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the advice was cold for sure but I am a sensitive soul.. things hit me deep and I let it leave claw marks on my own soul because of it.. so even though its cold - it’s something I, too, need to hear at this moment. Sometimes, God places people to heal you - thats what i believe - and in this moment this is what it slightly feels like.
I’m sorry to hear that you went through all that.. that sounds like it ripped your heart out your body at some point in time. I’m glad you’re here and it seems like you came out that dark tunnel.
I have analysed my moments (my whole emotional system and logic) of despair and sadness; agony pain and melancholy in regards to him. I miss experiencing him - thats the most part of it - getting to know who he was and wanting to know more. The guilt - not being able to share my truth with him; not being about to just say what’s on my mind - it was a cycle within me that I felt he’d never understand and I never gave him the chance too either but he also was never really curious about it.. the fear ate me alive each time but maybe he could tell and just never cared to ask.. who knows.. it’s all still there but he’s not here.
I’m sure he’s not thinking about me (which stabs my heart, and probably will for some time) even if I’d hope he does here and there. I don’t think we were right for each other anyways.. who knows that except God.
I heard this song and there’s a line I will leave with “ I have a feeling you got everything you wanted. And you're not wastin' time stuck here like me. You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened. The world ended when it happened to me” that’s the pill I swallowed today.
I will go and explore other people, just as friends though and hope my past stops haunting me.. thank you
Sorry if my words are harsh.. but as you said, its probably something you need to hear.
If you ask me, if you're not able to communicate and express certain things and it was somewhat obvious, giving him the benefit of the doubt, he just couldn't read the room, it's still not good enough. You should be able to feel free to express/share concerns. Either that or like you said, he didn't care to ask.
I'll be honest, if you missed experiencing him, there are more people out there that are yearning your companionship, you must be experienced too. You'll also experience a new person in the same way or more, it doesn't only happen once. You just need to give the new experiences a proper chance and dont compare to your previous. Nor put him on a pedestal.
Take off the rose tinted glasses.
Keep swallowing those difficult pills. Harsh truths. Be real with yourself. Don't romanticise the past. "What ifs" will kill you.
And make sure you have a friend to talk to, just vent or get their opinion (if they're a grounded individual) or just hit me up. You need to express.
Not my usual vibe but this album was sensational
Your current and future self is determined by:
• What you eat
• Who you spend your time with
• How you treat your body
• What you read
• What you listen to
• Who you follow
• What you think about
• How you invest in yourself
Upgrade your inputs, upgrade your life.
I cannot afford to live a life without God.
Hi. I think I’ll miss him forever. I think he’ll still be on my mind in 10 years. I wish I never experienced him. I cannot seem to pursue another person because it’s unfair. I think I’ll miss him forever and death will be at my door and I’d wonder if he’s alive or not? (My thoughts are currently in darkness and for some reason I felt you might know how that feels. Thanks for the safe space.)
I can relate to you. I was also in a similar situation.
Years went by but I was still there, the memories were fresh. Not a day went by where I didnt think about her. Sometimes I'd even smell her perfume randomly and it would throw me off and I would plummet into the darkness.
What I found beneficial was to analyse my feelings, what did I "miss" exactly. I missed my life at that time, It was a great period of my life. I had the girl that I wanted, the flash car, mates at my place every day, nothing but pure panga/shenanigans. But it came to an end. All those things went wrong or just ended. Lost the girl, sold the car, moved back home, lost the friends.. What im saying is that period of my life I loved, she was apart of that. But if that was now it just wouldn't of worked anyway.
I realised I felt guilt more than I actually missed her. The guilt crippled me.
I did wonder too, I wonder what she's up to, I wonder who's on the phone to her keeping her up at night..
But man it's all pointless, they're most likely not thinking about you. Its a hard pill to swallow. But it's probably true. You just gotta swallow that pill and run it.
It's a good shout to get yourself out there again, make the new connections, even as friends, just get out. You might start prioritising a new person in your mind and that haunting feeling of your past might leave you.
Honestly I don't know if this is good advice but it works for me. I'm cold, cutthroat. My advice usually is too..
It’s hard to enjoy this journey, yet I’ll try my best still. I’ll keep you in my Duas. Will you please keep me in yours? Thank you.
Take care Mr
It's difficult to explain what I mean by enjoy the journey.. Kinda like, look at the trees, look at the details in the leaves, remember how small you are in this massive world.
Thinking like that always lights a fire in me
I'll also keep you in my duas
I sent the anon on 4th feb. I’m replying to your response - thank you. I hadn’t released any emotions, that response triggered the tears to fall down my face. May Allah keep you protected and safe and send you blessings for helping a stranger out.
Ameen.
I'm glad I could be of some use.
Keep your head up and remember to enjoy the journey! Insha'Allah things become easier for you. This Ramadan will be a defining time for you.
Keep me in your duas, that's all I ask.
Smoking a cigar, looking at the stars
I have no enemies
I fuucking miss it
Japans going crazy rn 🤫
IF I DON’T FEEL THE OBSESSION, THE FUCKING HUNGER AND DESIRE I DON’T WANT IT. I WANT LOVE WITH TEETH. I WANT LOVE THAT FEELS RELIGIOUS.
I miss making art like this
I don't know what it is but there's something about this piece of music that makes me feel different
I feel like something died inside me, but in a beautiful way
Tragedy
Beautiful death
Melancholy
Kinda want to check out USA/Canada
I am stuck between "I need to save money" or "You only live once"..
Rabb mera, Rabb tera, Rabb hai apna. Rabb othe jithe koi nahi hunda.
— God is mine, god is yours, god is ours. God is there for you when no one is.
“Tujhe yaad kar liya hai, aayat ki tarah.”
— I have memorized you like a holy verse from the Quran.
The voice that comes from the lungs and the abdomen cannot express itself fully without the bones of the head, the lips, the teeth, the tongue, the palate. So we see that this body is an instrument of sound. When the tree swings in the wind, each leaf gives a sound. The breeze alone cannot produce the full sound. The leaves of the tree rustle and become the instrument for the air. This shows us that the whole framework of this world is the instrument of sound.
Hazrat Inayat Khan, The Mysticism of Sound and Music
In English we say "I can't make eye contact". But in Urdu, we say:
"Unki nazron ka rukh aaj meri taraf hai,
Aaj meri palkon ne uthne se inkaar kar diya hai".
comptine d'un autre été, my all time favorite..
I need a business card
