna be anyone like you...

Your wamrth

The only thing I did was cry, but after the last hug we shared, I don't, almost like you dried all my past and future tears.

Dazai Route PV

[This is an unofficial work based on fan-translation. Copyright belongs to Cybird.]

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—— To the man, death was like salvation. 

“Happiness is unforgivable; it receives only punishment in return.” 

This life exists for the sake of atonement. That was what I believed — up until I met her. 

At the end of this tale, the man’s choice is —— …. 

So that you live on, so that you can atone ——

I won’t forgive you. 

The Forbidden 2nd Act; a dangerous love begins  ——

Dazai: I am Osamu Dazai, the undying novelist. 

He teases you with a lighthearted smile, yet underneath this spontaneity lies…. 

Dazai: Won’t you accompany with me for a bit? I’ll tell you about a very special place. 

The more I feel his subtle, nonchalant kindness, the more I want to know his true self. 

You must not be saved by those around you who continue to cause you unhappiness. 

— There is no longer anything I can trust in this world. 

Death is salvation. Yet, you see, time and time again, that relief does not appear to man. 

— The only one to open their eyes was the man. 

Sensei, let’s die together —

“Don’t worry, you’ll forget me one day.” 

The burden of atonement, however, will not forgive the man’s own happiness. 

Dazai: To love is to bet your life. It’s not something sweet and gentle. 

Knowing his hidden past, I move to reach out my hand but —

The appearance of a new character accelerates the story line. 

Charles: So that’s how it is. How cruel, hogging a girl this cute all to himself…. 

Dazai: Let’s end things here. Please stay well.  — Goodbye. 

If it is to save him, I would gladly fall together.

Even if the end of this story leads us to hell ——

Dazai: Every time I touch you, my heart is flooded with joy.

Dazai: Haa — It seems that love is like a bottomless pit.*

Dazai: I wonder if you’d be willing to give it all to me. Your body, your heart  —— and your destiny.  

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The term Dazai uses here is 底なし沼 which translates to “bottomless swamp” and is commonly used as slang to describe when someone is extremely invested into something. I’ve opted to use “bottomless pit” to match the themes of falling into hell/sin and atonement, as well as to make it sound a bit more fitting with the spicy bite scene lol. 

Dear friend, dont try to explain me why you think he likes me secretly, beacause I know that he doesn't. I love him, which is the reason I know you dont treat someone you love like the way he treat me.

Little me

You wanna know why I won't come back to you? Because today I'm the adult that needs to protect the little girl that cried yesterday 'cause you broke her heart.

I'm falling down

My heart don't fall again, we promised we won't. Didn't we learn through the pain? Was that not enough? My heart we just come back from heaven and hell. We need to make a decision. One that willl hurt a life time.

My friends always tell me that you look like you like me, but they also are confused as I am, cause sometimes you look comfortable enough to be a couple and sometimes I am headache to you