@memeuplift

honestly I don't regret any fandom I've ever participated in. That includes Homestuck, for the record. Because every fandom I've been a part of has left me with experiences and friends I would've never encountered otherwise, and that I still carry with me.

Like. I'm old. I know this is an established fact but I really am OLD. But even fandoms I experienced 20 years ago stick with me and left me with memories and relationships I still think about and treasure to this day. Invader Zim fandom introduced me to my first boyfriend, and while I turned out gay as fuck, I still treasure the time we spent together as friends and otherwise because he was a super rad guy. I don't regret meeting him for even a second. We might have lost touch nowadays, but I hope he's doing well out there, and I still think back on the memories of us hanging out at the mall and going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory fondly.

shit I don't even really regret my time enjoying the shitty wizard books, because I was a literal child at the time and a very sheltered one-- I couldn't have possibly understood the issues with the books, and I don't blame myself for supporting someone I was incapable of understanding that I shouldn't support at the time. Of course, I've dropped that shit as an adult (and you should too), but I don't hold it against myself for having liked the series as a kid because I was literally just a kid and I was having fun. And I DID have fun and gained happy memories and positive experiences that stand out above the rough times that were about to happen a few years later. So of course, I in no way support or even like that series now, but I don't look back on my time enjoying it as a kid with any anger or shame at myself. I was a kid.

So anyway my point is: love is never wasted. Don't feel ashamed or embarrassed for having loved something.

emperor belos is literally one of the most characters ever. like. you don't get it. he's a 400 years old puritan. he is the most powerful witch that ever lived. he's a Creature. he thinks of himself as a savior of humanity. he killed 50 children. he possesed the body of God. he bit a person with his bare teeth. once he got hit by a car. his name is philip and he's from connecticut

TW- suicide

(sorta?)

While I was thinking about Stone bein an anomaly to Ivo I was thinking of like... a comic idea where Ivo just wants to fix that. He doesnt want to NOT understand.

A dumb GUN soldier shouldnt be a fuckin MYSTERY...

So Ivo like does a bunch of weird scans and tests on Stone (Stone annoying doesnt complain or question him, the blind trust is a lot for Ivo to process so he puts it in a folder and inserts it into another folder in his mind to try & forgot about the feelings) and then dismisses Stone and starts the REAL tests.

Using Stones tests he creates a simulated version of Stone to see what it will take to push Stone away finally because DAMN hes tried but Stone is ...SOLID. Ivo hates that Stones always there, that Stone knows what he wants and needs, that hes stuck around for YEARS despite Ivo abuses... He 'hates' it. But more importantly he doesnt UNDERSTAND.

He calls his program 'Sycophant Test: ONE' and just starts tormenting simulated Stone but no matter what he does Stone stays until he ends the simulation himself.

Ivo has to contend with the fact that either... A- his program is a complete fucking failure or B- Stone might actually genuinely care for him. Either option sounds IMPOSSIBLE & horrific to him.

So he gives it his all and simulates as much terrible shit that he could conceive himself doing to the bastard just to really finally figure out how to even chip Stones resolve... in the end he tells ST:1 to shoot him.

ST:1 has the free will that Stone does to refuse an order but also Stones personality to NOT want to disobey.

All Ivo learns is that hes more attached to Stone than hes willing to admit to even himself and that is just so cringe and human. He hates it. Hes also gone and done fucked himself up overestimating how much he can tolerate Stones pain... even if it wasnt the REAL Stone.

Im just posting the little doodles I made to remind myself of my idea... but then I realized a comic like this would be a whole lot of work so I dont wanna do it anymore.

So im just posting the idea.

(It wasnt intentional... but this DOES remind me of a BtAS episode now that I typed it all out. LMAO Oh well.)

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Haven't thought about hanahaki in a hot minute but consider for me if you will. Stobotnik.

Stone is the one who gets it and immediately sets about trying to make contingency plans for the Doctor for when he's gone. Setting up algorithms to take care of his inbox and scheduling appointments. Teaching the Badniks how to perfectly steam goats milk. Even going as far as holding interviews for potential replacements (and wow, does that go badly)

Confessing his love to the doctor doesn't even occur to him as a viable option.

Meanwhile Robotnik is very aware of what his sycophant is doing and he is Not happy about it. What, does he think he can just leave? He was HIS agent! He couldn't just give up on his duties to go and be in love with some mouth breather! When had he even found the time to develop such a disease - he didn't think Stone had a life outside of his work?

Him being the one Stone is in love with doesn't even occur to him as a viable option.

Eventually Robotnik confronts Stone, blowing up at him about abandoning his responsibilities for feeble human emotions and forbidding him from leaving. Stone tries to explain that he wasn't leaving by choice, but that he was dying and Robotnik cuts him off. He knew that! That wasn't an excuse! Whoever this... Person was, they weren't as important as the work they were doing here and he would just have to get the surgery. Honestly, letting this affect his work in this way was unprofessional-

Stone interrupted him with the roughest bout of coughing he'd had yet, causing Robotnik to actually falter and pause in his rant. It went on for an uncomfortable amount of time, Stone had turned to the side, leaning on the wall he'd pinned himself to, before weakly responding

"actually, doctor, the surgery would impact my work quite a bit..."

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