"Can Mutuals DM You?" Moots Can Kick Me, Punch Me In The Throat, Spit On My Face, Saw Me In Half, Kiss

ever since i was a little girl i’ve been awkward and embarrassing

how is this man always in his prime?!?!?

imagine how hard the "mostly he just ignores you" line would go if they had delved a little deeper into aegon and helaena's relationship.

small moments when he reaches out to touch her cheek and she doesn't flinch, but he brings his hand back. unable to touch her.

him getting so drunk he can't see straight, to find his feet automatically making their way to her bed chambers. how he can only gain the courage to touch her, to kiss her, when he's wine drunk. he feels as if he's not pure enough, his mind, body and soul too tarnished to even deserve to touch his wife.

he whispers in between quiet sobs how sorry he is as he fucks so deeply into her. he catches glimpses of her moon-lit hair, the trickle of a tear going down her cheek. only he knows it's not her own, but his. her bitten lips, so soft against his. she makes not a sound as he visits her bed, laying there staring up at the ceiling. she looks past him, and how he wishes she could see him.

because he loves her, how he loves her. and he hates her. he hates himself.

I’m just a girl (rabbit)

Martin Buxbaum

There are two wolves inside me

Lestat's outfit for the night he met Louis's family always struck me as a bit off-character. Something about the bright emerald green necktie and ring struck me as symbolic... and out of the blue I realized why.

He is wearing a carnation. And the main color that pops is green. Lestat wore the American equivalent of Oscar Wilde's green carnation (which no florist would sell on the New World).

Now, whatever version of the tale you'd like to believe, it has always been widely accepted that Wilde used the green carnation as a visual symbol for "his people", a flower of an unnatural color embodying the "unnatural", meaning the queer crowd.

Now, before you think "but, was that common in Paris where Lestat lived?", the answer is yes. Here is a direct and quote on that:

"The claim is often made that the green carnation was fashionable among “inverts” (as gays were then called) in Paris, with Wilde having simply imported the fashion to London. In addition, early sexologists tell us that green is supposedly the “invert’s” favorite color."

Long story short, Lestat came to his in-laws's house carrying the equivalent of the rainbow flag of that time period.

(Also, let's not forget Lestat is an Oscar Wilde fanboy)