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her heart was beating fast.
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“If I’m not mistaken, this is an old edition. Excuse me…” “Sure.” “The information could be outdated. That’s a cute drawing.”
simultaneously working on NAR and theogony and the vibes are so confused
Lily comforting James on Fleamont’s funeral.
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“He never gave me the Invisibility Cloak, I basically stole it. Now I wish I hadn’t, then it would mean so much more now that he’s gone. I guess I feel a bit guilty I never told him.” “I’m quite sure he knew the son he had…”
I got this idea like 5 minutes ago and have been living in Saturday Night's Alright-land for so long, I'm letting myself choose joy.
7th-Year September 1st drabble below the cut.
James hastily waved off his parents with all the sincerity he could muster before he and Sirius started weaving their way through the start-of-term crowd on Platform 9 3/4 for the last time. To Fleamont and Euphemia, this was a momentous turning point, deserving some sort of emotional farewell or well-wishing, but to James it was simply an item on a checklist.
Arrive at platform: Check.
Still, he would've been more sympathetic to his parents' attentions had someone not delayed their arrival by oversleeping.
"Oi, slow down, Prongs. Christ!"
Sirius trailed behind him, navigating the crowds with more care than the other boy, who was charging through the crowd with a fervor that Sirius was all too familiar with by now.
James' eyes flitted rapidly from face to face as he made his way across the platform, searching for those brilliant eyes and the shock of red hair that he hadn't seen in much too long.
This summer had been one for the books, as far as James Potter was concerned, anyway. The freedom of being of-age with none of the responsibilities of school had meant a virtually unlimited choice of ways to entertain themselves this summer. Most evenings saw the soon-to-be 7th year Gryffindors—along with some other classmates—convalescing somewhere or other in Diagon Alley, finding little-known hidden gems of pubs or clubs, cooling themselves off with ice cream at Florean Fortescue's, or just causing general summertime mischief.
It was wonderful to feel so bonded with the others in their house going into their final year, and it had the added bonus of finally sparking that something between he and Lily Evans.
It was nothing serious—not yet. Just little stolen moments throughout the summer: a lingering glance across the table, inconspicuous hand-holding when they found themselves in the back of the group, the occasional goodnight kiss when one of them needed to side-along Apparate the other home. Little stolen moments that had been driving James mad these last few weeks Lily was visiting family and unable to join the end-of-summer hurrahs.
They had been writing each other, however, in her absence. She'd written him excitedly about her appointment as Head Girl, which was completely unsurprising to him as there was no better candidate (and he told her so). He had written back, nervously, and relayed how—incredibly—he'd been named Head Boy, only to be unexpectedly showered with congratulations and 'of course, it's unorthodox, but it makes sense'. They'd exchanged letters about the things they'd miss once Hogwarts was over, their lists of must-do's this year to fully glean the most out of their final year. They'd exchanged 'I miss you's and 'I wish you were here's and 'I can't wait to see you's.
Nearing the other side of the crowded platform, his eyes spotted that specific shade of red that had made this summer so superior to the others. His eyes zeroed in on Lily Evans, hair pulled back, Head Girl badge proudly displayed on her robes as she helped direct what he could only guess was a First Year into the train. His feet halted any forward-movement as his breath left his lungs.
'I can't wait to see you. I miss you.'
Locate Lily Evans: Check.
James moved forward with renewed vigor, her eyes finding his as the First Year loaded onto the train. A smile broke out on her face as he drew near, and gods how he wished he was able to get here earlier just so he could take in her expression that much sooner.
"Hey, you," she called lightly as he neared, looking up at him. "Big day for us, eh?"
Now face-to-face with her for the first time in weeks, after thinking only of her for the entirety of the time since she last left his sight, words escape him. Instead, he smiled down at her, at the anticipation in her eyes and felt sure in a way he hadn't felt with her in a long time, and bent down to capture her lips with his own, hand cupping her cheek.
She leaned into his touch instantly, responding to his kiss with an enthusiasm that caused James' pulse to pound in his ears, drowning out the sounds of the platform around them.
Kiss Lily Evans: Check.
James felt Lily's lips pull into another grin, and he took this as his cue to step back, breaking the kiss and grinning down at her, knowing that the excited glint in her eyes matched his own.
"Well, I meant leading the Prefects' meeting, but glad to know where your head's at," she quipped, unable to wipe the smile from her face.
James shrugged, hand flying to his hair with residual nerves. "Sorry, I was just...excited to see you."
Lily stepped forward, reaching up and pulling his hand down from his hair and lacing her fingers in his. Her eyes lingered on the sight of their entwined fingers as a blush painted her cheeks. "I'm excited to see you, too." Her eyes flickered back up to meet his, eyebrow quirking as she tugged him forward towards the train. "Well come on then. We have a meeting to run."
James followed her, gladly, as they loaded onto the train, feeling a little lighter in his step.
Be with Lily Evans: Check.
the way p&p 2005 said: here's one of the most beloved enemies to lovers romances of all time, we don't need to change anything but here's keira knightley and the most socially awkward mr darcy you have ever seen. we're going to sprinkle in a hand touch and an almost kiss during an argument following a love confession in the pouring rain. what excellent boiled potatoes. yearn. you will think about this movie every day for the rest of your life.
Happy autumn everyone! I hope this year will be great, new chances, new friends, new interesting lessons and the endless youth. You can find more hp art in my blog using #hp /Commissions are open/
mischief (not) managed! 🐺 🐀 🐾🦌
After their first kiss.
“Oh, I was forgetting my book.” “Yeah, I wouldn’t want to lose books right now. With NEWTs and all.” “Exactly. There.” “Great. I hope you’re not forgetting something else.” “I think it was just the book.” “Evans. Why did you kiss me yesterday?” “I don’t know.”
do not underestimate therapeutic powers of pride and prejudice 2005 dir. joe wright
Illustrating my new headcanon about Lily being part of Hogwarts’ choir and James watching, genuinely enchanted by them.
Then there was this time at age 17 that Lily’s eyes were on his and he couldn’t believe it.
Lily
James
Sirius
Remus
Peter
Sirius and Remus
James and Lily
"Matilda... Maybe it hits a little different when wearing a rainbow tracksuit."
-Harry on singing Matilda in his outfit tonight.
Love On Tour 2022: New York City, Night 4. (26 August 2022)
Hi sorry, I don't believe in larry but I don't go and attack other larries for their beliefs and I apologize if other antis do that... 😕
But I was just curious..., is there any part of you that thinks that larry may have not been real this entire time and it was just fans projecting that idea onto them? (For example, reading too much into things, trying to find connections when there aren't any, and basing newer theories on other theories that were just headcanons) Because I understand that larries are upset sometimes because there are 'stunts' still happening and nothing has changed. But do you ever doubt it now? That maybe, the stunts haven't changed because maybe they were never really stunts in the first place?
I understand that as fans we're not with harry and louis 24/7 so we don't really know what goes on in their lives. But I'm just curious because, if fans don't know what's happening 24/7, how can their beliefs be completely accurate? There must be some plot holes right?
In my opinion a lot of the times, larries say things like, oh this relationship timeline doesn't make any sense but from my perspective, we only have knowledge of what we see publicly, so the reason things might not make sense is because we don't have the full picture/or all the pieces of the puzzle. We just have a select few instances that we can base our judgements on, but the downside to this is that our judgements can also be inaccurate. Therefore, I honestly don't see larry as being real now. Maybe in the past harry seemed to have a crush on Louis or something, but other than that, I think fans were reading too much into things and dragged it along for too long to the point that no one could really do anything about it. Sorry for this long ask, my opinion doesn't matter anyway lol but I was honestly just curious about Larry and all this stuff. But anyways, have a nice day!
Hello, dear.
First of all, you have no idea how much I appreciate you for being so straightforward and saying you're not a larrie! Because there's a lot of people coming here trying to stir the pot, pretending to be larries and being really shitty at us. (and some larries are no better) It's not hard to just be polite even though we think differently, we could all have a chat and have some fun together.
Anyway, I totally understand where you're coming from. It's a very practical way of thinking and I can definitely relate to that because I'm a very practical person myself, maybe that's why you're writing me this. So I actually agree with a lot of things you said. But I do think that this is coming from much more from a place of lack of knowledge on what we actually believe or don't believe, than from pure skepticism. Do you know what I mean? I cannot speak for other larries, but for me, it's much less about theories, and reaches, and reading into things, and much more about the consistency of facts as a whole. We can obviously add layers of theories and complexity to that - and I think people will naturally try to understand things in a way that makes more sense to them, which is incredibly subjective - but at the end of the day, we're talking about a series of events here. We are reading too much into things, that is a fact. But that's only because we keep finding things when we do, we keep getting reaffirmations. Otherwise, we would have dropped it years ago.
We're certainly not completely accurate, that would be impossible. The only thing I'm 100% sure of - and that's me answering your question - is that Harry and Louis are together and always had been. No, I don't have a single doubt in my mind. And I'm not saying larry is real because they keep wearing blue and green and this kind of shit. I'm saying larry is real because when we look at a bigger picture, it makes sense. I'm not saying their relationships with girls don't make sense, of course there are holes but I completely agree this could be justified since we're not watching people 24/7, but imo when we stop looking at larry as something so unlikely, larry makes more sense than whatever other official narrative going on. And that's based on what we see publicly anon, believe it or not.
Because, honestly, if we take all the "proofs" and theories out of the picture, what is so unlikely about larry being real? Besides looking at things from a very heteronormative point of view? First things first, we have a disgusting industry, where closeting is undoubtedly not only very real but frequent. A fabricated and extremely profitable boyband targeted for an audience made of young heterosexual females, where having gay members would be very inconvenient. Abusive contracts, especially coming from talent shows. We have both Simon Cowell and Modest Management being exposed over and over for abusive behaviour. People connected with One Direction openly talking about "helping” closeting people with PR relationships. So, unfortunately, it's not an unlikely scenario at all. And then on top of that, we can start to add all the fishy stuff. What the hell happened with Harry and Louis "friendship"? We can all agree that shit was never platonic in the first place. And then their behaviour drastically changed, at the same time both of them started to get girlfriends and 1D skyrocketed worldwide. Girlfriends that very coincidentally started to show up everytime there was something to be promoted. Repeating the same patterns year after year. At the same time they started to get tattoos, on a running theme, not only one or two, there's probably ten of those coincidences all over their bodies. Ship and compass, heart and arrow, anchor and rope, oops and hi, the fucking papillon tattoos???... One after the other, in sequence. And then he got the dagger, after months of speculation, right after a huge denial? What are the chances! And then when Harry got the mermaid and we started to speculate about Louis getting a lighthouse and he showed up with a customized t-shirt with a lighthouse, saying "yes". And those are only the tattoos, don't even let me get started on the other hundreds of coincidences. Did they actually ever hated each other? Hated larries? Why the fuck they would be so bothered by gay rumours when they seem to be at least allies. How many times they're going to need to orbit around each other so people can stop calling it a coincidence. What the fuck was even the rainbow bears, and since we're talking cryptic, why there's so much consistency when we *delulus* feel like they're communicating, why is it always the same pattern over and over on the queer coding, on the coded clothing, lyrics. We can only go crazy and speculate to a certain point, why there's always room for interpretation, why they keep feeding into it. How in the world did they end up with the same vintage t-shirt, why is Harry obsessed with things named Louis, why did Louis wear a t-shirt with a huge H in it if he knew what it meant, why did he sing princess park, why did he sing LARRY CALL A LOAD OF SMOKE IN? Out of all the names, t-shirts, songs, places... what 👏 are 👏 the 👏 chances. Things don't mean anything individually, they're just coincidences, theories, reaches, until proven otherwise. But when we start to add things up to this same pile... it means everything. They actually fit. So, you do you, anon. If you think that's too crazy, too fucked, that is fine, I understand that people have different points of view and I respect that. I'm not worried about being on the "right side", I'm worried about being truthful. I love them, and I feel like they need to be heard. Desperately. I don't believe shit like that happens on a bigger picture so consistently unless there's something else going on.
Louis and Harry sing about so many different sides to their love but I think, what's so lovely is that they speak of a gentle, patient love that's worth it. Reassuring. One where they see each other at their vulnerable, their ugly, their lows and highs and still consider it worth it. Because that just how real love is. Not easy but worth it and it needs commitment and patience and it's a theme that shines in their music.
god, words cannot stress how much i miss this dude and his boisterous laughter
holding for jongdae: day [234/546]
» EXO’s CHEN for Dear Happiness, September 2016
saw this edit and thought of this prompt— enjoy!
Lily jumps into James’ arms. He stumbles at the impact but he’s able to stay on his feet as Lily buries her face into his neck. He grips her waist, hoisting her up, letting her legs dangle.
“You could’ve died, you idiot,”
“You would like that wouldn’t you, Evans?” he chuckles.
He sets her down when he feels her hold on him loosen.
She steps back from him and immediately punches his chest.
“How could you say that?”
His face falls when he sees that she was being serious. Soon, her nose scrunches up in a way only he knew. She began to cry.
“Evans?” he says, reaching out for her.
She pushes his hand away and takes another step back.
“No. No, I wouldn’t like it if you died, James!” she raises her voice, letting the tears start to fall before she’s sobbing. She covers her face with her hands and before long she feels the distant lingering of James’ hand hovering over her, unsure of what to do.
“I— Lily, I’m sorry, please don’t cry… I was only joking,”
She lifts her head from her hands, wiping the tears on her cheeks.
“Well, I’m not! It’s always fun and games with you! You don’t even realize what you could do to someone if something were to happen to you!”
“You’re not making sense, Lily”
“Do you think Sirius, Remus, and Peter are the only people who care about you? They’re not. I care about you, James…. So you can’t gamble your life away and die on me just to get a quick laugh— not now, not ever— not when I’m—!”
“When you’re what?” he asks gently
“Not when I’m this gone for you, you arsehole!”
James’ eyes widen.
“So— So you can’t just risk your life all willy-nilly like that because— because I love you too damn much to lose you before I can even get the chance to tell you just how much,”
Lily’s breathing is heavy, tears steadily streaming down her face as her chest heaves up and down slowly.
“You… love me?”
Lily could only let a slightly amused breath out, “Merlin, you are oblivious aren’t you?”
“You love me?”
“Yeah.” She answers nodding, “I do. So if— if you don’t have feelings for me anymore, well tough luck, Potter, because I don’t think this’ll be going away any time soon,” She says, bitter smile on her face.
“I never said I wanted it to go away,”
A beat.
“I don’t want it to go away.” James takes long strides to Lily, taking her tear-stricken face into his warm hands and kisses her.
He pulls away and rests his forehead against hers. “I’ve had feelings for you since 3rd year, Evans.” He leans away, bending down to meet Lily’s eyes. “What makes you think I ever stopped, huh?” He swipes her falling tears with his thumb.
At this, Lily smiles but the tears don’t stop. All she can do is walk in closer to him. She throws her hands around his torso, presses into him, and cries into his chest.
James hugs her, one hand on her head, the other on her back. Rubbing her back and leaving soft kisses on the crown of her head until she stopped shaking and her breathing evened out.
AND ON THE BTRACKS TOO 😭
When Sehun sets out to find a cure for his sister’s illness, his ship gets attacked by a murderous dread pirate.
A man whose thirst for money, a fresh kill, and whiskey was preceded by his infamous reputation soaked in the blood of all who came in his path. A man so merciless, and ruthless— most would even as far to say, inhumane. But if this is the case, then why has this seemingly bloodthirsty pirate captain suddenly gone soft?
For a handsome farm boy, of all people— who simply looked him in the eye and said “please”.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/31816684