NO WAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY LIFE'S WORTH LIVING AGAIN

the realest shit

GOOD FUCKING MORNING😫😫😫😫

oh sweet xavier. getting the good ol’ steve harrington treatment. worst most hatable character ever to loveable pathetic loser in a matter of episodes

you’re in his dms i'm the succubus having astral sex with him in the ethereal realms of his dreams and devouring his soul while he sleeps

Only math I know

gossip girl (2011), S5E6 • “its you its you its all for you”

imagine how hard the "mostly he just ignores you" line would go if they had delved a little deeper into aegon and helaena's relationship.

small moments when he reaches out to touch her cheek and she doesn't flinch, but he brings his hand back. unable to touch her.

him getting so drunk he can't see straight, to find his feet automatically making their way to her bed chambers. how he can only gain the courage to touch her, to kiss her, when he's wine drunk. he feels as if he's not pure enough, his mind, body and soul too tarnished to even deserve to touch his wife.

he whispers in between quiet sobs how sorry he is as he fucks so deeply into her. he catches glimpses of her moon-lit hair, the trickle of a tear going down her cheek. only he knows it's not her own, but his. her bitten lips, so soft against his. she makes not a sound as he visits her bed, laying there staring up at the ceiling. she looks past him, and how he wishes she could see him.

because he loves her, how he loves her. and he hates her. he hates himself.

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, vertically, horizontally, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, in a chair, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, in the shower, on the street🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

“Darling, darling. I live in you, and you would die for me. I love you so.”

carmilla (stone) lithograph | prints here