đ i want it â h.js x fem! reader pt. 2
part one â part two
pairing: han jisung x inexperienced! reader genre: smut, smau warnings: swearing â spit kinkâ virginity â needy han â slight perv!han â reader is called âbabyâ and âpretty girlâ â no use of ây/nâ â reader is referred to by she/her pronouns â piv â munch jisung â oral sex (fem recieving) â fingering â light cum play â lots of praise â dialogue heavy wc: 3.2k synopsis: a week after jisung eats you out, he takes your virginity at your eager request. author's note: i feel like this is a safe enough space to say that i kinda didnât wanna write this pt 2. i struggled a lot, but itâs finally finished!! didnât wanna leave you guys hanging so i pushed through and delivered! if you like it feel free to reblog or comment bc those make my day <3
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a pit of guilt grows in jisungâs gut. he promised you months ago that heâd take it slow. he broke that promise the moment it got too difficult to keep his dick in his pants. months ago, you would barely make out with him. you were so shy when it came to being intimate. but slowly, you got more used to it. slowly.Â
he promised you that your first time together would be at the right moment. and he begged to get your pussy in his mouth before you were ready. he was such an awful boyfriend.
at least, thatâs what he thought.Â
jisung was oblivious to the lust that clouded your mind the following days. the way youâd wake up in the morning, only to feel slick between your thighs from the wet dreams the night before. the way youâd be going about your day, and suddenly the image of your boyfriend rubbing his dick on your pussy flashes in your mind. or the way you fantasize at night about how itâd feel to experience it all over againâhis tongue, his fingers. how you'd fall asleep to the thought of his cock inside you.
he started a fire inside you without even knowing, and he needed to quell it before you lost your mind.
heâs barely even went further than kissing you since he ate you out. you know that jisung is scared to force you. but you also know that youâre ready.Â
instead of asking him to fuck you, like any rational person would do, you decide the best way to what you want is to seduce him into it. it isnât hard. really, itâs stupid easy. even a virgin can do it.Â
â â â
when jisung gets into your apartment, all he wants to do is cuddle you while you stroke his hair. itâs one of the tamer things heâs been dreaming of all day.Â
âbaby?â he says, and shuts your apartment door. itâs silent. âbaby?â
âbedroom.â is all you reply. when he opens the door, he pauses. he definitely had something to say with the way his mouth hangs open, but as soon as he sees you itâs thrown out the window. you see his adams apple bob as he swallows, and takes in the sight of you: naked except for a thin, cropped camisole and panties, your sweatshirt barely covering your arms before it falls to the floor.
âjisung.â you try your best to keep the amusement out of your voice.Â
âshit! sorry, baby.â he snaps out of it quickly, adverting his gaze to the wall behind you. half of his thoughts for the past week come back to him all at once. seeing you barely covered makes the blood rush to his face, and his dick. itâs an instant reminder of how he had you just a week ago. he doesnât look back to you, he might be strong enough mentally, but his dick sure isnât. traitor.
âhow was your day?â you're so casual about it, sauntering up to him and hugging him like you're not practically naked in front of him. like your tits don't press up against his chest when you hug him tightly.
âgood. it was good. i missed you.â he's trying to stay calm. keep his dick from flying out of his pants like some deranged, horny adolescent who just discovered porn.
âyeah? still wanna cuddle like you wanted to earlier?â you ask, referencing a text he sent you a few hours ago.
screw his dick, his heart needed you more.
jisung sits on your bed, his back resting against the headboard. he watches as you climb into his lap, bare thighs against his sweats. you're so warm, and you smell so good⌠you're gonna kill him one day.
the moment your hands are in his hair, he's taking a deep, grounding breath. he loves when you play with his hair, it's the perfect stress relief for him. his girl, all pretty in his lap, running her fingers through his hair. dream come fucking true.
jisung can't help the low groan that escapes his lips as he adjusts his position. his arms wrap around you, shifting you in his lap so you're not sitting on his dick.
âfuck, baby.â he mutters. his eyes are shut, teeth biting at his lip to keep himself quiet.
it's cute, really. how worked up your boyfriend gets over you. you can't help but kiss the corner of his mouth, your hands cupping his cheeks as you try to push things further.
âkiss me, jisung?â the way you ask him is so sweet, so innocent sounding. like you donât have a plan (you do) and all the pieces arenât falling into place (they are). he can't resist, leaning up to kiss you short, sweet, and chaste.Â
it's not enough. you take charge, kissing him and shifting in his lap to get a better angle. he gets the message, and lets you lead the kiss. in no time you're deepening it, your tongue in his mouth, and jisung's quick to pull back, your unusual boldness finally catching him off guard.Â
âyou good, baby?â
âmhm.â
âreally?â
âyou haven't kissed me in forever.â you're quick to defend yourself with a pout. forever, a week⌠same thing.
âc'mon, baby. you know i don't wanna rush you⌠i wanna take it slow with you, you asked me that and i'm doing my bestâŚâ he's looking at you like youâre too good for him, or heâs too bad for you. âyou really don't know how hard that is for me, sometimes.â he mutters, eyes averting away from you. his hands come to rest on your hips, and it illustrates his point: he can't keep his hands off you.
âyou're so gorgeous⌠prettiest girl iâve ever seen. and you've got no idea how badly i just wanna push you down on the bed and fuck you sometimes.â jisung takes his hands off you, like they'll betray him. his hands ball up into fists at his sides. âyou deserve someone who's able to wait for you, patiently.â
you don't like the implication of jisung's words. that you might âdeserveâ someone better than him. your hands reach for his wrists, and guide his hands back to your body where they currently belong.
âi don't want anyone else, jisung, only you. it felt good when you ate me out. i liked it. i want more.â you cup his cheeks, forcing him to look at you. âfuck me. please?â you ask, thumbing over his cheeks. your eyes are so warm, so full of love for your just slightly perverted boyfriend.
âi don't wanna make you wait anymore. i'm ready now. please? i want it.â
jisung can't resist you: his dick is throbbing in his sweats, his mind clouded because you look so damn good on his lap. you're begging him to take your virginity. youâre clearing up the doubt and guilt in his mind. who is he to deny you any further?Â
âi love you.â he grins, shaking his head. his hands travel up from your hips to your waist, and he presses a quick kiss to your cheek. âlie down, baby. let me take care of you.â
youâre quick to push yourself off his lap, and lie down beside his sitting form. thereâs an air of excitement bouncing between you two as he kneels between your legs. he sits back to admire you beneath him.Â
the way your hair lies behind you, the eager look in your eyes, the gloss of your lips from the messy kiss you shared. the way your top scrunches up beneath your tits, the strap barely falling off your shoulder. Itâs the little nuances of your appearance that have him feeling like the windâs been knocked from his lungs, and he wants to commit that beauty to memory, write about it like heâll ever find the right words to describe you.
debauched. hot. perfect. âmineâ.Â
he canât control himself, hands wandering your body to brush up your thighs. they reach your ribs and begin pushing up your top, freeing your tits for him to grope and tease. he takes in the way your breath catches, notes the things he does what makes you react. youâre so reactive and all heâs done is feel you up.
âshh⌠baby, i knowâŚâ he whispers as he takes your nipple between his thumb and index finger to give it a rough pinch. âwant it so bad, right? want me to just put it in?âÂ
you nod. heâs worked you up quickly. ânot yet. my girl deserves a special first time. i canât just put it in. what kind of boyfriend would i be?â
âbut, jiââ jisungâs hands trailing down your ribcage to your hips. his thumbs soothe over the skin, but his grip is firm, and keeps you in your place.Â
âdonât be a brat.â the sudden sternness in his voice has you shutting up immediately. you donât think heâs ever spoken to you with such strictness⌠it turns you on. with that, he stands, and pulls you to the edge of the bed.Â
âlet me take care of you.â his voice is softer as he speaks and drops to his knees on the floor. he ends all your thoughts of impatience the moment he begins kissing up your inner thighs. âgotta prep my girl first, okay?â
thereâs a gentleness in his touch, as he spreads your thighs a little wider, taking in the sight of you. as if he didnât make you cum on his tongue with no regards for your virgin status just a week ago. ârelax fâme.â
he spreads your pussy open with two fingers, and in seconds thereâs a slow, wet trail of his spit dripping down your clit. jisung starts with slow, gentle licks that have you melting into his touch. he works up a fire inside you that spreads with every deep shallow breath, every barely audible whine from your lips. when your wetness and his saliva are all glistening across his chin, he pulls away. âhowâs it feel, pretty girl?â
âgood.â you breathe out, and suck in a deep breath. âwant more.â you roll your hips, desperate to get his mouth back on you.Â
"yeah? more what?â jisung rubs your thighs, giving you a break whether you like it or not. itâs a form of self control for himself as well, he canât get lost in eating you out if he stops. âwhat do you want more of, baby? tell me.â
honestly, you donât know. you just want more of the feeling heâs giving you, the fire that builds slowly and threatens to take your breath away. luckily, jisung is more than happy to give you options. âwant more of my mouth? or do you want to try my fingers?â
âjust wanna feel good.â you decide, and jisung smiles. youâre cute, and you trust him with to make you feel good, even if you donât know what you want. heâs eager now, your plea spurring him on. jisung teases his finger at your entrance, and slowly inserts it as he begins to suck on your clit. itâs not enough, not for jisung. as soon as he feels you relaxing around one finger, heâs quick to insert anther. itâs not a hard stretch. not when your pussyâs being so greedy, sucking in his fingers as he sucks on your clit.Â
all the while youâre moaning his name so sweetly, rutting your hips up into his mouth like heâs just a pillow for you to hump. âfuck, babyâŚâ heâs moaning into your pussy, reaching his arms beneath your thighs to pull you closer.
âjiâŚâ the way you moan his name is obscene. he wants to hear it again.
âcum on my tongue.â itâs somewhere between a command and a plea. however he asks, he needs to see it again, feel it againâfuck, he needs to taste it again. âcum on my tongue and you can have my dick, baby. âs all yours.âÂ
itâs not lost on him that youâre close when your hands reach for his hair, tugging in a way that makes his eyes roll to the back of his head. he knows before you do, and heâs doing all he can to make you tip over the edge.Â
âpleaseââÂ
the fire he coaxes within you builds and builds. until youâre warm to the touch and canât speak anything but his name in broken moans. he holds you down when you cum, your hips fighting against his strength as his fingers fuck you through it.
âgood girl⌠thatâs my good girlâŚâ he praises. his eyes are glued to your face, taking in every frame of you as you come undone on his fingers. once your breathing calms, and you lie still on the bed, his eyes trail down to your pussy. his fingers gather the wetness of your cunt and pull out in tandem with your whine of âtoo much!â
âlook at you, babyâŚâ he coos as he stands. âthatâs my good girl, cumming on my tongue so pretty for me.â his clean hand trails up your body, and rests against your throat. his hand is warm, almost weightless as it rests above your throat. itâs oddly grounding for you.
âmade such a mess, thoughâŚâ an idea pops into his head. âyou ever taste yourself, baby?â you shake your head no. jisung brings two fingers up to your lips. âgo ahead.â he brushes the slick pads of his fingers against your bottom lip.
âclean up the mess you made.â
jisung groans as you take his fingers into your mouth. He canât recall seeing a sweeter sight in his life. the way you look up at him, eyes wide and glossy as his fingers hit the back of your throat. you donât stop though. you keep sucking, even beginning to bob your head a little and it goes straight to his dick.
heâs enjoying this too much.
jisung slides his fingers out of your mouth, and runs the same hand through his hair. âfeel good?â he takes note of the look on your face, so fucked out already. you nod. itâs not a good enough response for him. âtalk to me.â heâs gentle as he speaks, and brushes your hair out of your face.Â
âfeels good, ji.â you sigh, and shut your eyes.Â
âyeah?â
âyeah.â
âwant more? or are you done for the night?â jisungâs thumb caresses your cheek, the other hand sits softly at your waist.
âmore, please?âÂ
âof course, baby. you did so good for me. i promised you iâd give you my cock, didnât i? gotta give my pretty girl what she wants.â it makes him impatient, to know that he has you prepped and eager for him. but he has to start slowly.Â
he pushes his sweats down beneath his thighs, too impatient to fully take them off. he fists his heavy cock in his hands as the tip prods at your entrance.Â
âgonna put it in now, okay?â he doesn't give you much time to think about it and before you can reply, he's pushing in.Â
âjisungâŚâ your eyes shut as you moan his name, and jisung watches the way your pussy welcomes him. you watch jisung: the hungry look in his eyes, the messiness of his hair, the way he breathes deep and slow as he takes you. half his cock is nestled inside you when he finally breaks the silence.
âyou're doing so good, babyâŚâ he mutters, leaning down to kiss your forehead. âtaking me so wellâŚâÂ
it's then that he starts to thrust. calculated and slow strokes that have you gasping as clenching around him. jisung is captivated. his eyes are glued onto the way you suck him in. he's barely able to keep himself from fucking into you deeper.Â
your eyes wander down from taking in jisung's expressions, to the way his hips fuck into you with all the restraint he has. it makes you want more, want to feel him completely.
âmore,â it's not an ask or a plea. it's a demand. you keen into his touch, and your eyes lock. âi want it all.âÂ
jisung laughs. he can't help it, you're cute. âmore, baby? you want all my cock?â he teases and slowly begins to pull out.
âyes!â you whine, âjisung, please?â
it's cute. you're so desperate for him. it's hypocritical almost. he's using all his self control trying not to fuck you like he's a fucking rabbit in heat.
without any warning, he's grabbing your hips and pulling you closer. he slides into you, slowly. he groans as he bottoms out. you reach out to grip the sheets, but he's quick to grasp your hand instead.
âgood job, baby. fuck, pussy's made for meâhold my hand, pretty girlâŚâ
jisung pulls back and he swears he sees stars. âfuckâŚâ he doesn't know how much longer he can control himself. his thrusts are deep and slow, falling into the familiar routine he fucked you with earlier.Â
it's not enough for you. not enough pleasure to satiate the fire hes stoking inside of you. âmore.â you demand. âmore, ji.â something snaps in him. heâs quick to fulfill your request, fucking into you faster.Â
âso dirty, baby. never been fucked before and already canât get enough.â you canât deny his words, or respond. all you do is moan his name again and arch into his touch.
âclose?â you mutter, almost unsure of when your own orgasm is coming. with that, jisung spreads your pussy open with his fingers, and spits right on your clit. the high pitched whine that leaves your lips makes him smirk.Â
âi know, baby.â his fingers work fast circles against your clit, and he feels the way you tense and squirm against his touch. âtoo much!â and itâs not. jisung knows itâs not. itâs just enough.
 âcum for me, baby.â and you do: with little whines and moans of his name, with little rolls of your hips to chase the pleasure heâs giving you. youâre clenching around him like a vice, each flutter of your pussy brings him closer to cumming, and heâs already trying his best to hold off.
he canât take it anymore. jisung pulls out quickly and fists himself as he cums on your tummy. âthatâs my girl⌠did so well.â he praises, his free hand soothing over your hip.Â
jisung watches as you come down from your high. you're so pretty. his pretty girl. all ruined. your hair's a mess. the thin sheen of sweat on your forehead. his cum all over your tummy.
âhow are you feeling, baby?â he asks with a soft smile on his face.Â
âgood,â you nod, a barely there smile on your face as you reach for his hand. âmore than good.âÂ
you tug his hand, trying to pull him down to cuddle you. it's a signal that jisung responds to immediately. he's pulling you to the side to spoon you.Â
one hand rests against your tummy, and he rests your head against his other arm. he kisses your nape, then your shoulder, then rests his head against you. itâs peaceful.Â
âi love you, jisung.â
âi love you, baby.â
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pairing ot8 stray kids (seperate) x fem reader synopsis in which the dads successfully get seducedáŻáĄŁđŠ.áâšcw/ tw suggestive, borderline smut, alcohol, taboo situations, pet names, cheating, mentions of sexting, smut (hyunjinâs) food play with whipped cream, oral fixation, nipple play, mentions of fingering, talks about cunnilingus, lowkey smut (felixâs) foot job, kinda public sex, mentions of a vibrator, smut (jeonginâs) blow job, spit kink wc 10k +
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mocha note itâs been two days and iâm already on a part three of these helwsjk, can you tell that I love seungmin LMFAO, also the edit iâm referring to for jeonginâs is linked here
Chan was confused
He couldnât wrap his head the idea of Y/n genuinely, a young woman in her twenties being interested in him, a man with two kids and hair that was more than likely soon to be fully gray before the decade ended, and like he always did when his overthinking got the best of him, he pulled away, abrupt and hard
Y/n really couldnât understand why he pulled away, she thought it was clear that she really did like him, pepper hair, two kids and all, but she understood, she wasnât the older one in the situation, she would feel the same way if the roles were reversed so she did the only thing she could do, wait
Unlike the boys in my age group, I found myself getting to know Chan for a person, and not for what was in his pants, he believed in making genuine connections with a person before even crossing the line of sexual. I soft sigh bubbled past my lips at how intimate he was, he never did anything ultimately sexual in nature, but his firm hands gripping onto my arm to prevent me from falling, or the way he held my hand while simply staring into my eyes
Chan was a man of many love languages, one being physical touch, in our private studying times in his office, his hands was always somewhere on my body, it didnât matter, they could be kneading my thigh, or intertwined with mine, while reading the textbook to me so that I would understand it better
Not to mention the phone calls we used to have before he did a complete 180, no good morning texts, no texts making fun of my assignments, and no contact in real life either, when I came in early for my Friday lecture, he simply ignored me and threw himself into making assignments for the next month instead
I rolled my eyes at the thoughts of him flooding my mind even though I promised myself that I would give him space, if he was confused about how he wanted to handle things with me, I wasnât going to interfere, the phone works two ways and when he was ready to act like the man he was, I would be there to console him
âFuck thisâ
I immediately walked into my closet, deciding to head to a bar since I had no classes tomorrow, and a bit of soju never hurt when I found myself overthinking. My once clean roomed turned into a jungle of clothes and shoes strewn wildly against any crevice possible, I had an outfit in mind, and I couldnât find the perfect bra to pair it with
Fifteen minutes of searching, I later found it in my dirty clothes hamper, making me scream at how unlucky my life was at the moment, but the good thing about me was that I always had a back up, and my back up came in the form of a strapless black tube dress and a pair of chanel heels my mother gotten me for my twenty first birthday a couple years back
I stepped out into the living room of the apartment I shared with my younger brother, my purse and flats in hands âIâm going out Jakey, donât stay up too late for meâ My younger brother scoffed and asked why would he wait up for me, he didnât care that much, I giggled and raised my middle finger in retaliation and before he could say anything else, I was already out of the front door and walking to my car nearly parked in our drive way
âHave fun tonight Y/n, donât let him ruin this for youâ I didnât know why I was reminding myself, deep down I knew that he ruined any man who wasnât him for me, I knew that I would quickly find the bar boring, heading home before I could even explore my options, he was that important to me
Thoughts of Chan began to dwindle as I finally arrived at the bar, heels clicking against the asphalt while my body swayed, cat walking into the ever lively bar, the moment I stepped in, I knew I caught the attention of some people, but they werenât interesting, they werenât him
Loud music reverberated against my ears, while the red and blue lights flashed violently in tandem, I made my way towards the bartender who recognized me and immediately got started on making me a whiskey sour, it wasnât like I enjoyed whiskey, but it wasnât a soju type of night, and I wanted to feel tipsy
âHere you go madam, should I put that on your tab?â I shook my head, and pulled out the three hundred won the glass costed and thanked him, taking a seat on one of the chairs facing him. It hasnât even been a minute, and out of the corner of my eye, I noticed a guy, who looked to be about my age, approaching me
I let my eyes drift forward, trying to ignore the soon to be awkward encounter, but he took that as me being shy, and asked to buy me another drink âNo thanks, I still have this oneâ I smiled sweetly thinking that it would be enough to get him to back off, but instead he shocked me by taking my glass and finishing it for me
âWhat drink, how about you let me buy you another one babyâ My eyes deadpanned and I rolled my eyes âHow old even are youâ The male puffed up his chest and immediately replied with â21â which made me ick faster than him snatching my drink did âAnd you cutie? How old are youâ
âSheâs too old for youâ
Chan needed to de-stress, taking on grading multiple assignments so he wasnât stuck daydreaming about a girl he was supposed to mentor taxed on his body a lot harder than it shouldâve, so he found himself calling his ex wife asking if she could retrieve their sons just for the night and he would pick them up in the morning, being the nosy woman she was, she inquired about his reasons, to which he laughed and told her that he would see her in a few
After dropping off his sons at their mothers and having his ex wife interrogate him in person, he silently drove his car to his destination. Chan felt stuck, he couldnât turn on his radio because every song reminded him of the woman he was currently avoiding, her beauty was was unmatched, he often found himself getting lost in her features more than not, her voice was a symphony, a symphony that warmed his heart and melted his walls
But that didnât stop him from being scared, heâs been married once, and engaged three times, heâs sworn off on relationships, and now a college student has him rethinking his decisions. âI'm fucking screwedâ images of Y/n smiling into his chest raided his mind and he arrived at the bar faster than he expected, having blanked most of the drive out because his mind was busy
Chan didnât know what he was expecting when he had walked in, but he sure didnât expect to see you, getting flirted with by a boy who he was sure was only trying to get into your pants, and before he knew it, he was on his way to make his presence known
My heart thumped wildly at the familiarity of the voice beside me and noticed Chan, of all people staring down the poor boy who walked off, claiming that I was too ugly for him anyway âWell hello to you too Chrisâ The older man didnât say anything, but his eyes told me everything I needed to know, my hand left my lap and began to travel onto his thigh while maintaining eye contact âI missed you⌠a lotâ
I didnât mean to immediately be clingy, but with the way his eyes dilated, I knew it was well received âY/n, letâs goâ I arched my brow but allowed him to lead me out of the bar, all the way to his car. Chan opened the passenger door for me and as if he could read my mind, he told me he would drive me back later to retrieve my car when it was less busy, and we were less likely to be recognized
Only then did I remember that this wasnât a random dude I met and fell for, this was my Chemistry teacher and a lot of things rode on us not being together, being in a relationship, he could lose his job, and I could lose the degree that I spent the last four years grinding for, but as his hand traveled dangerously from my thigh inwards, the repercussions started to seem worth it
Anything was worth it if it was for Christoper Bangâs heart, and as we messily made out in his car, parked in his driveway, I began thinking about what it would be like to stake my claim on him âIâm so fucking sorry Y/n, thank you for coming back to me, I just needed time to figure things outâŚâ He trailed off but his eyes never left mine, and I smiled, cradling his face in my hands âMy poor baby, Iâll always wait for youâ He cursed under his breath and hastily opened his car door, just to appear next to the passenger side, opening my door and leading me inside his house
âI donât deserve youâ He was mumbling now, but the moment the door closed, he pinned me up against it, nipping against my skin, leaving a trail of heat in his movements âBaby, we deserve each other, we just met in an interesting predicamentâ He pulled away to chuckle against the skin of my neck before starting his ministrations again âWeâre about to get in an even bigger one babyâ Before I could question him, he took hold on my body and threw me over his shoulders as if I weighed nothing, proving that his muscles werenât just for show
âAnd âm gonna show you how much I appreciate youâ
I found myself stuck between a rock and a hard place, the rock being my morals, and a hard place being my littleâs father. Minho obviously didnât make it easier on me, despite never reaching the step of penetration, we indulged in many activities that shouldâve made me feel guilty, but instead it made me feel ensnared by the trap of Lee Minhoâs body
Of course he was fit, he worked out every morning at five oâclock, and he ate meals fit for kings, it also didnât help that he aged like fine wine, one drunken night and a couple of sloppy kisses later and he was pulling out a photo album, complete with baby photos of his two daughters and himself, and he definitely had multiple glow ups despite never needing them
Young dad Minho had nothing on the Minho right now and I could only hope to age like him if I ever was ever given the chance to have children and a husband and Minho knew he looked good, having said so an eye- rolling amount of times. Lately I found myself sleeping in one of the Leeâs households guest rooms even after the kitchen was repaired, Minho said it was because he had a feeling it wasnât fixed up to standard, but I knew that it was because he liked having me around
Tonight was no different, Minhee was bar hopping with a couple friends who I deemed responsible enough to hang out with, so I didnât feel the need to go, and while she was out, doing young adult activities, her 10 year old sister Minju had decided to sleep over her moms since as apart of the divorce proceedings, Minho had her every weekday, and his ex wife, her mother had her for every other weekend, this weekend being one of them
So it was just Minho and I in the house together and the thought of that sent a chill up my spine, I checked my phone and saw that it was only 8 pm so Minho was either taking his shower since he took walks every day after dinner and since he ate while out at work, he had to wait until he got home to do so or taking his nap. I told him multiple times that he was getting old, having needed atleast one nap just to function through out the day
I hummed softly as my hands moved in a rhythm that was comfortable to Soonie since he was laying in my bed, purring softly as my fingers rubbed against his ears âDo you think that your daddy is asleep or in the showerâ Of course the room went silent after I asked a literal cat about his opinion, but that didnât stop me from taking his silence as an answer
âMe too Soonie, me tooâ The tabby cat immediately began stretching and then moved away, having gotten tired of the petting and wanted to be left alone âYouâre just like your father Soonieâ If the cat could understand me, he didnât make it known, because like always he sat unbothered and simply ignored me
âWell since iâm hungry, âm gonna go fix me some foodâ I smacked my head against my forehead and groaned, it seemed that the longer I stayed at Minhoâs house, the more I began talking to myself âI am literally going insaneâ I shrugged and then remembered that I was still in my clothes from earlier and should change into my pajamas
A devious grin etched onto my face as I raided the drawers of the guest rooms dresser for the pajama set I packed on a whim, it was sheer and a beautiful pastel mint, it was a tank top that appeared more like a bra than an actual tank top, but the shorts took the cake, literally, they were ruffled and cupped my ass nicely, letting the underside of my rear peak through just enough to invoke indecent thoughts from the father of two
I stepped out of my room, clad in the pajamas and a pair of rubber gripped fluffy socks since his house was majority hardwood and I refused to slip and fall in front of Minho, instead of helping, he would more than likely stand there and call me an idiot, making me feel even more embarrassed
My sock covered feet muffled the steps I took from my room, all the way into his kitchen, It was only 8:17 and I havenât eaten all day, so fixing the leftover gamjaguk, that Minho had made for dinner yesterday seemed like the best option âWhere the fuck did they put the ladleâ I searched every drawer and noticed that the ladle I was looking for seemed to disappear from the kitchen, I frowned and dipped down to check one of the small cabinets closer to the floor
thwack
A loud squeal erupted from me causing me to jump due to the pain arising from the left side of my behind, a loud snicker from the culprit made me roll my eyes, and as I turned around, I was met by the grinning face of Minho âWhat the hell was that forâ he chuckled and shrugged without moving his eyes away from me âWhy not it was right thereâ I rolled my eyes and massaged the area where his palm connected and whined
âBut it hurtâ Minho cooed and placed his hand on the exact area where it hurt âI can make it feel better for you b-â He was cut off by the front door opening and immediately backed away, while I began searching for the ladle once again, not even thirty seconds later, Minhee walked into the kitchen and headed straight for the refrigerator, grabbing a water bottle, then giving her father a kiss on the cheek, having greeted her dad, she made her way to me and engulfed me in a large hug, and while I usually enjoyed her bear hugs, I felt nothing but deep guilt, even moreso since I was staring into the intense eyes of Minho, her father, right behind her back figuratively and literally.
She pulled away and immediately went to the fridge, and there was the ladle, literally sitting on a shelf in the fridge for no fucking reason âyou have to be kidding meâ Minhee and her father both looked at me, silently questioning me, to which I briefly the fiasco where I was searching for the ladle so I could enjoy leftovers only to come up empty handed âOh my bad, I left it in there because I didnât want to misplace itâ I stared at Minhee and placed my thumb across my neck, slowly drawing it across in a threatening manner making the girl raise her hand in mock surrender and running to her room
I cursed mentally at how awkward the atmosphere had become, less than a couple of minutes ago, it was hot and heavy, I was literally about to get intimate with my friendâs father. Our eyes met and shared a secret that only we could understand, whatever we were doing it was wrong, his long slender legs slowly moved until they our thighs were plush together, his hands that rested themselves on my waist, more than likely knew my body better than my ex
âThis is wrongâ Minho nodded, his eyes never leaving mine âIt isâ I moved my hands to place the palms of them on his chest âWe should stopâ His hands began to travel south towards my ass and he nodded again âWe shouldâ For a few seconds we held eye contact that only got hotter the longer we stared, my hairs curled themselves in his hair and leaned in âThis isnât right Minhoâ he then leaned in, his breath tickling my ear âBut it feels rightâ
And I was putty in his hands, gamjaguk forgotten as I undressed her father in the middle of the kitchen, while she was less than a few feet in her room, literally able to walk in at any moment âBe a good girl and keep it downâ He kissed my jaw and sucked lightly drawing a harsh breath from me and then pulled away chuckling âThen again itâs me, not many people can keep quiet with me aroundâ
I rolled my eyes and traced my finger against his god chiseled jaw âWell thatâs big shoes to fill Mr. Lee, are you all talk or are you actually going to be able to back up your statementsâ The male smiled, tongue coming out to lick his lips while his hands worked on pulling the straps of my tank top down- drawing a sharp breath having felt the warmness of my collarbones with the tip of his fingers
âKeep being a good girl and youâll be able to find outâ
It wasnât hard to predict what was going on through Changbin's head, he always seemed present, but never present in the moment. Over the span of two whirlwind months, we've always been together, only separating when we have to work, or he has to go to the gym and it was to the point that Eunha had some of her things at my house since she was frequently over
Today Changbin decided to take Eunha and I out to the movies so that she could see inside out two, after the movie, he would have to drop Eunha off at her mothers house because his ex wide requested to have their daughter for a week, with a heavy heart he agreed and understood that whatever happened between the two of them had nothing to do with Eunha, and she deserved both parents in her life
While he agreed, that didn't mean that I couldn't pick upon how he really felt, so while Eunha was napping before we left out for the movies, I began massaging his shoulders "Itâll be okay Binnie, Eunha is still here, letâs just make sure you two have the best time before her send offâ Even though my hands worked deftly to knead his shoulder âShe only takes Eunha whenever it benefits her, I donât know what sheâs planning but I donât want my daughter hurtâ I nodded and trailed my hands up towards his hair, massaging the roots
âAnd since she has a wonderful father like you she, I know you wonât have to worry about that, besides she has no filter, so sheâs definitely going to tell you every small detail that happensâ I stopped and dipped my torso down, looking at him upside down and giggled âLetâs enjoy Eunha while sheâs still here, she hasnât left yet honâ I kissed his forehead and held his face in place since he had a tendency to look away
âPlus Eunha said she didnât like her mom all that much, so youâll probably have your princess back before the week endsâ I placed a feathered kiss onto his nose and stood upright again, after a few more minutes of talking and coaxing him to relax, he was finally smiling again
âYouâre so good to me Y/n what would I do without youâ I shrugged and chuckled âSuffer, but itâs okay, I think weâre a good pairâ I pat his shoulders and sat down on the couch beside him, laying on his shoulder enjoying the atmosphere between us
Ever since Eunha started asking me to come over a lot more, I always somehow found myself wrapped in her fathers embrace, and much to much dismay it never went farther, probably because Changbin didnât really know how to go about flirting, and he didnât want to make it weird, but I would let him put me in a headlock if he wanted
âYouâre so cute like this Binnieâ I placed my hand on his thigh and trekked it closer and closer until his breath hitched âYouâre not slick Y/nâ I lifted my head from his shoulder and put on the most innocent face that I could muster âBut iâm not doing anything, absolutely nothing Binnieâ My fingers trailed higher and were now playing with the strings to the waistband of his sweats, I toyed with them debating if I should untie them but before I could even decide what to do, he immediately straightened and pushed my hands away
âHey wha-â His eyes were telling me to look behind me and only then did I remember that Eunha was still here and she called our names, signaling to us that she was awake and was in need of our attention, a knowing look painted his face and he stood up, awkwardly fixing his pants and opening his arms, waiting for his princess to jump into his arms
Eunha ran, but before she could reach he fatherâs open arms, she jumped onto the couch and straight into my lap, causing a grunted noise to wind through my chest âHey baby, how was your napâ Changbin sulked about being denied by his own daughter, but she could care less âIt was good, can we go to the movie nowâ I held her for a moment and asked her father should I began getting her ready and he shrugged, saying that he was going to get dressed and I should head over to mine so that I could as well
It was finally time for the movie, and we walked in, hands linked and Eunha on my hip, making people stare in admiration and or envy, my heart swelled at the idea of people thinking that I was a mother, or better yet, Changbinâs wife and I found that I liked the sound of that better than being his neighbor who hung out with his daughter occasionally
I wanted to be in their daily lives, and I wanted to be an important role in their lives like they would be mine. It was finally time to say goodbye to Eunha for a week and being honest, it hurt me too, my schedule began filling up with the beautiful girl. Tears welled up in my eyes and I couldnât help but sniffle, the little girl even cried in my arms while her mother angrily watched on
âAre you okay Binnie?â It was silent on the way home to the apartments but I knew that he was focused on not being upset due to not being able to physically see his daughter for an entire week âIâm fine iâll just miss my baby girlâ His hand slipped down onto my thigh as the car slowed because the light turning red âYeah?â He turned his head and held eye contact âYeahâ His hand inched dangerously closer, hesitating to go completely âMâkayâ I took his hand and trailed it up myself
âMy poor babyâs so needy that sheâs tryna fuck herself against my fingers, while iâm driving? tchâ I smiled and giggled, not hiding the fact that he was correct âWell get me home fast enough and I wouldnât be this needy honeyâ He chuckled, driving one handedly since his less dominant hand was occupied, I wasnât one for assuming things, but with the way he stepped on the gas, attempting to stay on the legal limit made me think that he was actually excited about fucking me, but it wasnât me if I didnât tease him through it
My fingers busied themselves with unzipping his pants palming him, and at every red light, I applied a bit of pressure âYouâre hard baby, but iâm the needy one apparentlyâ He ignored me, but with the way his jaw began tensing, I knew that I was in for it, not that I would want it any other way
It was tense in the Hwang household, Somi was never home, making Hyunjin disappointed in his childrenâs mother, but that wasnât the sole reason for the change in the house. Ever since his drunken confession that lead to the start of our cyber affair, heâs been trying hard not to step out of his marriage in front of his kids, outside we were nanny, and a tired father who had a mutual understanding of the lovely three kids
That still didnât stop Hyunjin from initiating acts that showed me that whatever we talked about over text, was serious, I know I shouldâve felt guilt having sent a video of me pleasuring myself to a married man with two kids and a baby that wasnât even one yet, and I wouldâve, had he not sent back a video of his release, moaning my name with it as his milky white orgasm coated his stomach and thighs
Careful touches that held their own conversations was now the norm between me and Hyunjin, touches as simple as our fingers accidentally touching after Hyori wanted to be passed between us sent signals through the both of us, it was wrong, but it was everything I wanted. We also started doing things for each other that would only make sense to us, I would walk around the house in his favorite colors, and he would do the same for me, even though my favorite was his least favorite, I also had a bath ready for him the moment he came home, no words had to be exchanged, we were on the same wavelength, even if that wavelength was a marriage ruining affair
âSomething smells deliciousâ I looked up and gave the sweetest fake smile I could muster, Somi was finally home, and it was because Hyunjinâs mother requested her two grandsons for the weekend, Hyori would have went too had she not have started a new phase in which she began only wanting to be near me or her father when he came home from his job as a celebrity interior designer and a model
âWell Iâm baking a cake, the boys asked for some and since I didnât have time to while they were here so, iâm surprising them with one when they get backâ I was making a chocolate cake, but the Hwang boys were vocal in their disdain for regular frosting, so I was in the middle of hand whipping chocolate whipped icing for the boys enjoyment
Somiâs face scrunched as she scoffed âCould you not have brought a cake? Why take on more work than you have to?â I shrugged, of course she wouldnât get what it was like to see someone who you loved get excited over something you did for them, and since my love language was acts of service, I didnât mind doing it, in fact I preferred it, but again, she wouldnât understand anything that wasnât her husbands pay check
âThe boys donât like store brought cake, and besides homemade is healthierâ Somi began speaking about how she knew what was her sons liked since she was the one to give birth to them, so I bit my tongue, I was not about to start and argument with the woman who was married to the man I was a mistress to, that would make me a stereotypical mistress
âWell iâll let you finish your unnecessary cake, I think you forgot that little boys eat anything and everything and they would most definitely not care if a cake was homemade, or if it was store brought, cake is cakeâ I rolled my eyes and physically bit my tongue, it didnât matter if she was they boyâs biological mother or not, she put no effort into learning her children
âWell, iâm out, I just had to tell Hyunjin that I wouldnât be back until next week, iâm going to Japan with one of my fellow mommy friendsâ I smiled and wished her farewell and being honest I wouldnât care if she didnât come back until next lifetime âHave fun and be safe, safe travelsâ She thanked me and the house fell silent for a little bit until the tell tale sign of Hyori crying rang throughout the house
Usually I wouldâve rushed to her, but it was nearing her bed time and Hyunjin requested that whenever he was home that heâd be the one to put her to sleep, and who was I to deny a man who actually enjoyed spending his time with his daughter
The cake was almost finished, but I felt that it needed a touch of regular whipped cream, so I trekked over to the large stainless steel fridge, everytime I seen it, I was reminded at how rich Hyunjin was, he had enough money to spend on a refrigerator with a built in tablet that connected to his and my phone. I giggled and shook my head as a reminder that I needed to grab whipped cream not to fawn over a refrigerator
I grabbed my spatula, grabbing one last scoop of the chocolate cream âWhatchaâ makingâ I forgot that I was in fact not alone in the house and having not heard him walk into the kitchen, I squealed and dropped a little bit of the chocolate icing on my chest, thankfully not on my white tank top
Hyunjinâs eyes turned to slits as he stepped closer to me, eliminating any of the space that was previously between us âI was making a chocolate cake for the boys, but you scared meâ I pretended to be upset and immediately broke my demeanor, giggling while trying not to stare directly into his eyes, but he had another idea entirely
His middle and index finger moved from their place hanging idle by hips and scooped up the fallen cream from my chest, my eyes widened while his locked onto my face, sticking the two fingers and sucking on them, moaning while his tongue swirled around the digits, my panties were damp at this point, his eyes never leaving my body
âYour cream is delicious baby, have you tried it?â My eyes widened at the innuendo, and I shook my head while my bottom lip slipped between my teeth, keeping me from spewing some desperate nonsense âTry itâ His fingers swiped into the bowl directly at this point, his other hand cupped my jaw, gently prying it open so he could stick his long slender fingers between my lips
I opened my mouth for him and eagerly sucked on the digits, moaning at the way he pressed them against my tongue, I popped off for a brief moment onto to take the chocolate cream covered digits, my eyes never left his, not even when I finished with an audible pop âIt really is goodâ Hyunjin chuckled and licked his lips, his eyes telling me that he wasnât done
âYou still have some on your chest babyâ Hyunjin was quick, immediately dipping down and letting his mouth suckle at the area, whines of pleasure couldnât help but ooze out of my body while his tongue lapped at the area like a starved man, his hands holding a death grip onto my hips, most definitely leaving bruises to match the hickies forming on my chest
âLetâs not let this go to waste no?â Before I could even question him, he picked my body up with ease placing it back down onto the counter, with efficiency, he took my tank top off, leaving me in nothing but my panties and shorts against his kitchenâs island countertop
He groaned while smearing the chocolate cream all the way from my collarbone down to the waistband of my sleep shorts. In seconds I was turned into a moaning mess when he latched his mouth onto my left breast, teasing the nipple with his teeth, while his other hand busied itself groping my right breast
âStop teasing Hwangâ instead of verbally replying he bit down on my nipple, causing me squeal out in shock and a teensy bit of pain âOh baby donât tell me what to do, thatâs my job for you princess, got it?â With haste, I immediately shook my head in confirmation making the man stand up and chuckle making me tilt my head in confusion
He kept his eyes on mine while removing his wedding ring, which sent even more waves of pleasure to my cunt that was already sopping, begging for any kind of friction
âOh baby, iâm not going to stick my fingers in you with another womanâs ring onâ
Jisung and I gotten really close over the span of a couple weeks, most of our conversations being over facetime since we were both too busy to meet up, him with producing, making music, and being a father, and me doing the same things except switch the parenting part with dancing
I was currently on facetime with the male because not only was I struggling on my concept for the next comeback I would have, but my fans loved the sexual nature of Sticky, making my company force me into writing a song of the same nature
"I don't know Jisung, I don't like how the chorus sounds and it's about to make me tweak out" A deep but very chuckle sounded from my speakers while Jisung tried his best to convince me not to do anything that would get me caught up in a scandal
âIâm not good at writing sex songs, I literally havenât had sex in lord knows how longâ I didnât realize that I was just blabbing now, but Jisung went silent and then began making fun of me for my lack of sex to which I cursed him out
âNot all of us can be the J.One, we all canât be sexy like you Jisungâ I rolled my eyes making sure that my phone was propped up where it could see my notepad and crumbled papers of failure surrounding my work space âYouâre right, not all of us can be me, but if you play your cards right, you can get a piece of meâ He winked and I scoffed folding my arms over my chest
âOh please, I didnât forget about you texting me about how proud you are about being a munch Jisungâ The male shrugged and then told me he wasnât denying the truth âIf youâre such a munch then why are most of your songs about receiving and not giving baby boy, plus when I sent you my location the other day, you didnât eat me out, we literally made out and that was itâ The males face turned red and he screamed about me being wrong
âOkay so first things first I literally had a plan on how I was gonna fuck you Y/n how was I supposed to know that my baby mama was gonna call me, besides just because I like giving head doesnât mean that I give head to every girl I fuck, not everyone has been worthy of my talentâ I scoffed and shook my head at the male who was now in his kitchen, cooking stir fried rice with his shirt off, showing off the planes of well sculpted abs âOh so iâm worthy of your talentâ
The other side of the phone went silent but I could hear the sizzling of spam in his pan âOf course, just wait till weâre less busy babe, iâll make you feel so good that you canât help but have enough material to write sex songsâ I didnât respond and I also wouldnât admit to him that talking about him giving me head was actually motivating me, just not in the way I needed it right now
âAnd how would you eat me out Mr. J munch Oneâ He chuckled and added an egg into the pan, immediately popping the yolk and spreading it around with his chop sticks âWell for starters, iâm kissing you, your thighs, your stomach, and your hips, iâll bite down every now and then making sure that your skin is blossoming with my marksâ
My eyes widened but he didnât even look up from the stove and continued âThen, iâm finger fucking fucking you until I find your g spot, then iâll make sure anytime that I finger you, iâd abuse that spot until you cum all over my fingersâ He looked up at the camera and then back at his food âThen after you cum like the good girl that I know you are, iâm gonna put my fingers in you again, this time adding my tongue, iâll make sure to lick up every drop of your essence babyâ
âAfter sucking your cunt clean, iâm tongue fucking the shit out of you until you squirt all over my face, and I wonât stop until I have you squirting baby, If iâm not covered in you by time weâre done, then I failedâ He wasnât done speaking but I couldnât just stay quiet, especially now that he was turning me on âYeah? and how would you have me after thatâ
Jisung smirked, knowing that his words were getting to me âIâd make you sit on my face next, if my girl is squirting, it better be while iâm underneath herâ My eyes widened and he smirked âMy face is your chair babe, put all your weight on my face I can handle it, if iâm able to breath youâre not doing it rightâ
âWhat if iâm too heavy for you Jisung then whatâ The male stared at me as if I offended him and I almost felt like apologizing âI work out for a reason, iâm literally made to pleasure you baby, not to mention the fact I could bust your pretty little pussy open on my cockâ
I gasped and immediately asked him how would he have me given the opportunity and he chuckled saying that heâd fuck me in missionary, not because he was boring since he was quite the opposite, but he wanted to leave hickies on my breast and see how good his cock made me feel
âIâd fuck you so good that I could literally fuck a baby in youâ I rolled my eyes and jokingly told him that I doubt that anyone could make me want a baby by them and he shrugged âYou see iâm a dad already, thatâs literally the one thing I can proveâ I shrugged and laughed âNo, all that tells me is that you have a weak pull out gameâ
The male rolled his eyes and grabbed his phone, and put it down after a few seconds, and after a couple more, I realized he texted me his address and he remained nonchalant while shrugging âSeeing that youâre struggling with material and iâm struggling with a boner, you should come overâ
âYou wishâ He smiled and said that he in fact did, and I rolled my eyes, grabbing my keys and locking down the studio, âKeep your word Han Jisungâ
âOh baby iâd do more than keep my wordsâ
| 9:28 pm from Felix (flora)
Hey are you on your way? Bitna is asking if you forgot, donât worry if youâre busy we can reschedule! I donât want to impose on your time
I smiled at the notification from Felix, but immediately dropped it once I realize the text was a way for his wife to nag him about my presence. About two weeks ago, Felix informed me of his wife wanting to meet the woman who her daughter has been around lately because it was and I quote âA mothers duty to know the people sheâs friends withâ and had it not been for Felixâs eyes silently begging me to accept the dinner offer, I wouldâve declined
I hated Bitna. I never met the woman but if she could leave her child in the rain because she was mad at her husband, multiple times, then it said a lot about her and I wouldnât ever associate with someone of her caliber, but since she was married to the sweetest man on earth and the mother to the sweetest child iâve ever met, I would mind putting up with her. She told Felix th
I knew this was a way for her to insert herself into a place where she had no business in, because based off how Flora described her and how apologetic Felix was after being her lapdog, I knew she was nothing less than a narcissistic bitch- not that I would ever voice that, yes I wanted her husband, but I wasnât going to spew hateful things to him about the mother to his daughter, I wasnât evil
I didnât reply to the message since I was already at the door of the restaurant, asking the server to direct me towards a table reserved under âFelix Leeâ With a few steps, we were already there, and I thanked the man who looked closer to my man than not for leading me to them
âYouâre lateâ Before Felix could even greet me, his wife spoke and I already could tell that she wasnât fond of me, if her scowl and crossed arms were anything to go by of course. Felixâs face turned red and he began to apologize causing me to shake my head, never letting my eyes wander from his witch of a wife âItâs okay, you donât have to apologize, I wasnât offended Felixâ I sat down in the chair directly across from Felix since Bitna placed her feet in the chair in front of her
The joke was on her I wanted to sit in front of Felix any fucking way
âWell, howâs working at a cafe, how does that even pay the bills if you donât mind me askingâ I stared at the woman, fighting the urge to roll my eyes, picking up the menu instead âWell I wouldnât know, I own the cafe I donât work thereâ Without looking up from the menu I could tell that her face was even more scrunched up, showing her true personality right off the bat
âOh well, luckily for me, I married a man who started his own makeup line from the ground up, if youâre ever lucky enough to get a man, get a man who can support you as a stay at home momâ Felixâs face was awkward and Bitnaâs eyes were staring at him weirdly making me scoff
âWell not all of us want to be stay at home mothers, I have a business degree for a reason, I enjoy the cafeâ Bitna rolled her eyes and waved her hand in physical dismissal of me âYouâre saying that because you donât have a kid yet, but when you do youâll want to listen to my adviceâ
Sensing that the tension was only going to build until Bitna tipped me over the edge, Felix stepped in by clearing his throat and smiling at me with warm eyes âThank you for coming out tonight Y/n, Floraâs a bit upset that weâre having this meeting without her to be honestâ I chuckled and shook my head before answering
âWeâll be prepared to grovel-â âWhich is stupid, when she does that shit, I tell her iâll take her out of ballet and then she chills out, the fuck are you groveling to a little five year old girl forâ My eyebrows furrowed and Felix awkwardly cleared his throat âLetâs just order, I know the owner, the food is to die forâ
Bitna started to say something but she was cut off as a waitress came out our table, requesting to know what we wanted, and because she couldnât live with not being the first for once in her life, Bitna gave her order
Having enough of Bitnaâs attitude, I began slipping my foot out of confinement inside of my heel, I mentally thanked the lucky stars for being at a restaurant where the table covers covered the table, no one would be able to see nor know what I was doing, except for Felix. My foot began gently caressing his leg, causing him to look up at me with wide eyes in shock, but a quiet sign of encouragement as well
âWell iâll have the chicken parmesan and your finest wine pleaseâ I finished ordering, ignoring Bitnaâs tiny comment on my plate, causing another devious idea to cross my mind, I stopped my ministrations and trailed my foot until it was directly on his bulge, he pinched one of my toes as a warning, but I ignored that and pretended to be interested in the wall decor
âAnd for you sir?â The moment Felix began speaking, I applied pressure onto his cock, feeling it harden the moment he took a deep breath, accidentally raising his voice an octave higher âIâm sorry, iâll have what sheâs havingâ I smiled and began to let my other foot loose, I wasnât satisfied with how easy he deflected me
âGood choice Felixâ He chuckled, eyes still warning about what I was doing, to which I ignored again, this time pushing both feet down âYou keep calling him us by our first names⌠do you not care to call us by the respectful terms? I do believe we are older than youâ My eyes left his and I immediately began my fondling again, not paying attention to how he was squirming
âWell thereâs not a big age gap between us and neither one of you are my bosses nor grandparents, so let me ask you this, do you call your friendâs wives by their surnames?â She went quiet and I happily accepted my silent victory âHold on babe, iâm gonna ask the waiter about the hold up on our foodâ Had I not been rubbing her husband under the table I wouldâve reminded her that it has only been five minutes and the moment she got up Felix scowled
âWhat if she saw us then what Y/nâ I remained cool, knowing that he was trying to make me slow down on my little game but I shrugged âYou could always pull your pants down and let me rub the actual thing for you babeâ Felixâs eyes widened and he looked around, then finally down to where the tablecloth did in fact cover his groin âFineâ In a split second, he adjusted his dress pants and boxers, allowing for his cock to spring free
To everyone else, he simply adjusted himself but we both knew the truth. âGood boyâ Felix rolled his eyes and punched my toe again âOh no, iâm letting you do this so I can have a reason to fuck the shit out of you darling, donât take my placidness for weaknessâ He moved my feet to where he wanted me and I looked at Bitna, who was on her way back, having realized what we already found out
I ignored her whining and immediately began using my feet to jerk him off, keeping a rhythm where I sped up occasionally only slowing down when his thighs began shaking âWhatâs wrong honey you donât look so wellâ I immediately looked at the duo and asked were they okay to which Felix nodded âIâm just hungryâ
A couple moments later, our waitress came back and gave us our plates, but I couldnât focus on my food knowing that the man in front of me was about to cum, I felt droplets fall onto my feet and had I not looked at him, I wouldâve thought he came, rather than it being his precum. The moment he began eating, I sped up, helping his chase his orgasm until he moaned, shoking both Bitna and me
âThe food is just too good I canâtâ Cum was covering my toes and my foot, but I couldnât care less, Felix stared at me, motioning for me to check my phone to which I did with a poorly hidden smirk
| 10:45 pm from Felix (flora)
Just wait Y/n. Iâm gonna breed your pussy until youâre begging for me to stop, and then when I feel like you learned enough of a lesson, youâre gonna walk around with my cum inside you until I fuck more into you
It was the summer so to no oneâs surprise, many of the neighbors were throwing barbecues, this time it was a neighborhood cookout where we would all meet up at the Choiâs house, I sat in my room in front of my vanity debating on dressing up because Seungmin texted me earlier today to ask if he should bring food or deserts
I sighed at the dilemma I selfishly placed myself into, I was engaged for fucksake, but I was getting ready to look good for another man entirely, said man being a (not happily) married father of two kids both under the age of five. I rolled my eyes, pushing the thoughts of morals to the back of my mind, besides if wasnât like Seungmin was completely innocent either
The other day, he knocked on my door at five in the morning, and having been woken up by my fiancĂŠ who made me check it, I forgot I was clad in a bra set with matching panties that were barely covered by the matching robe, only then did I remember what I was wearing when Seungmin failed to meet my eyes, holding eye contact with my breast that were spilling out of their confinements due to the fact I breast fed
âHow may I help you Seungminâ I smiled sweetly making sure that anyone who mightâve driven by werenât flashed by the sight of me in my robe talking to anotherâs woman husband so early in the morning âOh I um- fuck, I was making breakfast for Minseok before I left for work and I realized I had no eggs, and I came to see if you had any to spare?â
Since I was the one who did the grocery shopping, I mentally had a checklist of everything I had in my refrigerator and since I would be going shopping later on today, I decided to let him have the five eggs I had left âOf course, let me go get those for you iâll be back in a momentâ I took longer than needed to walk to my kitchen, making sure to sway my hips since Seungmin seemed like an ass man, and if my hypothesis was correct, I was gonna make sure he enjoyed every last bit of it
"Well, aren't you lucky, here you go" My breast jiggled when I handed the man who looked more like a cherub than himself the over half empty carton "Thank you so much Y/n, you really are an angel" I shook my head chuckling "Maybe you'll get to see my bad girl side one day, goodnight Seungmin" I waved the man goodbye, and immediately yawned, too tired to even reflect on my actions
Which brought me to me to current situation, we were all gathered at the Choiâs enjoying the weather, but Seungmin came with his kids without his wife, making the neighbors gossip, believing that he and his wife weâre separating since they havenât been seen together since they moved into the neighborhood, if only they knew that his wife was a grumpy hag who liked to slam the door in the faces of people trying to warn her about her four year old son wandering off
âHave you seen the new neighbor? Heâs so sexyâ The comment came from Hana, one of the older moms in the neighborhood, but not quite Seungminâs age, I rolled my eyes and told the woman to behave because not only was Seungmin married, she was literally ten feet away from her husband, how hypocritical of me
âI donât look at other men, I have a child to focus on miss maâamâ my comment held no malice behind it, but it was clear that I wasnât going to join in on the thirsting behind Seungmin, thatâs something I did in the middle of the night with my magic wand plus on the highest setting âOh boo youâre no fun, youâre still so young and set on settling down, when I was your age, I was having threesomesâ
Hana shrugged and took a sip from her red solo cup making me roll my eyes âIâm gonna see if Mrs. Choi needs help in the kitchenâ I stood up, leaving the mother of four alone to her cup of âjuiceâ. I walked inside the kitchen, closing the sliding door behind me, slightly thankful that hers had blinds that blocked the hot sun from coming in
âOh hey Y/n youâre hereâ Instead of Mrs. Choi, I was met by a wide eyed Seungmin who slightly smiled, probably finally seeing the one familiar person besides Mrs. Choi at this event. I waved and gave a greeting back and it went back silent âYouâre babyless todayâ I smiled and shrugged âI am, but so are youâ He also shrugged saying that he had to see if the neighbors would even like him before exposing his child to them which was honestly fair
Me on the other hand, forced Heeseung to spend time with his daughter, because it felt like the only thing he did for her was make her. It was silent, I was silently scrolling on my phone while Seungmin was sitting on the other side of me, eating some of the food I made which caused flutters inside my heart at the mundane gesture
âY/nâ
I looked up from my phone and saw how we was staring at me, indescribable emotions swirling in his eyes âItâs too many people here, follow meâ Even though I was confused, I followed him as we left the Choiâs house through the side door rather than the back where the sounds of laughter and sizzling grills began fading into the background as Seungmin and I slipped away from the bustling cookout.
I was severely confused as our steps began speeding up as my hearts began wildly pounding with a mix of excitement and guilt. I arched my eyebrow as he led to me a secluded spot he found behind a large oak tree in the woods behind our houses
Seungmin leaned against the rough bark, running a hand through his hair as he caught his breath. I stood close, but gave him rough distance where he wouldnât feel overwhelmed, even though the proximity sent a thrill down my spine. I glanced around one last time before meeting Seungminâs eyes, my resolve finally wavering
âThis is crazyâ I failed to meet his eyes finally realizing the moment he pulled me away from the cookout âI knowâ Seungmin replied, his gaze intense. âBut I canât stop thinking about you and I know itâs the same for youâ
My heart ached at his words, the forbidden nature of our taboo attraction making it all the more irresistible. Without another word, I closed the distance between us, my lips capturing his in a heated kiss. The world seemed to blur as out lips moved in perfect sync, every touch and caress igniting a fire that neither of us could nor would control.
Seungminâs hands found their way to my waist, pulling me closer as our kiss deepened. The urgency in his movements spoke of the inappropriate moments we cherished, the secret desires we wouldnât ever voice. My fingers tangled in Seungminâs hair, my mind racing a mile and minute with a whirlwind of emotions.
âI need to be inside you now Y/n, if you say no, iâll stop right nowâ His pupils were blown, but I kept my lips sealed, figuratively and literally sealing the deal âFuck me Seungminâ
Itâs been too long since Jungwoo had seen me and he only grew more and more upset about it as the days passed. It wasn't that I didn't want to see the toddler again, but it wasn't that simple, my schedule as a professional volleyball never seemed to match up with his fathers profession as an international designer brand ambassador model. Literally, the one time I was available, Jeongin and Jungwoo flew out to Italy for some fancy photoshoot
Today Jeongin and I were determined, the facetimes were getting harder and harder to manage because of time differences and whenever it was nap time for the boy, it always seemed to be the only time that I had available. Luckily for me, it seemed that luck was on my side because when Jeongin and Jungwoo went to France, my coach told me that I had a game around the time his shoot was, meaning that I would finally get to see the foxlike boys
I told Jeonginâs manager the news, wanting to surprise the male since I havenât seen him in four months, and everytime he called me, he whined about Jungwoo throwing a tantrum because his new favorite person wasnât there for him. The moment my flight landed, I ignored my teammates recommended activity of a group exploration trip to the catacombs which was an automatic no, why waste my time with dead skeletons when I could hang out with a cute baby and his sexy ass father
His hotel staff having known of my arrival, gave me a keycard to his room and the moment I made it inside, I could tell that he barely had time to unpack, his and Jungwooâs suitcases being tossed in font the bed, not even unzipped. I chuckled, imagining the dad and his son coming into the room only to be immediately taken to another photoshoot location
âPoor babiesâ I immediately looked around the hotel scanning the area for a hiding spot, settling in on the kitchen since I knew Jungwoo liked to have his snacks the moment he came in through the door or he would scream until he tired himself out, I got comfortable sitting on the countertop, knowing that I wasnât visible to those who came in unless they walked into the kitchen
Thankfully I wasnât waiting long before I heard the tell tale sign of a keycard being scanned, and my smile grew wider at the idea of finally being able to see my two favorite boys. Only to be greeted by Jeongin with no Jungwoo
âOh my god?? Y/n?â I pouted, disappointed that one of the reasons I came to the hotel, but got up to hug the man nonetheless âWhere the hell is Jungwooâ Jeongin chuckled and wrapped his muscled arms around my waist cooing at me âHis mom lives in France, so I let him kick it with her one dayâ I awed in realization, he was in fact correct, I remember seeing it on celebrity news that the model moved to France to escape the âhardshipsâ hardships being her toddler
âWell I guess I can forgive youâ I rolled my eyes making him smile âWhat the hell are you doing here anywaysâ We pulled away and I shrugged âI have a game coming up, weâre playing against Franceâ Jeongin nodded and told me he was going to take a shower since he felt hot having been out in the sun for a swimwear collection photoshoot âWell hurry up before I get bored Yangâ
The male told me he would be out soon and I went into the bedroom, making myself comfortable on the bed scrolling through my social media to interact with fans, I giggled seeing an edit of me and and my teams setter practicing, the comments were filled with admiration for me and Aisha
âI can hear you giggling whatâs so funnyâ Jeongin came out the shower, sweatpants hanging dangerously on his hips since he decided to forego the shirt, my comeback got caught in my throat, turning it into the sahara, while my panties were turning into the pacific, I realized that I was staring and locked in, showing him the edit making him arch his eyebrow
âThat is the most tame edit Iâve seen of youâ Now it was my turn to raise my eyebrow and question him as to what he meant, only for him to go onto tiktok and type in âY/n editâ and tap the first one that appeared, it was an edit to candy by doja cat, it was clips from my most recent match against Spain, and since I was in the middle of the game, I wasnât able to grab my sweat towel, so I lifted up my jersey, revealing my abs, the next clip was a video of me licking my lips in a live I did awhile back and then the edit closed with me footage of me cat walking into the met gala
âThat was still pretty tame Jeongin, your edits are so much worseâ He asked for proof and I immediately went to my camera roll forgetting that he was looking at my phone, the audio rolled in and his eyes began to widen and how the video started with saying âslut me outâ of all things, it then switched onto clips of his abs, showing his armpit muscle, and his work outs, the edit stopped and his grin grew
âYou want me so badâ I rolled my eyes and tossed my phone onto the bed âFuck you mean by that?â Jeongin chuckled and brought up the fact I had that edit saved in my camera roll for awhile, I mentally began cursing apple for saving date and timestamps on the camera roll items âI want you too, baby, I can slut you out right now and make you my personal cock whoreâ He took hold of my wrists, eyes locked onto mine
âGet on your kneesâ I listened and followed through with what he said without a second thought, the way he looked down at me made me feel hornier than it wouldâve with anyone else. I was living my dream come true, my teenage fantasy was finally happening with the man who invoked my wet dreams
âDonât be shyâ He bent down halfway, an iron grip on my jaw âopenâ my tongue lolled out against my chin and my eyes focused in on how he smiled, gripping my chin tighter âyouâre always such a good listener, make me cum and iâll fuck your cunt like I know you want me toâ Jeongin smiled cockily once he finished speaking, he shocked me by spitting his warm saliva on my exposed tongue, a moan escaped as he refused to remove his grip, undoing his drawstring with one hand, sweats falling to the ground with a soft thump
âSpitâ His cock sprang free from its entrapment inside of his boxers and I couldnât help but gawk at the sheer size of him, he was big, whatever he lacked in girth, he made up for in length and it intimidated me âDumb lilâ baby already doing stupid I said spitâ I immediately followed his directions, spitting on his penis, smearing the mixture of my spit, his spit, and his precum all over his cock
âIâm about to ruin every other cock for youbaby, open your mouth for me real wideâ
Inspired by 'relight me' so feel free to skip if it's too similar! request for a 9th member sitting down the guys/or just channie if you prefer, to ask for their support/help bc she feels herself slipping back into unhealthy habits/scared to eat/feeling so icky about it, angsty angsty but they're so proud she's asking for help
hihi~ similar request to 'relight me' but just channie and reader hehe . i liked the idea of this one too . you are loved, everyone x
pairing: bang chan x 9th member!reader
summary: you decide to tell chan about what you've been going through. his reaction isn't what you expected...
genre: super soft, really angsty, idol!au, soft channie, mentions of ed, not being able to eat, drinking water in place of food, reader is brave for opening up, chaotic binnie, hannie, and minho, mentions of eating, drinking, lighthearted stabbing joke (no skz was harmed in the making of this fic)
a/n: this is pretty much 'relight me' in a different font . div by @strangergraphics
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"Minho, eat your food."
"I am."
"No, you're not. Stop stabbing Jisung with your chopsticks and eat quickly. We have a dance practice to get to."
Minho groans and slouches over the table, mimicking Changbin's voice in an extremely overexaggerated, high-pitched drawl. "We have a dance practice to get to."
"Shut up."
Jisung laughs as Changbin throws a tissue at Minho, who retaliates and lifts his water bottle, threatening. "Calm down, seriously..."
You're watching as the three of them bicker from the other side of the table, head leaning on your crossed arms. Normally, you'd be the first to initiate these sorts of petty, playful arguments, but you're weighed down by a heavy, drooping tiredness. And it's not letting you do anything.
At all.
"Aren't you gonna eat, Y/n?" Jisung asks, peering around Changbin (who is currently attempting to headlock Minho). "You haven't eaten at all today."
You sigh and sit up, downing the contents of your waterbottle. Ice fills your stomach, freezing its soft lining. You feel stiff.
"I'll eat later," you say. "Promise."
You cross your fingers under the table. Jisung shrugs and looks away, wolfing down the rest of his food. Minho and Changbin, seemingly blind to the interaction, eventually pipe down and do the same.
You sigh and watch as Minho shamelessly stuffs his face, and the sight makes you smile as Jisung and Changbin do the same. At least they're eating properly. But it quickly fades, and you snap out of your thoughts just as Changbin pokes your side.
"...Hey, Y/n. You're not listening."
"O-oh," you stutter. "Sorry."
"Why did you zone out? You always listen to me," he whines.
You always listen to me.
The phrase sparks a dangerous idea in your head. It's so immediately distracting that you stand up, scraping your chair across the floor. Minho and Jisung both look up in surprise at the sudden movement.
"Where are you going?" Minho asks curiously.
"I gotta go," you say, and promptly turn away to leave.
The three members stare after you in confusion.
.
You knock on the door to Chan's studio. The hallway leading to his door is dark, and you trail a hand along the wall as you wait for the call to come in.
There's shuffling, a thump, and then the padding of footsteps as Chan comes and then opens the door. His hair is wild, half of it skewed from his headphones. One of the muffs is placed over the back of his ear so he can hear without taking them off entirely.
"Hey," he greets, unruffled by his very-much-ruffled appearance.
"Hi," you say, suddenly feeling vulnerable.
Chan pauses. "Everything okay?"
You pause for a split second, mind whirring. Why are you here, anyway?
"Um..." you begin feebly, trying to compose a singular thought.
There's a a few seconds of quiet between the both of you before Chan takes your hand gently. You exhale, knowing that he knows something's wrong.
Leading you inside the studio, he sits you down on the black couch behind his desk, taking off his headphones entirely. The cold water from earlier sloshes unpleasantly inside your stomach, doing nothing to quieten the hunger pangs gnawing at your insides. Like filling up a bathtub without the plug in, it can never truly be full.
And neither can you.
You watch as Chan begins to click on files at his desk, dragging and dropping and typing things quickly before he closes down the software entirely. You rise from your seat on the couch, suddenly feeling guilty.
"Chan-"
"Sit." He pushes you back down gently with nothing more than a flick of his wrist. You sigh and try and relax into the cushions, but it's like trying to untense limbs made of rock. You shift uncomfortably as Chan turns around.
He's so much taller right now as you're sitting down; the blue glare of his screen dims slightly as the computer goes to sleep, sending a warm halo of light over the fluffiness of his unbrushed curls.
You gulp as he sits down next to you, sliding down on the couch slightly as he tilts his head to look at the panelled ceiling. The lights up there are off; the only source of illumination comes from a small table lamp in the corner.
"Something's wrong, hmm."
He says it not like a question at all; rather than something he already knows, and he's waiting for you to confirm it.
So you do.
"Yeah." You can't stop fidgeting.
A gentle smile caresses his lips, his gaze still locked on the ceiling. "Are you going to tell me what it is?"
You exhale, a low whoosh from your very core. You're in it now.
"I- I can't eat." Your voice sounds thin, dissipating as soon as the words leave your mouth.
Chan is still looking up, but he's silent for a moment. "When was the last time you ate a full meal?"
You can't answer.
He does look at you then; for the first time you see the true softness of his gaze, the way it seems to reach out and caress your jaw. Your cheeks warm from its steady intensity.
"Don't be ashamed, Y/n," is all he says.
You can feel tears prickling at the corners of your eyes, but you will them away. You don't want to cry in front of him.
"But I am," you say, almost inaudibly. "There's- there's something wrong with me, Chan, and I can't-"
"Hey, hey," He sits up and cups your face, heat flooding into your skin. His palms are warm and dry, slightly rough, but you relish the touch anyway. "There's nothing wrong with you, okay? Nothing at all. Sometimes we just forget how much we're worth, and our habits follow."
You sniff. "I don't have a worth."
"Yes, you do." He scoots closer on the couch, folding you into his arms. "You always have had a worth, and you'll continue to have it. Sometimes you just forget it. And that's completely okay..."
You lean into his shoulder, squeezing your eyes shut. "Chan..."
He continues. "See it like this," he reaches across, letting go of you slightly, and pulls the table lamp closer to him. "Tell me what you see."
You sniff again, feeling a little stupid. "A lamp."
Chan nods. "What's inside the lamp?"
"A light bulb."
He hums and reaches across to the powerpoint, trailing his fingers down the wire til they meet the plug. He rips it out of the socket, the light flickering and dying. The room dims, so much so that you can only just see the outline of Chan's hands around the cord. "Now what do you see?"
You look at him, confused through your misery. "It's still a lamp."
"And what's inside it?"
"A- a light bulb?"
Chan nods simply and sets the lamp down on the floor in front of you, still holding the cord in one hand. "No matter how we change the lamp, no matter what shape, size, colour, or texture it is, the light bulb inside remains the same.
"Even if we damage it, or forget to take care of it," he turns to you then. "I've had this lamp for three years, and I've knocked it over countless times, spilled coffee over it, scratched it, done all sorts of damage to this thing."
You can't fight a tiny smile. He really is clumsy.
"Nevertheless," Chan continues, "It's still working. It's still shining and bringing light to this room, to me. And, like I said, no matter the damage, no matter how the outside changes..." He reaches over to the powerpoint again and plugs the cord back in. Warm light floods the room once more. "The same light keeps shining."
You don't even realise how wet your cheeks are until he swipes a gentle thumb across your face. "Even if the light turns off, it's still there. Sometimes, Y/n, we just need someone to help us bring our light back."
He wraps his arms around you. "It's okay if you can't eat. You don't have to force yourself overnight. Just take it step by step. Snack a little. Have sliced fruit. Keep hydrated, and take breaks during practices. You'll find that eating comes normally once your body's system realises that's what's missing. It's nothing to do with your worth."
You sniffle, wiping your nose on your sleeve. "Are you sure?"
"Positive," he says simply. His voice is solid, steady, as warm as the light emanating from the lamp. The oversized hoodie draped over his torso is pillowy against your wet cheeks.
Chan is still talking softly, and both of you know that you don't have to listen. All you need to do is bask in the glow of the light and his comfort. You can feel the soft, deep vibrations of his voice from within his chest, along with the steady pulsing of his heart.
You close your eyes, and relax.
a/n: man it's been so long since i wrote something (it's been a week)
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ex!seungmin who thinks about you when he receives his diploma during his graduation in law school because he couldnât have done it without you, and it breaks his heart that while heâd reached his dreams, you couldnât be there to see him make it.
heâd remember the countless sleepless nights youâd stayed up with him to review for his tests
or when youâd urge him to get some rest or eat his meals when heâd forget sometimes
you were there to help him realize he could do it, coming with him to apply for numerous universities
you were there from the beginning, so why couldnât you be there to see him reach the end?
and it was a mutual decisionâthe breakup. but he finds that, as he reaps the rewards of his efforts, it doesnât feel right that you arenât in the crowd
that night, seungmin ponders over whether to call you or not
instead, he sends a few text messages
he doesnât think he could talk to you without crying, doesnât think heâs ready to hear your voice again
seungmin (9:57pm): i graduated today haha
seungmin (9:58pm): i just wanted to say thank you. i know that things are over between us, but itâs undeniable the influence you had on me while i was in law school. i donât know if iâd be able to make it this far if you hadnât believed in me the way you did. thank you. i canât say it enough.
seungmin (10:01pm): thereâs so much i want to tell you, but i guess i donât really have the right to do that anymore. still, i hope you realize how much youâve changed the way i looked at life (for the better, i can hear you complaining already)
seungmin (10:03pm): oh, and i found this letter iâd written back when i was still in my 1st year. itâs addressed to you, and i vividly remember telling myself to give it to you on the day i graduate. haha, somehow iâd thought weâd still be together when today would come. lmk if you still want it or if itâs too awkward then thatâs okay too
seungmin (10:06pm): alright thatâs it. sorry if these messages freaked you out a little. iâm not even sure this is still your number
seungmin (10:07pm): thanks again, (name). you are the one person who made me believe i could make it and i did :) thank you
đâ¤ď¸âđŠšđľđ¸đľđ¸To Those with Compassionate Hearts and Conscience,đľđ¸đľđ¸đâ¤ď¸âđŠš
My name is Mohammed Nasr, from Gaza, where war and suffering prevail. In this land that has turned into hell, my family has lost everything. I lost my brother Mahmoud, my brother Ahmad suffered a leg amputation, and I have been injured in my legs and abdomen. My parents suffer from chronic illnesses, and my children, Nasr (7 years) and Alin (6 years), are suffering from malnutrition and skin diseases.
The war has destroyed our homes and businesses, leaving us without shelter or resources. Our displacement has caused my mother and siblings to live in different areas of Gaza, while I, my wife Yasmin, who is battling cancer, and my children are in the south.
We are living in a state of displacement, having fled more than ten times, and we are struggling with a lack of food and water. My wife now requires treatment abroad, which is extremely costly, and we cannot afford it.
Therefore, I appeal to you with open hearts to extend a helping hand, whether through financial assistance or psychological support. Even a small contribution could change our lives.
I thank you from the depths of my heart for your support and concern.
Sincerely,
Mohammed Nasr
Bangchan x reader. (s,f,a)
Chapters: Part I / Part II / Part III
Synopsis: When a new fuckboy, Minho, moves into the building, Chanâs sense of security is shaken. Minhoâs flirtatious confidence and bold claim to win you over rattles Chan, igniting a rivalry. As Chan struggles to defend his relationship, heâs forced to confront his insecurities while proving his worth to you. (18,1k words)
Author's note: It's been fun writing this series. Thank you for enjoying this "fuckboy". Hope you enjoy this one too, my darlings âĄ
The early morning light filters through the window, painting the room in soft hues of gold. You blink awake, your senses still heavy with sleep, and it takes a moment to realize where you areâwrapped in the warmth of Chanâs bed, tangled in the sheets that carry his comforting scent.
Turning your head, your gaze falls on him. Chan lies next to you, his face relaxed in sleep, his lashes casting delicate shadows over his cheeks. His soft curls are a tousled mess, a few strands falling over his forehead. Heâs snoring lightly, the sound barely audible but undeniably endearing.
You canât help but smile as your heart swells with affection. Careful not to wake him, you reach out, your fingers brushing his curls gently, marveling at their softness. The light touch doesnât disturb him; he shifts slightly, murmuring something unintelligible before settling again.
Your hand trails lower, tracing the line of his jaw, the curve of his cheekbone, the slight bump of his nose. He looks so peaceful, so utterly beautiful, that for a moment, youâre content to simply watch him.
You know you should wake him, ask if he wants to come with you to the farmerâs market like youâd planned. But seeing him like this, so serene, you canât bring yourself to disturb him. Instead, you lean down and press a feather-light kiss to his lips, his soft breathing tickling your skin.
With a final glance, you slip out of bed and quietly gather your things. Pulling on yesterdayâs clothes, you tiptoe out of his apartment, careful not to make a sound.
As you step into the hallway, the door closing gently behind you, you nearly jump when you see Minho standing a few steps away, leaning casually against the wall. Heâs dressed for the day, a small smirk playing on his lips as he takes in your disheveled appearance.
âMorning,â he says, his tone teasing but not unkind.
You feel the heat rush to your cheeks, shyly hugging yourself to hide your rumpled clothes. âGood morning, Minho,â you mumble, offering him a small, embarrassed smile.
âYou're a morning person, I see,â he adds with a playful lift of his brow, his eyes flicking down from your head to your toe.
Your face burns hotter, but you muster a weak laugh. âWhy are you even awake this early?â
Minho shrugs, his smirk softening into something closer to amusement. âWanted to check out the farmerâs market. Fresh produce, you know?â
Your eyes light up, relief washing over you at the change of subject. âReally? I was actually heading there too.â
âPerfect timing,â he says, straightening up. âWant to go together?â
You nod, grateful for the distraction. âSure, just give me a minute to change. Iâll meet you downstairs.â
As you move past him, hugging yourself tighter, you catch Minhoâs amused glance lingering. Itâs clear heâs enjoying your flustered state, but he doesnât say anything more.
Safely inside your apartment, you lean against the door, exhaling deeply. You glance down at yourselfâmessy hair, wrinkled clothesâand groan softly, vowing to make yourself presentable before facing Minho again.
You can still feel the warmth of Chanâs bed, the softness of his curls beneath your fingers, and the image of his peaceful face stays with you as you quickly get ready. Itâs a walk of shame, sureâbut you canât find it in yourself to regret it.
-
Chan stretches out on the bed, his hand instinctively reaching for the space beside him. Itâs empty, but the faint warmth still lingering on the sheets tells him you havenât been gone long. The sunlight filtering through the curtains reminds him itâs Saturdayâyour farmerâs market day.
He sighs, running a hand through his messy hair as he sits up. Saturday mornings are quiet without you. Your trips to the farmerâs market are a ritual he admires, though he canât help but miss waking up to your smile.
Throwing on a hoodie, he pads into the kitchen. The apartment is quiet, save for the hum of the fridge. He pours himself a glass of orange juice, sipping it while glancing at the clock. You should be back soon.
As if on cue, the sound of your laughter echoes through the hallway. Chan perks up, moving to the door just in time to hear another voiceâdeeper, smooth, and unfamiliar.
Curious, he cracks the door open. Youâre standing there, balancing bags filled with fruits and vegetables, laughing at something the man beside you has said.
âLet me take that,â the new neighbor, Minho, offers, easily grabbing one of the heavier bags from your hand.
âThanks, Minho,â you say with a warm smile.
Chanâs chest tightens as he opens the door wider. âHey, youâre back,â he says, keeping his tone casual.
He leans in to give you a kiss on the cheek and you subtly dodge away again by turning your head, beaming. âChris! Look who I ran into at the market.â
Minho looks up, flashing Chan a confident smile as he extends a hand. âMorning, Chris.â
âMorning,â Chan weakly replies with a faint smile.
âWe bumped into each other,â you explain. âAnd heâs new to the area, so I showed him around a bit.â
âThat was kind of you,â Chan says, the words sharper than he intends.
Minho doesnât seem fazed. âShe's got great taste. She picked out the best peaches Iâve ever seen.â
Chanâs jaw tightens as he opens his mouth to reply, but Minho shifts his attention back to you before he can. âHere, let me carry this for you,â Minho says, gently brushing your hand as he takes another bag from your arm.
âThanks, but Iâve got it,â you reply, though your smile stays warm.
âToo late. Canât let someone as lovely as you strain herself,â Minho says smoothly, winking.
Chanâs stomach churns, his grip tightening around the doorframe. âI think sheâs stronger than she looks,â he mutters, his tone laced with a subtle edge.
Minho turns, a smirk playing on his lips as if he hears the challenge in Chanâs voice. âMaybe. But Iâm just trying to be neighborly.â His eyes flick to Chanâs, sharp with a silent taunt, before he turns back to you.
âWell, Iâd better get these inside,â you say, oblivious to the tension. âThanks for helping with the bags, Minho.â
âNo problem,â Minho replies, stepping back toward his apartment. âSee you around, neighbor.â His voice is light, but as he passes Chan, his shoulder brushes just enough to feel deliberate.
Chan watches as Minho disappears behind his door, leaving the two of you alone in the hallway.
âNice guy, huh?â you say, unlocking your door and stepping inside.
âYeah,â Chan mutters, following you in. But deep down, he knows Minho isnât just being friendly.
As you step inside, you nudge the door open wider, motioning for Chan to follow. "Come on, donât just stand there."
He steps in, closing the door behind him with a soft click. The moment itâs shut, Chanâs frustration bubbles to the surface.
âSo,â he starts, crossing his arms and leaning against the wall, âwhy do you always dodge me when I try to kiss you outside?â
You pause, setting the bags on the kitchen counter. âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know exactly what I mean,â he says, his tone half-playful, half-serious. âI went in for a kiss earlier, and you just⌠turned away. Again.â
You exhale, pulling a carton of eggs from one of the bags and placing it in the fridge. âIâm just not comfortable with public displays of affection, Chris. Itâs not youâitâs me.â
âYeah, but itâs hard not to take it personally,â he mutters, running a hand through his hair.
You walk over to him, placing a gentle hand on his arm. âIâm sorry. I donât mean to make you feel like that. Itâs not about you. Itâs just how I feel. I promise itâs not because I donât care about you.â
He glances at you, his frown softening slightly. âI just⌠I like showing the world youâre mine, you know?â
You smile, cupping his cheek. âI know,â you murmur, brushing your thumb against his skin, âbut in here, you can kiss me as many times as you want.â
His face lights up at your words, the tension in his shoulders melting away. Without hesitation, he pulls you into his arms, holding you so close thereâs barely any space between you.
His lips find yours, soft and eager, moving with a tenderness that makes your heart flutter. You kiss him back, threading your fingers through his hair, feeling him relax under your touch.
The kiss deepens, Chanâs hands sliding down to your waist, pulling you flush against him. His lips grow hungrier, and his grip tightens as he starts to lose himself in you. Sensing the shift, you gently pull back, your lips lingering on his for a moment before parting.
âEasy there, tiger,â you tease softly.
He groans, resting his forehead against yours. âYouâre killing me.â
You laugh, stroking his hair. âCome on. Let me make you breakfast.â
He sighs dramatically but steps back, a small smile tugging at his lips. âFine. But only if I get to watch.â
âDeal,â you say, heading toward the kitchen, feeling his eyes on you the whole way.
As you start pulling ingredients from the fridge, Chan takes a seat at the table, watching you with a soft smile. Moments like these remind him why he doesnât need the validation of public displaysâthis, right here, is what matters.
-
Itâs one of those rare weekends where neither of you has work pulling you in different directions, and Chan insisted on making the most of it.
âJust a normal date,â heâd said, grinning like a kid as he scrolled through movie listings.
Now, as you step out of the restroom, the smell of buttery popcorn fills the air. You spot Chan at the concession stand, leaning slightly against the counter as he waits for the popcorn and drinks. Heâs smiling, that warm, dimpled grin youâve come to adore.
But itâs not for you.
The girl behind the counter, probably a college student, is laughing at something he said. She tucks a strand of hair behind her ear, her gaze lingering a little too long on him. You know that lookâgirls are always drawn to him like moths to a flame.
You donât even feel a pang of jealousy anymore; itâs practically routine. Still, youâre not about to let her think heâs single.
Walking up beside him, you clear your throat. âGot the tickets?â you ask casually, your voice cutting through their little bubble.
Chan startles slightly, his grin faltering before he turns to you. âUh, yeah, got them right here.â He pats his pocket like a man trying to prove he hasnât lost his wallet.
The girlâs expression falters, and she quickly hands over the popcorn and drinks. Chan fumbles with his wallet, hurriedly paying as if he canât get away fast enough.
Once youâre walking toward the theater, his shoulder brushing yours, he exhales and glances at you sheepishly. âYou couldâve let me hold your hand, you know. Then everyone wouldâve known Iâm with you.â
You roll your eyes, the corner of your mouth quirking up. âI never said you couldnât hold my hand, Chris.â
His face lights up with a grin, and before you can react, his hand slides into yours, warm and secure. âYouâre right,â he says smugly, giving your hand a squeeze. âYou didnât.â
Shaking your head, you let him lead you into the dim theater, his thumb brushing against yours. As the movie starts, Chan leans closer, whispering, âNext time, Iâm holding your hand the whole time, no excuses.â
You bite back a smile and focus on the screen, feeling the warmth of his hand in yours. Some things about Chan might drive you crazy, but moments like this make it all worth it.
-
The movie is halfway in, but Chan's attention is barely on the screen. Instead, you catch him watching you out of the corner of your eye. His hand stays in yours, his thumb idly tracing circles against your skin, but his gaze keeps flickering your way.
You nudge him gently. âChris, the screen is that way. Youâre missing the movie you wanted to see so badly.â
He grins, unapologetic. âYeah, but I kind of regret taking you here now.â
You raise an eyebrow, curious. âOh? And whyâs that?â
He shrugs, leaning closer so his voice doesnât carry. âIf we were watching this at home, I could actually cuddle you... maybe kiss you a little.â His grin turns teasing. âOr a lot.â
You laugh softly, shaking your head. âThis whole thing was your idea.â
âI know, I know,â he admits, squeezing your hand. âBut I canât help it. Youâre right here, looking all cute, and Iâm supposed to just sit here and watch the movie?â
You glance at him, warmth blooming in your chest despite his antics. Youâve always appreciated how much Chan respects your boundaries. One of those boundaries being your aversion to public displays of affection.
But right now, sitting in the darkened theater with no one paying attention, youâre tempted to bend the rules. You put your bucket of popcorn aside, turning fully to face him. Gently, you cup his cheek, drawing his attention to you. His eyes widen, and you can see the curiosity sparkling in them.
âItâs dark in here,â you whisper, a playful smile tugging at your lips. âI think we can make an exception just this once.â
Chan doesnât need to be told twice. He leans in immediately, his lips brushing yours in a kiss thatâs soft at first, almost testing. But as you respond, tilting your head to deepen the kiss, his hand comes up to cradle your jaw, his thumb brushing your cheek.
Itâs as if heâs been waiting all day for this, and the world outside the theater melts away. The movie becomes background noise as the two of you lose yourselves in the moment.
By the time you both pull back, slightly breathless, the movie is already well past its climactic scene. You glance at the screen, then back at Chan, who looks utterly content.
âWe missed most of it,â you point out with a low laugh.
âTotally worth it,â he murmurs, his fingers still entwined with yours.
He leans in again, clearly aiming for another kiss, but you grab a piece of popcorn and pop it into his mouth instead. His lips close around it, his expression shifting to surprise before softening into amusement.
You laugh quietly, brushing a strand of hair from his face. âFocus, Chris. At least pretend to watch the ending.â
He chews the popcorn, grinning as he leans back into his seat. âFine, but just know Iâm only staying for you, not the movie.â
You shake your head, trying to hide your smile as you settle back beside him. Chan might be incorrigible, but moments like this make you fall for him just a little more.
-
The elevator hums quietly as it ascends, but Chan barely notices. His attention is entirely on youâyour hand in his, the faint smile playing on your lips, and the soft glow of the overhead lights casting shadows over your features.
He feels giddy, almost buzzing from the events of the night. The movie had been fun, but honestly, he can barely remember the plot. What he does remember is you, and how you made the entire evening feel like something out of a dream.
Unable to help himself, he leans in and presses a quick kiss to your cheek. You turn your head, meeting his gaze with a raised eyebrow, and he grins mischievously.
âSo... Your place or mine?â he teases, his tone light but with a playful edge.
You let out a soft laugh, shaking your head. âNeither. Iâm going to my place to sleep because Iâm working tomorrow.â
His grin fades into a dramatic pout, his shoulders slumping. âWhat? No fair. I thought we were having a date night, not a goodnight.â
The elevator dings softly as it reaches your floor, and before he can protest further, you tighten your grip on his hand and pull him along toward your apartment.
Once you reach your door, you turn to him with a sly smile, one that makes his heart skip a beat. âYouâre staying at my place tonight, Chris.â
His pout vanishes instantly, replaced with a boyish grin. He doesnât need to be told twice.
The moment you unlock the door and step inside, Chan pulls you close, his arms wrapping around your waist as his lips find yours in a kiss thatâs anything but restrained. All the affection heâs been holding back spills out as he tilts his head, deepening the kiss.
His hands wander to your lower back, pressing you flush against him, and he groans softly when you respond with equal fervor. The scent of your perfume lingers between you, mingling with the faint warmth of the apartment.
Chan smiles against your lips, murmuring, âI donât care how early you have to wake up tomorrow. Iâm not letting you go.â
And for now, it seems, youâre just as unwilling to let him go either.
-
"Are you going to be my girl tonight?"
Chan's voice is husky, teasing, as his lips capture yours in a deep, heated kiss. He doesnât wait for an answerânot with the way your body responds to him. His hands glide down your sides, firm but tender, pulling you closer, despite you already being laid bare before him.
He finally breaks the kiss, only to continue down your body, his lips leaving a burning trail on your skin. You're sprawled across the bed, your legs dangling off the edge, and the way Chan looks at you feels like heâs savoring every second.
âI know you like it when I call you that,â he murmurs as he parts your legs, kneeling before you like youâre the only thing that matters in the world. You giggle softly as he places a teasing kiss on the sensitive skin of your inner thigh.
âYou are my girl,â he breathes, his voice thick with reverence. âMy sweet, sweet girl.â
He punctuates each word with a kiss closer and closer to where you need him most. You barely have time to prepare before he surprises you, tugging your body toward the edge of the bed and positioning himself closer, deeper. Your breath catches as he throws your legs over his shoulders and dives in, his mouth working magic that has you squirming in seconds.
Chanâs skill is unmatchedâhis nose pressing against your most sensitive spot, his tongue exploring with precision and intent. Your hands find their way to his curls, your toes curling, your body writhing under his ministrations. The sound of your moans fills the room, sweet and breathless, as he pushes you closer to the edge.
And when you finally unravel, shattering in his hands and on his lips, he doesnât let up. Instead, he lingers, soft kisses marking your thighs, his tenderness grounding you in the aftermath of bliss.
Hovering above you now, Chan takes in the sight of you, your chest rising and falling, your face radiant with pleasure. His dimples appear as he smiles, brushing stray hair away from your damp forehead. He leans down, capturing your lips in a kiss so gentle, it feels like a promise.
âHey,â you tease, your voice light and playful as you encircle his neck with your arms. âYour girl wants you to put it in now.â
His brows raise, his grin widening. âMy girl wants it inside?â He presses his forehead to yours, his voice dropping to a whisper. âNow?â
You nod, your sly smile making his chest tighten with affection. âMm-hmm.â
With deliberate slowness, he drags his lips down your jaw, leaving a trail of heat on your skin. âOnly if you say please,â he murmurs, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âBaby, please,â you coo, and the way the pet name falls from your lips has him grinning, his dimples sinking deep into his cheeks.
Chan doesnât need more encouragement. He shifts lower, positioning himself at the edge of the bed. One hand holds your leg open while the other guides himself to your entrance. As he pushes in, his eyes lock onto yours, drinking in the way your expression shiftsâthe way your lips part in a gasp, the way your body arches to meet his.
Fully sheathed, he pauses, his chest rising and falling as he takes in the sensation of you. With a satisfied smile, he begins to move, the angle perfect thanks to the bedâs height. Each thrust is measured, deliberate, his focus entirely on you. Your hands glide over his shoulders, down his arms, feeling every inch of him. They trail lower, cupping his ass with a playful squeeze that earns you a breathy chuckle.
He leans down, teasing you with a slow kiss before pulling back just enough to ask, âImpressed?â
Your gaze is locked on his, unwavering, and you nod firmly. âVery.â
Your moans mix with his quiet groans, the room filled with the sound of shared pleasure. Chanâs eyes never leave you, watching every flicker of emotion that crosses your face. Heâs closeâhe can feel it, and with the way youâre tightening around him, he knows you are too.
âWhere do you want it, hmm?â he asks, his voice rough with restraint.
But instead of answering, you pull him into a kiss, hot and heavy, your tongues tangling as if the world outside doesnât exist. The kiss steals his breath, and the moment takes him over the edge.
With a groan, Chan pulls out at the last second, climbing onto the bed and positioning himself over you. His hand moves quickly, chasing his release as your hands rest on his thighs, your gaze locked on him in anticipation.
Moments later, with a shudder and a raw moan, his release spills over your chest, painting your skin in streaks of white. You gasp softly, the sight of him undone above you leaving you breathless.
Chan collapses onto his elbows, framing your face with his arms. He kisses you deeply, his lips lingering as he brushes your hair back with tender fingers.
âStay, yeah? Iâll grab a cloth,â he whispers against your skin, his tone filled with affection.
You stop him with a soft kiss, smiling. âOkay.â
After a quick cleanup in the bathroom, he returns to find you sitting up on the bed, your hair swept back, your skin glistening wet in the aftermath of passion. With gentle care, he wipes you down, his touch lingering longer than necessary.
When heâs done, you reward him with a kiss, your lips soft and full of promise. âThank you,â you say with a grin.
âTime to cuddle.â He eagerly moves to his side of the bed, ready for his favorite part of the night.
You hold a hand to his chest, stopping him from pulling you in. âHold that thought,â you tease, pressing a quick kiss to his lips. âI have to pee.â
Chan laughs, watching you saunter off to the bathroom, and admiring how beautiful you are with your skin glowing under the soft glow of your bedroom lights.
âThatâs my girl,â he delightfully sighs, his smile full of adoration.
-
Chan is already smiling when you step out of the bathroom, his head resting lazily on the pillow, the sheets pooling around his waist. The way he looks at you, with an easy grin and a softness that doesnât quite match the image he projects to the rest of the world, almost makes you forget to breathe. But his smile drops the moment he notices you pulling on a t-shirt.
"Hey," he whines, propping himself up on his elbows. âTake that off. Itâs illegal to wear clothes in bed when Iâm here.â
You roll your eyes, tugging the hem of the shirt into place. âIâm cold.â
âExcuses.â He opens his arms wide, an irresistible invitation. âCome here. Iâll warm you up.â
With a small shake of your head but a smile on your lips, you crawl into bed beside him. He helps you taking the t-shirt off and aggressively tosses it onto the floor after. His arms wrap around you immediately, pulling you close until your head rests on his chest. His hand finds its way to your hair, idly brushing through the strands while his other arm holds you securely against him.
For a while, thereâs just comfortable silence. Chanâs chest rises and falls steadily beneath your cheek, and you let yourself relax into the comforting rhythm.
Then, out of nowhere, Chan breaks the quiet.
âWhy arenât we dating yet?â
You blink, caught off guard. âWhat?â
âI mean, think about it,â he says, his voice contemplative as his hand stills in your hair. âWe like each other, right? That much is obvious. And the⌠uh, sexual chemistry?â His lips curl into a sheepish smile you can feel more than see. âItâs off the charts. So why arenât we just⌠together?â
You lift your head to look at him, raising a playful eyebrow. âWhat happened to the guy who used to hide in my apartment to avoid having these kinds of conversations with the girls he was seeing? Huh?â
Chan chuckles, the sound low and warm. âThat guy grew up, okay?â
You hum, pretending to think. âWho are you? And what did you do to the fuckboy next door?â
He laughs outright this time, shaking his head. âHe retired. Sold the title. But seriously...â His voice softens as he meets your gaze again. âI want this. I want us. So why not just make it official?â
His earnestness leaves a slight ache in your chest, but you press it down. Instead, you offer him a soft smile, reaching up to brush his cheek with your fingertips.
âI think,â you begin carefully, âthat we shouldnât rush it. Relationships are a big deal, and I donât want to mess this up. Weâll know when itâs the right time, Chris. I promise.â
He searches your face for a moment, his expression unreadable, before he sighs and nods. âYeah. Okay. I get it.â
But you can feel the tension lingering in his shoulders as he pulls you close again. You know whatâs bothering him, even if he doesnât say it. Minho. That bold, smug smile. The little comments that he probably thinks are harmless but dig under Chanâs skin like splinters.
And for all his charm and newfound earnestness, Chan is still afraid. Afraid of losing you before he even truly has you.
-
The bed shakes, pulling Chan from the light doze heâs been enjoying. He cracks an eye open, disoriented, and watches as you bolt out of bed, mumbling something about being late. The slam of the bathroom door jolts him further awake, and he groans, dragging his hand down his face.
A quick glance at the clock confirms itâyouâve overslept. Knowing how rushed you must feel, Chan forces himself up despite wanting to stay cocooned in the sheets a little longer. He stretches, yawns, and heads to the bathroom. The sound of water rushing in the shower drowns out any chance of conversation, so he settles for a quick wash at the sink before leaving you to it.
In the kitchen, he moves on autopilot, pulling ingredients from the fridge and setting the coffee machine to brew. Within minutes, the smell of toast fills the air, mingling with the aroma of freshly brewed coffee. Chan prepares a cup just the way you like it and grabs a plate with a buttered toast before making his way to the bedroom.
When he enters, youâre perched in front of the vanity, expertly applying your makeup in quick, efficient motions. You glance at him in the mirror and flash a grateful smile as he sets the coffee and toast down beside you.
âThanks, baby,â you murmur, pausing briefly to take a sip of coffee and a bite of toast before resuming your routine.
Chan smiles hearing you used a petname for him and then he leans against the wall, watching you with a fond smile. âWant me to help dry your hair while you do that?â
You glance at him and nod. âThatâd be great.â
He picks up the hairdryer and begins carefully running his fingers through your hair as he dries it, making sure not to disturb your makeup process. Itâs a small thing, but he loves moments like theseâhelping you in the ways he can, being part of your busy mornings.
When youâre finally ready, you sit on the bench by the foyer to put on your shoes. Chan hovers nearby, watching as you lace them up.
âWant me to pick you up at the bus stop later?â he asks.
You glance up, slipping your second shoe on. âIâm working on a photoshoot today. Iâm not sure when Iâll be done.â
Chan nods, already mentally preparing to wait up for your call regardless of the hour. You stand, heading for the door, but Chan stops you with a light tug on your arm.
âYouâre forgetting something,â he says, a teasing smile playing on his lips.
You blink and smirk, leaning in to give him a quick kiss. âThere.â
Chan laughs, holding up your phone. âNot that, genius.â
Your cheeks flush, and you laugh along with him, snatching the phone from his hand. âThanks. Again.â This time, you cup his face and give him a longer, lingering kiss, leaving him momentarily breathless.
The two of you exit the apartment together, and just as the elevator arrives on your floor, you step inside, waving goodbye with a rushed smile.
Chan stands there, hands in his pockets, watching the doors close with a content grin on his face. He couldnât ask for a better way to start his day.
The elevator doors slide shut, and Chan stands in the hallway for a moment, a warm smile lingering on his face. He stretches, ready to head back inside for a quiet, lazy morning. Just as he turns to his door, a voice cuts through the peaceful silence.
"Well, isnât this a cozy little scene?"
Chan looks up to see Minho leaning casually against the doorway of his apartment, arms crossed and a smirk plastered across his face.
âGood morning, Chris. Or should I call you âNeighbor Boyfriendâ now?â Minho teases, his voice laced with mock amusement.
Chanâs grin falters slightly, replaced by a frown. âMorning,â he half-heartedly replies, trying to keep his tone neutral.
Minho straightens up and steps into the hallway, his smirk only widening. âGotta say, you two are quite the sight. Sheâs so... composed, and then thereâs you, acting like a lovesick puppy.â
Chan exhales sharply through his nose, willing himself to keep his cool. âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â
âOh, donât I?â Minho chuckles, casually leaning closer. âI mean, Iâve only been here a few days, and itâs already obvious. Youâre head over heels, but her?â He shrugs, feigning innocence. âHard to tell.â
Chan clenches his jaw but forces a smile. âThanks for the unsolicited opinion, Minho.â
Minho chuckles again, stepping back toward his door. âJust calling it as I see it. Enjoy your day, Chris.â
He gives a mocking little wave before disappearing into his apartment, leaving the door slightly ajar as if to taunt him further.
Chan stands frozen for a moment, hands curling into fists at his sides. He lets out a deep breath, shaking his head as he steps back into his own apartment, Minhoâs words still echoing in his mind.
Ugh. So much for a peaceful morning.
-
Chan wipes the sweat off his forehead as he steps into his apartment, dropping his gym bag by the door. His phone buzzes, and he checks the screen to see a message from you:
Almost done with work! Heading to the bus stop soon.
A grin tugs at his lips, and he glances at the time. âPerfect,â he mutters, making his way to the bathroom for a quick shower. He knows youâll appreciate him being on time, especially after how hectic your morning started.
Minutes later, Chan is freshly showered, towel-drying his hair as he scans his wardrobe for something decent to wear. Settling on a simple hoodie and jeans, he slips into his sneakers and grabs his phone, ready to text you that heâs on his way.
Before he can type a word, thereâs a knock at the door. His brows furrow. Itâs too early for you, and heâs not expecting anyone else. When he opens it, the sight on the other side is the exact opposite of what he wants to see.
Minho stands there, a sly grin plastered across his face.
âChris! Just the guy I was looking for,â Minho says, leaning casually against the doorframe.
Chan crosses his arms and narrows his eyes. âWhat do you want, Minho?â
Minho straightens up, his grin widening. âOh, nothing much. Just here to show someone where you live.â
Before Chan can question him further, Minho steps aside, and someone else comes into view. His stomach twists as he sees her. Sue.
The familiar face catches him off guard. Sue, with her perfectly styled hair and charming smile, greets him warmly.
âHey, Chris,â she says, her tone light and casual, as if no time had passed since they last spoke.
Chanâs hand tightens on the doorframe, his mind racing. Of all the people to show up here, Sue is the last person he expectedâor wantedâto see.
â...Sue,â he finally manages, his voice clipped. He shoots a quick glare at Minho, whoâs now leaning against the hallway wall, looking far too pleased with himself.
Chan forces himself to meet her gaze, bracing for whatever reason sheâs hereâand for whatever game Minho thinks heâs playing.
-
Chan sets the glass of juice on the coffee table in front of Sue, trying to balance politeness with the unease creeping up his spine. He forces a small smile as she thanks him, her eyes scanning the room before landing on him again.
âNice place, Chris,â she says, her tone light, her lips curving into a warm smile. âItâs cozy.â
âThanks,â he replies curtly, sitting down on the armrest of a nearby chair instead of joining her on the sofa. He fiddles with the hem of his hoodie, feeling the seconds stretch awkwardly between them. âSo⌠why are you here, Sue?â
Sueâs expression brightens as if sheâs been waiting for the question. She reaches into her bag and pulls out a tie, holding it up.
âThis,â she says, a playful tone in her voice. âI believe itâs yours. From that wedding we were at a while back. You left it behind.â
Chan stares at the tie for a moment before taking it from her. Itâs familiar, all rightâthe tie he wore the night they reconnected. He thanks her, though the gesture feels unnecessary. A tie isnât exactly something worth returning.
âYou really didnât have to go out of your way for this,â he says, placing it on the coffee table.
Sue shrugs, crossing her legs. âI thought itâd be nice to stop by. And I figured itâd give us a chance to catch up.â
She leans back, her gaze softening. âIt was such a surprise seeing you again that night. It brought back so many memories, you know?â
Chan nods, his smile tight as he feels her words start to linger in the air. Heâs polite but cautious, sensing the subtle shift in her tone.
Sue continues, her voice lowering slightly, as though sharing a secret. âAnd if we're being honest, I havenât been able to stop thinking about you since then.â
Chan freezes, the implication behind her words settling heavily between them. His heart sinks as he realizes where this conversation is heading.
Clearing his throat, he straightens his posture. âSue,â he starts, his voice measured. âI think I wasnât clear enough the last time we talked.â
Sue tilts her head, her smile faltering ever so slightly.
âI know what youâre trying to do here,â Chan continues, his tone gentle but firm. âAnd I really donât want to lead you on.â He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. âIâm seeing someone right now. Itâs⌠getting serious.â
For a moment, Sue doesnât say anything. Then, her expression shifts, disappointment flickering in her eyes as she processes his words.
âOh,â she murmurs, lowering her gaze. âI⌠Iâm sorry, Chris. I didnât mean toââ
âYou donât need to apologize,â Chan interrupts, his tone softening. âReally. Iâm flattered, Sue. You have no idea. If anything, I feel like my teenage crush has finally come full circle.â
Sue blinks, her lips curling into a reluctant smile. âTeenage crush, huh?â
Chan chuckles, feeling the tension ease between them. âYeah. I mean, come on, you were way out of my league back then. And still.â
Her laugh is genuine now, and she shakes her head. âI guess timing was never on our side.â
âGuess not,â Chan agrees, a warmth settling in his chest as they share a moment of mutual understanding.
As the laughter dies down, Sue rises from the sofa, smoothing her skirt. âWell, I should get going. Thanks for the uh... juice and the honesty, Chris.â
Chan stands, walking her to the door. âTake care, Sue.â
She gives him one last smile before stepping out into the hallway. As the door clicks shut behind her, Chan exhales deeply, feeling a strange mix of relief and gratitude. Timing really wasnât on their sideâand for once, heâs perfectly okay with that.
-
Chanâs knuckles rap softly against your door, the sound almost drowned out by the racing of his heart. He adjusts the hem of his hoodie nervously, rehearsing his apology in his head. When the door opens, your bright smile greets him, and all of his words evaporate on his tongue. Without a second thought, he steps inside, cups your face, and kisses you.
The kiss lingers, soft and apologetic, before he pulls back just enough to speak. âIâm sorry about last night,â he begins, his voice low and earnest. âI meant to pick you up, but somethingââ
Before he can finish, a figure emerges from your bathroom. Minho steps into the living room, his white t-shirt clinging to his chest, soaked through as though heâd just been caught in the rain.
Chan freezes, his words dying mid-sentence. Minho runs a hand through his damp hair, offering Chan a sly smile before addressing you. âHey, the shower headâs fixed, but it might still leak a little. Youâll probably want to check it later.â
Your smile falters slightly as you glance between them. âThanks, Minho. Let me grab you a towel.â You disappear down the hallway, leaving the two men alone.
Chan shifts uncomfortably, glaring at the floor while Minho leans casually against the wall.
âRough night, huh?â Minho starts, his tone far too conversational. âMustâve been, with your guest and all.â
Chanâs jaw tightens, his gaze snapping to Minho. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
Minho shrugs, feigning innocence. âOh, nothing. Just thought it was interesting helping your friend return your tie. You know, the one you left in her hotel room?â
Before Chan can respond, you return, handing Minho a towel. âHere,â you say with a warm smile. âThanks again for helping with the shower.â
âNo problem.â Minho takes the towel, winking at Chan. âIâll leave you two to it.â
As the door closes behind Minho, Chan lets out a breath he didnât realize heâd been holding. His gaze moves to you as you sit down on the sofa, looking at him expectantly.
âOkay,â he says, standing in front of you. âI need to explain something.â
You nod, but your attention drifts almost immediately. Your eyes flicker downward, then linger a little too long.
âAre you listening?â Chan asks, noticing your distracted expression.
You blink and meet his eyes, caught off guard. âYeah, of course,â you say, though your gaze quickly strays again.
Chan follows your line of sight and catches on, his cheeks flushing as he realizes where youâre looking. âHey, my eyes are up here,â he teases, a nervous laugh escaping him. âAre you even listening to me?â
You finally snap out of it, sitting straighter. âI am,â you insist, though your shy smile betrays you. âItâs justâŚâ
Chan raises an eyebrow, waiting.
You hesitate, then admit, âItâs hard to focus when youâre wearing those grey sweatpants.â Your cheeks heat as you gesture vaguely toward his lower half. âTheyâre⌠distracting.â
The flush on Chanâs face deepens, and he stumbles over his words. âWhat? These? Theyâre justââ He glances down, clearly self-conscious now. âI wasnâtâthis wasnâtââ
You lean closer, your voice dropping to a seductive murmur. âI donât have much time before work soâŚâ You let the sentence hang, your lips curving into a teasing smile. âCan we talk about it in the shower?â
Chanâs breath hitches, his brain short-circuiting at your suggestion. The apology he had so carefully crafted is long forgotten as you take his hand, pulling him toward the bathroom.
-
The steamy mist envelops the bathroom as Chan steps in, his heart racing the moment his eyes land on you. Warm water cascades down your body, tracing paths he longs to follow with his hands and lips. He stands there, momentarily stunned, feeling like heâs witnessing something ethereal.
Unable to resist any longer, Chan moves closer, slipping his arms around your waist. The heat of your skin against his sends a shiver through him, and he presses a tender kiss to your shoulder, letting his lips linger on the beads of water glistening there. His mouth trails up to your neck, the salty-sweet taste of your skin driving him wild.
You turn in his arms, your hands resting firmly on his chest. The mischievous glint in your eyes makes his pulse quicken. Gently but insistently, you push him back until his back hits the cool tiles of the shower wall. Chanâs breath hitches as you lean into him, your wet body pinning him in place.
Your lips hover tantalizingly close to his, and he instinctively leans forward, only for you to pull back, teasing him with a sly smile.
âPatience,â you murmur, your voice low and sultry.
He groans softly, his hands finding purchase on your waist as you finally close the gap, kissing him deeply. Chan melts into the kiss, his arms pulling you impossibly closer, the warmth of the water surrounding you both like a cocoon.
You move your lips down to his neck as your hand glides down his front, not stopping until your hand meets his hardening member. He's helpless as you're kissing his sensitive spot and your hand wrapped around his length, and the warm water does nothing but contribute to the rise of the temperature.
As you slowly stroking his cock, you press your mouth to his ear. âMmh... so big.â
Chan drops his mouth on your shoulder, drinking in the scent and beads of water on your skin. His hand snaking down your back, kneading on your ass cheek.
âWant to feel it getting bigger in mouth,â you whisper and with that, you put your knees down on the bathroom floor.
Your hand keeps stroking his cock while your eyes fixated on him, you tease its head by circling it with your thumb. You begin teasing his tip with kitten licks and you hold his cock slightly upward to land a lick along his length, earning a raw groan from him.
You slyly smile seeing him losing focus of you but you surprise him by cradling his balls in your hand while your mouth starts taking his length. You take and keep on taking his length until it fully disappeared into your mouth.
Chan lets out a deep growl as you close your lips around his length and sucking at it, your tongue feels hot around him, oh... he knows he's about to lose it soon.
While keeping the eye contact, your head bobbing as you pull away and take more of him, twirling your tongue around it, sucking him harder and using your hand to compensate the rest that you canât take.
Next thing he knows, Chan is teetering on the edge, it's the way you're looking at him, your eagerness to please and just how good you are with your mouth. He tangles his hand in your damp hair, breathlessly he says, âI'm about to cum, baby.â
With your mouth full of him, you can exactly respond to him but ypu blink your eyes, signaling that you hear him. You slowly pull away, replacing your mouth with both hands now, continuing building the tension that's about to burst soon.
You tilt your head upward, watching him falling apart at the seams as you tirelessly pumping him with your hands. A smile tugging at your lips ad you wait for him to come undone before you.
âI'm coming, I'm coming,â he says with a rushed tone.
You close your eyes to brace yourself to receive his load on your face and you gasp as the first streak of his seed lands on your cheek and some more landing on your chin and around your mouth. When you think he's done, another one lands across your eyelid.
âChris, not my eye!â you grumble with a playful laugh. You keep your eyes closed and freeze, unsure on what to do.
Chan pulls you up so he can help you with it, he collects some water from the shower and gently, he washes your eyes with it and eventually all over your face.
âThere. Done,â he announces as he wipes the last of his cum on your chin and gives you a quick kiss on the lips.
You slowly open your eyes and smile at him. âThat was fun,â you teasingly comment.
Chan shyly smiles and pulls you close. âI think that was hot.â
Your arms slide up to rest around his shoulders, and you look at him with a playful yet expectant expression. âAlright,â you say with a grin. âIâm ready to listen now.â
Chan blinks, momentarily disoriented, before the memory of why he came over resurfaces. âRight⌠Sue,â he begins, his voice slightly breathless. âShe stopped by yesterday to return a tie I left behind. Thatâs all it was.â
You raise an eyebrow, tilting your head. âUh-huh. And whyâd you leave your tie at her place in the first place?â
âIt was from a wedding I went to, remember?â he explains hurriedly, his hands rubbing soothing circles on your hips. âI didnât even realize I left it. She just⌠used it as an excuse to show up.â
You canât help but laugh softly, leaning your forehead against his. âChris, you couldâve just told me that. No need to make it a big deal.â
He sighs, a sheepish smile tugging at his lips. âI know, I just didnât want you to get the wrong idea. Iâm not⌠like that anymore.â
You chuckle, your fingers brushing through his damp hair. âI know youâre not. But for the record, if you get into trouble again, you might want to hide your ties better.â
Chan laughs, his heart feeling lighter as he kisses you again, this time slower, savoring the moment. All his earlier worries melt away under the warmth of your touch and the water cascading around you both.
-
The soft hum of conversation fills the lobby as you step in, adjusting your bag on your shoulder. Your eyes scan the space and quickly land on Minho, standing by the mailboxes, sifting through a stack of letters. He looks effortlessly put together, dressed casually yet sharply, and you canât help but smile as you approach him.
âMorning,â you say, catching his attention. He looks up, his lips curling into a small, knowing smirk.
âMorning. Shower still working?â he asks, setting the mail aside.
You nod, feeling a bit sheepish. âYes, perfectly. Thank you for fixing it this morning. I really appreciate it.â
âAnytime,â he says with a wave of his hand, as if it were no big deal. Then his gaze flicks to your bag. âHeading to work?â
âYeah,â you confirm with a small smile.
Minho tilts his head slightly, a spark of mischief lighting his eyes. âWant a ride?â
âOh, no, Iâm good,â you reply quickly, shaking your head. âItâs not that far, and I donât want to trouble youââ
âTrouble me? Please,â he interrupts, his smirk widening. âItâs literally on my way. Just say yes.â
You hesitate for a moment, but Minho raises an eyebrow, clearly not taking no for an answer. âCome on,â he urges. âUnless you want to be late?â
With a soft laugh, you relent. âOkay, fine.â
The ride starts off light, the radio playing softly in the background as Minho drives. Heâs casual, one hand on the wheel, the other draped over the gear shift. Itâs comfortable, easyâuntil he glances over at you and breaks the silence.
âSo,â he begins, his tone teasing but laced with curiosity. âYou and Chris. Whatâs the deal?â
Caught off guard, you blink at him. âUh⌠what do you mean?â
âI mean, are you guys⌠serious? Casual? Still figuring things out?â He spares you a quick glance before returning his focus to the road.
You shift in your seat, feeling a flicker of nervousness. âWeâre still getting to know each other better,â you answer carefully. âItâs⌠new.â
Minho hums thoughtfully, and you can tell heâs not convinced. âYou sound like youâre hesitating,â he observes, his voice soft but perceptive.
âIâm not hesitating,â you counter quickly, meeting his gaze briefly. âIâm just⌠being careful.â
âCareful,â Minho repeats, the word hanging in the air. Then his tone turns playful. âIs that because Chris has a bit of a, uh⌠reputation?â
You canât help but laugh softly at his bluntness. âNo, itâs not that,â you say, shaking your head. âItâs because⌠I like him. A lot. And I donât want to ruin thisâfor either of us. Like I did with my last relationship.â
Minhoâs teasing demeanor softens slightly, and he gives you a sidelong glance, a flicker of understanding in his expression. âAh, I get it. Youâre serious about this one.â
âI am,â you admit, your voice quieter now. âI just want to do things right.â
A beat of silence passes before Minhoâs smirk returns, albeit gentler this time. âSo, youâre saying I donât have a chance?â he asks, feigning disappointment.
You laugh, the sound genuine and light. âSorry, Minho. Iâm very much taken at this point.â
He lets out a dramatic sigh, playfully smacking the steering wheel. âChris is a lucky bastard,â he grumbles, though his tone is laced with good-natured envy.
You shake your head, still laughing softly. âHeâs⌠something else,â you admit, warmth spreading through your chest at the thought of Chan.
Minho glances over at you again, his smirk softening into a smile. âWell, for what itâs worth, Iâm glad youâre happy, neighbor.â
As Minho pulls up in front of your workplace, he shifts the car into park and turns to you, a teasing smirk already forming on his lips. âWell, here we are,â he says, gesturing grandly like a chauffeur.
âThanks for the ride,â you say with a grateful smile, reaching for the door handle.
âDonât mention it,â he replies. Then, just as youâre stepping out of the car, he adds with a mock-serious tone, âBut donât think Iâm fixing your shower again.â
You freeze mid-step and turn back to him, laughing softly. âWhat? Why not?â
âBecause next time, Iâm charging you,â he quips, leaning back in his seat. âOr better yet, Iâll let Chris deal with it. He can pick up a wrench for once.â
You roll your eyes but canât stop smiling. âNoted. Iâll keep that in mind.â
Minho grins, clearly pleased with himself. âGood. Now go have a nice day at work. And tell Chris he owes me for this ride, too.â
Shaking your head, you step out of the car, shutting the door behind you. âThanks again, Minho,â you call out with a wave.
âAnytime,â he replies, winking. âBut seriouslyâno more broken showers.â
You laugh, turning toward your workplace as Minho drives off, his playful words lingering in your mind and leaving you with a lighthearted smile for the rest of the morning. You canât help but feel a little more certain of the path youâre onâwith Chan, and maybe even with Minho as a good friend by your side.
-
The evening air feels warm and easy inside Chanâs apartment. You're perched on a stool next to his DJ setup, your fingers hovering uncertainly over the turntable as Chan stands close, guiding you through the basics. His voice is soft but enthusiastic as he explains how to cue up tracks, mix beats, and create seamless transitions.
âSee? Just like this,â he says, demonstrating the movement with fluid precision. His hands brush against yours, and you feel the slight buzz of electricity from his touch.
You bite your lip, pretending to concentrate. âSo, what happens when a girl comes into your DJ booth?â you ask teasingly, glancing up at him with a playful smirk.
Chan grins mischievously, his dimples deepening. Without missing a beat, he takes you gently by the waist, pulling you into the open space of his living room.
âThis happens,â he replies, starting to sway with you to the beat of the music.
You laugh, a little awkward as you try to follow his lead. âYou know Iâm terrible at dancing, right?â
âThereâs no such thing,â Chan counters, spinning you around playfully before demonstrating a goofy dance move, making you burst into laughter. âSee? Now youâre better already.â
Shaking your head, you try to mimic his move, but itâs hopeless. He chuckles and takes your hands, pulling you closer until thereâs barely any space between you. âAlright, letâs make it simple,â he says, lowering his voice. âJust follow me.â
Despite the upbeat track playing in the background, Chan slows his movements, leading you into a slow dance. The contrast feels silly and intimate all at once, and your heart beats faster as he gazes at you with a soft, unguarded look.
He leans in, his lips brushing yours, and you melt into the kiss. His hands tighten slightly on your waist, anchoring you as the world shrinks to just the two of you and the music in the background.
When you pull back, you tilt your head and narrow your eyes playfully. âDo you do this with every girl who comes into your booth?â
Chan smirks, his dimples making another appearance. âAbsolutely not,â he says smoothly, his tone dripping with mock seriousness. âIâm very selective about who gets into my booth⌠especially who gets to touch my turntable.â He pauses, his grin turning cheeky. âAnd letâs be honest, no one handles my knobs like you do.â
Your jaw drops as you laugh at his lewd joke, swatting his arm. âChris!â
He laughs along with you, catching your hand and pressing a kiss to your knuckles. âWhat? Itâs true,â he says with a wink, pulling you back into his arms for another dance, the music now forgotten as the two of you move to your own rhythm.
The music hums softly in the background as Chanâs lips move with yours, his hands firmly holding your waist as the two of you sink into the plush sofa. The warmth of his body against yours, combined with the way he kisses youâurgent yet tenderâsends shivers down your spine.
Chanâs fingers trace slow, teasing patterns along your sides as the kiss deepens, pulling you closer. His breath hitches as your hands tangle in his hair, tugging slightly, eliciting a low groan from him.
Then comes the knocking.
Chan stiffens slightly but doesnât stop, his lips still lingering on yours. When the knocking persists, you reluctantly pull back, breathless. âChris,â you murmur, your lips still brushing his. âSomeoneâs at the door.â
He groans audibly, his forehead dropping against yours. âIgnore it,â he mutters, his voice heavy with frustration.
The knocking grows more insistent, and you nudge him lightly. âYou canât just ignore it forever.â
With a resigned sigh, Chan pulls himself up, running a hand through his messy hair as he trudges to the door. He swings it open, already prepared to send whoever it is away, but freezes when he sees Minho leaning casually against the doorframe.
âChris,â Minho greets with a smirk, his tone infuriatingly casual. âNice party youâre having. Could hear it from my place.â
Chan narrows his eyes and lets out a sigh. âWhat do you want now, Minho?â
Before Minho can reply, you appear behind Chan, peeking over his shoulder. âMinho,â you say with a smile. âWhat brings you here?â
Minho straightens up and gives you a polite nod before turning back to Chan. âI actually need a favor,â he starts, leaning just a little too casually against the doorframe. âThereâs this heavy piece of furniture I need to move from my old apartment, and I figured Chan here could help me out. Itâs too much to handle on my own.â
Chanâs jaw clenches, clearly unimpressed by the request. Deep down, heâs looking for an excuse to say no, but when you glance up at him with an encouraging smile, he knows heâs already lost.
âThatâs so nice of you to ask Chris,â you say warmly. âHeâs always so helpful.â
Chan exhales sharply, knowing he canât refuse in front of you. âFine,â he mutters, his tone begrudging. âWhen do you need help?â
âTonight,â Minho replies, his grin sly and victorious. âIâll swing by to pick you up in... 15 minutes?â
âOkay,â Chan replies just so the conversation ends quickly.
âThanks, man.â Minho gives Chan a quick pat on the shoulder before sauntering off, clearly pleased with himself.
Chan closes the door a little harder than necessary, turning to you with a pout. âYou know I didnât actually want to do that, right?â
You laugh softly and loop your arms around his neck. âI know,â you tease. âBut I like having a boyfriend whoâs nice and kind. Itâs very attractive.â
Chan pouts deeper, narrowing his eyes. âI donât like him.â
You nudge him playfully. âCome on, Chris. We didnât like each other at first either, remember?â
He crosses his arms, his pout unrelenting. âThis is different. Iâll never, ever be in love with Minho.â
Laughing, you pull him into a hug, resting your head against his chest. âGood,â you murmur with a smirk. âOne reformed fuckboy is enough. I donât think I could handle another one.â
He softens under your touch, his arms coming around you as he mumbles, âI told you, Iâm not that anymore.â
You lean back just enough to meet his eyes, a teasing smile on your lips. âExactly. Thatâs why Iâm keeping you.â
He grins despite himself, leaning down to press a lingering kiss to your lips, his earlier frustration melting away entirely. He sighs as he pulls away, knowing he has to get ready.
âI'll go get changed.â
You playfully slap his butt as he walks towards his room. âNow, thatâs my good boy!â
-
The car ride to Minhoâs old apartment is tense. Chan sits in the passenger seat, arms crossed as Minho keeps throwing questions his way.
âSo, you and her... itâs serious?â Minho asks, eyes flicking between the road and Chan, a sly grin playing on his lips.
Chan sighs, looking out the window. âHow far are we from your apartment?â
Minho ignores the deflection, his grin widening. âYouâre dodging the question. Come on, itâs me. You can tell me. Is she âthe one,â or is this just a phase?â
Chan keeps his gaze firmly outside, biting back his frustration. âAre we there yet?â
Minho laughs, clearly amused by Chanâs silence. âTouchy subject. Got it.â
When they finally arrive, Chan follows Minho up the stairs, carrying a dull sense of hope that this errand will be quick. Minho unlocks the door, and the sound of music and chatter spills out. The apartment is crowded, with people milling about and laughing loudly. Chan frowns.
âI thought we were here for a table,â he says, glancing at the scene unfolding before him.
âWe are,â Minho says nonchalantly, stepping inside and greeting his friend.
Chan hesitates at the door before reluctantly following. Minho is already chatting away, and before long, a drink is being pressed into Chanâs hand.
âRelax,â Minho says, grinning as he sips his drink. âThe tableâs in the kitchen, but look at itâitâs holding up all the drinks. Canât exactly take it now, can we?â
Chanâs eyes narrow as he spots the dining table in question, completely covered in bottles and snacks. He exhales sharply, already regretting agreeing to this. âSo this is a party. Not a quick errand.â
Minho shrugs, his grin unrepentant. âTwo birds, one stone. Come on, have a drink. Socialize a little. You used to be great at this.â
Slumping into a seat, Chan takes a reluctant sip from his drink, more out of necessity than enjoyment. He knows Minho well enough to realize thereâs no rushing this.
As the evening drags on, Minho leans back in his chair, eyeing Chan with a mischievous glint. âYou ever miss it?â
âMiss what?â Chan asks, his tone clipped.
âThe lifestyle,â Minho says, spreading his arms. âNo strings, no commitments. Just fun. You were the shit back then. Whyâd you give it up?â
Chan takes another sip, avoiding the bait. He knows what Minhoâs doing.
Minho smirks, leaning closer. âMe? I donât get it. Settling down when you could have this.â He gestures around the room. âYouâre still young. Still good-looking. You could have it all. Why lock yourself down?â
Chan keeps quiet, his grip tightening on his glass.
Moments later, a group of girls approaches their table, all bright smiles and curious eyes. Minho grins, clearly in his element, and introduces himselfâand Chan.
âThis is my boy Chris,â Minho says, slinging an arm over Chanâs shoulder. âHeâs a legend. Used to be the life of every party.â
The girls giggle, their attention now focused on Chan, who shifts uncomfortably. Leaning in close, Minho whispers in Chanâs ear, his tone low and tempting. âYou can have fun, you know. No oneâs going to find out. I wonât tell her.â
Chanâs jaw tightens, the words cutting through him like a blade. He sets his glass down, staring at the table. This is what Minho wantsâto see if heâll crack, to see if heâll slip back into old habits.
But Chan knows better. Heâs not that person anymore. And heâs not about to prove Minho right.
-
The moment Chan leaves, you find yourself wandering around his apartment. Though you've been here countless times, something about being alone in his space feels different. Itâs like youâre seeing it through fresh eyesâthe meticulous way he keeps everything in order, the slight personal touches that reflect his personality.
You run your fingers along the edge of his desk, smiling at the neatly stacked papers and perfectly aligned pens. His living room is spotless, not a cushion out of place. Even his shoe rack catches your attention, with every pair arranged in perfect color coordination.
When you peek into his bathroom, you canât help but chuckle softly. His toiletries are lined up like soldiers on parade, everything from his toothbrush to his cologne standing in perfect order. Itâs so Chanâpractical, disciplined, and oddly endearing.
As you wander further, you pass by the laundry room and pause. A small pile of clothes spills out of the dryer. Without thinking, you step inside, deciding to fold them for him.
You reach for the first item, a hoodie youâve seen him wear so many times before. Lifting it to your nose, you inhale deeply. The scent of fabric softener mingles with the faint, familiar smell of Chan himselfâclean, warm, and comforting. An unexpected ache blooms in your chest, a longing for him even though he was right here just hours ago.
Smiling to yourself, you finish folding the clothes and set them neatly on the counter. You glance at the clock, realizing itâs later than you thought, and decide to wait for him to come back. You make your way to his bedroom, lying down on the bed that smells just as much like him as the hoodie did. It doesnât take long for sleep to claim you.
-
As the night drags on, Chan finally decides heâs had enough. He stands, leaving his half-finished drink on the table, and starts making his way toward the door. The noise and chatter fade into the background as his only focus is getting out of this suffocating situation.
âLeaving already?â Minhoâs voice cuts through the din, and Chan turns to see him catching up, his grin still infuriatingly smug. âWhatâs the rush, man? We havenât even moved the table yet.â
Chan sighs, his patience wearing thin. âIâm not wasting any more time here. You didnât need me for this. You just wanted an excuse to drag me into your mess.â
Minho laughs, stepping in front of him to block his path. âYouâre so obedient these days. Might as well put a leash around your neck and hand it over to her, huh?â
Chanâs jaw tightens, but he doesnât rise to the bait. âMove, Minho.â
Minho tilts his head, mock curiosity in his eyes. âWhatâs the rush? Afraid sheâll get mad at you for staying out too late? Or is it guilt because you know Iâm right?â
Chan glares at him, but doesnât respond. Instead, he pushes past, his hand already on the doorknob.
But Minho isnât done. âYou know, relationships like yours donât last long,â he says, his tone deliberately casual. âGuys like you? You get bored. You might not want to admit it, but I know you, Chris. Youâll start to crave what you gave up. And her?â
Chan freezes, his grip tightening on the doorknob.
Minho takes a step closer, his voice dropping to a mockingly sympathetic tone. âShe doesnât even address the relationship, does she? Never flaunts it publicly. Almost like sheâs already bored of you. But hey, maybe thatâs a good thing. Makes it easier for you to go back to your old self.â
Chan exhales sharply, his knuckles white as he grips the doorknob. He turns his head slightly, just enough to meet Minhoâs gaze. âIâm not the same as you, Minho.â
With that, he steps out, slamming the door behind him. The cool night air hits him, but it does little to cool the frustration simmering in his chest.
As he walks away, Minhoâs words echo in his mind, planting seeds of doubt he desperately doesnât want to acknowledge.
Is Minho right? Would you get bored of him? Would he?
Chan shakes his head, trying to dispel the thoughts, but they cling to him like shadows, following him all the way home.
-
The sound of the front door opening wakes you. Disoriented, you scramble out of bed, brushing your hands through your hair as you hurry to greet him.
Chan steps inside, his jacket slung over his arm and a weariness etched into his features. His eyes meet yours briefly, but thereâs none of the usual warmth in them.
âHey,â you say softly, approaching him. âYou look exhausted. Was the furniture that heavy?â
He doesnât respond, shrugging off his jacket and tossing it onto the back of the couch. His silence makes you hesitate, but you press on. âHow was it? Did youââ
âDo you even think of me as your boyfriend?â he suddenly bursts out, his voice sharp and filled with frustration.
The question hits you like a punch to the gut, leaving you momentarily speechless. âWhat?â
Chan steps closer, his eyes searching yours, his tone a mixture of anger and vulnerability. âDo you? And if you do, why donât you ever talk about us? Why donât you ever want anyone to know? Do you want this relationship? Or are you already bored with me?â
You stare at him, completely thrown off by the intensity of his words. Youâve never seen him like this beforeâso raw, so unguarded. Itâs clear something is bothering him deeply, but you canât figure out what triggered it.
âDo you even want to be with me?â
âChrisâŚâ you begin, but your voice trails off when you see the exhaustion in his eyes.
He sighs heavily, running a hand through his hair and turns his back to you, avoiding your eyes. âIâm not feeling well tonight.â
You take that as your cue to leave him alone. Nodding, you grab your things, leaning in to press a quick kiss to his cheek.
âGoodnight,â you whisper before slipping out the door.
As you walk back to your apartment, your mind races. What happened tonight? Why was he so upset? You replay his words over and over, trying to piece together what might have caused such a drastic change in his mood. Something feels off, and you canât shake the feeling that this isnât just about tonight.
-
The next morning, you find yourself standing in front of Chanâs door, your knuckles poised mid-air. Youâve been replaying last nightâs events over and over, trying to make sense of his sudden outburst.
You knock softly once, then twice. On the third knock, you pause, lowering your hand. Maybe heâs still sleeping. He probably needs the rest, you think to yourself, chewing on your bottom lip as you hesitate to disturb him further.
Just as youâre about to turn and leave, the door across the hall creaks open. Minho steps out, his ever-present smirk tugging at the corners of his lips.
âMorning,â he greets casually, leaning against his doorframe as if heâs got all the time in the world.
You offer a polite smile and greet back. âMorning, Minho.â
Deciding not to linger outside Chanâs apartment, you turn and make your way toward the elevator. Minho follows, his footsteps echoing lightly in the hallway.
As you press the button to summon the elevator, you glance at him. âSo, did you manage to get that furniture back to your place last night?â
Minhoâs smirk widens slightly, and he shrugs nonchalantly. âYeah, something like that.â
His vague answer doesnât sit right with you, but you choose not to press further. Instead, you take a deep breath, gathering your thoughts before speaking again.
âMinho, can I be honest with you for a second?â
He raises an eyebrow, clearly intrigued. âSure.â
You turn to face him fully, meeting his gaze with calm determination. âI like you. I think youâre a great guy, and I really appreciate how friendly youâve been. But I just want to make sure weâre clear about something.â
He tilts his head slightly, his smirk faltering just a little.
You continue, your voice steady. âIâm with Chris. Weâre building something together, and heâs been working really hard on leaving his old habits behind. I know itâs not always easy for him, but heâs trying, and I want to support him in that.â
Minhoâs expression doesnât change much, but thereâs a flicker of somethingâcuriosity, maybeâbehind his eyes.
âIâd really appreciate it,â you say, your tone firm but not unkind, âif you could stop⌠whatever it is youâre doing to him. I want us all to stay friendly neighbors, but I need you to respect that Chris and I are in this together.â
For a moment, Minho doesnât say anything, his smirk fading into a neutral expression. Then he chuckles softly, shaking his head. âFair enough.â
The elevator dings, and the doors slide open. You step inside, glancing at him one last time.
âThanks for understanding, Minho,â you say, offering a small smile.
As the doors close, you canât help but wonder if your words got through to him. You donât know what exactly happened last night, but youâre determined not to let anythingâor anyoneâget in the way of what youâre building with Chan.
-
Chan heard your knocks this morning. He was sitting on the sofa, debating whether to open the door. He wanted to. He even stood up, reaching for the handle, but then your voice carried through the door.
You were talking to Minho.
At first, he tensed, expecting some kind of casual banter, but what he heard instead made him freeze. You were telling Minho off. Not angrily, but in a calm, respectful way that had him smiling despite himself.
Chan leaned against the door, listening to every word, and for the first time in a while, he felt lighter.
Now, as the hours tick by, he waits for you to come home. His ears are tuned to every little sound in the hallway, and when he hears the chime of the elevator, his heart jumps. Without thinking, he scrambles to the peephole. There you are, stepping out of the elevator, looking just as calm and composed as you did this morning.
Chan feels a surge of emotions he canât quite untangle. Guilt for the things he said last night. Gratitude for the way you stood up for him. Relief that youâre still here.
He retreats back to the sofa, sitting down heavily, running a hand through his hair. He doesnât have a plan. Part of him wants to rush out and hug you, to thank you. Another part reminds him of the way he hurt you last night, and the words that might have planted doubts.
His thoughts spiral until a knock at the door snaps him back to the present. Heâs on his feet in an instant, heart racing. When he opens the door and sees you standing there, smiling softly, it takes everything in him not to collapse into you.
âHey,â you say gently. âJust want to check if you're feeling any better.â
Chan doesnât respond with words. He steps forward, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you into a tight hug. His face buries in the crook of your neck, and he breathes you in, letting your presence soothe the storm inside him.
You donât hesitate. Your arms circle his back, your hand rubbing slow, comforting circles. âAw, poor baby,â you coo playfully, your voice warm and teasing.
Surprisingly, Chan doesnât mind. He lets himself melt into your touch, holding you as if youâre the only thing anchoring him. Because right now, thatâs exactly what you are.
-
The room is dimly lit, the warm glow of the bedside lamp casting soft shadows as Chan curls into you on the bed. His head rests against your neck, his arms securely wrapped around your waist as if youâre the only thing tethering him. He sighs softly, comforted by your fingers threading through his curls.
Every now and then, you press a gentle kiss to his head, and Chan feels his heart swell. Moments like these are rare, and heâs determined to soak up every second.
You take his hand, your fingers lightly tracing the rough calluses on his palm. âWhere did these come from?â you ask, curiosity lacing your voice.
âDeadlifting,â he mumbles, his voice slightly muffled against your neck.
Your eyebrows lift in surprise. âAnd how much can you lift?â
âThree-fifty,â he answers casually.
You gasp, pulling back just enough to look at him. âThree-fifty? You can lift that much but crumble like a baby from a slight fever?â
Chan pouts, his lips jutting out adorably as he buries his face deeper into your neck. âThatâs different,â he grumbles, voice tinged with mock indignation.
You laugh, the sound light and teasing. âAw, is my big strong man pouting?â you coo, planting a soft kiss on his pout to make it disappear.
For a moment, everything feels lighthearted and easy, but Chan knows he canât avoid the topic forever. He exhales deeply, adjusting slightly to look at you. âI need to talk about last night.â
Your fingers pause in his hair, and you pull back slightly to meet his gaze, your eyes filled with understanding. âOkay. Iâm listening.â
Chan hesitates for a moment before speaking. âIt wasnât about Minho. Not really. I mean, he has a way of... getting under my skin, but thatâs not why I blew up.â He takes a deep breath. âItâs me. My fears, my insecurities. Iâve spent so much time trying to change who I wasâtrying to be better for youâand sometimes I worry Iâm not enough. Or that... youâll realize Iâm not worth it.â
You frown, your hand cupping his cheek. âDo you really think that?â
He nods reluctantly. âLast night, when I said all those things... I didnât mean them. Not really. I was scared. Scared that maybe you donât see thisâusâthe same way I do. And I took it out on you. Iâm sorry.â
You soften, your thumb brushing against his cheek. âThank you for telling me. And Iâm sorry tooâfor anything Iâve done that made you feel like that. I want you to know that you are enough, Chris. More than enough.â
His chest feels lighter at your words, and he leans in to press a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. âThank you,â he murmurs.
You smile against his lips, wrapping your arms around him. âAlways.â
As you settle back into the embrace, Chan feels himself relax completely. The warmth of your touch and the reassurance in your words lull him into a sense of peace. His breathing slows, and before he knows it, sleep starts to claim him, safe in the comfort of your love.
-
The sound of soft breathing fills the room as you glance over at Chan, still fast asleep. His features are peaceful, his chest rising and falling steadily. You carefully slide out from under his arm, pressing your knuckles gently to his neck to check his temperature. It's lower than before, a relief that makes you smile softly. Quietly, you adjust the blanket over him, tucking him in snugly before stepping out of the room.
Your mind races as you head to your apartment. Dinner time is approaching, and you remember Chan once mentioning his favorite comfort food. Itâs been a while since youâve cooked, but for him, youâre willing to try.
Gathering ingredients from your fridge, you return to his apartment, silently letting yourself in. The kitchen is as neat as always, but it doesnât take long for it to be filled with the sounds of chopping, sizzling, and the occasional clatter of a utensil. You hum softly as you stir the curry, hoping it will turn out as close as possible to what he likes.
Youâre so focused on your task that you donât notice Chan until you feel his arms wrap around your waist from behind. His warmth and familiar scent surround you, and his voice, soft and a little groggy, breaks your concentration. âWhat you doing?â
You glance over your shoulder, smiling at him. âMaking you curry. Thought you might want some comfort food.â
His eyebrows lift slightly in surprise, and a small smile tugs at his lips. âYou remembered?â
âOf course,â you say, turning back to the stove. âBut donât thank me yetâit could be inedible.â
Chan leans in, pressing a soft kiss to your lips, his arms still loosely around you. âIâm thanking you anyway,â he murmurs.
You try to act unfazed, brushing him off with a teasing smile, but the warmth in his voice makes your heart flutter.
When the curry is finally done, you serve it with some rice and set the plates on the table.
Chan takes a bite, his eyes widening slightly as he chews. He grins, shoveling in another mouthful before looking at you with exaggerated enthusiasm. âThis is amazing! Like, Michelin-star worthy. No, better!â
You laugh, shaking your head. âYouâre just saying that because I made it.â
âNo, I mean it! This is comfort food and happiness in one bite,â he says, still grinning as he digs in.
Watching him eat so heartily makes you momentarily forget your own plate. He looks so genuinely happy that you canât help but feel a warm glow in your chest.
âDo you like it?â you ask, though you already know the answer.
âLike it? I love it,â Chan replies, his voice bright and sincere.
As he finishes the last bite, you remember something important. âOh, by the way, I have to go out of town for work tomorrow. Iâll be back Friday.â
Chanâs expression falls into a dramatic pout. âWhoâs going to take care of me while youâre gone?â
You chuckle at his reaction. âMinho can,â you tease, watching as his pout deepens.
âIâll starve,â he mutters, slumping in his seat.
You roll your eyes and lean closer, gently patting his cheek. âYouâll survive.â
As Chan finishes the last of his curry, he leans back in his chair, looking content and drowsy. His cheeks are slightly flushed, probably from the warmth of the food and the lingering effects of his fever. You watch him quietly, a smile tugging at your lips as he gives you one of his bright, boyish grins.
âWhat?â he asks, tilting his head.
âNothing,â you reply softly, shaking your head. âJust glad you liked it.â
But itâs not nothing. Not really. As he leans forward, resting his chin in his hand and watching you with those warm, chocolate-brown eyes, something inside you feels steady, sure. This isnât just a fleeting feeling, a passing infatuation. Itâs deeper than that.
In Chan, you see someone who works tirelessly, who loves with everything he has, even when heâs afraid. Someone who has his flaws but owns up to them, whoâs willing to grow and try harder. Heâs not perfect, but heâs real. Heâs kind, patient, and someone who makes you feel safe just by being near.
You reach out, placing your hand on top of his. âYou know,â you say softly, your voice carrying a weight of sincerity, âI donât think Iâve ever been this certain about anything before. About how I feel about someone.â
Chan blinks, caught off guard by your words, but the way his face softens tells you he understands. âYeah?â
You nod, your thumb brushing over his knuckles. âYouâre the person I want to be with, Chris.â
For a moment, heâs silent, his expression unreadable. Then, with a shy but radiant smile, he squeezes your hand. âIâm glad. Because⌠I feel the same.â
The moment feels still, like the world has quieted around the two of you. You lean forward, pressing a soft kiss to his lips, and when you pull back, the look in his eyes is one of pure affection.
âNow,â you say, breaking the quiet with a teasing grin, âfinish your curry so I can clean up and start packing for tomorrow.â
Chan laughs, the sound light and happy, and as he dives back into his plate, you canât help but think that, with him, youâre exactly where youâre meant to be.
-
Chan wipes his forehead with the towel slung around his neck as he steps into his apartment, still catching his breath from his gym session. The familiar hum of quiet greets him, but his first thought isnât about the silenceâitâs about you.
Grabbing his phone off the counter, he unlocks it with quick swipes, scrolling through to see if thereâs a text from you. Nothing. His brows furrow slightly as he opens the messaging app, his thumb hovering over the screen to type. Where are you? he begins, but the sound of a knock at the door stops him mid-sentence.
Setting his phone down, he walks over to the door and opens it, and there you are. Leaning against the doorframe, you look up at him, your eyes wide but glittering with a playful edge. His heart gives an involuntary thump against his ribcage.
âYou didnât text me you were here,â he says, trying to keep his tone casual, though his mind is already spinning at the way youâre looking at him.
You donât answer right away. Instead, your gaze drops, roaming over him like youâre savoring every detail. He suddenly becomes hyperaware of himselfâhis black compression top clinging to his chest, the sheen of sweat on his pale skin, the way his grey sweatpants hang on his hips.
âHey! Eyes are up here,â he teases lightly, crossing his arms as he leans against the doorframe, a small smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
You blink, snapping yourself out of it with a slightly sheepish but unapologetic grin. âRight. Sorry.â
You straighten up, brushing a strand of hair away from your face. âI just came by to remind youâitâs pajama party tonight. Be ready by 9.â
âGot it,â Chan replies with a nod, though he canât help noticing the way your eyes still linger on him, making him feel like heâs under a spotlight.
You flash him a sly smile, leaning in close enough for him to catch a hint of your perfume. âI canât wait for tonight,â you murmur, and before he can say anything else, your lips press against his in a slow, lingering kiss.
When you pull away, your eyes sparkle mischievously, and with one last glanceâone that travels shamelessly from his head to his toesâyou turn and start walking back to your apartment.
Chan leans against the doorframe, watching you go. You glance back just before closing your door, flashing him another teasing smile that makes his chest tighten and his pulse race.
He closes the door with a soft click, leaning his back against it as he exhales slowly. His pulse is still racing, and it has nothing to do with his post-workout adrenaline. The way you looked at him just nowâthe glint in your eyes, the sly smile, the lingering kissâwas enough to leave him completely disarmed.
He glances at the clock to check how much time he has until he has to go to your place. His lips tug upward in a small smile as he thinks about it. Pajama parties with you were always something to look forward to, a mix of playful banter, laughter, and quiet moments where the rest of the world seemed to fade away. But the way you'd just looked at him⌠He had a feeling tonight would be different.
âCold shower,â he mutters to himself, already heading toward the bathroom. "Definitely need a cold shower."
Shaking his head, he pushes off the door and heads inside the bathroom. The memory of your lingering kiss makes his lips tingle, and he absentmindedly touches them as he grabs a towel.
âYouâre really gonna be the death of me,â he mumbles to himself, stepping into the shower and letting the cold water wash over him. It doesnât do much to cool the warmth that spreads across his chest, though.
As he dries off and changes into something comfortable, his mind drifts back to youâyour smile, your voice, the way your eyes seemed to linger on him. He can't help but feel a mix of anticipation and nervousness. Tonight, he tells himself, will be another reminder of just how much you mean to him.
And honestly, he canât wait.
-
Chan inhales deeply before knocking on your door, his nerves already getting the better of him. He tries to keep calm, shaking out his shoulders and muttering under his breath to steady himself. When the door finally clicks open, and he sees you standing there with that soft, welcoming smile, itâs like the air is stolen from his lungs.
âHey,â you say gently, stepping aside to let him in.
âHey,â he replies, his voice quieter than usual as he walks into your space.
The scene youâve set hits him instantly. The lights are dim, candles flicker softly around the room, and the scent of something sweet and warm lingers in the air. Youâve transformed your sofa into a makeshift bed, complete with blankets and pillows, all perfectly angled toward the TV.
Itâs obvious youâve gone all out tonight, and that realization makes Chanâs pulse quicken. He knows where this could lead if he lets it, but he silently resolves not to give in so easily.
âMake yourself comfortable,â you tell him, already heading toward the kitchen.
He nods, sitting on the edge of the sofa and rubbing the back of his neck as he tries to steady his thoughts. Youâre just here to watch a movie. Keep it together, Chan.
When you return, balancing a tray of snacks in your hands, Chan smiles at the sight of youâuntil you set the tray down and shrug off your silk robe.
His throat goes dry.
Youâre wearing a silk slip dress that clings to your figure in all the right ways, but what nearly makes him lose composure is the white stockings youâve paired with it. He swallows hard, suddenly hyperaware of how close youâre standing.
You sit next to him, curling your legs up on the sofa as you flash him a teasing smile. âReady?â
âY-Yeah,â he stammers, clearing his throat as he fixes his attention on the TV.
The movie starts, and Chan leans back slightly, trying to focus on the screen. But then you shift closer, snuggling into his side, your warmth seeping through his clothes.
âSo, how was your day?â you ask casually, your fingers grazing his arm.
âGood,â he manages, his voice steady despite the way his heart is hammering. âSpent most of it at the gym.â
âIs that why you're so tense?â you murmur, your hands sliding to his shoulders. Before he can respond, youâre massaging the knots in his muscles with deliberate care.
Chan sucks in a breath, closing his eyes briefly as he mutters, âIâI'm fine.â
You hum softly, but from the corner of his eye, he notices youâre barely watching the movie. Your gaze is on him, studying him with an expression thatâs both mischievous and affectionate.
âThis is a good movie,â he says, desperate to break the tension.
âYouâre a good movie,â you tease back, your tone light but laced with heat.
Before he can protest, your lips brush against his neck, slow and deliberate. Chanâs breath catches, his eyes fluttering shut for a moment as his resolve wavers.
âFocus,â he whispers to himself, gripping the edge of the blanket tightly.
You donât make it easy for him, planting more soft, heated kisses along his neck, your hands tracing slow patterns over his chest.
Somehow, by sheer willpower, Chan makes it to the end of the movie, though he has no idea what happened onscreen. His thoughts were too consumed with resisting the endless temptations you threw his way.
As the credits roll on the movie, Chan exhales a long breath, his muscles tense from an evening spent in quiet restraint. He feels like heâs been holding his breath the entire time, caught between wanting to let himself relax and staying vigilant.
âIâll be right back,â he murmurs, standing up and heading to the bathroom.
Once inside, Chan splashes cold water on his face, gripping the edge of the sink as he stares at his reflection. Get it together, he tells himself. Youâve made it this far.
He dries his face, takes a steadying breath, and steps back into the living room. The sight waiting for him freezes him in place.
Youâre lying on your side, one arm propping your head up, the hem of your silk slip dress riding high up your thigh. His eyes trail down, catching a glimpse of the garter encircling your legâa detail so provocative it sends his resolve teetering on the edge.
Chan swallows hard, forcing his face to remain impassive as he approaches the sofa. âSo,â he says casually, his voice steady despite the way his heart races, âwhat movie are we watching next?â
You smirk, your eyes sparkling with mischief. Instead of answering right away, you reach out, grabbing his wrist and pulling him down beside you. Chan lets himself be tugged into the space next to you, your warmth immediately invading his senses.
You lean in closer, your voice low and teasing as you finally reply, âWhat youâre watching next⌠is me.â
Chan freezes, his breath catching as your words sink in. For a split second, his mind goes blank, and then he feels the corner of his lips curve into a smile, his carefully constructed resolve cracking just slightly.
âThatâs it! I give up,â he murmurs, his voice soft but filled with a mix of amusement and surrender. He takes you by the waist with force, sending the two of you collapsing onto the mattress.
-
A triumphant smile spreads across your face as Chan finally gives in, his whispered declaration of defeat filling the quiet air between you. Before you can say a word, his lips find yours, urgent yet tender, his hands gripping your waist as if anchoring himself to you. Though you're already straddling him, he pulls you closer, closing any remaining distance as if afraid of letting you slip away.
His lips wander to your neck, brushing soft, tickling kisses that make your shoulders twitch in delight. You canât help but giggle, the sound light and airy in the warmth of the moment. When his head tilts up to meet your gaze, you gently cradle his face in your hands, his flushed cheeks warm beneath your palms.
âChris,â you begin, voice steady yet filled with quiet conviction. âIâm ready. Letâs do this. You and me.â
Chan freezes, his expression unreadable for a heartbeat too long. The silence stretches thin, but then he pulls you into another kiss. This time, itâs differentâdeep, deliberate, and brimming with every emotion he canât put into words. Your hand presses to his chest, and beneath your fingertips, you feel the frantic, erratic rhythm of his heart.
It gives you pause. You pull back slightly, just enough to study his face. His breathing is shallow now, his chest rising and falling unevenly. Concern prickles at the edges of your joy. âAre you okay?â you ask softly, brushing your fingers along his jaw.
âIâm fine,â he replies, but his voice is barely above a whisper, and it doesnât convince you.
His heartbeat only quickens, thundering against your hand, and a flicker of panic crosses his eyes. âChris,â you murmur, your worry rising. You start to slide off his lap, intending to get him some water or give him space, but his arms tighten around your waist.
âDonât,â he whispers, his voice cracking slightly as he holds you close. His lips part, struggling to form the words. Finally, with a quiet, almost trembling breath, he confesses, âI love you.â
The raw vulnerability in his voice makes your chest tighten. The weight of his words lingers in the air, fragile and unguarded. Suddenly, everything makes senseâhis uneven breathing, his racing heart. It wasnât fear, but the overwhelming intensity of his feelings for you.
Relief floods through you, and you let out a soft sigh, cupping his face gently. âGosh, you worried me,â you murmur, your thumbs brushing over his cheeks. Pressing your forehead to his, you let out a slow, steady breath, grounding both him and yourself in the moment.
Gathering your courage, you lean in and press a feather-light kiss to his lips. âI love you too, Chris. So much,â you whisper, your voice trembling with sincerity.
His eyes search yours, wide and hopeful, his emotions laid bare. As the tension melts from his body, he exhales deeply, a sound filled with relief and quiet joy. You stay like that, foreheads touching, your breaths mingling in the shared stillness.
Gradually, the wild rhythm of his heart begins to settle, syncing with the steady cadence of your own. In that moment, the world outside fades away, leaving only the two of youâconnected, understood, and wholly in love.
-
Chan towers over you, his eyes dark with want as he works with practiced ease, removing each piece of clothing until thereâs nothing left but the soft white stockings clinging to your legs. You feel the heat of his gaze, the weight of his admiration, and it sends a thrill coursing through you.
Your lips curl into a sly smile as you meet his eyes. âThis isnât fair,â you say, your voice low and teasing. âTake it off.â
He doesnât argue. With a grin that makes your breath hitch, Chan reaches behind his neck and pulls his shirt over his head, revealing the chiseled perfection of his chest and abs. The sight steals the air from your lungsâit always does. No matter how many times youâve seen him like this, it feels like the first, like youâre witnessing something sacred.
You sit up slowly, your gaze locked on the hard ridges of his torso. Your fingers lift almost instinctively, tracing the outline of his muscles, the way his body shifts and flexes beneath your touch. His skin is warm, smooth, and alive under your fingertips.
Leaning forward, you press your lips to his abs, soft at first, letting them linger for a moment before moving to the next spot. You taste the faint salt of his skin, the heat of him, and it makes your pulse quicken. His breath hitches as your kisses turn bolder, your tongue flicking out to trace along the defined lines.
A soft chuckle escapes your lips as you gently nip at his skin, your teeth grazing just enough to tease. The sound is playful, dripping with mischief, and you feel a rush of satisfaction when his body tenses in response.
You glance up, catching his gaze. His smile is tender yet filled with unmistakable desire, his dimples deepening in a way that makes your heart flutter. Thereâs something intoxicating about the way he looks at you, like youâre his entire world.
You let your lips trail lower, your fingers continuing their journey, savoring every second. Each kiss, each touch, is deliberate, a silent declaration of your adoration. You linger, taking your time, committing the feel of him, the taste of him, to memory.
And as you feel him relax under your touch, you canât help but smile, knowing heâs completely and utterly yours in this moment.
You brace your hands against his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart beneath your palms. With a sudden surge of boldness, you push him down, catching him completely off guard. He falls back onto the bed with a soft grunt, his sly, mischievous grin spreading wider as he looks up at you.
You straddle him, your thighs framing his waist, and his gaze darkens with anticipation. Thereâs nothing between you now, and the heat radiating from his body only fuels your desire.
âIâve been dreaming of this,â you confess, your voice low and dripping with intent. âOf riding your abs.â
His brows lift, and his dimples deepen as he lets out a low, amused chuckle. âYeah?â His voice is a rich hum of approval, laced with arousal. âThen donât let me stop you.â
He props his hands behind his head, his biceps flexing as he settles back to watch you. âDo whatever you want, baby,â he murmurs, his eyes locking onto yours. âIâm all yours.â
You feel a rush of exhilaration as you scoot forward, positioning yourself so that your core hovers above his perfectly sculpted abdomen. Slowly, deliberately, you lower yourself, your wetness meeting the firm ridges of his abs. His body tenses beneath you, muscles hardening, and you gasp softly as the sensation sends a jolt of pleasure through you.
Chan flexes beneath you intentionally, giving you exactly what you need, and the friction only heightens the thrill coursing through your veins. You begin to roll your hips, dragging yourself along the hard contours of his body, painting him with your essence.
Your head tilts back as a moan slips from your lips, the sensation unlike anything youâve felt before. His hands remain where they are, but his eyes follow your every movement, dark and heated, his mouth slightly parted as if he can feel every wave of pleasure youâre experiencing.
âLook at you, baby. So perfect,â he murmurs, his voice strained with desire.
The way he looks at youâlike youâre the only thing in the worldâmakes your pulse race even faster. His chest rises and falls steadily beneath your palms, but thereâs a tension in his body, a barely contained restraint that tells you heâs just as affected as you are.
You grind harder, your movements becoming more erratic as your pleasure builds, and the sound of your moans fills the room. Chan watches you with an intensity that makes your skin tingle, his lips curling into a satisfied smirk.
âThatâs it,â he whispers, his tone low and reverent. âTake what you need, baby.â
And you doâletting go of everything else and losing yourself in the intoxicating rhythm of your body against his, feeling completely and utterly alive under his gaze.
-
Your body is a vision before him, a masterpiece of curves and softness that Chan could never tire of admiring. As you settle onto your hands and knees, the arch of your back catches his breath in his throat, the way it flows so naturally into the curve of your hips. He's already buried deep inside you, but the way your body welcomes him only fuels his desire to savor every single moment.
His hand glides down your spine, his touch reverent as though he's committing every dip and line to memory. The softness of your skin makes him whimperâa sound he doesnât try to hideâhis fingers trailing upward until they reach the nape of your neck. Without hesitation, he tangles his hand into your hair, gently tugging to tilt your head to the side, baring the column of your neck for his lips.
He dips down, pressing hot kisses along the sensitive skin, each one deliberate and full of hunger. The way you shiver under him only spurs him on, and he tightens his grip, tugging your head back further. Your lips part slightly, just enough for him to claim them in a rough, demanding kiss, the kind that leaves no room for doubt about who you belong to in this moment.
Without warning, Chan begins to move, his hips setting a steady rhythm that has you gasping into his mouth. The way your body reacts to him, the way youâre already melting under his touch, sends a rush of satisfaction through him. He grins against your lips, knowing heâs in complete control, playing with the balance of gentle and rough in a way that keeps you guessing.
âGod,â he groans, his voice deep and strained. âYouâre so perfect like this. Do you know what you do to me?â
Your moans grow louder, and Chan feels your body start to tremble. He knows youâre close, and it only drives him to push you further. His lips trail back to your ear, his breath hot against your skin as he murmurs, âBite the pillow, baby. Iâm not holding back anymore.â
With that, he releases your hair, letting your head fall forward onto the pillow. He watches as you follow his command, sinking your teeth into the fabric while your hands clutch the sheets. The sight sends a fresh wave of arousal through him, and he plants both hands firmly on your hips.
Then he lets loose. His thrusts become harder, faster, each one drawing a sharp cry from your lips muffled by the pillow. His grip on your hips tightens, fingers digging into your flesh as he drives into you with relentless intensity. Sweat beads on his forehead and runs down his chest, but he doesnât slow downânot until he feels you clench around him, your body trembling violently as your release washes over you.
âThat's it,â he growls, his own pleasure building to its peak. âLet go for me. Come for me, baby.â
The way you pulse around him is almost too much to bear, but he keeps going, determined to give you everything before letting himself fall over the edge. And when he finally does, itâs with a guttural groan, his body shuddering as he pours himself into you completely, lost in the overwhelming sensation of having you in every possible way.
Chan watches as your body shudders beneath him, the aftershocks of your climax slowly ebbing away. He gives you a moment to recover, his hands gently tracing soothing patterns over your hips and lower back. Carefully, he pulls out of you and rolls you onto your back, his movements tender as though handling the most precious thing in the world.
His eyes search your face, concerned yet soft. âAre you okay?â he murmurs, brushing a stray strand of hair from your damp forehead.
You meet his gaze with a weak but contented smile, nodding. âIâm okay.â
Chan leans down, pressing a kiss to your forehead, then to your cheek, and finally to your lips. âGood,â he whispers, his voice filled with a mix of relief and affection.
He gives you another moment, letting you bask in the afterglow. His lips pepper soft kisses along your collarbone and shoulders, his fingers trailing lightly over your skin, grounding you in the tenderness of the moment. You let out a small, blissful sigh, and he canât help the smile tugging at his lips.
When you start shifting under him, signaling that you're ready, Chan positions himself between your legs again. He kisses you deeply, his lips molding to yours as if trying to convey everything he feels but canât say. Then, he enters you once more, this time with infinite care, his movements slow and deliberate.
His thrusts are unhurried, every roll of his hips designed to make you feel cherished. His lips barely leave yours, his kisses deep and consuming. When he pulls back to breathe, he whispers sweet nothings against your lips, his voice a soothing melody.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he murmurs, his gaze locked with yours. âI donât think Iâll ever get enough of you.â
Your hands find each other amidst the tangle of sheets, fingers lacing together as you share this quiet intimacy. Chan feels something new, something deeperâa connection that goes beyond the physical. For the first time, he feels like heâs truly becoming one with you, not just in body but in soul.
The sheen of sweat on your skin doesnât matter. The messy sheets donât matter. All that exists in this moment is you and him, moving together in perfect harmony.
When the two of you finally reach your peak, itâs as if time slows, the world narrowing to the shared rhythm of your breaths and the racing of your hearts. He presses his forehead to yours, groaning your name as you both shatter together, your bodies trembling in unison.
After a long moment, Chan shifts slightly to look at you, his expression soft and full of adoration. âHow you doing?â
You let out a tired laugh, your voice teasing. âRemind me to send a thank-you note to your personal trainer.â
Chan blinks, then bursts out laughing, his chest shaking as he collapses beside you. âOh, gosh,â he says between his shy laughs, pulling you into his arms.
You nestle against him, a playful grin tugging at your lips as you add. âThat if my hand can ever grip a pen again.â
Chan shakes his head, still laughing as he presses a kiss to your temple. âI think Iâll keep that note for myself,â he murmurs. âAfter all, Iâm the one who gets to make you feel this good.â
You hum in agreement, your smile softening as you drift into the comfort of his embrace. And as the two of you lie there, tangled together, Chan feels a deep sense of contentment, knowing this moment is one heâll carry with him forever.
-
The movie is long forgotten, a faint hum in the background as Chan lies sprawled on top of you, his body perfectly molded to yours on the makeshift sofa bed. His head rests just above your chest, the steady rhythm of your heartbeat grounding him. Your fingers weave through his curls, gentle and soothing, while he trails soft kisses across your chest, his lips brushing against your skin like whispered confessions.
Heâs elatedâcompletely and utterly elated. The words you said to him, âI love you too,â keep replaying in his mind, wrapping around his heart and filling him with a joy he can hardly contain.
He lifts his head slightly to look at your face, illuminated softly by the glow of the room. Youâre so beautiful, so perfect, and it feels like this moment is too good to be true. His chest tightens with emotion, and for a fleeting second, he wonders if he needs to pinch himself to make sure heâs not dreaming.
âWhat are you thinking, mmh?â you ask, your voice soft and teasing as your fingers trace his temple.
Chan hesitates for just a moment before answering, his voice low and earnest. âIâve been thinking about the future. About you being in it. And how⌠happy that makes me. For the first time, I canât wait to live that future with you.â
Your lips curve into a playful smile. âOh yeah? What kind of future are we talking about?â
His cheeks flush slightly, but the words come naturally. âA house. A family. Seven kids. And a dog, of course.â
Your eyes widen, and you gasp in mock horror. âSeven kids? Are you serious? Youâd better find another girlfriend if you want seven kids because Iâm not doing that.â
He grumbles, a mix of amusement and protest, and buries his head into your neck. The scent of you, the warmth of your skinâitâs all so grounding.
âToo late! You can't back out now,â he mumbles against your collarbone as he possessively holds you. âThis fuckboy is yours.â
Your laughter vibrates through him as you wrap your arms tighter around him, holding him close. You press a soft kiss to his forehead, and he feels himself melting further into your embrace.
Chan closes his eyes, sinking deeper into your warmth. For the first time in his life, he feels like heâs standing at the beginning of his happy endingâand heâs never felt so sure about anything.
-
As Chan watches you sitting at the vanity, carefully applying your makeup, he still canât believe this is his life now. This is his morningâseeing your face illuminated by soft daylight, your focused expression softening whenever you notice him watching. It feels surreal, like the culmination of every quiet dream heâs ever dared to have.
You catch his gaze in the mirror and smile, and Chanâs heart squeezes. He walks over, placing a cup of coffee on the table in front of you, and leans down to kiss the top of your head.
âThanks, baby,â you say, turning to press a quick peck on his lips before going back to your routine.
As you finish getting ready, Chan busies himself, making sure your bag is packed and youâve got everything you need for the day. When itâs time to leave, he walks with you to the door.
At the elevator, you pull him into a kiss, your hands resting gently on his chest. He savors the moment, every second a reminder of how deeply heâs fallen for you. When you pull away, he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, his voice soft as he asks, âWant me to pick you up at the bus stop later?â
You shake your head, slipping a spare key into his hand. âOr you can wait at my place instead.â
Chan stares at the key in his palm, overwhelmed by what it means. Itâs not just a keyâitâs your trust, your willingness to let him into your life even more deeply. His chest tightens with gratitude and joy, and he leans in for another kiss, slow and lingering, pouring all of his emotions into it.
The sound of a door opening down the hall interrupts the moment. Chan pulls back, turning his head, bracing himself for one of Minhoâs sarcastic remarks. But instead, Minhoâs door swings open to reveal Sue stepping out.
Chan freezes as Sue says something to Minho, who smirks and leans down to kiss her. The shock must be written all over Chanâs face because Sue looks startled when she notices him.
Minho, on the other hand, is his usual unbothered self, raising a hand in a casual wave. âMorning!â he calls out with a sly grin.
Sue walks toward the elevator, her steps hesitant, and exchanges an awkward smile with Chan. âHey, Chris.â
âMorning, Sue,â Chan replies with a smile.
âSo... This must be the girl youâve talked about,â she says, glancing at you.
Chanâs cheeks burn as he nods and glances at you. âYeah. This is my girlfriend.â
You smile warmly, looking between Sue and Chan. âOh, is this Sue? The one you had a crush on when you were a teenager?â
Chan groans, embarrassed, as Sueâs eyes widen before both you and Sue burst into laughter. Thankfully, the elevator comes and saves Chan from further embarrassment.
âGood taste, Chris,â Sue teases, giving him a wink before stepping into the elevator.
You press a quick kiss to Chanâs lips before joining Sue in the elevator. âSee you later!â you call out as the doors close.
Chan stands there for a moment, the absurdity of it all sinking in. His first love meeting his current girlfriendâand laughing together, no less. Added with the fact that Sue is also hooking up with the neighbor he hates so much, Minho. He shakes his head, chuckling softly to himself as he walks back to your apartment, amazed at the twists life throws his way.
Back inside your apartment, Chan locks the door behind him, letting out a deep sigh as he leans against it. He turns the spare key over in his hand, still marveling at how much his life has changed.
The morning had been a whirlwind, but somehow, it left him feeling more grounded than ever. Watching you confidently interact with Sueâteasing him like it was the most natural thing in the worldâonly solidified his feelings. It struck him that while his first love had been a naive dream, you were his reality, and everything about it felt right.
He makes his way to the sofa, the scent of your perfume lingering faintly in the air. Sitting down, Chan stares out the window, a small smile tugging at his lips.
Life had a funny way of surprising him, weaving paths together in ways he couldnât have imagined. And now, holding the key to your apartment, it feels like a metaphor for more than just trustâitâs an open door to the future youâre building together.
Chan leans back, running a hand through his curls. His phone buzzes on the table, and he picks it up to see a text from you.
âMiss me yet? ;)â
He shakes his head, grinning as he types back:
âAlways.â
As he hits send, Chan realizes heâs not just happyâheâs completely at peace. For the first time, the unknown doesnât scare him. Heâs not caught up in what might have been or what could go wrong. Instead, heâs focused on whatâs in front of him and whatâs to come.
And he knows, without a doubt, that itâs you.
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AN INTERACTIVE CHRISTMAS CALENDAR
You know the difference between right and wrongâbut youâre gonna do it anyway.
đ First, youâre getting ghosted by your situationship. Second, you lose your job. Third, your landlord decides to double the rent of your shared apartment. And itâs only Tuesday. Luckily, your friend and roommate Chan has a crazy idea that might solve (most) of your sudden problemsâstart a streaming channel to film spicy videos together while earning some money. What could go wrong, right?
â [READ CAREFULLY] You, Y/N, are actually part of this story and the one who makes the decision which will have an impact on the following chapters. Simply choose an option at the end of every chapter that you think fits best! [updated daily from 1st to 25th December; polls will stay up for 1 or 3 days]
đˇ CONTENT INFO: chan, minho, jisung x afab reader, angst/fluff/smut, camgirl au, camgirl!reader, camboy!chan, childhood friend chan, enemy minho, friend jisung, perv!jisung, and they were all roommates; rest of ot8 is part of the story and their tropes will be revealed throughout the story [chapters, warnings and taglist info under the cut]
đWORD COUNT: ?/~30K
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CHAPTERS:
[1] â CRIMSON | chapters will be updated daily from 1st to 25th December!
đĽCONTENT WARNING: smut tags will be specified for each chapter, alcohol consumption, cyber sex work and discussion of morality behind that, different feminist takes/perspectives on sex work, commitment issues, financial problems, flawed characters and that makes them human [might add more later]
â¤ď¸AUTHORâS NOTE: what would be christmas without tanâs interactive calendar? 2 years ago, I introduced the first interactive fanfic to stayblr and itâs been such a great time ever since. Iâm taking a different route with this one and hope you will like itâitâs spicier but also a more serious take on a trope thatâs super popular and that I adore so much too. taglist requests will only be taken in account by blogs with an age indicator, pfp and header and that actively reblog/comment/interact with fanfics! please comment here on the masterlist if you wish to be added. thank you so much. thanks for all the support, I love you so much. have a wonderful time đŤśđť
The characters do not portray any of the skz members in real life, the names are just used for fiction. Minors do not interact, this post contains mature topics. By reading you consent to nsfw content and agree that you have read all the warnings above carefully.
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ď´ž haunt me
pairing: demon!lee minho x f!reader
genre: one-shot, horror au, smut
word count: 11,2K
warnings: small!stalking â obsessive behavior â blood â hair!pullingâ ass!slapping â biting! â pain!kinkâ choking! â small!fear playâ dom!leeknow & sub!reader â rough!sex â ass up face down!position â fingering (f.receiving) â oral (f.receiving) â cunnilingus â unprotected!sex â creampie!
summary: on Halloween night, you and your friends gather for a classic spirit summoning, eager to make the most of this tradition, unaware that you will be the one to face the consequencesâŚ
authorâs note: this is actually the first ever thing I wrote here, but I forgot about it but now itâs finally seeing the light of the day
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The blanket around you did nothing for the coldness that seeped into your skin. Your teeth are still chattering, lips dry and nose runny. You shouldâve known better, all of you. Your muscles are straining with every small move you make to get yourself a little more comfortable on the hard floor. Your eyes go over the room, finding only disappointment. The costumes, makeup and left over mess reminded everyone of how horrible the party was. You remember how excited you and your friends were. You all spend so much time getting ready, almost freezing to death while walking to the so called party. You looked forward to it so much and maybe you did have way too high of expectations. Everything was awful and mostly â it lacked the Halloween spirit.
Your attention goes back to the television, just as the lead character is being chased by the killer. Her screams pierce your ears, while you take a small sip of the wine in your hands. You and your friends decided to just rather go home and have a small party of your own. The disappointment was so great that none of you had an appetite for searching for another party. However the costume still wrapped around your body was telling you something different. Just watching horror movies and sitting in a costume didnât fill the need of thrill you so needed.
Soft footsteps are heard, making you all turn, some in fright, thinking that something evil is coming right towards you all, but is just your friend Katherine. The soft light, illuminates her figure clad in dark, long dress, her nails glimmering as she lifts up something to show you. Firstly you only see what seems like a plate, but as another one of your friends goes to switch on a lamp beside you, all of you immediately realize what she was holding.
âLook what I got!â Her voice is chippery, but it holds a small mocking at the end. A series of groans and small sounds echo around you, while your eyes are still on the Ouija board in her hands. Your eyes go quickly over the letters and the planchette. Even with alcohol in your system, you are getting a really weird feeling from the piece of wood. It makes the hair at the back of your head stand up, shivers going down your spine. You are definitely not alone, because your friend Jade is almost trembling from even the thought of using such thing. Your hand falls on top of her messy hair to soothen her, but your eyes are still on the witch who rolls her eyes at her other friendâs noises. âOh, common, itâs mandatory.â
The girl next to you shakes her head immediately, hand pointing to the board, making the others for a second silent. âYou know what happens after using that thing, right?â You have to agree a little with her weariness. You have ever actually thought about talking to the death. Nothing made you believe something evil existed, but also you were not a sceptic. just nothing made you believe there was something more so far. Jade was scared of everything, so your friends didnât take her warning so seriously and you have to huff softly at that.
âWell, yeahââ Katherine shrugs, looking down at the Ouija board. âBut also no, because Iâve never tried it.â
You watch her as she sits down on the floor before you, your other two friends circling around her to look closely at the wooden tablet. You too canât help, but tilt your head at it. There were few scratches, dark smudges, but maybe it was that design. âWhere did you get this?â You wonder, because you donât think she has these kinds of things just laying around in her apartment.
She looks up at you, dark eyes peeking out from behind her neon yellow contact lenses. âThe thrift store.â Some of you have to laugh shortly at her dry response, some too occupied by the board laying before you all.
âAre there at least instructions?â Wonders out loud your friend Hannah who sits across from you in her scary clown costume.
âWho needs them?â
It has to be the alcohol or maybe you were already getting tired, but as the television is shut off, lights switched off, you have this weird feeling on the back of your head. You scratch at the burning spot, distracting yourself for just a second by liting up some few candles. The flame gives you the small amount of warmth you so desperately need. You can still feel the coldness licking at your skin, but there was also this awful heat gathering in your chest. Were you nervous? Scared? A frown is plastered on your face, eyes never leaving the Ouija board, like the planchette would move at any second.
This uneasy feeling is not shared however, but still your friends seem to get a little quieter. All of you sit on the floor, the only light being the few lit candles around you and the Moon peeking behind the curtains. Was it the thought of doing something you shouldnât that was scaring you? You refuse to believe that something in the shadows was peaking at you. The paranoia was eating you alive. Your frozen finger digs into your skin, pulse jumping rapidly and you have to remind yourself that it is all just in your head. None of you were touching it so far, however the sight of those scratches, dips and cravings on the board seem to pierce your soul.
You blink rapidly, smudging your makeup, because you have to sigh in exhaustion. You canât remember the last time you were so paranoid and â scared. Maybe it is only because you have never tried it, but looking at your other friends they didnât seem too into it. They still chatted between each other shortly, swallowing down the cheep wine. You look down into your own cup, swirling the liquid around as you canât find the appetite to take a sip right now.
You are startled a little when someone claps their hands together, making your attention move to Katherine who rubs her palms together. âAre we going to do this?â Your eyes flicker to your scared friend, a little tipsier than before, so you are not too surprised by seeing her just nod in agreement. You do not protest either, putting down your cup next to you and outstretching your hands to the planchette that sits in the middle of the floor.
The silence is heavy, completely aware of the darkness wrapping around you, piercing your back. You try to ignore it as best as you can, shaking your head at yourself, pressing your finger lightly on the planchette. Nothing is heard for a second, all of you looking at each other briefly, before Amanda speaks up. âIs anybody here?â She calls out and her voice seem to echo around you almost.
Silence again, but you canât help, but look around. Though you have to sigh a little when the same question is repeated. âIt doesnât work like that.â You say, cutting through the quiet.
Everyone turns to look at you and your friend canât help, but raise a challenging eyebrow. âOkay, you try then.â Says Hannah.
You clear your throat a little, swallowing the invisible lump in your throat. The way you are becoming nervous is making you anxious. The blanket around you slips from your shoulders, the cold immediately kissing you. It felt like there was no layer left between you and the darkness. When you straighten your back, shuffling a little closer to the board, your fingers start to tremble. The small frown of confusion by your body reacting like this is visible, but you try to keep it together. Licking your lips, your eyes go around the room, before plastering your eyes back down. âWe welcome everyone who wants to join us and if anyone is here, we would like you to make a sign.â You take a deep breaths between each word, not knowing exactly what is suitable to say in this kind of situation.
Your voice seems almost loud in the quiet room, but everyone seems to listen carefully to you. You do too, a little too hard, because the only thing you can hear for a while is your blood rushing in your ears. Your eyes are wide open, searching in the dark behind your friends. You donât even know for what you are searching, but you feel like the answer is close. You have never talk to the dead, but you canât say that people who do this are exaggerating. The waiting for something to happen is frightening and you think you have never been so on high alert over something that wasnât even there.
âCould you maybe knock on something?â Asks Jade, her voice quiet, but in the room even a pin drooping could be heard.
âOr make that candle blow out?â
Questions fly across the room, though nothing happens for a moment. All of you look at each side of the room, your eyes however fall into the hallway where you were sitting next to. Nothing is seen, only those specks of light made by your eyes. However you swear you feel warmth coming from the end of the hallway. It was almost suffocating in a way, already thinking itâs just you, but then something does happen and you feel it yourself as very one else in the room.
âItâs movingâŚ.â Exclaims Amanda in shock, staring down at the planchette. Your own breath gets stuck in your throat, because you swear you feel the planchette vibrating under your fingers. Your eyes immediately trail over to your friends in disbelief. It moves subtly in short stops and you have to shake your head at it.
âWho is moving it?â
âItâs not me! Youâre doing it!â
The voices of your friends fall to deaf ears. You donât want to believe it, but looking at the frightened faces of your friends, you can tell that their reactions are completely genuine. Nervous feeling creeps up on you, watching the planchette travel over the board, before it stops at a corner. âYes?â You say softy the word and you swallow roughly, eyes trailing over the room. You donât want to believe it, but you are now left with no choice. âIs it yes that someone is here with us?â You ask again, listening carefully.
For a moment you only hear your friendsâ whimpers of fear and your own heart in your ears, but then a small tap is heard behind you. Your head whips around quickly, your own gasp matching with the others as you stare with wide eyes at the window behind you. Only the Moon and swinging trees can be seen, nothing other than that. You turn back around to look at your friends, but your eyes fall onto something different.
The candles around you seem to rise, flame flickering and bending like something is blowing at them. Your own face of your fear, makes them look into the direction and few hushed curses are being shared across the room. âHoly shitââ Says Hannah.
âMaybe you left the window open?â
âYou know damn well that I didnât, Jadeâ
You are not following their conversation again, lost in thought or to be honest you canât even think straight right at this moment. Your face scrunches up, shivers going down your spine. You eyes widened again, freezing in your spot. The side of your body burns, it left like something was poking you, telling you to turn around. You canât move however for a second, from the corner of your eye watching your friends panic over the planchette moving again, but you are not even touching it anymore. The thing that frightens the most is the feeling of someoneâs eyes staring at your back.
Your head turns slowly around, body screaming at you not to, but something is controlling you, pushing you to look back into the hallway. The hot air rushes to your face and it wasnât from the candles. When you finally turn to glance into the darkness, your blurry eyes from not blinking at all donât see anything for a moment, but soon from the darkness appears a sphere, then it forms and forms till it turns into a silhouette of a person.
You gasp, breath getting stuck in your chest. It is eery, horrifying sight and even if you finally blink rapidly, like it was just your own eyes playing tricks on you, it only seems to get closer. It reaches for you and you want to pull back, but canât. You watch the mass of darkness become fuller slowly, before you see pair of red beaming eyes forming out of it. You lips fall apart, a loud scream at the back of your tongue, but before it can fall out of you, the candles that you just now realized became even higher dim back down by blink of an eye.
The sound of the board being thrown across the room, makes you snap out of the trance, scrambling away, just like your friends. You are breathing hard, head turning to look at others who only have their eyes on the board in the corner of the room. And you at the moment realize in your frightened state that you have been the only one who saw the truth.
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With every step, with every breath you took, your head would turn around. Paranoia seemed to follow you the moment you left your friendâs apartment and you hoped that was the only thing truly following you. You lived quite far, too late to catch the last bus, leaving you to walk your way home. However you were at least walking through the city and maybe you were just imagining the burning eyes at the back of your head. And if you werenât, a look from a stranger couldnât make you feel like this. Someone â something was sizing you up, following you, perfectly mimicking your movements like your own shadow and just as you though you caught it, turning around swiftly â nothing, only a crowd of people who didnât even acknowledge your presence.
You didnât either, there seem to be invisible to you and the thing following you that couldnât be seen either however, had a strong sense of presence. Was there really safety in numbers? After a while, every little noise made you jump, laughter and occasional screams of terror when the unreal monsters jumped at someone, made your head spin. Maybe it was the alcohol. Maybe, like you already you have already considered, it was only in your head. Maybe it wasnât such a good idea to try and talk to the dead and on this night specifically as everyone around you made your delusions even stronger.
You couldnât breathe. Every time your feet moved faster, it seemed to be even closer to you. So close you that you could feel it reaching the back of your neck or was it just the wind? Your eyes trailed over the people. No one was looking at you, everyone minded their own, drinking the night away and crowding the small square. What if you and your friends decided to go here instead and not the party? What if you wouldnât play with the board?
Your stroll slowed down to a full stop. It felt like whatever that was following you disappeared, but also at the same time seemed even closer to you. Just out of sight. You didnât want to search for it, but something was telling you to do so. You stopped at the middle of the crowd, eyes almost like being pulled by a magnet stopping on a one specific place. The people walked through your line of vision before it become clear to you why you were so drawn to that spot.
There â right there, under the roof of a stand stood what it looked like a man by his slightly broad shoulders and short hair, but by the shadow which the roof casted on him, you couldnât even get a glimpse of his face. However that wasnât necessary. The way he stoodâŚfrom his whole body radiated this menacing, evil aura that made your whole body freeze. Your breath was taken away from you, eyes wide, staring at the unknown figure. The same, almost even more intense wave of fear washed over you, it felt the same when you looked down the dark hallway. He didnât feel like a real person, he felt like something way more than that. Something dark and hungry and it was staring right back at you. You didnât see his eyes, but you just know. This couldnât be realâŚ
This couldnât be real. Things like this donât exist and if they did you feel like they would be more documented. You werenât a true believer nor a sceptic, but you really didnât feel like wanting to know the truth right now. He, it didnât move and even by blinking, it didnât vanish like you wished it would. It was probably just a person, a person with a really scary costume.
A gasp leaves you as suddenly someone elbows you. You turn to the person, catching there sneer and you realize that maybe standing in the middle of the street wasnât a good idea. You looked stupid, but that was the least of your worries as you glance back at the man, only him being nowhere to be found. Were you just imagining things at this point? Maybe your fear was only playing with you. You ignore the weird occurrence as best as you could, deciding to continue heading back home. Your apartment was just few blocks away and at the thought of finally being inside your safe space makes you pick your pace.
The feeling of being followed doesnât leave you however, but you keep your head high in a mock confidence, showing whatever this thing was that you are brave. You really werenât much of an actress, because as soon as you reach the entrance door to your building, you rush to unlocked it, slipping in quickly, like the thing would just squeeze right through you. The doors slam shut loudly and you hope that none of the other residents wonât come to scold you. The more you walk your way up the stairs to your apartment, the more you donât acknowledge the creepy feeling that someone is watching you.
Your apartment door shines brightly at you and you out of breath fumble with your keys. The satisfying click and smell of your home made you sight out in relief. You were so happy to be finally inside, greeting your cat who waited for you just as you opened the door. Your hands smoothen down her fluffy hair, sighing at her calming purring. Everything that happened flew over your head as you finally started to feel at ease. Like you thought â it was just your imagination, nothing moreâŚ
You werenât one for drinking till you passed out, but you find yourself stumbling just a little as you pull off your shoes, already ruined just by a one night of walking. Making your way into your kitchen, you go to give some food to your fluffball who meowed at your every move and that sound really ease your racing heart.
Putting down the bowl on the floor, you watch your cat eating away for a second. You are lost in thought, though nothing specific was running through your head, just blankly staring into space. But just as you move to make your way to your bedroom, you saw something shift from the corner of your eye. Looking up, you however find nothing, but the dark corner of your unlight living room and at that your patience runs low. For yourself, because you canât believe that you are making yourself see things in your own home where you are supposed to feel the safest.
You flip the light switch next to you, illuminating the room in subtle orange hue, your eyes still unmoving from the spot and still nothing was there. A sigh leaves you, but you refuse to say it was out of relief. At that you went to take your upper layer off, also fixing yourself something knowing that if you wonât eat or drink something, it will kill you in the morning.
You are exhausted, a heavy weight on top of your shoulders telling you to just lay down. In some way however you are still on high alert, maybe the aftermath of your own self scaring you. You thought about showering, but to be honest you didnât have the energy to do all of your routine at this hour and also there is nothing for you to wash off.
You stumble again, but now over the bottom of your dress, catching yourself just in time with your hand on the doorway to your bedroom. The sheer, soft fabric is thrown on your bed, ignoring the mess all over the room. The corset around you didnât suffocate you and you wonder what exactly is it that is making you lose your breath. Your hands fumble over your back, fingers just at the lacing of your top, but just before you can pull at it, you hear a noise.
It was loud and it momentarily makes you look back into the direction of your living room. You sigh shortly after, shaking your head at your own delusions. It was just your cat probably. However when you again go to pull at the string of your corset, you hear a meow right beside you, before you see your cat jumping into your field of vision on your bed. You freeze slightly, hands stilling. It is an old building, it makes noises all the time â it was nothing. You try to gaslight yourself by thinking it didnât even happened, but then thereâs even a louder bang! coming from behind you.
Your head whips around wildly, hair falling into your wide eyes that stare into your dark hallway. You feel your heart pounding against your chest and in your state of shock you are not quick enough to stop your cat from running to the direction of the noise. Your hands outstretch before you, in hushed whisper pleading your cat to come back, but her fuffy, long tail is soon gone from your vision. You hate the lump forming in your throat and the way your bottom lip quivers. That noise almost again makes you wonder if you imagine it, but then you hear it again, now in series of three bangs that echoed in your apartment. It sounded like knocking, mocking you to let whoever â whatever it was in, but what if it was already here with you? It sounded like the noises were meant for you to come in, get closer.
The noises werenât the only thing making you frighten, it was also the way the air around you seems to drop in temperature. You immediately shiver, goosebumps appearing all over your body. But there was this odd warmness, starting right at the entrance of your open bedroom door. It was so appealingâŚ
You finally take a step closer to the hallway when you hear another loud noise. The sudden realization that your cat might be in danger makes you take few steps further even with the fear you held in yourself. You hate her for it, but you are now only scared for her. You quickly look around your room for any kind of weapon, but you find nothing, realizing that your pepper spray was in your purse that you left on your kitchen counter. You just have to be braveâŚThatâs what you try to tell yourself, while slowly making your way out of the room.
The darkness seemed deeper that when you went in your bedroom. It is intoxicating, heavy, it pierces your skin and stings at your eyes. Your lungs scream for air as you try not to breath at all, scared to even make a sound. Your light costume leaves you in very vulnerable state and it makes you wrap your arms around your stomach that grumbles uncomfortably. What if the thing you thought followed you was a man and he somehow got into your apartment? You donât know if a man is better than an entity, but it certainly would make you feel less crazy. You hope that the knocking was mistaken, that it was only someone at your door. You have to tell yourself that thereâs no way for someone to break in, because you locked the door immediately when you came in. However something at the back of your mind is telling you that you have the right to be frightened.
And you were to death, when you stop at the corner, living room just right behind a wall. Your eyes didnât get use to the darknesss and looking at the threshold leading to your living room, you realized you werenât going after light. You were only going down the path that seeped warmness, blazing hot, coming right from your living room. There was no light, the one you switched on was left that way, but now thereâs not a single flicker of it peeking out. You listen carefully, for your cat or your intruder, but the sound of your heart makes your ears ring, so you had nothing, but your sight right now.
Your hand almost tears the fabric of your skirt as you lean forward a little, squinting into the room. A whiff of the same feeling washes over you again, making you pull yourself back with a choked sigh. It is the same one â like the one you felt while looking into the hallway, like the one when you saw the silhouette of the man and the same one that has been following you. Your eyes become blurry with tears, panicking, mind racing. You have no clue what to do. You have no weapon, your phone is in your kitchen and your keysâŚright beside the door to your apartment.
It is a bad idea, but if you would run through the living room quickly enough, you can get out. Thereâs still a chance that the intruder had your keys, so you ask yourself â are you willing to take the chances? Of getting caught by thisâŚthing. You donât want to leave your cat alone or worse with it, but if you would just make it next door to your neighbor, you can safe her and yourself. Your hand tightens around your skirt, picking it up and sprinting out of your hiding spot, but as soon as you do â you see him.
You choke, the sound bumbling in your throat, your eye staring straight at the silhouette in the corner of your room. Even in the dark, you can see it. The mass of darkness coming from him alone and the hot air suffocates you, just by looking into his direction. Tears stream down your face as you turn back to the direction of the door and back at the man, but then you hear a soft purring sound. Your cat is rubbing herself against the manâs feet and even if you are thankful nothing happened to her, you are terrified from seeing her so close to that man. Her white fur is bright and you almost come rushing to her, but as your eyes go back to the door, you run to that direction instead.
Your hand outstretches, reaches for the doorknob, even if you can see the keys glimmering before your teary eyes there was no salvation for you. You are turned around, roughly pushed to the door and a whimper of pain leaves you as your back meets the wood. Your mouth opens, ready to scream, but like he knew, his hand falls over your lips, silencing your cry for help.
Your teary eyes stare at the faceless person, eyes streaming down your face and pooling at his hand. You are held against the door, but not with his body, it was like your whole body had frozen over. You want to scream in fear, instincts telling you to just run, but you canât move an inch. Though your body trembles, eyes searching, trying to get a view of this man. He didnât feel real, his skin is hot, breath fanning over your face. You are starting to sweat from all the different temperatures, sobbing in fear as you hear his lips fall apart.
âDonât scream.â
His voice is low, quiet yet strong. You donât want to fulfill his demand, but the tone of voice â it echoed in your mind, repeating and repeating. His hand falls from your lips and you take in deep breaths, choking. You canât even muster to scream, you canât and you donât want to, because he maybe will hurt you. âPlease, donât hurt me â donât kill me.â You are shuttering over your words, choking again in your tears.
You can see him tilt his head at your pleas, standing right before your shaking body so casually it made you sick. He didnât even try to do something to you yet and that definitely heightens the terror in you. You sob, crying and you gasping at the sound of him sushing you. You back pressed harder against the door, finally finding enough strength to move just a little away from him, when he leans just a little closer to you. âWhereâs the fun in that?â He whispers to you, teasing you almost, amused tone in his voice. You look at him slightly confused, eyes blurry, still not knowing what this man looks like. You donât feel at ease at his tone nor his words of small assurance. It is like he could see you, because you can hear the click of his shoes, stepping a little away from you. âI thought you wanted me to make myself known?â
You are left even more confused, before it quickly comes clear to you. You canât â you wonât believe it. Those words pierce you painfully and with seeing him this much away from you, makes you immediately think of the silhouette you have seen following. This man could be just a man, but his wordsâŚback at the small seance you spoke them. A sharp intake is heard, shaking your head at the thought of this man being something more. The thought crossed your mind, but you actually never would think that it might be the truth. If it is â if this man is something from the other realm, haunting you, making you tremble in fear that it probably thrives inâŚyou canât â âNoâŚâ Your disagreement is quiet, heart beating wildly in horror as you look over the mass of darkness around him, evil. âThis is some sick joke â you are just playing with me. Whoâs behind his?â Your words are not making sense anymore to you, too many thoughts of how it could be possible leaves you thinking that it might be just a stupid prank, but no human could make you this sort of fear.
The man sneers, hissing like a snake at your words. It sounded like you just insulted him, gasping loudly when he makes a one big step closer to you and you swear your noses almost bump together. âDo you think your friends can do this?â He says, raising his hand, putting it right before your eyes. Your wide eyes stare at his hand forming into fist and by the act you see the light in your kitchen flickering with every subtle move of his. You look at him, finally seeing in the small flickers of light his face. You didnât know what to expect, maybe a gross man or the devil himself with horns and a face of death, but you are certainly left speechless.
His dark, brown hair is slightly in his eyes. They shine, deep red at the corners that flicker with the light. Long and sculpted nose leads you to trail your eyes over his high cheekbones to his cupids bow and then his bitten, plump lips. This wasnât a face of evil, he looked like an angel, no face that should make you feel terrified, but you can see it in his eyes. Sinister, holding evil as well as wisdom that you could never imagine or reach. Even in this small moment you had enough time to look him over, but as his hand closes into tight fist, the sound of the lightbulb shattering makes you fall back into the stage of horror. You can hear your cat running away from the scene and your tears recur, because you finally start to believe. âDo you think your friends could ever make you feel so frightened?â You shake your head, head spinning at what just happened.
He turned on the light with just his hand in the air, with just putting his hand into a fist he crushed it and you donât want to know what else he can do. âI donât understandâŚw-who are you?â You are hyperventilating, praying that is just your imagination again, but you canât close your eyes and let him vanish from your sight. You need to see him.
âThe better question is⌠what am I?â You are again shaking your head and itâs like he can see your thoughts, because he is making you say out loud what you have been thinking all along. You donât seem him, but his lips lift up slightly for a moment at his own memory. âWhen you were playing with that Ouija board, do you know, that you opened the gates for anyone to go through?â A cry leaves you, just as the light in the corner of the room is light up with a flick of his finger. Your eyes stare into his amused ones and somehow you wished you didnât have to see him. âYou didnât even closed it...â
Realization strikes you, your trembling stopping when you thought of your friends. What if they are also in danger just because of you? You would definitely wouldnât be able to live with that guilt. âWhat am I?â His words are the one thing on your mind right now. How much is he dangerous? He doesnât even blink, doesnât even breathe it seems, your eyes staring blankly at his face. âOh, myââ You canât even finish the word as his hand quickly by a blink of an eye wraps around your throat.
You feel him squeeze his fingers in a warning, not quite choking you, but it still makes you gasp for air. âDonât say his name, he canât help you. You did this to yourselfââ
âAre you the devil?â You wonder out loud and his whole demeanor changes, laughing drily at your question.
âI preciete the compliment, but no.â Your eyebrows furrowed at his weird behavior. You still fear him, but he doesnât seem like he wants to hurt you at all. Maybe he already has you right where he wants, under him with his hand on your throat, playing with your life.
He maybe might not be the devil himself, but he still had those rings of fire around his irises. He is evil, you know it and evil always wants something. Like he said, you have done this to yourself and you have to pay. You know he wonât let you go, he didnât stop following you from the apartment and even if you know who or maybe what he looks like, it doesnât calm you down. You still know so little and you wish you didnât have to know further. You are completely at his mercy and you are pulled back into the present when his hand tightens again, pulse jumping against his fingers.
âJust take what you wantââ
He tsked at you, he now being the one shaking his head and you canât move away from him or even fight against his strong hold as he makes you lean closer to his face. âBe careful with your words.â His upper teeth are revealed with how much he is sneering and it makes you look down at his mouth. His upper front teeth are bigger slightly, but they werenât the thing that makes your heart skip a beat â his canine teeth were sharp as a razor and you wonder if his sneering is prediction of him maybe biting you, eating at your flesh. âIâm not the type of evil youâre imaging right nowâŚâ His voice is a little softer than before and you wonder if he can read your mind.
Then what is he? âT-then what are you?â You ask him, genuinely curious about his answer.
He lowers his head, your breathing stilling, leaving you speechless as he comes close enough to you that your lips are almost touching. âDo you want me to tell you, or do you want to find out yourself, like the big girl you are?â His breath words bounce off your parted lips, taking in his raw scent.
Heat pools over you, watching him pull away from you just to look back at your face. His words sounded suggestive and you hope your own mind isnât messing with you. âYou wonât hurt me?â Was he just playing with you all along? Just taking in the pleasure of seeing you scared?
âNot if you donât want me toâŚI still have to take something.â His dark eyes fall over your body and you want nothing more than to cover yourself, because you realize at the moment how much your costume is provocative.
âWhy? I didnât ask for you â this.â
He tilts his head again, his eyes not holding amusement and you can feel the air thickening around you. âDid you now? Or were your drunk thoughts just speaking for you?â You breathe out, embarrassment making your skin hot at touch and you know he can feel it under his hand.
You are not sure if you wished for it, but it quickly reaches the surface. Your darkest desire of being taken over, filled with heat and pleasureâŚâAre youââ You donât even have to say it as he releases his hold on your throat, just to press his thumb on your bottom lip.
His touch is electrifying, addictive almost and your whole mind and body swirls for a moment. âA demon, thatâs all what you need to know.â You almost nod your head in agreement, letting him trail his thumb across your lips, dangerously close to slipping in your warm mouth. You are puzzled by your own behavior, but you canât fight it. The urge of him just coming a little closer to you, so you can feel more of him is strong. He can see it on your face and then thereâs the subtle smile on his lips again, pouting and nodding at how much your body stops to shake. It certainly had an effect on him as wel, but the look on your tear stained face makes the hunger in him even bigger. âOr I could visit one of your friendsâŚâ He teases, though also too occupied by the feeling of his skin on yours.
âJust take me.â
You try to justify yourself, that you are doing this for them, but both of you know you want it â need it more. The fear is at the back of your head, forgotten almost replaced by the fuzzy feeling your mind is in. âCareful what you say.â He warns you again, maybe not to provoke him into doing something you didnât want, but it flies over your head rather quickly.
His touch leaves you, but you donât search for it as you are again left in small confusion. You know that you somehow wish for something specific, but you never thought it would come in this way. It makes you feel dirty, used already, but also it makes your nerve endings tingle. Desire for pleasure is normal for humans and you wonder how much he has seen them before. âWhy me?â You ask him, surely you canât be the only one on this night wishing.
âYou intrigued me â your soul.â He says and his words hit you deeper than they should. âCalling for something to fill this hole in your chest. I can see into places that people so desperately try to keep hiddenâŚtell me, are you hiding something Y/N?â You are taken back by the sound of your name, but you are aware that he must know you better than you know yourself.
âNoâŚâ
âReallyâŚinteresting.â The soft light creates shadows across his chiseled face, when he leans over you. âThe moment I appearedâŚyou didnât seem so scared anymore. Does this idea of being used by a blood thirsty demon excites you?â
âNoâŚâ
The smile is tugging at your heart, a little eery in some way. âThen why can I smell your arousal from here?â You swallow roughly and you soon realize how much you have been pressing your thighs together. You can feel your slick coating your inner thighs, but the embarrassment doesnât even reach you, because he looks like he drinks it all up. âIâm a demon of pleasure and desire, thereâs no need to feel even an ounce of shameâŚâ He is now reassuring you and his soothing voice is so different from the one you heard moments ago.
âBut youâre a demon.â You state the now obvious and the statement should make you laugh in disbelief, but it only strikes you with a feeling you definitely feel shame about.
You feel the heat of his skin way before you feel the subtle touch of his hand on your exposed thigh. Goosebumps spread all over your body, swallowing your gasp at how pleasurable just this felt. âAnd a man stillâŚâ His fingers trail over the outer part of your thigh and your leg does jump away a little, but he was too addictive. âDoesnât this idea of someone inhumanly powerful taking over your body and soul not excite you?â His voice is hushed and it feels so sweet in your ears.
You shake your head, though not doing anything to move away from him. âI wonât let you take my soul.â You canât let him take the thing that makes you who you are.
âMaybe notâŚâ Your eyes blink at him, head rolling back against the door as he straightens his back to tower over you. âBut your body will be mineââ
You have now words, not even a sound leaves you, because you are left paralyzed when his hand squeezes roughly at the soft skin of thigh. Your wide eyes are staring into his, taken back by the bold move. He doesnât have to hear any permission to touch you, it was all written right in front of him â all over you face, body and even your soul that you seem to be very sure that it will never be his. He has to wonder himself about how much this might be true, because you are responding to his touch like you have never been touched before. Just by his hand, playing with the string of your garter belt that held your white stockings leaves you gasping.
You are in trouble, you know, because you shouldnât feel this much pleasure from the touch of a demon. However you already feel your body succumbing to him, just like he wanted. His hand travels under the thin layer of your skirt, dipping right into the mess you made of yourself. A sound leaves you unknowingly, head empty as he moves your thighs apart. The skin of your inner thighs is raw from how much you have been pressing your legs together, but you find yourself not caring anymore. With every breath you take, his hand trails higher and he bites his lip at how hot you feel against him.
His eyes travel across your face. Your eyes are barely open and he thinks he has never seen someone so away from their own mind by his moves. And obsessive, disgusting feeling washes over him, watching you sigh out in bliss as the tips of his fingers finally press over your covered clit. Your back arches a little, breasts pushing against your tight corset and he marvels over your barely covered body. âWho are you?â He asks you. You are dirty, thinking that wearing something like this in public is proper. His nature rages at the thought of anyone else seeing you like this.
You are slightly puzzled by his question, because the feeling of his hand right between your thighs is already too much for you to handle. âChristineâŚfrom Phantom of the Opera.â You response, eyes blinking open at him, just as he starts to form circles over your twitching clit.
âAdorable.â
Sharp moan flies out of your mouth, when he suddenly pulls the material of your underwear to the side. The air kisses your cunt, but it soon is warmed up by his fingers again. You are horrified of yourself right now. Why are you enjoying this? You have to remind yourself who and what is touching you, but you think nothing ever felt better. You have never made yourself and definitely not anyone else almost fall apart just by running your fingers through your folds. He is looking at you so intensely, you want to quiver. âAlready this wet?â You canât feel any shame in you and it is definite that he is making you feel like that. Should you be thankful? He is giving you sheer pleasure, circling your clit directly, after pushing the hood away from it. âJust like that, huh?â You donât have any response for him, only whimpers of euphoria. âHow long has it been?â
Your head rolls back, gasping at his touch. He knew your body better than you. Rubbing just at the perfect pace to make you crazy, pressing hard enough for your hips to buckle. Saliva gathers in your mouth, listening to the noises of your dripping center. You are so lost already that the only thing that makes you wake up is when his movements come to a stop. âWhat?â You say more because you didnât want him to stop, looking back at him with big eyes and you realize he just asked you a question.
He leans closer to you, head falling on top of your shoulder so his lips are right beside your ear. He doesnât really like to repeat himself, but being so responsive to him, he will let you do it once. âHow long has it been since someone touched you?â With his question, his fingers travel down, right to your hole.
His breaths hit the sensitive skin of your neck and you have to swallow back a moan when his pointer finger just barely dips inside of you. âLong.â You confess in a whisper.
He smacks his lips, pressing them against your neck so you feel every word that comes from his mouth. âYou poor thing, such a pity, but donât worryââ He is looking at you again, hand leaving you, making you whine a little and he canât help but smirk a little. âI will make you feel things you have never felt before.â
With his promise, his hands find the back of your thighs, before he lifts you off your feet. You yelp from how smoothly he does it, pulling you up into his arms and you have no choice, but to wrap your legs around his waist. You are shocked by his strength, not used to being picked up so easily, staring at him with wide eyes. He doesnât look away from you, even if he walks with you to your couch, not even when he lays you down on it. You feel special in this moment, drowning in the thought of him wanting you, but still his nature is not forgotten. He is made like this, he lives from the pleasure of the other.
Your head falls on the armrest, looking up at him looming over your body. He is already consuming you with his eyes alone and it feels delicious, but it sends a small sense of danger. His eyes flash red under the soft light, body clad in dark clothing perfectly contrasting with yours. Your hands are still in the air, fingers just barely grazing over his broad shoulder, but he soon leans closer to you, letting you hug him again. You feel small, vulnerable and weak, but you donât want him to know he was right about you liking this. But, oh, trust me that he knowsâŚ
His hands grip the fabric of the couch, coming closer to you, placing his lower body right between your parted legs. Your hands seem to push him away from how bashful you have become and he surprises by not entirely rushing you. His head falls next to your neck again, slowly trailing his lips over the skin. Your breathing is formed into short gasps at his wet, soft kisses, eyes falling shut for a moment to savor the feeling. He can smell your perfume, sweat and even blood and it makes him groan quietly, kisses turning rougher, just to get closer to you. âIs this it? Is this all that you want?â You say, shivering still from his own sound.
His lips still for a second, but he doesnât move away. âIs this what you want?â He now asks you.
You know, you donât have to think much about your answer, but you still pause for a second. Your fingers twitch on his shoulders, legs closing around his and is it even necessary to give him an answer? The only thing you do is pull is head back down your neck, rolling your head back to give him more room, you are too embarrassed to say it out loud. He lets you, he is letting you have your way a little too much he thinks, but he canât refuse the offer of your delicious neck.
His tongue licks a long stripe up your pulse, making you moan loudly when he starts to suck all over your neck. His bunny teeth nip lightly at your skin, fighting the argue to just bite down. He feels your nails digging into him, while he moans with you, enjoying just the taste of your skin like this. However the strong scent of your arousal is playing with his head, growling at the thought of eating your cunt. He can picture your face of ecstasy and shock all together. He would suck you all up, fuck you with his tongue and you coating his face in your pleasure.
You are shaking at how rough he nibs and sucks at your neck, the small fear of his sharp teeth piercing your quickly forming into pleasure. But before you can feel it, he releases himself from your neck to slide all the way down on the ground to kneel before you. His sharp movements always leave you in disbelief, your senses not quick enough to keep up with him. You pull yourself up to your elbows, watching him put his hands on your thighs, making your skirt pool at your waist.
Your legs are already trembling, knowing your pussy is left uncovered by his touches, but his attention is still fully on you. âWhite looks good on you, you almost make me feel bad that I will ruin itââ The âyouâ is silent, but the smirk is just a small reminder of what he is capable of.
When his eyes fall down to your cunt, he canât help, but groan. He maybe is the one living of pleasure of the other, but what he is about to do to you is mostly for him. He doesnât waste any time, he is inpatient and you as well as he can see from your fluttering hole. He doesnât trail kisses over your thighs, nothing soft, nothing that you donât want and when he pulls on your underwear, tearing the fabric he is sure that this is what you really want. It stings a little, the fabric snapping against you, before it is thrown away. His head fall between your legs so quickly your hips jump, clit hitting his nose and hard. Though even if you wanted to apologize, he didnât seem to mind it at all, only letting his mouth fall open to suck at your folds.
âOhâŚâ Comes out of you, hand flying over your mouth from the feeling of his blazing, hot tongue running all over you. He spits and drools, saliva mixing with your slick and pooling right under your ass. Your hips keep jumping from the sheer and sharp pleasure. Your clit burns as it is caught between his lips. You are shocked by how quickly you feel yourself on the edge.
His head tilts back, releasing your bundle of nerves with a pop to run his tongue over your labia. Your clit twitches in need, mewing, just as he opens his eyes to stare right back at you. You canât look away from him, from his red irises, his mouth wide open to catch every drop you give him. The pleasure and pain from his grip on your thighs forms into something else â something you havenât felt before. You didnât even know that just by someone going over your lips with their tongue felt so good. You swear you have never been this sensitive and he looks like that he knows exactly how to push you. He doesnât need any guiding, nothing â he is a true man.
You canât stop your sounds, the pleasure so good, you think you need to run away from it just to catch your breath. He doesnât let you, his one hand pressing down against your lower stomach, preventing you from trashing around as his other goes to your hole. When his two fingers breaches you, a silent scream leaves you, your own hand flying to his to stop him, but you are already falling apart. Heat, waves of nonstop pleasure wash over you and your ears ring. Your mouth becomes dry, whimpers turning into cries, because you are sure you are going mad. You didnât want it to end so soon, you wanted him to stop, to feel more.
Your whole body shakes wildly, the skin of your thighs jiggling around his head. You try to catch your breath while your orgasm is still washing over you, siting up to grasp at his hand. Your mouth is open, eyes now filled with tears, pleading and he watches you in your full glory. âIâm not stopping.â He says, words you so desperately needed to hear vibrating against you, fingers scissoring in you.
You immediately fall back down in relief and you can feel his crazed smile against you. The orgasm is none stopping. You donât know if itâs because he isnât stopping or if it was just him, but it is a out of body experience. Your hands press against your eyes, moaning wildly as his fingers pick up speed, tongue not stopping to move your clit up and down. He suck just perfectly, curl his fingers just right and doesnât stop to take a breath nor to change position â he knows what he is doing. You push your legs up to your chest slightly, wrapping them around his head and the sight is to die for.
His eyebrows are furrowed, hand on your stomach searching for yours to put it in his hair. You instantly run your fingers through his soft hair, before tugging roughly and the deep growl that seems to make the whole room shake, sends you over the edge again. It is stronger, more burning and even painful and he eat it right up. You go silent again, eyes rolling into the back of your head and you pull his head with you also. You do hear him release himself from your messy, puffy cunt, just to watch you fall apart again. You donât need him to help you ride out your orgasm, it was too good to not let it take over your whole being again.
The taste of you is on his tastebuds, licking at his lips hungrily, before crawling over your body. Your skin is hotter, almost like his and his cock pushes painfully against his pants at your drunk state. You looked beautifulâŚhe needs to have you now. His hand moves your hair away from your sweaty face, making you finally open your blurry eyes. âKiss me.â You say, hands pulling at the hairs on the back of his neck.
You havenât seen much emotion on his face before, but this felt unnatural. It was just a split second, but you saw it â disappointment. âI canât.â He says, shaking his head. His eyes held longing, but he makes you forget about this whole moment by kissing you on your collarbone.
You sigh, pressing your chest closer to him, just as he begins to trail down the valley of your breasts. âCan I at least have your name?â His lips wrap around the soft skin of your breast, sucking it in his mouth.
You hiss, pushing at his head. He sucked a little too hard, maybe telling you something by his action, but before you can question it he glances at you back again. âMinho.â He tells you his name, looking into your eyes as you repeat it softly back. You stare at each other for a moment, you moving around a little and just by it you graze over his bulge. Your leg stops in middle of his legs, gaze still unmoving, even if you press your thigh against him. It makes him hiss and you gasp a the sheer size of it. You can see your own desire reflecting in his eyes and he just couldnât wait anymore.
His hands fly over to his belt, watching you watching his hands as he works to unbuckle his pants. You are holding your breath as he stands up to push down his pants. Your legs immediately press back together as you finally see him. Your lips parted, drooling almost at the size of his cock. Thick, long, veiny, a little curved just to hit those spots deep inside of you with an angry red mushroom tip covered in cum. You are breathing heavier from just the thought of him splitting you open and ruining you for everyone after him.
Minho is breathing through his nose to take in the smell of your emotions, fumbling with the buttons of his shirt and when you sit up, pulling down your skirt, he marvels over the sight of your body covered just in corset and stockings. You looked heavenly funnily enough. When he pushes his shirt from his shoulders you sigh at his muscular body â he was simply perfect. âTurn around.â He demands, voice so low you almost do a double take and when you donât do immediately as he says, he just does it for you.
He moves you down the couch, turning your body around so your face is pressed into the cushion. Your ass raises in instinct and it grates you a smack across your right cheek. You cry into the couch, the soft skin rippling under his eyes. Then itâs his cock, slapping against you, before laying it flat between your asscheeks. âFuck, look at that, Iâm gonna split this little pussy apart.â You moan back at him, already hazy from just him humping against you teasingly. âThink you can handle it? Oh, you will, all of itââ He is basically talking to himself right now, already drunk on you.
You are a little concerned, you have never taken something so big, but the thought of him not fucking you dumb is making you whimper like a bitch in heat. You donât even recognize yourself. You press your ass back at him and Minho only slaps you again, but he finally at that guides his cock to your entrance. The sight of his precum mixing with yours is sending him over the edge, not believing that you are letting him fuck you raw, even if he sees it in the back of your mind. It makes him pull your head back roughly, wanting to watch you crumble on his cock.
You watch him from the corner of your eye, seeing the wild look in his eyes, pretty lips forming into âOâ as he finally pushes his tip inside of you. Just that is already too much, but you subconsciously push your hips back at him, swallowing another inch. He lets you adjust, because the way he will fuck you â you will need it. With only hallway through you already feel full to the brim, him already pressing against your cervix, but he is determined to fit all in. He knows you can do it and just after few moments, your ass is finally perfectly flush with his pubic bone.
Your walls suck him right in, wet, warm and soft. He wonders if he is the one being enchanted right now. His hand trails over the string of your garter belt again, loving the way it digs into your ass from how much you arch for him. Minho leans over you again, making him press into you even deeper and he sharply exhale at his tip basically breaks your cervix. âFeel that?â His hand falls down to press at the bulge on your lower tummy. âIâm in your fucking stomach thatâs how fucking deep I amââ
âM-Minhoââ He enjoys his name falling from your mouth so much that he accidentally pushes a little too hard against your stomach. To his surprise you only moan louder, hips pushing against him. An open wide smile stretches across his face, watching you move your ass against him.
Your movements are put into stop rather quickly as he pulls out, before pushing into you again with a deep, long thrust. Your mouth is wide open, drooling on the couch already. You feel an abnormal tingling sensation, with his every move of his and with everything that happened that led to this moment it felt worth it. Your pussy molds into a form of his cock, making him smoothly pick up his pace. His one leg on the couch and the other on the ground gives him leverage and with the first sharp thrust of his, you both moan, the sound perfectly mixing with the wet slaps of your skins.
Itâs not soft or loving, itâs hard. cock pushing with every move even deeper into you if itâs possible. You are too far gone to do anything other than to take him, your own hand pressing against the bulge in your stomach. Itâs sickening how much you enjoy feeling his cock run into you under your hand. Minho has to hiss with every trust in your swollen cunt, hands pinching at your ass and pulling at the strings digging into you. âSo g-goodâ ah!â Your face buries back into the couch, when he snaps at the string, skin burning.
Minho is literally going mad, thrust so harsh, that the couch rocks a little under you both. You canât believe how much you enjoy feeling pain mixed with pleasure just like he enjoys doing it. The sight of your ass bouncing, hands tearing the material under you and mostly your sounds â he knows that he has to have you someday again. His hand pulls at your hair again, not even missing a beat as he pulls you to his chest. You canât hold yourself on your own and he helps you rather kindly, with his hand on your neck again, but now he is not being gentle. âFucking look at youââ He laughs at your fucked out face staring up at him and he knows he is not looking any better. âEver thought you would enjoy a demon cock this much?â You choke around the hand on your throat, legs shaking under you. He needs to see more of you, all of you. So he quickly pull out of you, not missing a beat and turning you around to lay you on your back again. You canât even grumble, because he is inside you back again and the view you have is better than you couldâve asked for.
You donât say anything, when he rips through the front of your corset, tits spilling out and bouncing immediately with his none stop movements. He spits down right at your nipple, making you gasp at how sensitive it is, feeling his thumb smear the liquid all over you, marking you. Your own hands dig into his hard chest, droopy eyes catching his, before he goes down to your neck, now biting roughly. It makes you arch your back, his sharp teeth piercing you and it doesnât even hurt half as much as you thought it would.
Moaning, Minho licks at the small drops of blood, eyes rolling back into his head at your sweet taste. Everything about you was so fucking sweet, he canât believe his own luck right now. Your nipples catch on his, letting you hug him close to you and with the trembling in your legs, he knows you are nearing your orgasm again. âI-I am closeââ You canât even voice out your words with his rapid moves, feeling yourself drip down on the couch. Your clit rubs deliciously over his pubic bone and with you walls spasming you can feel him twitching inside of you, knowing that heâs getting close too. You just need so desperately something to get you over the edge, something that would make this experience even better and soon those words are spilling out of you. âP-pleaseâŚ.kiss me.â You whimper in his ear.
Minho pulls away from your neck, seeing small smear of your blood on those plump lips. âI-I canât.â He repeats the same words to you and you canât help, but cry.
âWhy?â
âIt will tie us together, a kiss will ties us together and you will have to be mine forever.â
He is loosing himself, never he had thought about kissing someone, but yours lips â so perfectly bitten and definitely sweet as every part of you are calling his name. You hear his words, you realize what he is saying, but why would any of you want to end this so soon?
âI want it, I truly want it, Minhoââ Your hands press against each side of his flushed face, his eyes wide, going between your eyes and lips, before he finally leans in.
The whole room around you seems to be set on fire around you, tongues tangling around each other. You taste yourself on his lips and mostly him. You are moaning into him, biting down on his lip, like he did to your neck and he groans lowly when your own teeth breach his skin, mixing your blood now with his. âIâm yoursââ You mumble between kisses, just as you fall apart on him, squeezing him. Minho canât help, but smile into the kiss, hips stilling as his cock swells, twitching inside of you. He fills with his warm cum, not stopping at kissing you. He will be here every day and every night like this for you and for himself, for eternity, because he found something more pleasure than anything else he ever knew.
And that was you.
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Poisonous tears
Genre: Angst, fluff & smut | exes to lovers
Word Count: 10.8k
Reading Time: 40 minutes
WARNING ââŚâ This story contains NSFW / suggestive & angst content and mentions of infertility, alcohol & cigarettes. Minors please donât interact, please beware of the content you consume online.
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May 8th 2021,
They say that when cats are about to die they run away from their home so that their owners wonât see them die.
In this case, no one is dying, though every day you notice a black stain growing on Minhoâs loveâ as harsh as it sounds.
He would take late night shifts to avoid being on the same bed as you, hanging out more with his friends so he wouldnât hear your obnoxious voice, he was just barely home nowadays.
He was running away from you, so you wouldnât notice how the light of his heart was diminishing by the day, perhaps this was his way to protect you from a heart-wrenching heartbreak. Ironic isnât it?
However, one thing you know about Minho is that even though he might not love you anymore, he would rather walk on fire stones than hurt you. How do you know that? You just know it.
You knew it. You knew something was wrong the moment he told you he was going to be home for dinner.
You knew something was wrong when he suddenly kissed you this morning after weeks of no kisses.
âMy feelings for you diedâ The words repeated over and over again, you felt your gut wrenching in pain as the sudden urge to scream, run and throw up rushed through your whole body, suddenly the air felt too thick to breathe, your skin was icy cold and your lips trembled.
âOhâ is all you said, not even a word just a mere sound âOhâ though it sounded nonchalant deep inside it held all the emotions, the grief you were going through.
You didnât cry though. He was not worth your tears, thats what you told yourself as you felt the knot in your throat tightening, deep inside you wanted to burst your lungs out crying for him, cling into his leg and tell him you would change.
However crying was useless, it wasnât going to help you get him back, on the other hand it would make him see you as a weak woman, you didnât want that.
âIm sorryâ
Right. He is still here, he is sitting on the opposite side of the table, eyes watery, head hung down.
You felt the urge to scoff, he was the one ending this long term relationship why is he swallowing tears? That should be you.
The silence that filled the room by the seconds consumed the both of you, the tension was something that couldnât have been cut with the sharpest knife. You have a million questions but the main one is why? when did all go wrong?
Millions of memories rushed through your mind as your love for Minho was on the verge of life and death, trying to recall the moment where things when downhill.
âY/nâ
Why does his voice still has that soft caring tone when calling your name in this situation? You felt your stomach twirl, your gaze looking up to meet his.
He stays quiet as you both locked eyes for the first time today. Suddenly he ran out of words.
âPlease leaveâ you needed time for yourself, him being here was pointless now, there was no reason. You didnât wanna hear him anymore, you didnât want to see him nor breathe the same air as his.
You wanted him to vanish from your life. He stood up and slowly walked away, he hesitated to leave his heart having a million words to tell you, he wanted to clarify that deep down he cared for you. But he knew better.
Little did you knew he would actually vanish from your life.
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July 18th 2021,
After the breakup you felt you were scarred with the deepest wound ever, two months passed and getting up the bed was the hardest task every morning.
Who would say a person could have such impact on you? To be fair you never thought of breaking up with Minho ever since you two began dating during senior year of high school.
I mean every action he did guaranteed you that he was meant to spend the rest of his lifetime with you. Maybe it was because he applied to the same colleges as you to always keep you close, or because you guys discussed your wedding, pregnancy, sex, kisses, undying love. BULLSHIT thatâs what it all was.
You found yourself on the floor, greasy hair, puffy eyes, runny nose, pajamas you been wearing for daysâ takeout boxes laying next to you alongside soju bottles.
What was the point of living if your reason to live is gone? Were you being dramatic? Thatâs what your friends said⌠thatâs what your mom said⌠thatâs what everybody said.
âYou are overreactingâ
Maybe you are, maybe you are not, however you donât care, you donât care anymore about anything, thatâs why you find yourself in this state.
You canât cry anymore because thereâs no more tears to shed, you canât continue with your daily life because your daily life didnât exist anymore. So what now? are you supposed to just suck it up? You donât even remember how your life was before you started dating him.
Five long years of him next to you, now there was nothing. Just an empty heart and poisonous tears that would sting your cheeks.
The ringing of your phone rung on your ears, you groaned as you stood up. You didnât check the phone, you didnât care. Instead you sat on your vanity and looked at this version of you, the sad one, the miserable one.
You gaze slowly shifted to the wrinkled Polaroids of you and him that you tried to rip off but couldnât because your weak. And just like that you felt your wound bleeding again. That hypothetical one, the deep wound of your heart.
Your phone lit up next to you catching your eye. You vaguely grabbed it to see an unknown text pop on your home screen. It was a video.
You furrowed your brows as you open the displayed media. Your phone dropping to the floor as soon as you realized what it was. A sex tape.
Not any sex tape. It was Minhoâs with some other girl. Just like that⌠the wound got deeper. The video clearly shows the girl recording herself sucking him dry. Even if his face wasnât shown you knew it was him, you knew every inch of his body better than yours. Also with the fact you could hear his soft moans in the back, pet names that used to be yours and only yours being used on some bitch.
Your knuckles turned white, if you said there werenât more tears to be shed you were wrong. You walked to your kitchen opening the fridge to get a soju bottle. Drinking it one go, you smashed it on the floor, the glass shattered all over the room. Another bottle was opened.
Fuck you Lee Minho, is what your brain screamed while your heart screamed heart wrenching whyâs.
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January 1st 2024,
The colorful lights and the loud bangs of the new years fireworks hovered all over your apartment. Another year passed. Another year without him. Its been about 3 years since Minho broke up with you, and honestly you donât care about it anymore though the pain always lingered.
However you could feel the wound of your old long term relationship healing as the years passed by. You have had no contact with the man you used to love dearly. He vanished from your life, just as you wished the day he broke up with you. Crazy how someone you love can turn into an stranger in mere of seconds.
You took a long drag of your cigarette as you stare at the invitation of a new years party. Scheduled for Jan 8th. You had the feeling he was going to be there since you were invited by Changbin, a mutual friend of yours.
You wanted to go, and not because deep down your heart longed to see him, but because you truly felt like a party was what you needed, it's been a while since you last went to one and had actual fun with friends and new people; However, you hesitate to reply, as you had no clue how you could react if you were to cross paths with him. You still had a bunch of unanswered questions for him and though you craved an answer you needed to move on. His love was dead as much as you were.
The next couple days were filled with crippling anxiety, you hated that after 3 years the thought of him still lingered in your mind. However how could he not? He used to be your world mere years ago.
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January 8th,
You applied your cherry tone lipstick, trying your best to not mess up as your hands trembled. You looked at yourself in the mirror longer than youâve wished. Your dress was completely neat yet you kept passing your hands over it.
âYou got thisâ
You mumbled as you took another look at yourself, you looked divine, smooth skin, perfect hair and dress that snatched your body perfectly. It was his loss it really was.
The pang of your heart increasing with ever step you to took to the main entrance of the party. As you entered the music automatically ringing in your ears as it progressively got louder the deeper you went inside the house.
âY/nâ You heard a cheerful voice call out for you, it was Changbin alongside with Seungmin. You gave them a sheepish smile. The two boys stared at you reassuringly, they been your friends for so long⌠they knew.
They knew about the way your stomach twirled and your heart pang with the thought of seeing him and you hated that with your soul.
âYour late, I thought you were going to ditch usâ Seungmin said with a warm smile trying to break the tension that was surrounding you.
You chuckled nervously, they know why you late. âDonât press it Seungmin, she arrived at the best time, everyone is drunk meaning the party is about to get litâ Changbin jumped up and down gaining a glare from the younger one.
You laughed this time sincerely, gaining a bright smile from the boys. âDo you wanna join us at games?â Changbin said and you nodded.
In a place filled with hundreds of people, you are the one my eyes look for every time I look around.
The burning sensation of the tequila hitting your throat made you squint your eyes as hard as you could as you downed your shot refusing to answer the question being asked on the game of truth or dare.
âWould you talk to him if he was here?â
Crazy how a simple hypothetical question made your whole body spin.
You could hear the boys scolding the person who asked the question as you bit onto the lemon. You didnât wanna play anymore and they knew, but you didnât want to feed into their perspective of you being a weak woman. So you sucked it up.
Today it seems that theyâve decided to make it a target to get you wasted as all the questions they asked revolved around him, guess that's what you got for making your love for him your whole personality back then.
Chan scolded everyone a million times for bringing him up, however you reassured him it was ok. He knew it wasnât. Yet he was just as curious as everyone else on why you two broke up. And as painful as it was you didnât know the answer to most of their questions either.
You excused yourself to go to the bathroom. It wasnât until you stood up that you realized how drunk you were. âIâll go with you,â Felix said, ensuring you would make it safely to the bathroom.
The conversation that bloomed between the two of you as you walked to the bathroom was pleasant, maybe it was because of the way he slightly flirted with you or because as you two talked you spotted a pair of eyes looking at the two of you with anger in them.
Fuck you.
Before you could even made it to the bathroom you were pulled into a kiss, not that it was unpleasant, it was unexpected⌠more like uninvited, you havenât kissed anyone since Minho.
And not because you couldnât but because you wanted your first kiss after the breakup to be significant, as significant as the ones you gave Minho during your relationship.
This kiss meant nothing to you, just the desperate desire of love to be loved.
Tears creeped into your eyes as you locked eyes with Minho while Felixâs plump lips were on yours, his hands roaming on your waist. Since when things turned like this? You could see Minho swallowed a lump that formed in his throat.
His eyes looked red-ish, sadness lingering in them. You couldnât believe it. You didnât believe his poisonous tears. Fake tears. Same tears you saw the last time you saw him when he broke up with you.
Fuck it.
You closed your eyes and wrapped your arms around the blond boyâs neck. Gaining a soft moan from him, you smirked into the kiss as you opened your eyes again. This time no one was there anymore. The brunette boy was long gone⌠again.
The wet kisses being placed on your neck and the leg in between your legs was not enough to get him out of your mind, Felix was too drunk to even notice you were standing stiff against the wall with a blank face.
You played with Felix hair as you slowly pushed him away. The freckled boy gave you a sweet smile, the blush of his cheeks rushing to his ears.
âSorry y/n, I got carried awayâ His words were sincere and warm, but what can you expect from one of the purest souls you know. You reciprocated his smile and pecked his cheek.
âIt's fine lixâ You said softly as you walked away. While Felix had a full-on makeout session with you, you made up your mind. And you would face your biggest fear.
Your body walked aimlessly through the crowd of people that filled the house, you tried your best to walk as straight as you could, but those shots of tequila you had while playing truth or dare added a weight to your shoulders. It wasn't until you crashed on a firm body that you snapped out of whatever was on your mind.
Maybe you underestimated the seriousness of the situation once you were face-to-face with him. The whole scene felt like something out of a book, his sharp features looked more prominent under the soft light of the neon lights, the music blasting in your ears and the people that constantly crashed on you as they danced were quickly erased from the face of the earth, as all your attention revolved around him.
âYou are drunkâ His voice had a cold tone you never heard before, not even when you barely knew each other. You began to understand why people thought of him as a cold person, it was the first time you saw him using his shield on you; just like that the first dagger stabbed your heart.
You scoffed softly as you looked at the floor, taking a deep breath to get your act together, missing the way his gaze was fixated on the hickeys Felix had given you previously, he pressed his tongue against his cheek annoyed at the sight.
âI don't want to talk to you right now" You tried to say firmly, however you could hear your own voice trembling. Minho knew he should have just gone and left you alone but he didn't want to, and as selfish as it sounded he wanted to stick around just so no one else would touch or even look in your direction.
After a while of fighting with his own thoughts, he grabbed your wrist to pull you outside the party "We need to talk" He said as he led you out to the balcony, stopping in his tracks as he felt you trying to pull away.
âPlease not nowâ Your voice cracked, you sounded vulnerable. He could feel his heart dropping to his stomach as he heard your voice, he hated how much he had corrupted your happpiness, he was always aware of your emotional status, maybe he hadn't been present these past three years but he often checked on you, finding himself going to your favorite spots and watch you from afar.
You sucked your breath as you turned around to leave, he knew this wasnât the moment but while you werenât looking he took a second to admire your delicate beauty, the one he fell in love with, the one he still loves but it is kept a secret as his emotions are trapped in a bottle deep inside his heart.
âYou are drunkâ He said as his warm fingertips rubbed around your wrist. You felt an electric shock tensing your muscles. âCall it a night and let me drive you homeâ You should have said no. Thatâs what your brain kept telling you, however you didnât listen. The moment you nodded your head it felt like the biggest betrayal ever.
The ride to your house felt nauseatingly nostalgic, he remembered the shortcuts he used to take, your favorite song playing on the car radio. You were too drunk for this.
As you were getting out of the car, you stumbled making him worried you wouldnât make it safe to your door. You protested against him, but he wouldnât budge. Walking you to your apartment, hand on your waist as you grabbed into his shirt for steadiness.
Your heart jolted with joy, the whole scenario that your head was creating was fake but you blamed the alcohol, just enjoy the moment and play pretend.
He helped you enter your apartment, helped you clean up, and gave you pills to prevent the hangover, the whole interaction felt too domestic for a man who became a stranger three years ago. You wonder what he has been up to, and yeah maybe you stalked his social media here and there, but he was too mysteriousâ there was never something new on there.
âMinhoâ You said in a soft voice as you struggled to stay awake, his soft gaze looked at you as he sat on the edge next to you, his hand softly caressing your hair âLet's talk⌠somedayâ You sounded weak, you hated that.
The last thing you recall before blacking out was a chaste kiss on your cheek that reassured your question.
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January 9th
You woke happier than usual, filled with a lot of energy, you found it odd since you swore you blacked out last night, matter of fact you donât even remember how you got home.
You did remember your dream vividly though, Minho taking care of you like he used to when you two were dating. Perhaps and thatâs why you felt energized, you were unsure of it.
Turning on the shower you took a long steamy shower, today you wanted to feel pretty just like your mood. You even did your hair and makeup, you had nowhere important to go, but you might as well.
Once you were done you walked over to your kitchen, and thats when your heart dropped.
You could smell the fresh aroma of breakfastâ walking closer to spotted a plate with french toast and berries, a cup of coffee on the side alongside a note.
âIm writing this since you probably forgot about last night, and before you freak out no we didnât do anything, sorry I stayed the night, I just wanted to make sure you were ok, here is some breakfast in compensation.
Also lets meet up next week, Iâll send you a text with deetsâ
- Minho
You could feel your stomach twirling as you read the note. No way what you thought was a dream was actually real.
Honestly, you hoped he would forget about it but it's Lee Minho, something about him is that he never forgets stuff, which was a blessing and a curse considering that he never forgot any detail about you or important dates, however, he never forgot your weakness either.
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February 12th
Minho has been texting you nonstop since that night, often sending good morning texts to check on you, etc. You hated the way you woke up every day with the thought of finding his texts on your phone. His been wanting to meet up with you to have a proper conversation but to be fair you were unsure of it.
"I don't know Chaewon" You groaned as you threw your head against the table, Chaewon laughed softly as she took a sip of her coffee. "Girl look, Im in no position to talk about Minho's business, but I've heard from Jisung that he went through some hard shit even before you two broke up if anything you weren't the only one suffering," Chaewon said as she moved her gaze towards you, your head laying on the coffee table while looking out the window.
"And? I don't care that bitch made me lose myself, he can't just come back whenever he wants to" You said stubbornly standing on your own business "You know that's the biggest cap ever, you do care, and plus who said he wants to go back with you? what if he just wants to talk and finally tell you why he decided to cut off the relationship? Cause you know damn well it wasn't because he didn't love you anymore" You rolled your eyes softly at her remark.
You know she was right and you hated that. "Bitch you are supposed to be on my side, what happened to hater Chaewon?" You said frustrated making her laugh "She died the moment she learned the other side of the story," She said making you scoff "I will never get why you and Jisung refuse to tell me his side of the story"
"Because that's none of our business, Minho should be the one to tell you" You sat up straight on your chair looking defeated "Chaewon..." You spoke softly, "I'm scared" She gave you an encouraging smile "Girl, trust me..." She paused briefly taking a deep breath "The worst thing that can happen if you two meet is him leaving again but this time for good" She then took a sip of her coffee.
"Being honest it all depends on your reaction when he tells you his side of the story, but I must say you two might end up bawling your eyes" Chaewon suddenly laughed when she saw yours eyes widen.
"You'll be fine trust."
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February 14th,
After your little coffee date with Chaewon, you went home and texted Minho that you were ready to meet up and talk in person, however, should you find it suspicious that after a month of casual contact since the New Year's party, he suddenly texted you on Valentine's Day that he would drop by your house? Yes.
You were sitting on your living room couch as you re-read the text over and over, did he mean today? now? You quickly got up and rushed to your room to get ready, however, you stopped. Should you look casual? yeah, it might be Valentine's Day but he is not your date.
After sitting on the floor with a bunch of clothing options you decided to not think much about it, I mean yeah it's Valentine's Day but it's also February 14th, just another date on the calendar.
You wore your favorite pair of new balances, black track pants, and a cute crop top along with all your jewelry, like you said it's just another date on the calendar, therefore, you dressed casually. Just another day.
You arrived to the cafe downstairs your apartment. You immediately spotted him, baggy jeans with a black hoodie with the picture of a cat. Great, he was also dressed casually. Just another day.
âHeyâ you said softly as you scooted on the chair in front of him. It would be weird to say this wasnât awkward however it really wasnât, and that just made you more uneasy about this whole interaction.
He looked up from his phone to look at you, and he smiled softly. In all honesty, it was hard for him to be here for so many reasons, and this is the main reason why he fought with himself this morning to come here and not ditch you.
Before the breakup, Minho was going through some issues on his own, which would eventually evolve to be the main reason why he left you. He knew he would hurt you sooner or later, so he decided to do it quick, leaving the situation as vague as possible as his heart imposed him from opening up to you.
âI'm sorry it took me so long to come back and clear things upâ Although he sounded nonchalant you could see the pain in his eyes, maybe Minho was never open with his feelings but his eyes always spoke what he felt.
âBeing honest, I couldnât bring myself to face you, Jisung basically smacked some sense into meâ He smiled awkwardly "Plus when I saw you at Binnie's party I felt it was time to stop running away" There was tension surrounding both you that made it hard to breathe.
âItâs fine⌠have you tried the pudding here?â Maybe you knew he was here to tell you something, but you also knew the knot in his throat was making it hard for him, so you chose to break some of the tension. Just another day.
Thinking about it, itâs kinda ironic how forgiving you are of him, he left you with no explanation, made you lose yourself and on top of that he never dared to show up again after three years and no. The cherry on top is the sex tape you have engraved deep down on your brain of him and some other bitch.
You could feel the rage boiling inside of you, but you quickly shrugged it off as he began speaking âI havenâtâŚâ He was hesitant with his answer, something tells you that he has tried it before but he wanted to pleasure you by pretending he didn't.
You just nod as you suggest he try it, and once the waiter comes around to pick up your order, he gives you a vague smile as he orders for both of you.
Just another day. You have been sitting in this cafe with him just talking about life as if you are back in time and you two are together again. Itâs smooth and pleasant, there's chuckles here and there. However, he is not talking. He is not addressing the big elephant in the room and it's bothering you, however, you stood quiet, waiting for him to feel ready.
âThis might be weird, but you think he could keep talking in your apartment? I kinda want a more private placeâ He has always been a confident man, and you know that, however, he sounds weak and insecure, completely opposite of who he is.
Maybe and the break up also made him lose himself? Little did you know he lost himself way back before the breakup.
Once in your apartment he sat on your living room as you poured some wine for both of you, after a while of thinking you figured some alcohol would help him loose his tongue and speak fearlessly to you.
âThanksâ He muttered, immediately taking a sip of the wine. âTo be fair what Iâm about to tell you is not easy for me, but I know you want answers and I want to help you find them as much as I canâ His voice was sincere, soft, and vulnerable, you could feel a squeeze in your heart.
âI wonât pressure you into talkingâ Although you tried to sound sincere and gentle, the hidden anger inside of you was slightly present in your tone. You hated yourself for being bad at hiding it.
He chuckled softly at your tone, he knew you were mad at him and so was he "I sound like a hypocrite I know, I broke up with you yet I'm the one making a big deal to just clear things up" The room was quiet for a moment, it felt cozy, the gentle sunlight from the sunset hovering over the living room, the soft breeze of spring moving the dried trees with flower buds on them, but most importantly he was there. After three years, there he sat on your couch, you wondered if he noticed you changed it, you wondered if he noticed that you changed it because of him.
His soft sigh broke the silence and darted your attention to him, he fidgeted nervously with his fingers as he kept his gaze on the window. "Do... Do you remember our life plan" You knew words had power but you never realized how much power they had. Your stomach twirled in anxiety at the memories.
The sweet memories of him and you cuddling in bed some Tuesday afternoon as you both made life plans. You nodded, biting your lip as the urge to cry became present. "How could I forget, we planned to live in a peaceful neighborhood, adopt a few cats, and raise our children with love and virtue" You chuckle softly attempting to cut whatever tension was forming in the room.
At the sound of your soft laugh, he smiled melancholically "The day we talked about our kids, made me realize how much I wanted to be a father... especially with you" He took a deep breath and your eyebrows furrowed as you listened to him.
"I... I really wanted to be a father" His voice cracks softly as his words hold an incredible amount of weight on him "So I went to my doctor to have my annual check-ups" A knot began to form on your throat as you began predicting where this was going.
"He... he told me I can't have kids" His voice broke into soft sobs "I wanted to tell you about it, but seeing how in love you were with the idea of having a baby... I couldn't... so I kept it to myself" He stood quiet as he tried to get himself together.
"My emotions eventually began fogging my brain, and I felt I had to distance myself to prevent hurting you... however, seeing how happy you were every time you saw me after days of me treating you like shit made me resent you" His voice raised with each word we spoke as his emotions began overwhelming him.
"I didn't resent you because I was mad at you, but because you still loved me after the way I treated you during our last weeks of dating" You looked at him with teary eyes while he still refused to look at you "I didn't deserve your love, yet you never stopped loving me... and I never stopped loving you either..." The silence in the room felt deafening, there were so many things you had to process, many things to take into consideration. He then grabbed the courage to move his gaze towards yours, your lips half parted in shock as the sudden confession made you feel dizzy.
"Minho... I..." You were at a loss for words, so many things to say but nothing was coming out, a single tear fell down your cheeks, your conversation with Chaewon repeating in your head, she was right both of you were about to bawl your eyes out.
"Why you never told me?" You quickly wiped the tear that rolled down your cheek, you were tired of crying for this man, you were tired of everything "Because I was scared of losing your love y/n" He screamed at you making you lose your patience.
"That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard Minho" You screamed back but then took a deep breath, trying to calm yourself down, however, you failed. "Do you know how many nights I cried for you? The amount of times I wondered what was wrong with me? You hurt me and left me, like you didn't care and you expect me to believe this was your reason? Because you can't have stupid babies?" You stopped at your last sentence when you realized what you said, you let your anger control your words and now unconsciously you stabbed a knife into Minho's wound.
He looked unfazed by your words, again he was using the mask everyone talked about, the one that never let anyone see his emotions, however, you didn't miss the way his lips slightly curled up, that's how you knew it deeply hurt him.
He scoffed softly "Stupid babies?" He laughed "I guess I lost myself over something you didn't really care about" He stood up from the couch and looked at you one more time "Sorry for wasting your time" You quickly stood up to stop him from leaving but words didn't leave your mouth as you blankly stared at him storming out your house.
"The worst thing that can happen if you two meet is him leaving again but this time for good"
Chaewon's words stroke your heart as you are left alone in your apartment.
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March 18th
"How many times do I've to tell you, I won't talk to him again" You groaned as a very exasperated Jisung paced in circles in your living room "C'mon y/n, you have to admit that what you crossed the line, I mean I understand the anger but really? did you not hear what he was telling you?" Honestly, at that moment, you felt you could smack Jisung in the face.
This past week was filled with a bunch of guilt trips not only by your friends but also by yourself "You know what Ji?" You said bluntly "I'm tired. Tired of everything, why am I suddenly the bad guy? Why does it feel like my side of the story is being invalidated?" You could feel tears creeping in your eyes.
Jisung sat down next to you as he took a deep breath "I'm sorry..." He said softly "It's just... I've seen both of you hurting for so long, I just want for both of you to finally clear things out" You understood Jisung's point, he was your and Minho's friend, he knew both points of view perfectly and you never really thought how that might of been a weight for him too.
"I get it... I also wish we could talk things out but... it's hard you know?, we both got our own wounds and it's hard to talk without making one of them bleed" You took a deep breath "That's the most poetic shit I've heard in a while" You couldn't help but laugh at his statement, nudging his shoulder playfully "Shut the fuck up" He laughed along with you.
"You think he would let me talk to him?" You said as you both stopped laughing "It would be a hard task but not impossible, his soft spot for you is one of the most loyal things I've seen" You smiled softly at his remark.
"You know... I've got an idea... so next week the 24th I have to take care of my baby nephews, however, that same day I got a final, I was going to make Minho babysit them for me, but to be fair he will definitely need help" You squinted your eyes at his suggestion "I don't know Ji..." He was quick to interrupt you "Shshshs don't say a single word you are babysitting with him"
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March 24th
Jisung left the house a couple of minutes ago, he reassured you that Minho was on his way and that he knew about it. You sat down on the play mat with the two baby twins, they were 2 and a half years old and truly a menace, they wouldn't stop moving around and crawling to be on top of you.
Although you felt overwhelmed it felt nice, playing with them made you forget about Minho and your current situation, you had one of the babies in your arms while the other one showed you some toys and spoke nonsense, you chuckled as you pretended to understand what he was saying.
When Minho entered the house, you were completely unaware of him as he stood at the entrance of the living room looking at you, looking at how domestic you looked with the babies. He couldn't help but fantasize if this is what it would feel like if he were to come home to you with your own babies.
He hated the way butterflies would rush down his body to his... 'Get it together Minho' He scolded himself, he was supposed to be mad at you not feel this way.
"You are not Chan" He finally spoke making himself present, you and the babies fixated your gaze on him and he could feel his heart melting "Huh? Jisung told me you knew you were babysitting with me" You said slightly confused.
"He lied then, he told me Chan was helping me out with the kids" You nodded awkwardly making a mental note to smack Jisung's face later. Although the tension between you and Minho was prominent, the babies made sure to keep both of you busy, constantly crying because they were hungry, needed a change of diapers, wanted attention, etc.
Both of you sat down on the couch exhausted when you managed to get them to sleep, the silence felt nice after all the noise that came from the babies, and you sighed softly "I'm sorry" it was unexpected, you didn't expect yourself to say it, it just came out, it was sincere and you hoped Minho knew.
"Sorry for what?" He said genuinely confused making you raise an eyebrow as you moved your gaze to meet his "You know... for what I said the other day, I didn't mean it I was-" He cut off your words as he chuckled softly.
"Don't worry about it, your reaction was totally valid, I mean I understand why you were mad, it's fine, you did nothing wrong" His words felt like a bandaid being placed in your heart, these past weeks you were convinced you were the bad guy, your friends reminding you your lack of understanding towards him, yet here he was all chill about and validating your feelings, it was just what you needed to hear.
You smiled warmly at him, glad he was able to see the situation from both perspectives, you envied the way he was so mature about it. "Still it was not nice the way I acted, It was immature and I know you, I know you got mad" He nodded in response "I did, and I won't lie I am still a bit salty but I understand your anger I do"
You chuckled softly and bit your lip not sure if you wanted to say this but you eventually got the courage to say it "I didn't know you really wanted to be a father" You said softly trying not to cross any boundaries "It was just a silly dream" He said making you shake your head immediately "It's not silly... You would be the perfect father" You said reassuringly.
"Bullshit" He said in a playful tone making you scoff "Bullshit? I don't know how the hell you managed to put those babies to sleep" You chuckled softly making him smile, his heart beating faster than usual at your compliment.
"Well even if I do have the potential to be a good fatherâ I can't have babies" You noticed the way his voice cracked softly as he said those words, although he was smiling you knew those words were like daggers to his heart. "Bullshit" You said in a confident tone, he moved his gaze back to yours and raised an eyebrow "Bullshit? The doctor said-" You interrupted him before he could "Who cares what the doctor says? don't you know about rainbow babies?"
He was quiet for a while, his gaze focused on yours "We... we never tried to have one... what if" It was his turn to interrupt you "I'm tired of the 'what if' y/n" He sounded defeated and you hated that, this was not the confident man you knew.
"I'm serious though, I never knew you actually wanted to have a baby, if you had discussed it with me we could have gone to an endocrinologist and seen our options... it's not impossible Min..." You sounded frustrated making him sigh "I'm sorry for not telling you it's just, that I was too overwhelmed" He stopped talking when he felt your hand on top of his, he looked down to see them and then up at you.
A single tear rolled down his cheek as regret filled his head, regret of not telling his issue before, regret of closing up to you, when all he needed to heal was you, your reassurance, your love, and your understanding.
You both stood quiet as his tears began falling, you couldn't bare see him like this so you moved to hug him. Once his body was fully engraved on your warm embrace he began crying harder, his tears soaking down on your shirt, but you didn't care. You were finally there for him, something he restricted from himself out of pure spite.
A couple hours passed and the babies woke up again, you and Minho were playing with the kids while both of you also caught up with life, it felt nice, the tension that felt suffocating was finally released.
"Pause... So that video you sent me way back, wasn't you?" He shook his head as he played kitchen with the baby girl "This bitch blackmailed me, a month after we broke up Jisung took me to a stripper club and I might've vented to one of the strippers...." He said embarrassed as you played cars with the baby boy "Tell me the name of the strip club" You said coldly making him laugh.
"Don't worry Chaewon already dealt with her" His remark made you laugh so hard you could barely breathe. The remaining time you both stood at Jisung's house playing with the babies and talking felt nice, way more nicer than it should.
It honestly was impressive how despite the difficulties you both went through, that connection you both had never faded. Once Jisung was back home he couldn't help but smile as he saw both of you getting along.
Both of you served as bandaids to cure each other's wounds.
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March 28th
"How many times do I have to tell you it's not a date?" You told Chaewon who was on the other side of your speaker "Yeah, sure" She said in a mocking tone "Two exes going out for dinner as friends my ass" You couldn't help but laugh softly "You are insufferable" You said making her giggled.
"Says the girl who called me asking me for fashion advice for her D-A-T-E" You rolled your eyes at her remark "It's not a date!" You said frustrated as you finished putting on your dress that hugged your curves perfectly and complimented your eyes and hair.
"Yeah, Yeah, Just remember to wrap it before you tap it," Chaewon said jokingly but her comment made your stomach twirl in anticipation of something occurring tonight.
"Girl- goodbye" You said hanging up the phone before she could finish whatever the hell she was going to say next. Minutes felt like hours and you could feel anxiety rushing through you, you shouldn't be this nervous... after all it's just a friend's hangout. Right? However, waiting for him to text you felt like torture.
The sudden knock on your door took you by surprise, a shiver traveling down your spine as you took a deep breath. He was here, the amount of happiness swirling in your head felt nauseating. You thought he was going to call you to come down, but of course, he had to be the gentleman he is and personally escort you to the car.
The moment you opened the door he felt butterflies rushing down his stomach as he saw you, you looked beautiful, you truly had no idea how much he had missed you. This was supposed to be a casual hangout but the way your long-sleeved dress hugged your waist and fell free at your hips. Made his heart flutter and wish this was a date instead.
"Hey" He said with a shy smile, softly scratching his neck. You swallowed the urge to chuckle at his shy demeanor, it reminded you back to when he first approached you.
"Hey" You replied cheerfully making him smile, you could feel your own nervousness leaving as you realized he was in your same position. Minho and you decided to do some errands first before going to the movies, the car ride was surprisingly pleasing, you both seemed to have so much to talk about. The soft music playing in the background as you casually averted your eyes from him to the window as he spoke.
You weren't quite sure what exactly he was saying, but the melody of his voice was welcomed by your ears. The first stop was the pet shop, while Minho made his way to the cat section to buy his cat's food, you took a turn to see the little animals, your heart melting at the sight of the lovely animals on display. As you read the description of each animal, you couldn't understand how a human out there would purposely abandon such cuties.
Maybe you were too invested in the animals you didn't notice him calling your name, it wasn't until you felt a warm hand on your back and butterflies rushing down your stomach that you turned around to meet his eyes. "All done?" You asked as you looked at his hand that was carrying the cat food. "Yup" He said with a smile "No toys for the babies?" You asked playfully, however his heart skipped a beat at the question, making him wonder why he felt like this.
"They already have enough," He said with a chuckle as you squinted your eyes and shook your head "They deserve to be spoiled, but you are their father so whatever" You giggled as you both walked to the cashier. Again Minho wondered why his heart kept missing a beat with each word you spoke.
He wasn't expecting anything from tonight, he truly just wanted to spend time with you after so long, make your relationship better... as friends of course, but the more he interacted with you the more desperate his heart turned for you.
The moment you both sat in the movie theater it was an instant regret for Minho to have suggested it. Memories flooded both of your minds as you both sat next to each other. MInho cleared his throat and looked at you. "Popcorn?" He offered you with a thin smile, you wanted to laugh at that moment, if he was trying to make the situation less awkward he was failing to do so.
"No, I'm fine" You said in a soft whisper as the movie began. The whole time you couldn't really focus on whatever movie was on display, your gaze kept averting to his hand that rested on his leg. You hated yourself for wishing his hand was on your leg instead.
Take it slow.
You kept reminding yourself, this was a hangout as friends nothing more, it hurts slightly the thought of it, but after the complicated situation you both faced this past years, it was better to take things slow, who knows maybe you both will end up together? maybe not? whatever destiny the world was for you both.
Minho didn't know if he was tripping or not but he swore he could see you looking at his hand, to be fair he wasn't paying attention to the movie either he was too focused looking at your every move with his peripheral vision. he thought you might be cold as your legs were exposed to the theater air conditioner, so he took his jacket off and gently placed it on your legs.
The action took you by surprise the warm jacket on your legs did feel nice, and as he placed it on you, you could smell his scent all over you, how much have you missed that scent. You leaned closer to him, your breath hitting his cheek as you spoke a soft "Thank you"
That moment felt like pure temptation to Minho, they say God likes to test his strong soldiers, however, Minho was 100% sure he was not his strongest soldier when it came to you.
Soft moans echoed in the theater, both of your bodies stiffened as a sex scene came up, honestly what's the deal with movie franchises adding unnecessary sex scenes in their movies? Can we talk about it? At that moment you could feel a tension forming between both of you, was it awkwardness, or was it a hidden desire? You don't know but you closed your legs together trying to stop any lustful thoughts from popping on your mind.
You noticed the way he shifted on his seat awkwardly, looking at his phone to check the weather, you chuckled to yourself, feeling playful you leaned to tease him "Can't handle a sex scene hm?" You chuckle softly, he moves his gaze from his phone to look at you. His desire woke up with each word you said.
You were going to tease him? two can play that game, was it a dangerous move? maybe, but fuck it, let the night take whatever route it wants.
He turned to face you and leaned closer, his face just inches away from yours, you took a second to admire his eyes and features, you never forgot how handsome this man was from up close. "It's not that I can't handle the scene, I just can't handle my inner thoughts" The tone and the look he gave you was more than enough to let you know what he was thinking.
You were both on the same page. Involuntarily you squeezed your thighs together, he noticed, his eyes looking down at your covered legs, he smirked making you nudge his shoulder "Focus on the movie" You scolded him as you turned your attention back to the movie, not missing the way butterflies twirled around stomach and the evident heat on your cheeks.
The ride to your house was quiet, there was a tension lingering in there, but unlike the heavy uncomfortable one, this one was a little more light-headed, more enticing. Your footsteps were the only sound echoing through the hallway to your apartment, he followed behind you, he wasn't too close but he was close enough for you to feel his warmth and presence.
When you opened the door you turned to look at him, the silence felt deafening, both of you stared at each other, you didn't miss the way his eyes slightly moved to get a glimpse of your lips. You were both desperate to feel each other, that was no secret, but who would make the first move? most importantly was it the right time to make a move?
Your thoughts were interrupted when his hand flew to your waist and pushed you closer to his body, his lips crashing against yours. You felt on cloud 9, suddenly everything felt more vivid you could swear hearts and stars were flying around you both.
His soft plump lips felt as if a feather was brushing against your lips, it felt tender, full of love yet you wanted more, you needed more. When he moved his lips away from yours a soft whine escaped your lips, making you embarrassed.
Although he wanted to laugh his worries took over him, he looked at your eyes for ay sign of discomfort, maybe even regret but he saw none. "I'm sorry, I know its too soon-" His words were interrupted as you placed a finger on his lips.
"Too soon?" Maybe it was soon but to be fair you have been waiting for this kiss for some time now, so yeah maybe it was soon, but rhetorically it wasn't, you waited long enough. And if he feels the same way you do, what is really stopping you?
"Min..." He felt his breath hitching at how lovely his nickname escaped your lips, it's been so long since he last heard it... it felt nostalgic. "I'm not sure if it's too soon for you, but to be honest I've waited long enough for that kiss" Before you had the chance to say another word, his lips were on yours again, and this time he pushed your body inside your apartment and closed the door behind, his lips not daring to leave yours in case you realized you didn't want this.
As the kiss progressed you could feel your knees turning weak, the way he caressed your waist while his other hand was on your cheek was enough to send you down a spiral, however when you felt his warm tongue brushing against your bottom lip, desperately asking for access inside your mouth was when you lost it.
He groaned softly as his tongue danced with yours, you began feeling light-headed, maybe it was because of lack of air but you didn't care you didn't want to leave his lips.
"Y/n..." He said in a pleading tone as he panted for air once the kiss broke, his eyes looked darker than normal yet they looked tender, his body was still pressed against yours, his hand moving up and down your sides. "I need you" Your heart dropped as your blood rushed through your body. This night was going to take a different route.
You were currently leaning back against the wall while he left a trail of wet pecks on your neck, your body shivered as the delicate kisses fogged your mind, it was a sensation you couldn't really describe. A groan left your lips as he nibbled on the soft spot you used to love, he remembered. "Aren't you getting greedy?" Although you wanted to tease him your voice was shaky, too high in the ecstasy of having his lips attached to your neck.
"I'm sorry princess, you have no idea how bad I'm craving you" He said in a low tone as he nibbled your lobe, your eyes closed shut and a soft whimper was heard, he pressed his body harder against yours, too desperate and touched deprived for you. "Fuck" He mumbled when his erection brushed against your crotch, your dress rolling up as he grinded on your vaguely.
The wave of wetness that pools between your thighs immediately soaks your underwear. It takes every bit of your lingering self-control to not moan at the sensation.
Even so, the desire and lust took over your body with each minute passing, his hands traveled up and down your legs, pausing to lift and wrap your leg around his hip. So this is what heaven feels like. It's been so long since you last felt like this. You nearly moaned as you felt his erection pushing against your pelvis.
His face was at the crook of your neck as his desperate whimpers traveled through your body. "Oh fuckâ" Your mind went blank, losing yourself at the delight of his touch you began whimpering.
"Can we go to my room?" You hid your face when he shifted to look at you, too shy to look him in the eyes. It's been so long since you both were intimate, yet you never lost that alluring presence that hypnotized Minho every time.
"Whatever my princess desires" He said softly as he looked down at you, your soft blush and trembling body, the way your dress was messy because of how desperate he was touching you, sent a rush of heat down his dick.
He grabbed you bride-style as he walked to your room, opening the door your sweet scent embraced his nose, he was getting drunk on you. He gently placed you down on the bed, the fairy lights of your room plus the soft moonlight that crept through the windows added to the vibe going on.
You could see his sharp features as he hovered on top of you, he moved your hair gently out of your face and giggled "I've missed you" he said in a tender tone before he leaned to leave pecks all over your face, you giggled along him until his lips crashed on yours.
The kiss was slow yet passionate, taking your time to taste each other properly, the string of saliva created wet sounds that echoed in the room, he took this time that you were distracted as an opportunity to spread your legs with his hand, his soft fingertips leaving ghostly touches all over your legs and inner thighs.
Three years and he still knew how to get you ready for him, although you had been ready ever since you two started making out at your front door. He broke the kiss to move down your body, his intense gaze never leaving yours, as he began kissing your legs, in a painfully slow rhythm, he knew what he was doing, he wanted to get you all needy for him.
However, he was also making this hard for himself, as he was also getting impatient, he moved back up so he could nibble on your neck, soft moans escaping your lips, making a sweet melody for his ears. His body involuntarily pressed against yours Yours and his moans bleed into one another as your clothed cores come into contact. Minho's fingers tightened on your leg, it was definitely gonna bruise overnight.
You wonder if he can feel the extent of your wetness against the front of his jeans, as your dress had rolled up and you were basically on just your panties, all thoughts are chased away when he drags his finger on top of your drench mound. "Fuck princess" He hisses, his hand beside your head tightening into a fist, his face pressed against your neck "Feeling how wet your pussy is for me is making it hard for me to just not cum" How you loved the chokehold you had on this man right now.
His words only motivate your intentions, thrusting your hips into his fingers, desperate to create some type of friction. Seeking more leverage, you wrapped your legs around his waist pressing him against your clothed cunt. His face traveled down your collarbone sucking and biting on it as he hand massaged your breasts.
"Fine. Iâll give you what you wantâ He said breathlessly as he sat to take his pants off, your gaze never left his as you admired his body, he was indeed the man of your dreams, you pressed your thighs together and bit your lip.
A loud moan escaped your lips when his tip tap on your clothed cunt. He moved it up and down your drenched panties to coat his dick with your arousal. You both breathed heavily at the sensation. He looked at you for reassurance, his priority was your comfort and that made him even hotter at that moment, you nodded your head and smiled at him, letting him know that you wanted this as much as him.
He teased you by gliding his hands up and down your inner thighs but not touching your cunt, when your moans got desperate, he moved his index finger up and down your slit, he then used that finger to move your panties aside, he felt his cock twitching at the sight of your wet pussy.
He leaned closer to blow on it and then gave it a kiss "I missed what mine" He said possessively as he bit your inner thigh, you moaned at that, you felt loved something you hadn't felt in quite some time.
The way your warm cunt clenched on his tip was making it hard for him to go slow, he wanted to go slow and stretch you out properly since you didn't let him give your foreplay due to your impatience. But how could he restrain himself when your hand is playing with your clit in front of him?
And oh god you were indeed the devil because of the way you desperately moaned his name so he would go all in, if it wasn't for your greediness he would have done way more than just put his cock deep inside you, but he couldn't say no to you, not when you have full control of his body and mind.
The lewd sounds embraced the room, the sloppy sound of your arousal and the thump of his pelvis hitting yours turning both of you even more. His lips crashed into yours as he felt his cock deep inside your wall, he kissed you passionately, his hand leaving a feather touch on your leg.
Although everything felt so sudden, it felt right. The passion the lust everything. It felt like the best timing despite the previous circumstance, lord how badly you missed him, and not only for his cock but for the way he always made you feel like a princess, you were his queen.
It wasnât until his kisses got sloppier that you knew he was close to cum, you grabbed his hair and squeezed it tightly as your back arched, the feeling of his cock twitching was sending you to cloud 9 and it made your mind blank as moans left your mouth shamelessly.
If you thought he couldnât go any deeper you were wrong. His dick rubbed that spot thatâs been getting teased for a while now. He pressed his hand on your stomach just so he could see how deep his dick was inside you. And oh lord the sight of his dick drove him to the edge.
You both cling to one another as your high approach one after another. Minho's groan triggered a release that spilled white-hot bliss through your veins. The feeling of your cunt clenching around him made you pant for air, you both stayed still for some minutes.
He then began kissing your neck again which made you chuckle, as you moved to play with his hair. "Can we start over?" His voice was shaky, you could tell the question triggered some anxiety in him, you moved your hand to caress his neck to soothe his nerves.
"Asking me that while I'm cock warming you is crazy" You tease him making him groan "I'm serious... I want to take you out on dates again, I need you in my life again" His words triggered something inside you making you clench your cunt, he moaned as he was still sensible, making you blush embarrassed "Sorry" You mumbled making him laugh.
"I'll take that as a yes" He said making you laugh, his lips attaching to yours once again. "How about we do a round two but you let me see them..." He stopped talking to squeeze your breast, you chuckled playfully as you pecked his lips.
"Anything my prince desires" You said before wrapping your arms around his neck and kissing his lips. Time might've separated the two of you, but the bond you both had was stronger than any misunderstanding.
Summary: you've been hopelessly in love with Han since you were children. One night you confess your feelings to him.
Words count: 8,539
Warnings for this part: lots of angst, drunk people, drunk Han is petty asf
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6
A/N: So I made that pool asking if I should post this fic in chapters or a 20,000+ words chapter and the long ass chapter won but at the time my mind told me I would be able to finish the whole fic before posting it... Jokes on me I need validation and feedback for me to write so yeah let's do this in chapters, sorry
A/N2: I had this idea for quite some time now but got suddenly inspired listening to the song another love.
You're done. Really, you can't take it anymore. You've known Han Jisung since elementary school, you have been basically joined at the hip since then, your parents even became best friends because of you two.
You don't know exactly when you fell in love with him, was it on your second day at school when he invited you to play with him because he noticed you were all alone? Was it when someone made an awkward joke about your messed up hair cut in second grade and he picked a fight with them? Maybe it was the very first moment you laid eyes on him, joking around with everyone and being the most popular kid in the classroom. You really can't remember, but the thing you're sure of is: Han Jisung doesn't like you back.
You've always known that, but inside you there was a tiny bit of hope that one day he would wake up and suddenly love you back.
That didn't happen though. You are now 23 and he has never ever shown the smallest amount of romantic interest in you.
"That's fine", you thought to yourself, ever since you realized your feelings for him, "I'm going to stay with him his entire life, that doesn't sound so bad"
Until it started to sound really bad. What are you gonna do? See him getting a girlfriend, then getting engaged and eventually married? Would you always be there on the sidelines listening to his lovesick whines about the woman he loves so much? Would you be the godmother to his children? By then, would you have gotten over him already? Or would you keep this up forever, marrying someone just because you can't stay alone and being in love with your best friend for the rest of your life? That was the moment you knew you had to stop, you can't keep this up.
Coincidentally Han broke up with his last girlfriend a few months ago, you thought that would be a good opportunity for you to be his rebound, yeah, pretty dignified of you.
So you dress up really pretty, hair up, a dress that always made Han compliment you and to finish it offâthe necklace he gave you on your 12th birthday.
You think this is it, this is the day you're going to tell him how much you love him and maybe, just maybe he will contemplate giving you a chance.
When he arrives at your shared apartment, with two cans of beer and fried chicken, you give him a cheerful greeting, setting the table and trying to gather courage to speak.
"So, how was practice?", you begin, maybe some small talk will help you relax.
"It was good, we are almost done with the album", he says, typing something on his phone. "How was your day?", he asks, putting the device on the table and looking at you.
"Good, I had class in the morning and tutoring in the afternoon", you take a sip of your beer, "one of the mothers actually recommended me to other parents and I'm gonna start tutoring more students next week"
He smiles, "that's good, you're really smart"
You blush, bringing the back of your hands to your face to try and lessen the hot skin of your cheeks with the cold of your hands.
"Actually, I want to talk to you", you start, it's now or never.
"Sure-", Jisung stops mid sentence when his phone buzzes. "Just a minute", he looks at the screen and smiles, your heart sinks at the sight. You know that smile too well, you have seen it dozens of times. You feel your insides turning over. It's the smile meant only for the person he likes.
"Hey, Lia. Yeah, totally, I can talk right now", he picks up the call and once again asks you for a minute lifting his index finger, he walks towards the balcony and closes the glass door after going through it.
He's laughing about something, is she even that funny or is he just trying to win her favor? She's pretty, you know it. All of his girlfriends looked like models. You sigh, looking at yourself and feeling awful, suddenly you don't feel pretty anymore, you actually feel ridiculous.
Why did you think things would change just because you got brave enough to speak up? Jisung sees you as a best friend and nothing more, you have to come to terms with that.
Your mind is rushing, thinking about what you're going to do now? Can you keep being friends with him? Yeah, of course, he's your best friend, you won't end your friendship because you can't control your feelings. But you'll need time, right? You won't be able to get over this unrequited love if you keep seeing him everyday, doing everything with him and sleeping in the same house.
"So, what do you want to talk about?", he asks, sitting again. You didn't even notice he had come back inside.
You sigh, you'll tell him about it all and then you'll find the strength in you to move on.
"I like you", you say so low you're not sure he heard you. But he did, he smiles and chuckles.
"I like you too, we're best friends for a reason", he stretches his arm to take a fried chicken.
"No, I like like you", you admit, hugging yourself, feeling cold suddenly, you look around and see Han left the door to the balcony open. "I've been in love with you since I can remember", you complete.
The look on his face would be funny if it wasn't tragic, his brows are furrowed in confusion and his eyes have a very familiar look: fear. Of course, he's afraid of losing his best friend, you already guessed that much.
"Y/N I-", you notice his breathing quickening. "I'm sorry, I never knew", he says, shoulders slumping, his arms dropping to the side of his body.
"Yeah, I know you didn't", you say. He's still staring at you with so much hurt in his eyes. Jisung knows he will have to turn you down and it's going to hurt him a lot, but not as much as it will hurt you and he never ever wanted to hurt you.Â
"I'm sorry, I don't know what to say", he takes a deep breath, "I never thought about you in that way, I'm really sorry, I don't feel the same"
You're not going to cry, you decided that the moment you saw fear in his eyes. It's not his fault you like him, he can't fall in love with you just because you love him. You're not going to cry and make him feel worse than you can tell he's already feeling. But listening to those words it's worse than you could have expected, you feel like the world is crumbling around you.
"I know you don't", you smile sadly.
He looks more confused now.
"Then, why did you tell me?"
"It's just⌠I'm done with all this", you reply, getting up from your chair.
"Done with our friendship?" Han can feel all the air leaving his body while he waits for your answer.
You chuckle, fidgeting with your foot.
"No, I don't think I could ever be done with that", you smile trying to reassure him and he feels so relieved. "I can't keep doing this, I can't continue seeing you with other people and stay hurting alone"
"I can stop bringing people to the apartment and I'll never talk about them around you", he says trying to help and your stomach sinks a lot more. Why does he have to be so sweet?
"Actually, I'll need some time", you clear your throat, "I think I'm going to stay with Seungmin for the time being, he is looking for a roommate"
Han's eyes widen and he gets up, walking towards you.
"What are you talking about? Are you going to move out?"
"It's not something definitive, I'm going to stay there until he finds a new roommate and come back after that", you take a step back, noticing how close he is to you. "Luckily by then I'll be over you, I think I just need some personal space for now, where you're not there everytime I look, or your things aren't mixed with mine or your scent isn't around every room"
"Will you still speak to me?", he asks, he wants to hug you, to hold you in his arms and say how sorry he is for not feeling the same. But he knows he can't, the best thing he can do is to keep his distance from you right now.
"I think we should keep it restricted to apartment things for now, I'll keep paying my half of the rent since my things will still be here"
"You don't have to pay if you're not here"
Ever since Jisung started making good money he insisted that you didn't have to pay for rent since you only work part time as a tutor to pay for your living expenses but you always refused. Even though he earns a lot more than you it wouldn't be fair for him to be the only one paying and honestly, you felt that if he was the only one paying for it, you would feel too much like you were a couple.
"No, I'll pay you. This arrangement doesn't change the fact that we still share the apartment"
He nods, looking down, the awkward silence making you sick.
"I'm really sorry I hurt you", he whispers and all the crying you avoided over this whole conversation threatens to come out at that exact moment.
"It's not your fault", you say, "I'm sorry I made things awkward, just give me some time and we'll be back to how things were, okay?", you give him a reassuring smile even though you're not sure things will ever go back to the way it was.
You wake up feeling like shit, you cried your eyes out the moment you stepped into Seungmin's apartment. He was so sweet to you, staying awake until you calmed down and even offered you his room for you to sleep but you refused. He was already doing you a favor by letting you stay on his couch until he found a roommate.
You sit, stretching yourself, you slept pretty comfortably but all the stress from last night left your muscles sore.
"Are you feeling better?", you hear Seungmin's voice and look at the kitchen, he's making coffee. That reminds you of all the days you woke Han up with a nice and hot coffee so he wouldn't be in a bad mood waking up so early.
"I don't think so", you answer, shaking your head like that would make your thoughts disappear. "Can you get me some of that?", you ask and he smiles.
"Already on it", you start tidying up the blanket and the pillow you used.
"What are you going to do today?", Seungmin asks while you sit at the table.
"I have some tutoring to do and class in the afternoon, maybe I'll go shopping with Hannah later"
"That's good, try to keep yourself entertained at least for the next couple of days", he hands you the mug and you nod.
All your friends knew about your crush on Han and you made all of them swear they wouldn't tell him. You were afraid things would be awkward now, since Han was their friend before you met them, but they all showed you support now that you had confessed.
Hannah had offered you to stay with her, but she has a roommate that's really strict about everything in their apartment and you don't want to cause trouble to your friend by staying there. Luckily Seungmin's last roommate had moved a couple of weeks ago and he was looking for someone new, but by the way he's picky that's not going to happen so soon.
"Since I'll be staying here and you won't accept money because I won't be using a room, the groceries will be on me and I won't accept no for an answer", you say finishing your coffee and getting up. Seungmin sighs, rolling his eyes.
"I know you're going to buy it anyway, so I'll accept it"
"Then send me a list of whatever you need and I'll buy it tonight or tomorrow", you blow him a kiss, picking your bag from the floor and heading to the bathroom.
You take a long, hot, refreshing shower and pick some comfortable clothes to go to your tutoring session.
Seungmin's already gone when you go back to the kitchen, there's a message from him on your phone.
Minnie: I left some sliced fruit in the fridge for you, eat before going out.
Minnie: I'll send you the list later btw
You smile, having someone taking care of you is nice. For a second, it makes you forget the reason why you're there to begin with.
You feel like crying again, but you can't show up to your students house with red eyes and a puffy face.
The parents that are near each other usually ask you to teach their children together in longer sessions. That strengthens the bond the kids have while strengthening the connection between the families. That usually happens when the families are wealthy, they see an opportunity in their children's friendship to get on each other's good side.
Your parents started hanging out with Jisung's parents too, not because of connections but because you two were always in each other's houses. Once, you broke your arm falling from a tree you tried to climb following Han, his mother had to call yours and calm her down on the phone the entire time your mother was driving to the hospital to meet you. That day you got scolded by both and after they finished the lecture they looked at each other and smiled, bonding over the fear of something happening to their precious child.
When they went out to buy some coffee and talk, Jisung sat by the side of your hospital bed, lips pouting and tearing up.
"I'm sorry I dared you to follow me all the way up there", he says, taking the hand of your good arm and holding it.
"It's okay, now at least I have an exciting story to tell the others", you say and he smiles, whipping his eyes.
The noise of the gate opening wakes you up from your daydream, you have to stop thinking about Han if you want to get over him.
The kids come running in your direction the moment the housekeeper opens the door.
"Miss Y/N, look I got a 9.5 on my test", the girl smiles brightly showing you the paper with the grade marked in red.
"Woah, Misu, you're so smart, I don't think you even need me anymore", you bend to her height and she pouts, sometimes she acts like a little child when she's already 12.
"Of course I need you, you're the prettiest and smartest person I know", she says and you hear someone clear their throats by the stairs. It's Misu's mother.
"If I didn't agree with her I'd be hurt", she says and you smile.
"Good morning, Mrs. Kim, I only helped a little, Misu's really smart", you say and the girl shows you her white teeth, looking at her mother and waiting for some praise.
"Of course she is", she pats the girl's head. "Eun, aren't you going to say hi to Y/N?"
The boy is a few months younger than Misu but a lot more shy. You saw him coming with her when you arrived but got so engrossed in your conversation that forgot he was there in silence.
"Hello, miss Y/N", he says, polite as ever.
"Hi, Eun, did you get a good grade like Misu?"
He nods, showing you his test with 9.8 marked in red.
"He's smarter than me", Misu pouts.
"Congratulations, Eun", you say, patting his head, making him blush and you smile. "I think you are both really smart and I'm here to help you get even smarter"
Mrs. Kim tells you to go ahead and start the lesson and invites you to stay for lunch. You were pretty lucky with the parents you met till now, all of them were nice to you and cared a great deal about their children so it's a lighthearted job to do.
The kids are indeed smart, usually you don't have to explain the same thing more than twice and they always ask a lot of questions during your time with them.
A week goes by since you last saw Jisung, fortunately he didn't try contacting you. You're sure that if he did you'd break hearing his voice and would beg for him to like you back, giving up on any pride you still have left.
You arrive at school an hour before your classes begin, you're meeting Hannah at the cafe nearby so you can talk a bit.
You look at your phone, there's a message from her saying she's on the bus but the traffic is awful so she might be a little bit late.
You choose a table by the window, contemplating if you should order already or wait till Hannah arrives.
Looking outside, you remember the moment you heard the news that you got into this university. Yours and Jisung's family were at your parents house, you both were seated on the couch when you received the message saying the college entrance results came out. You couldn't type your information, you were trembling so much Han had to do it for you.
When you read your name and the word "accepted" you actually screamed, making your mother drop the plate she had in hands. Your father and Han's came running to see what happened when Jisung showed them the screen.
Your mother and father embraced you, telling how proud they were of you and Jisung's parents did the same, like you were their own daughter.
Jisung wrapped his arms around your waist and lifted you up, spinning you and making you burst out laughing. That moment was so good, you wanted to stay there forever.
"Earth to Y/N", you hear Hanna's voice and snap out of your thoughts, sighing. "Is everything okay?", she asks, worried.
"Yeah, I'm good", you say and she narrows her eyes, knowing you are not telling the truth.
Hannah left it at that though, you are going through a hard time and she doesn't want to push it.
Honestly, she don't expect you to be fine. Your lifelong crush had rejected you and to make things worse he is your best friend, so yeah, of course you are not okay.
"Then, I'm going to order", she drops her bag in the seat in front of you, "your usual?"
You nod, seeing her walk to the cashier. You met Hannah three years ago, when you started college. She's the total opposite of you, really outgoing and a total social butterfly, it seems those are the people you attract seeing how Han is the same.
She sat by your side on the first day, making a random joke and making you laugh, that's how she became your best friend. You didn't even have to tell her about your one sided love, she had to see only one interaction between you and Jisung to know exactly what was going on.
She is the one that urged you to tell him about your feelings and was very adamant about you moving on from him, she couldn't let you waste all your 20's being in love with someone that didn't like you back⌠or not the way you wanted to.
"So, I heard about a party", Hannah says, putting the pager on the table and sitting in front of you.
"There's like a hundred of those, you have to be more specific", you joke and she rolls her eyes.
"You know that guy from English literature? The one that dyed his hair pink last semester?"
"Yeah, it's kinda hard to forget about him", you laugh.
When Yunho came to school with pink hair a rumor of him becoming an idol started going around, everyone tried to be nice to him and all that shit but it turned out he just lost a bet.
"He's hosting this party in like a really big fancy place to celebrate his graduation", she finishes.
"That's nice", you say, fidgeting with your fingers under the table.
"Hmmm, are we going to go or what?", she asks and you glance at her.
"Were we invited?"
"Ahm, you're hot and I'm hot, why wouldn't we be invited?"
You laugh, knowing what she's doing. Hannah is more sensible than you give her credit for, you really thought she would ask about everything that happened on that night, but instead she has been trying to distract you for the past week and that is really nice of her.
She smiles, seeing you smile. Hannah knows you never give enough credit to yourself, you never think you're pretty enough, funny enough, cool enough or smart enough even though you're those things and much more. She approached you on your first day because there's just something about you, something bright and cheerful. When people are upset, mad or sad you always do your best to make them feel better, so Hannah felt this was her time to cheer you up.
The pager buzzes on the table and she gets up, going to the counter to get your orders.
You look at her coming back with a big grin in her lips, handing you the coffee with a note glued to the cup sleeve.
"To the girl with the yellow cardigan, I see you coming here often and I think you're cute, maybe we can hangout sometime? If you're up to it, text me: xxx xxxx-xxxx"
You blush, looking at the counter and seeing the cutest guy looking at you with flushed cheeks. He's so red you can see it from where you're seated. He smiles waving at you and you wave back.
Hannah has one eyebrow lifted looking at your interaction and you feel your cheeks even hotter.
"So, are you going to text him?", she asks, reading the note and you sigh.
"I don't think so", you say, sipping at your coffee.
"Why not?"
"I don't think it would be fair to someone if I start something with them when I'm still in love with someone else", you answer and Hannah sighs.
"Yeah, you have a point", she pouts, "but like, maybe messing around a little won't hurt? I mean, he's not in love with you or anything, you can talk with each other and see where things go"
Hannah's right and you know it. Even though it's still too soon, you should try meeting new people, you're not going to get over Han just by staying away from him.
This feelings, you have it with you for so long, it's hard to let it go. Loving Han is the only romantic feeling you have ever known, it's scary to walk off of this thing you know so well to something completely new.
You have to, though. It's the only way for your friendship to keep existing. So you nod to Hannah, taking your phone out of your pocket and dialing the number written on the cup, seconds later you're typing a message.
You: Hey, it's the girl in the yellow cardigan, my name is Y/N btw
You send and hear a ping, you thought he would have his phone on silent mode and sudden embarrassment creeps up when you see him taking his phone out of the pocket of his apron.
Cute guy: Hey, I was afraid of making you uncomfortable, so let me apologize first. I just didn't know how to approach you
Cute guy: Ah, and I'm Heeseung
You change the name in his contact before replying.
You: it didn't make me uncomfortable and thank you for calling me cute.
Heeseung: you don't have to thank me for telling the truth.
You giggle, it's interesting to feel like this, even though you can tell it's something temporary.
You: lol, you're really smooth.
"Let's go?", Hannah says, smirking at you and you blush. You nod, picking your things up and getting up from the table, you wave goodbye to Heeseung before going out and he smiles brightly at you.
>><<
The morning after you went away, Han woke up feeling awful, all the things that happened the previous night coming back at him at the same time. He was sure the moment you walked out of the door, giving him your best smile and trying not to cry was the saddest he ever felt in his entire life. You were his best friend, you were everything to him, he felt like shit because he never noticed your feelings. He doesn't know what he would have done if he knew, but maybe he could have been better, talking less about his relationships and especially not bringing his hook ups to the apartment.
He got up, feeling like crying everytime he had to pass by your bedroom door, knowing you were not there and wouldn't be for far too long, all because of him. The bell rings and he runs to the door, hoping it's you, hoping you'll tell him everything was a joke and that you didn't actually like him. Even though he knows you wouldn't press the doorbell since you know the password and he knows the hurt in your eyes when he said he didn't feel the same as you was no joke.
So it was no surprise when he opened the door and found Chan and Changbin there. They did tell him they were going to stop by in the morning to pick him up but with all the things that happened he just forgot about it.
"Are you okay? You look like shit", Changbin says entering the house.
Chan looks at Han, worried.
"Are you sick?", he asks, "where's Y/N?" He knows you wouldn't leave Han alone if he were sick, but you would have shown up already by hearing Changbin's loud voice.
"She's gone", Han says, running his hands through his hair.
"What do you mean?", Chan asks with wide eyes.
"She- she confessed to me and I turned her down", he says, maybe he should have told you he could like you back, that way he wouldn't be feeling this way and you'd still be there with him.
"Shit", Changbin says, his lips pressed in a thin line.
Han looks at the both of them, why don't they look surprised?
"You guys knew about it?" He asks, a little louder than his usual voice and the boys exchange a look. "Woah, thanks for the heads up"
He shouldn't be mad at them, it's not their fault, but he's already too mad at himself so he doesn't know where else to put the blame.
"It was not our place to tell you", Chan says.
"Does everyone know?", Han asks and Changbin nods, "so I was the only one? Am I dumb or something?"
Chan sighs, "it's not really your fault for not knowing, you probably are used to the way Y/N looks and talks to you because you're best friends since you were children, but to the people outside it is pretty clear from the get go that she likes you"
"But where did she go? Are you not friends anymore?", Changbin asks the difficult questions and Chan glares at him.
"She said she will be staying with Seungmin till he finds a roommate and then she's going to come back"
"She probably just needs some time", Chan says, putting a hand on Han's shoulder trying to reassure him, and he really hopes that's the case.
>><<
You've been texting Heeseung for a few days now and he's pretty nice, he's a dance major and works part time at the cafe to pay for living expenses the same as you do with tutoring.
Hannah had convinced you to go to Yunho's party and get wasted, saying you need the college life experience the most now that you had your first heartbreak but you don't want to think about that, you want to forget that you ever loved Han Jisung.
So you drink a whole bottle of wine before leaving for the party, Seungmin's coming with you and Hannah will meet you there. You are looking good, or maybe it's the alcohol that makes you feel good, your hair is down, you're wearing a black lace cropped top you borrowed from Hannah, with a much lower neckline than you are used to, high waisted jeans and black boots.
The party is already crowded when you and Seungmin get there and it's really a fancy place like Hannah told you.
"Let's grab a drink", you yell to Seungmin.
"You should drink water, you're already drunk", he demands and you show your tongue to him.
"Nooooo, don't be a killjoy"
He sighs, it's hard to convince you of something when you're sober, it's even harder when you're drunk.
"You can have a drink after you drink a cup of water", he tells you and you nod, sounds like a win win for you.
After drinking a whole cup of water you show it to him, waiting for a praise and Seungmin rolls his eyes. What are you, a 10 year old?
"Good job, now you can drink", he gives you a cup with something mixed in it, "but you have to drink some water for each drink you take, okay?"
"Okay, dad", you joke, sipping your drink.
Seungmin knows a lot of people at the party and you feel left out every time someone approaches him so you're really happy when Hannah shows up, with a much taller boy accompanying her.
"Look who I found", she says pointing at him.
"Heeseung?", you scream, startling Seungmin who's close to you.
"Jesus, Y/N, calm down", he says putting his hand over his ear, "I'm a singer, I can't lose my hearing", he says and you pout, whining an apology even though you know he's not really mad.
"I didn't know you were gonna be here", Heeseung gets closer to you, side eyeing Seungmin.
"I didn't want to come, Hannah made me", you tell him, "this is Seungmin, he's my friend"
He nods at the boy by your side, relaxing to hear you call Seungmin a friend.
"Hey, Minnie, let's go dance?", Hannah says and Seungmin narrows his eyes suspiciously.
"I don't dance", he answers, crossing his arms and she sighs.
"For fucking sake, just come with me", she says and Seungmin follows her without more questions, he knows too well not to mess with her when she gets angry.
"You look really pretty", Heeseung says, bending a little to lessen the difference in your height. You blush even though it's not as good hearing him saying that as it was when Han complimented you, but you're trying to get over that, aren't you?
"Thanks, you look hot too", you hiccup, you don't have a filter when you're drunk. He smiles, turning around on the table and pouring you a cup of water.
"Drink this, it's going to help", he hands it to you.
"Thank you, you're so sweet and handsome", you yell again but he doesn't flinch like Seungmin did.
"You can't keep saying these kinds of things and not want me to kiss you", he says and you smile, sly.
"Who says I don't want that?", the moment he comprehends what you just said his face reddens, and he thought he was being bold.
"Once you sober up we can talk about that", he tells you and you pout. You wanted to kiss him now, maybe if you did all the hurt you were feeling would go away. Maybe you just needed someone to make you forget about Jisung.
"But I want it now", you cross your arms, behaving like a child that didn't get their way.
"Do you like dancing?", he changes the subject. Your face brightens with his question.
"I LOVE dancing", you show him the choreography to queencard that's playing on the dance floor and he laughs at your messy steps, he's sure you're much better at it while sober.
"Then drink this and let's dance", he hands you another cup of water.
"Seungmin told me I could have a drink after a cup of water, but this makes two cups of water and no drink", you point out and Heeseung can't help but find the drunk you really cute.
"This water will help you so you won't have a bad hangover tomorrow", he says and you nod, that's a good point.
Super by seventeen starts playing and you finish downing the water, grabbing Heeseung's hand and dragging him to the dance floor.
Being a dance major, of course he knows the steps and he's so good there are moments you just stop and watch him in a daze. Actually, he knows the steps to every song playing after that too, you dance so much you're all sweaty and your legs are tired. You're totally sober now, feeling ecstatic. It's so good being at a party having so much fun.
You're jumping and smiling until you see him.
You stop in your tracks seeing Han Jisung staring at you from the other side of the dance floor, your smile fades away as soon as your eyes lock with his.
He looks sick, he lost a lot of weight considering the short period of time you haven't seen each other and he wasn't smiling like he always did. He takes a step in your direction and you automatically step away, your stomach sinking.
You're feeling your heart beat so fast it's overlapping with the loud music, you gulp feeling your legs weaken, why the hell are you having this reaction? He's the same Han Jisung you've known since you were a child, the only difference now is that he knows how you feel about him.
You can't avoid him until you get over your feelings, that won't work and you know it, you have to get used to being near him feeling nothing other than friendship, but you can't see him at that moment, you just can't. You're having fun, there's a handsome guy with you and you want to like him and not Jisung.
You grab Heeseung's hand and pull him away from the dance floor, walking outside so you can breathe some fresh air.
"Did something happen?", he asks, looking confused and worried.
"It just felt stiff in there for a moment", you say and he nods.
You didn't want to explain to him why you were not speaking to your best friend and how messed up your relationship with Han is right now. You want to forget about it and your way of doing it is right by your side, handsome and available.
"So, about that thing you said we could do once I sobered up⌠I'm sober now", you say and he blushes, analyzing you for a moment to see if you are telling the truth.
The last drink you took was more than an hour ago and you drank so much water after that, it's a miracle you still don't have to use the toilet.
"I don't want to do something you'll regret later", he says and you appreciate how considerate he is. But right now you don't want someone considerate, you want someone that'll sweep you off your feet and help you forget what you so desperately want to. So you get closer, caging him against the wall and tiptoeing, trying to get closer to his face.
"If you don't want to, it's okay. But if you're holding back because you think I'm drunk, I'm not", that was his cue to kiss you. His lips crashing sloppily onto yours, hands cupping your face then moving down to your waist. You wrap your arms around his neck trying to get closer than you already are. He's good, you've kissed enough people in your life to know that, yet you feel sick.
You feel bad and like a horrible person because you just know he can't compare to Jisung even though you never kissed your best friend.
You feel bad thinking about someone else while kissing Heeseung, he's so nice and sweet and you know he's not fooling around, if you give him the chance he's going to truly like you and you're only using him.
You step away sighing, seeing his brows furrowed and the confusion in his eyes.
"Was it that bad?", he jokes but you can see he's feeling hurt. "I'm not trying to brag, but I never got a reaction like that after a kiss"
You smile apologetically, looking for words to explain yourself.
"It was great and you're great", you begin, "I think you're too sweet, that's why I can't lead you on"
"What are you talking about?" he asks, even more confused.
"I'm in love with someone else and I know it sounds awful, I did try to get over him with you but I feel like you'll really like me if we don't stop right now and I'm not sure if I'll be able to be that person for you", you look at him, seeing the disappointment in his face. "I'm sorry, I'm a terrible person and you can hate me if you want"
He stares at you for a few moments, sighing and giving you a reassuring smile after.
"I don't think you're terrible, I think you're truly brave for coming clean like that", you're relieved, you were afraid he would say something mean and even though you feel like you deserve it, you're really fragile right now. "Thank you for telling me before I got too deep into this and I don't know, maybe we can be friends?"
"Absolutely, I would love that"
"So, do you want to go back inside?", he asks and you shake your head.
"I don't think so, I should probably go home", you say, you don't want to go back there to see Han again.
"Do you want me to take you home?"
"It's okay, I'm going to text Seungmin and see where he's at but you can go inside, I'm going to stay here and get some more fresh air"
"Alright, I'll see you at the cafe"
You nod, seeing him walk away. Woah, you just let that masterpiece of a man go because you can't forget about a fucking unrequited love. You curse yourself, slapping your forehead.
After that, you text Seungmin telling where you are and asking where the hell he and Hannah went, sending the same message to her and waiting for their answer.
You sit on the grass, taking a deep breath. You feel a bit sick after seeing Jisung, you never thought you'd feel that way. Never in your worst nightmares did you think you would be afraid to talk to him, maybe you're scared of talking to him and feeling nothing, what if all of this was just in your head and you just needed some time apart to figure it out?
You hear steps close to you and pray it's not some horny couple trying to fuck near you, however, the moment you lay eyes on your best friend you actually wish it was a horny couple.
You get up in a jump, your stomach sinking and your head spinning. Why does it hurt so much suddenly? It feels like your chest is being torn apart and you can't do a thing to make it better.
Jisung looks worse up close, he has huge bags under his eyes and he's too pale.
You're worried about him, even though you can't have the luxury of that. Not when your insides are all messed up and you want to throw up. You walk past him without saying a word, you can't handle this right now, but he grabs your wrist holding you in place. You don't look at him, staring at the floor trying to get out of his grip.
"I miss you", he says and your heart drops to your stomach. Why is he doing this to you? It's not like being apart from your best friend is fun to you. "Can't you look at me?", he pleads but you can't find the courage to do that yet. "Please", but he sounds so desperate, you force yourself to do it.
You look at him, he's obviously drunk. Who the hell let him drink this much?
"What is it?", you sound more spiteful than you were planning and his eyes widen, releasing your arm from his grasp.
"Do you hate me now?", he asks and you sigh.
"Of course I don't hate you, you're my best friend", you say that but for some reason it doesn't feel right, it doesn't sound like the truth.
"Can't you come back home? I feel like shit everytime I wake up and you're not there"
"I told you I need time", you say, running your hands through your hair.
"Are you going to forget about me by fucking some random dude?", he asks and you glare at him, eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
"I don't understand how that's any of your business"
"It is, because you told me you love me but you act like you never want to see my face again", he scoffs.
You feel mad, what's he trying to say? Should you keep hurting just because you love him?
"I can't sit around forever, waiting for you to look at me", you say and he steps closer to you.
"I'm looking at you right now, I- I'll be good to you, I'll like you back", the moment he finishes saying that, you can't control the tears running through your eyes.
Is that supposed to be good? He would be forced to date you so he could have you close to him?
"Why are you doing this to me?" You ask and he takes a step back startled with you tears, suddenly sobering up, "it's not easy for me to be away from you, you're my best friend, but I do have some bit of dignity left in me and I won't accept less than I deserve, even if that less is the man I love with me", you wipe your tears seeing him step closer, trying to reach your hand and you step away, "don't come close to me right now, I could never stay with you knowing you don't love me, you should know that"
You turn around trying to get away from him but stop on your tracks seeing Hannah, Seungmin, Chan and Changbin right there looking at you awkwardly. Of course, the humiliation is the cherry on the top. You pass through them feeling so embarrassed you want the earth to swallow you.
The ride home is awkward and silent. Hannah and Seungmin keep exchanging looks while you look out the window trying to figure how your life became this mess.
You really should have dated Jeongho when he asked you out in middle school, it was around that time that you realized you liked Han more than just a friendâwhen Haneul asked to be his date to the school festival and you wanted to punch her so hard. Maybe if you had dated that boy at that time you would have forgotten the feelings you had for your friend, maybe you would have brushed it off as some childhood crush, but no, you rejected Jeongho while Han went with Haneul to the school festival and you third wheeled the whole event earning nasty glances from her every time your best friend played two times the same game so he could win you a plush too.
Back then you still thought everything would be okay, if only you had him everything would be okay.
You start bawling without notice, crying so much you can't even breathe. Seungmin stops the car and Hannah gets to the back, hugging you and caressing your hair while whispering that everything will be fine and you really want to believe her.
You don't know how you got into Seungmin's apartment, you guess he carried you inside after dropping Hannah home but you're not sure. It's sunday so he's not up yet for you to ask and it doesn't actually matter, what matters is the absolutely pathetic scene you made at the party and in the car. You want to bury yourself into a hole and never come back, how the hell are you going to face your friends after they saw you being humiliated by Han like that?
You know he was drunk, of course he was. You know he didn't mean it, he was hurt and drunk and people act on feelings not reason when they are like that. But does he think you have no pride? Does he really think you would date him knowing he doesn't like you back?
It's different when you confessed to him, you knew he didn't like you that way. But if he told you that there was something there, that he was not going to promise you anything but someday he may like you back, that's all you needed to hear. However, that didn't happen. He told you with all the words that he doesn't like that way, that he doesn't feel the same way as you do, there was no room for interpretation, no room for what if's.
You get up, in need to distract yourself. This week is going to fly by, you have tutoring lessons using up all your free time so you just have to get through the day.
There are a lot of messages on your phone, you really don't want to read them because you know that other than Hannah's, it's awkward comforting words from your other friends.
Hannah: call me when you wake up
Hannah: let's go eat something delicious, what do you think? It's on me.
Hannah: are you still not up or are you ignoring me?
You: I just woke up, calm down girl
You: why would I ignore you though? I just have to brush my teeth and eat something then I'll call you.
Binnie: morning babes
Binnie: Hannie is such an asshole
Binnie: I'll date you if you want, you're hot it's a win win for me
You chuckle to Changbin texts, he's so sweet in the weirdest way.
You: I mean, you're hot too
You: I think we'd make an awesome couple
Chan: good morning, Y/N
Chan: we didn't hear anything last night, so please, don't be awkward or embarrassed around us.
You: good morning Channie, I know you heard
You: you should have matched your story with Changbin before texting me though
You: it's okay, alright? Of course I'll be embarrassed for the time being, but we're friends I won't be embarrassed forever.
You leave your phone on the couch and go to the bathroom. You look like shit, smeared makeup, hair disgusting and you're still wearing the same clothes. You turn on the hot water, taking your clothes off and entering the shower, the warmth embracing you as you feel more relaxed.
You put on something comfortable, it's Sunday, you're going to ask Hannah to come by and you're going to order takeout.
You call her number while eating because you know she's anxious.
"Hey babes, good morning", she picks up, cheerful as always.
"Good morning", you say, biting the toast you just made.
"So, what about going out and eating something really good?", she asks.
"Hm, I'm actually not in the mood to go out? Can't you come by, we order something and watch that movie you've been bugging me for the last month?"
"Yeah, sure. We can do that", she answers and you are happy she doesn't sound upset or disappointed. With all the shit you're pulling lately you're scared your friends are going to get tired of your bullshit and stop talking to you. You used to think no one wanted a friend that's always crying and whining, but they showed you that real friends help each other.
"So what time are you gonna come?"
"I will just take a shower and wait for the bus, so in maybe like an hour?", she guesses and you nod forgetting she can't see you.
"Okay, see you then"
You decide to clean the house while waiting, Seungmin is pretty organized and clean so there's nothing too difficult. You'll just wash the dishes and vacuum a little.
Hannah arrives later than she predicted, Seungmin is already up and cleaning his room. He scolded you because it's his day to do the dishes and you shouldn't have done it because it's not fair to you.
You think he's being extra nice to you because of what happened the night before and it's true, he was really scared when you cried in his car.
He has known you for almost five years and he never saw you cry like that, even on the night you came to his house after confessing to Han you didn't cry like that. This time was different, you had a soul crushing cry, he wanted to stop the car and go to the back to hug you the same as Hannah, but he knew you were already being comforted by the perfect person.
Han is his friend, he could never choose between you two. But he couldn't deny it, that was a dick move, how could he ever say that to someone that likes him? He basically told you that he could pretend to like you if you stayed with him.
And of course, Seungmin understands the fear of losing a friend, but doing what he did just increases the chances of you never wanting to see his face again.
You are seated on the couch, watching the movie Hannah is obsessed with at the moment. She already watched it five times alone and asks anyone she can find to watch it again with her, she even repeats some sentences together with the characters.
The pizza you ordered is almost gone, you didn't know you were so hungry until the smell hit your nose. Luckily or thanks to Seungmin and Heeseung, your hangover is not that bad and you want it to stay that way so you keep drinking lots of water.
You got through the day thanks to your friends, they kept you entertained the whole time so you wouldn't overthink or even think about Han.
You are doing that just now, looking at the ceiling in the dark room. You want it all to be a dream, maybe you would wake up tomorrow and still be in middle school, you'd take the opportunity and get over him at that time, that would have spared you of some big problems.
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A/N: So, I don't know how many parts this fic will have. If you like what I write please reblog or let me know in the comments, feedback give me motivation to keep writing.