Not me rewatching Manlybadasshero's playthrough of the beta because he's a little too good at voice acting
fr tho why is everything smutšš i wanna read angst that would ruin me, make me sick to my stomach and cry like there's no tomorrow bro i want a fanfic that is so devastating that i won't be able to function for the next few months
cw: crack, fluff, insecure bakugou. izuku and shoto have unnamed female partners.
āAre you good?ā
Izuku doesnāt hear him the first time, and Katsuki makes a grunt of frustration before raising his voice again to repeat the question.
āWhat the hell is going on with you, Deku?ā
Izuku startles slightly at the question as he zips his duffel bag closed then turns to his friend/coworker. His left arm is still bent with his hand rubbing his flank, just as he has periodically for the past hour.Ā
āYeah?ā
āWhy are you acting like you have the spine of an eighty-year-old?ā Katsuki inquires, closing his own locker. Izuku gives him a look of confusion initially, then his eyebrows raise as he connects the dots.
āOh, yeah my back hurts a bit. The couch we have isnāt that comfortable.ā
āCouch?ā
Shoto looks up, still hunched over tying his shoelaces, also curious. Izuku notices his sudden interest and laughs, scratching the back of his head.
āWell, uh⦠___ had a dream that I was cheating and-ā
Bakugou grimaces and cuts in. āSo you slept on the couch?ā
Izukuās embarrassed laughter worsens. āWell itās easier to just do that than to explain to her that she doesnāt have premonitionā¦ā
Katsuki sighs and rolls his eyes, not intending to inquire further about his friendās girlfriendās insane behavior, but Shoto suddenly snorts as he stands up. Surprised, the other two glance at him.Ā
āAnd why are you laughing?ā Katsuki is the first to ask.Ā
Shoto slings his far-too-expensive gym bag over his shoulder, smiling.Ā
āBecause for once I actually get this sentiment.ā
Katsuki raises his eyebrows.Ā āWhat do you mean you get it?ā
As Shoto leads the way out of the agency locker room, Shoto explains that the last time he slept on the couch had a similar tone -Ā
āApparently thereās a wrong way to answerĀ āwould you love me if i were a wormā?ā
Izuku frowns.
āYeah, you should have dodged that..ā
āI mean, she did curl up next to me afterwards to sleep so it was okay⦠eventually⦠after a lot of tears.ā
Shoto and Izuku laugh while Katsuki follows along, suddenly realizing heās the only one who might be left out of the experience of having an insane partner. The elevator down to the garage opens, and the three step out with Katsuki still lost in thought.Ā
āWait, they both act like this?ā he asks.Ā
Izuku and Shoto exchange a look then shrug.
āI guess love makes you a little ridiculous,ā Izuku offers. Shoto grins in agreement and suddenly Katsuki has the sudden feeling that heās losing.
ā
When Katsuki shows up to your apartment an hour, you can practically feel the tension in the air, emanating from the deep frown on his face.
You raise an eyebrow at him as he makes eye contact with you, wondering what the problem is this time. Itās not that heās never been prickly coming home, but usually he softens when you greet him; this time however, you welcome him home and he gives you a less than enthusiastic response before dropping off his keys on the counter and running to the bathroom.
You give him 2 minutes to do his business and flush, then when he comes out decide to deal with his pouting gently.
āWhatās the problem, baby?ā Thereās a tiny bit of playfulness in the way you reach for his cheeks and pat them, and he leans into your touch, even if heās grumpy. Placing his hands on yours, he asks, completely seriously,Ā
āDonāt you have something silly to ask me?ā
Your hands drop from his face slowly and you tilt your head to the side, slow-blinking.Ā
āWhat?ā
He takes your hands and replaces them back on his cheeks, an action that almost brings you to laughter but you opt instead to remain serious.
āDonāt you wanna ask me if Iād marry you in every lifetime or something?ā
You watch him stunned then laugh.
āWhat is this about?āĀ
He pouts.
āDo you even get jealous over me?ā
The two of you watch each other in silence as you take this in, and then you burst into laughter for real, unable to hold it in.
āKatsuki-ā you start between giggles,Ā ā- whatās this about?ā
āYouāre not crazy enough about me,ā he finally admits, then his hands lower for his arms to wrap around your waist, pressing you flush to him.
You give him a sly look.
āSo youāre giving me permission to be crazy?ā you ask. A finger is pressed to his chest and you draw circles on it. As you look up at him furtively, your teeth now biting your lower lip in mischief, he wonders if heās making a mistake.Ā
And yet he takes your fingers in his hands and kisses them.
āYes.ā
You giggle and pull back, putting your hands on your hips.
āHave you considered that you might be the crazy one?ā you tease.
And that goes over fine at the moment when he hugs you and kisses you and decides to move on to dinner, but itās an idea that suddenly plagues him in the middle of the night.Ā
Donāt say it, donāt say it, donāt say itā¦
He turns over to you in bed and nudges you. Your eyes creak open and he looks positively distressed, as he asks:
āWould you still love me if I were a worm?ā
Masterlist if you want to read my others things. Part 1 here.
CW/TW: yandere-manipulative-obsessive-stalker-ethan, fem reader, smut, no p in v, depressed reader(but really), suicidal thoughts
i'm trying to post this quick because I crave attention, whatever its insults, compliments, likes or repost, idc. I want ppl to know i'm existing. i have a big oral test tomorrow and im really bad at speaking before someone (hence why im writing instead) so i just need to know im not totally useless in the society and that im, at the very least, making people enjoy my things. sorry for the rant, i have a big headhache, probably gonna die āļøš
the smut is really bad btw but like really but im bad at writing them but i need to to improve (26/06/2023) (5226 words)
"Let's just finish watching the movie now." you say and Ethan doesn't make you repeat as he goes straight to the couch.
You felt much better after that little talk. Ethan did not say much but in his words, there was a lot more. He was planning to be with you a long time. He does not want to ruin things. It made you so happy. Every fiber in you was warm thinking of it. You were at peace.
Ethan was calm after that, albeit moving uncomfortably sometimes. (maybe because of his boner?) He was just as cuddly as when you arrived. His head laid flat on your chest, rising up and down with each one of your breath. Your fingers brush his curl slowly as you hear his breathing slacken. You were giddy thinking about him being at peace with you, too.
His arms were closed tightly around your body, never letting you go. The movie was really advanced by now, the end was coming soon. It probably was something towards 11AM. Usually, you would have gone knock at your friend's house but there was no need now as you already saw her earlier.
When the movie fatefully ended, the credits start to roll but none of you moved an inch. Ethan rubs his cheeks against your chest before sighing happily. His eyes were closed. Was he asleep ? No, certainly not. He loves horror movie. He wouldn't fall asleep when one is ongoing.
He was cute here. You were delighted to think he trusted you enough to let his guards down and sleep with you. You were his safeplace. And he was yours. Your fingers trail down on his back where you draw small patterns dreamily. You write things, that cross your mind. You simply scratch him. His sudden speaking startle you. Your hand stopping evey movements.
"Are you sleeping far from here, today ? Every movements of his jaw hitting slightly on your chest. 'today' because he knew about your frequent change of home.
Relaxing, you continue to caress his back lovingly.
-No, not really. But I don't sleep there anymore.
The hotel too was starting to worry you. Like the building was shrieking on you. You don't know what was scarier, to be alone or to never be. And now that you found such a warm place, you don't want to leave. Ever.
-Why ?
-Scare me, s'all.
-You can sleep here tonight, if you want.
-Why ? Your decision was already made; you'd sleep here. You knew it the second he offered you to stay the night. But you wanted to see his arguments to convince you.
"Let me be with you." his sentence made a shiver run down your back.
Did that stalker fucked you up so hard you had chill even thinking about them? It was just a damn sentence. Everyone can say it. For god's sake, it's Ethan saying it of all people. Even if he awoke this uneasy feeling back, you couldn't blame him. He didn't know about the sign the criminal had shown you. You didn't tell him that much detail, only saying they had indeed brought creepy signs but omitting what was written on it. And Ethan said it so prettily, too. Yes, of course you'd be with him.
He told you you never slept here before and that you'd be safe anyway since he's here and don't plan on leaving you. So you accepted. It was really early in the day but the both of you were getting sleepy because of the calm and comfort of the situation. He offered you to go to his room which you accepted. After guiding you to there, he tells you he has to go grab something and that he'd be back really quick.
And he did, in fact, came back really quick.
By then, you were already sprawled out on his bed. You had time to see the mess he had scattered everywhere. The carboard, the books, the drawings, some letters, too. And you even found out about his second phone. The lockscreen was a generic one, the one you have by default, as if he just got it recently. But the phone wasn't new, it seems in contrary really old as it was broken at some area.
Ethan arrives in the room with a small plastic blue square packaging, you don't have time to see what it was that he throws it under the bed. You don't pay it too much attention. Playing mindlessly with his other phone in hand, you take off and put back the phone case of it to entertain yourself.
"You got two phones ? you ask even though you kind of knew the answer already.
-Oh, yes. One is for games only, the other is the one I'm really using. Did you went on it ?
-No, don't worry, I won't frisk into your secret criminal life."
He smiles before taking the phone out of your hand. He places it in the drawer of his nightstand. Ethan falls on top of you, taking your breath away for a moment. You laugh and hit his back for him to get away from you and he just laugh heartly before letting himself fall beside you.
He lays down, setting his head on his arm, looking up at you with stars in eyes. Sometimes, he's so pretty it hurt physically to look at him. Starting to get embarrassed by his insistent look, you find something to say.
-Why do you have so much pieces of cardboard anyway ?
-I make placards out of them.
With a fond smile, Ethan stares straight at your eyes. As if waiting for you to say something. You would have ask questions about his 'placards ' if not for the sudden interest he was displaying in you, which, instead, made you change subject without really noticing it. A nervous laugh escaping you.
-Why are you looking at me like that ? Is there an undertone ? Am I supposed to understand something ?"
He shakes his head negatively, displaying a small mischievous smile. He could be such a goblin at times ! Wanting to make him swallow his pride, you lean towards him and kiss his lips. Ethan smiles and moves his lips with yours.
Your arm set down on his waist and soon the kiss get heated. Ethan's body is burning, his breath is too. You don't let each other breath, as soon as you separate from each other, you plunge back in. Physically needing the contact.
You rise on your knee, arching your back to kiss him still laying flat on the bed. Soon, he joins you by rising as well. Both of you on your knees, face to face, eating each other's face. Ethan's hand are mahandling you to sit on his thights. Then, with his surprising strenght, he starts sliding you on them. Your heating pussy rubbing directly on the fabric of his pant. Your hand instinctivly goes to rub the growing tent in his trousers. The area was hot, when you slide your fingers on it, it would budge.
Ethan whimpers, thrusting his hips against yours. You straddle him completly, framing his his body with your legs. You rub his tent against your clit for some frictions. It was aching and growing more desperate by seconds.
"I... I wanna have sex with you." Ethan says softly.
You kiss his cheek, going for his neck. You answer with a meek 'me too' before sucking the skin of his neck. Ethan backs his head, already out of breath. He gives you full access to his body, still rutting desperatly his hips into yours.
But you were growing impatient. You lift your body from him, making him whine at the contact loss, before sliding your fingers behind the elastic of his pants. You slip it down to his knees before you start salivating at the sight of his hard cock already drooling for you.
He didn't have any underwear. That's why you could feel him so close to your core.
Your hand touch his thight, caressing gently his body. Making sure to avoid the area he need you the most. Ethan try to touch himself, tired of your teasing, but you slap his hand away. He whines and looks up at you with teary eyes. Silently begging you to do something. It was impossible for you to resist him.
Your hand grabs his cock in one motion, you could feel it pulse and its warmth propagate in your hand. It was already so so wet because of all his precum, your hand was sliding so easily you could have thought he came multiple times already. Gently, you start to move your hand on all its lenght slowly. The boy props himself on his elbows and look at the scene before him. Ethan sighs happily, eyes closing and head backing. He's in heaven, he thinks. But not entirely, as he looks at you still clothed.
"Want to... Want to finger you..." he pleas.
In front of a boy so desperate, and being incredibly horny, you slide your pant down, making sure your underwear went with it. Ethan lose every one of his braincells when he sees your bare pussy glistening with your love juice. He wanted to lick it bad. That's the only one fanstam he ever had that help him getting off so hard he can't move for a whole minute. He wants to drown himself in your juice. But you have others projects.
You guide his pointer finger to your lips. Ethan starts caressing it and smear your juice everywhere. His lift up another finger and start passing both of them on your lips.
"Here, you have to touch here." you say, pointing to your clit.
You move briefly to bring your genitals closer. You could feel each other's warmth emanating from your core. Seeing him try to touch you was so hot. He was listening to everything you said.
Soon getting the hang of it, he starts circling your clit, applying different pressure on it to see which one were you reacting the most to. Slowly, you quicken your pace on his hard cock. As if to reward him for being such a good boy. He was in a trance, eyes closing and opening. And when they opened, they were staring with a utmost care at your moving breast throught your shirt. Your nipples were hard and were poking through the fabric.
His eyes were glued to it. Understanding his want, you lift your shirt above your collarbone with your free hand. Ethan can't seem to take off his eyes of you. They're probably the first pair of breasts he sees in real life after all.
"Fuck... You're so pretty, love." you speed up on his shaft at his praise. "Fuck, fuck...
-You can touch baby.
-I can?"
He stops all movements to your pussy, your frown but let him discover his needs. It was his first time, you needed to let him have a little fun. His free hand touch one of your breast, massaging it then weighten it in the palm of his hand. He smiles like an idiot, an idiot so cute you let him do what he wants with you. His other, wet, hand pinch lightly your sensitive bud.
Your free hand slap his arm to make him understand he did it too hard. He sends you an apologatic smile.
"They're like stress ball."
Amused by the weird comparison, your chuckle. Still impatient to come, you guide your hand higher on his cock to caress his tip and rub it. His face contorts in pleasure, browns frows and mouth ajar. His forehead fall on your shoulder while his fingers go back down near your entrance. His hips were thrusting into nothing but your hand. Obscene wet noises were resulted. You were hot, terrribly hot but so was he.
Ethan's small puff of breath sends chill in your body. His whimpers couldn't be replaced with anyone else. Your hand was all wet and sticky, as was his. Ethan decides to enter once again two of his digits in you. Your head falls back and you sigh happily at finally scratching that itch in you.
"Curl your fingers, E." you whisper.
He hums and do as told. Curling his fingers in you, he starts to thrust them in and out at a slow pace, adopting the same sensuality you used to jerk him off. You accelerate, your hand no longer lingering on the entire shaft. Sometimes, you'd stop completly to hear him whine. Your thumb caressing his cock's veins.
"Baby please..." he pleas.
Ethan starts kissing sloppily your shoulder, your neck. You, on the other hand, take his hand to guide the thrust of his fingers, angling them correctly for them to touch that spongy spot inside. His fingers were long and thin, that was a part of him you absolutly loved. You always had a thing for pretty hands and his were beautiful.
"What do you want, love? you ask tenderly.
-Tell me you love me..."
You nudge his hair with your nose and he looks up. Staring at his eyes, you see them wet with tears. You kiss him instantly. Playing with his tongue with yours, your hand moving faster and faster. You stop the kiss to tell him you love him and he bites his lips, eyes closing.
His breath is jerky, uneven. You press his palm against your clit, rubbing it while you push his fingers inside you again. You feel a knot tighten. You won't last long.
"Tell me you love me.
-I love you E, you're doing so good.
-Again..."
You said it as many times as he needed to feel better. His hips stuttters, his cock quivers. His words are slurred to each other, resulting in incomprehensible blabbering. You don't lose the rythm, keeping the same pace until he'd eventually come.
-Love you so..." he whines.
His body tense, his breath stops. You can only hear the wet sounds your hand is producing. He doesn't utter a sound until spurts of cum smear on your hand and belly. Feeling at ease, he moans a last time from relief and breath again.
You're not far behind. Ethan being pratically knocked out, you grind on his hand. You close your thighs around it, ensuring it stay inside. Your legs are shaking, wave of hot and cold invade you. You plunge his fingers inside but, to your surprise, Ethan regains control and start pounding into you to get you to your end.
He kisses your neck while you finally come on his fingers, sweaty and disvesheled. You swear one last time when he withdraws his fingers. You stay here for a while, just hugging , breathing and basking in each other's presence.
After some minutes, you decide to go shower together. You end up finally getting a good night of sleep, cuddled in his strong arms.
The next day, Ethan and you had a stupid satisfied smile on your face. Both happy to be here. You kissed and confessed your love to each other all morning until eventually he had to leave for work. Sadly, you had things to do, too. Ethan offered you to stay and sleep here for a few nights because he wanted to stay close to you.
You liked this idea. Of course you liked it, you love Ethan. And to convince you further, he told you his roomate wouldn't mind. So naturally you accepted. You were embarassed at the idea of bothering his roomate but you decided you would just sleep here, and the day, you'd let the apartment free. It was his too, after all. Not only Ethan's. There is no way you'd let someone feel excluded in their own house.
Grabbing your phone, you click on your friend's number. You call her, the ringing echoes three times and no one answer. Somehow begrudgingly, you resume yourself at simply sending a text. Just for you to instantly forgetting your sorrow as she answers. The discussion was quite simple, she was telling you she was at her grandma right now. She was bored and wanted to know how you were doing.
'I'm going back to my dear haunted apartment, probably gonna die. Wish me luck.' you texted. She put a little more time answering this one. It's possible it triggered something in her. After everything she endured. 'nobody will hurt you as long as i'm alive' she said. She simply changed subjects after that. Asking you about the cute guy you told her about in the letters. And so you explained everything. Every time you tried to offer to call her, she'd decline. You were still sad she didn't want to talk to you but you were telling yourself you needed to be patient.
On a happier note, you decided to leave the place to go to your own apartment.
To one point, you should have known better than be too happy about your improving situation. Of course, it was well too soon for you to consider everything better. But you were probably stupid because the fall hit you much harder than you could've prepared yourself for. Oh, the pain you felt when reality had finally caught you. You thought you were going to die when you came back home to simply grab some clothes. (Ethan told you to do so.)
Your door was ajar. But it wasn't your doing. No, of course it wasn't you. Your apartement terrified you, why would you come here more ofthen than needed ? You felt your body freeze but you quickly overcame the feeling. That's it. You needed it to end. This fucking stalker had ruined you. You and your life. You sent a text to Ethan, telling him that if you do not call him after twenty minutes, he needed to call the cops. He didn't answer. He was at work. It was well past eleven by now.
Your heart was beating so hard you thought it was going to collapse on the ground, and you with it. Slowly, aware of every sound around you, you push the door. Your livingroom was as messy as you had left it. At one difference, the wall. Every frame you had put up on the walls were thrown away. Most of them on the ground and broken, with shattered glasses everywhere.
Why would the creep empty the walls ? To write on it. Of course they would write on it. You laugh bitterly for yourself. You couldn't see their stupids fucking signs anymore, so they had to improve. To force you to read their creepy obsessive text. You hear the crushing of a broken piece of glass, as if someone had stepped on it. But it wasn't you.
You're on alert. Every one of your senses on crisis. Was your mind playing tricks on you ? It was possible in this hellish house who did nothing but give you nightmares recently. You don't realize how you stopped breathing. Only calming when three long minutes had gone without another sound to be heard.
Nothing is here. You're alone, you think. Everything is good. You'll just grab your stuff and leave. Regaining your breath, you bring your attention back on the wall. Words were written on it in deep crimson red. Is that blood ? No, it can't be. Probably paint to give a creepy look that'll catch your attention. You approach the wall to better understand the message.
'She's not here anymore'
The need to throw up almost won. A dark feeling in your guts was telling you 'she' was your friend. But you didn't know. She responded to you, after all. You talked to her. So she had to be okay. She had to. You put your hand on your belly to soothe that want to vomit. You take big breath before finally leaving the livingroom. You quickly make your way to your room where you meet your bare bed. Where are your sheets ? What the hell ? But you don't want to stay longer so you throw clothes in your bag in a hurry.
The front door slam shut. And you know it's the end.
You already feel the tears drowning your sight. Trying to stay silent, you hide in your closet almost empty with how many times you came here to grab clothes. Your hand clasp against your mouth to avoid doing any noise.
Slow footsteps can be heard in the empty apartment. With your shaky hands, you fail to unlock your phone. Your vision is blurry, you can't touch the correct keys. The worst is that you can't see where the creep is. If they stay silent, they can enter the room you're in without you even noticing. And this idea is horrifying. But on another side, you'd preferred them to kill you by surprise so you don't have to affront them.
Your cries intensify, in your despair, you drop your phone straight on the ground. The footsteps stops abrutly. Three distincts knocks are echoing on the corridor's wall. They are coming toward you. You're fucked. They're coming ! What do you do ? What did you do ? Why is this happening ?
Kneeling like you could in the closed space, you reach your hand to grab your phone. As soon as your finger grazes it, the phone vibrate and your ringtone start playing for the whole building to hear. No, no, no, no, no ! Ethan. Ethan is calling you. You pick up despite everything but as soon as you do so, the call is cut short. Fuck E, why would you do that !
The criminal's footsteps are louder, quicker, heavier. They're running. They're running here ! You hold the closet door shut with your both hands, praying for your life. You only have knives in your kitchen, but it's too late now. If you go out, they'll see you. You realized at that moment that whatever you were doing, you couldn't win. That you never even stood a chance against them.
Everything was illusion.
Nothing was improving, you knew it, in fact. You were lying to yourself, searching comfort in a man that don't even understand the dept of the problem. Of your problem. And your friend ? You don't want to talk about her. You don't want to open your eyes just yet. You just want to live in your nice little lies you made up for yourself. You're nice with them, in fact, you like them. Nobody wanted to help you anyway. They could have saved you, you and her, but nobody listened.
Now, it's too late.
The closet start to shake. Widening your eyes, you realize that the creep had start to punch it with their bare fist. You don't give a fuck about being heard anymore, you're bailing your eyes out. Begging for them to let you go, screaming, yelling, calling for help. Holding the door for dear life as if it was going to save you, because in your head it was. But the door didn't last long.
A hole is quickly created in the door. You thought you'd see someone's face, wether it be a man, a woman, whatever. But you saw a white plastic mask instead.
Ghostface.
Why was a damn Ghostface chasing after you? Was it all a sick joke from the start ? You swear you were seeing his eyes boring into yours through the mask. You swore you already saw them somewhere. Ghostface tilts their face to the side, as if mocking you. They were telling you that you were stuck, that it was the end. You hoped they'd kill you.
You couldn't live like this anymore.
In the hole of the closet, Ghostface pass his gloved hand. The latter lay on your shaky face, on your cheek to be exact. You feel the fabric against your skin and think of biting his fingers off. No, you'll angry him. If he's going to kill you, that it be in the least painful way.
"Ethan, right ? Does he treat you so well you forgot about me?" his changed voice said. A weird and creepy robotic voice, one you knew you'd never forget.
You were moving your head left to right. You didn't know why. Probably to tell you didn't want to die, probably to avoid looking into his eyes. He laughs, sounding like a rumbling.
"Ending things right now would be such a waste."
No ! You thought you were finally free ! Why would he chases you down for so long without acting on it !? His gloved hand retract and the door slowly open in an acute creaking. The man is finally revealed before you. He was wearing the whole outfit, the big black robe and the hood.
"It was fun. I give you a gift to reward you for these beautiful screams."
And the knife.
He had a knife in hand. And it was tinged red. Something in you told you it was her. Suddenly, the red writings on your wall had a different meaning.
"I hope you like it, I worked extra hard for it."
Out of nowhere, Ghostface takes your hand, force it open, and lay in it something before forcing it closed. He laughs deeply. One of his hand pat your head mockingly before moving up.
"See you later." he said, swinging his knife in a playful manner.
You were absolutely paralyzed. You didn't know what happened. You stayed up without moving for whoever say how long. When your legs finally stopped shaking, you decided to look what the killer had gave you. Slowly opening your hand, your knee buckle and you fall to the ground crying silently at the sight of a nip of your friend's hair.
You curled up on yourself before completly laying down on the ground, tightening the hairs in your hand close to your heart. She was not here anymore. You wanted to fucking die.
Ever since, Ethan was forgotten. He had tried to call you so many times you had blocked his number. You spent the rest of the day crying in your hotel's room. You resented him. So hard. He didn't answer, he was the one calling and giving your position to a fucking criminal, to a murderer! And he didn't answer. He didn't help, like everyone else.
One day later, neighbors complained about a smell coming from an apartment. You didn't cry when they found your friend's dead body. You didn't cry when cops came to interrogate you. The caretaker having told them about you. Your eyes contained so much hatred in them when looking at him the cops had to let him leave to get him away from you. You didn't cry telling the cops how many times you went to see them to ask for help, nor how many times did they reject you. You didn't cry when they told you she was dead for at least a week, and that her boyfriend was missing. You had no tears left in you. It had simply ended you.
All your lies, every single one of them, destroyed. But you needed them. Of course you weren't talking to her by text, you never did. And fuck, you don't even want to know who was answering instead of her. It was so obvious how she never wanted to call, how she was never leaving her house. But the eye you saw at the peephole. The fucking eye...
You don't want to think about it.
Ethan tried to talk to you. He went to your hotel and found you. You didn't bother to move this time as you were done with your life. He fell to his knee and started begging and crying for your forgivness. Did you even love him ? Or were you, are you, just lonely ? Unfortunately, you decided to forgot the anger you had against him when you realized he was the only thing you had. Your only support. The only one knowing you were a victim. You spent the days crying in his arms.
"Shhh, shhh, I'm here, love. It's okay." he reassured you, again.
It was a routine, now. You'd sleep the days away and when you'd wake up, you'd find yourself crying inconsolably. Everything was your fault, you kept repeating in your head. She's fucking dead because of you.
You wanted to end it all but Ethan wanted you alive at every cost. He was brushing your hair, feeding, washing and changing you. You were a lifeless doll. Sometimes, his roomate would come and talk to you. Most of the times, you don't even realize he's talking to you, too lost in your thought to proceed his presence.
"It's okay, everything's okay."
Ethan hugs you firmly. Kissing your hairline. His t-shirt was damped. Your eyes were burning. Every time you closed them, the picture of your friend would come and haunt you, a new nightmare coming. You weren't able to think about something else anymore. But it was your fault. You put her in danger, you got her killed. It was you Ghostface wanted, not her. You got her killed.
"I want to leave..." you whispered in a voice so hoarse, so weak, it didn't sound like yours. His hand goes on the back of your head to pull you towards him.
"No, no my love. It's okay. I'll protect you. You won't be alone anymore." his leg goes over yours and crushes them to prevents you from moving.
Alone.
Have you ever been alone in your life ? No, he was here all along. He was watching you all along. You never were truly alone. He had your adress, your friend's adress, your number and even Ethan's name. No, he's always here. Lurking.
"Just... Stay with me, I'll protect you. Please, don't leave me." he begs.
He looked calm, surprisingly calm being given the situation. But you needed it, in a way. If he doesn't freak out, you don't need to. (you coudn't, even if you wanted to) He probably know what to do. It was too late for you but he could do something. Maybe. His behaviour was slightly comforting. It was dangerous, mostly for him. He probably didn't even know what he was doing, he probably didn't know what he was getting himself into, in fact.
But once, just for once, you wanted to be helped. You wanted someone to listen to your pleas. He was going to die, it was a fact. And yeah, maybe you were selfish, you were condamning him after all.
"I feel like I'm using you. Like I manipulated you. you say, mostly for your own conscience than for his safety.
-Use me, love. I don't care. Manipulate me, whatever. I swore I'd help you. And if I have to risk my life doing it, I'll do it. I love you. You don't know the things I'd do for you.
-Now, you're the one manipulating me...
It was true. He was forcing you to think you had a chance in getting out of this situation when you knew there were none.
-Oh baby, you have no idea how manipulative I can be to obtain what I want.
-If you say so." you whisper, drifting to sleep once again, knowing you'd wake up hours later in the same position, in the same problem and knowing you killed your friend.
i want him.
the hat rule (n.): you wear the hat, you ride the cowboy.
summary: when eddie dresses up as a cowboy to a night out with friends, you decide to steal his hat.
pairings: eddie munson x fem!reader
warnings: reader is described to be wearing a dress. reader is also dressed up as a black cat. premise is everyone is wearing 'slutty' costumes. overuse of pet names. public teasing, unprotected sex, choking kink, oral (f receiving), ass slapping. 18+.
wc: 13.3k+
happy early valentine's day, babes. shout out to @hellfire--cult for beta reading, as well as @andvys for giving me this idea to begin with.
If someone had told you last week that youād be attending a slutty costume themed night at a club tonight, you would have laughed in their face.
And yet here you were, at Steve Harringtonās apartment, donned in a black cat costume that shows more skin than you have in years.
The elaborate plan had sparked on a random day after Steve encountered a flyer for the event. It was a nightclub your group had attended before, and one look at the line free drinks for participants had Steve running down your entire group to insist that you all needed to dress up, to participate in this, for the luxury of free Titoās.Ā
Heād never considered that the ad might not be targeted towards the male population. And now, you were all gathering at his apartment to pregame, āslutted outā as Robin had so kindly put it ā men included.
Nancy pulled out some sort of angel costume she claims she had bought but certainly not worn a few years back, Robin had conglomerated an alluring pirate attire from items you hadnāt even been aware were in her closet. Jonathan arrived in his erotic yet pensive writerās costume (youād hardly understood it, but he seemed confident, so you all went with it), Argyle in tow donning some sort of seductive surfer costume, in which you certainly recognized the unbuttoned shirt and cargo shorts that had had a pocket knife taken to them to disregard a few inches. Steve even stuck to his own demands, going all out ā a sensual bunny costume.
And then, there was Eddie.
Eddie fuckinā Munson.Ā
āPick your jaw up off the ground, sweetheart,ā he teases as he shuffles around you in the kitchen to grab a drink, āGonna start catching flies otherwise.āĀ
āThereās a joke in there somewhere about how sweet I am, right?ā you blandly reply, keeping your eyes on your room temp cocktail that Steve had so graciously mixed for you upon your arrival, āSomething where you call me honey or sugar, yeah?āĀ
Eddie pauses, bottle of vodka in hand, looking at you with big eyes lined in coal, āOh, baby, you know me so well.āĀ
āCut the pet names, Munson.ā
You try to scowl. You really do. But you donāt mean a damn word you say.Ā
Sweetheart. Baby. Hell, even honey would have done it for you when he was wearing that costume.Ā
Tight leather pants, flared at the ankle. Worn leather boots that certainly had to have been thrifted, clicking with each of his steps. A cow print vest, and just a vest, over what looked to be an oiled chest.Ā
And that fucking hat smashing down his curls, adding a shadow across his face that only built into the illusion.Ā
You hate him. You hate this stupid party. You hate Steve for ever suggesting this.Ā
āYou donāt mean that,ā he sing-songs as he pours his own drink into a red solo cup. The vodka mixes with cranberry juice, you think, before heās dropping a few ice cubes out of the freezer. āOr maybe you do, and I should try saying them with a southern drawl,ā Fuck, he does a good southern accent. Slow and syrupy sweet, molasses down the throat as he flutters his lashes at you, āThat better, darlinā?āĀ
You pluck the thin black straw that had been added to your cup for flare, probably stolen from a hotel at some point by Steve and positively meant for drinks of the coffee variety, and flick it in his direction without hesitation.Ā
āTerrible,ā you flatly lie, āCowboys arenāt even from the south, idiot. Theyāre from the West.āĀ
You have no desire to hear Eddieās Western accent. No desire to hear Texan twang on those lips, putting on his best John Wayne impression. In fact, the faster you can get away from him, the quicker you can get yourself under control.Ā
It had always been this way between you and Eddie. Push and pull. Will they, wonāt they. A game of cosmic shores as the two of you toed at each otherās orbits and bantered effortlessly. Flirtatious threats, inappropriate compliments, lewd innuendos ā you had done it all, specifically with Eddie.
Thatās just how the friendship worked.Ā
The friendship.Ā
Friend. Nothing more, nothing less.Ā
Eddie wonāt leave you alone, though, choosing to lean up against the counter beside you, forcing his way into your peripherals, āDamn. Youāre right. Wayne would kill me if he knew I mixed that up.āĀ
āOh, I think he has plenty of reasons to knock some sense into you.āĀ
āYeah?ā he leans forward, tauntingly, a smirk playing at the corners of his mouth, āWhy donāt you do it for him? I think Iād like a slap more coming from you, honestly.ā
Heās acting like he always does. This is normal. The fact that his entire torso is on show and you canāt stop staring at the way his tattoo on his peck is shimmering doesnāt change that.Ā
You play the role, knowing your part well as you lean in as well, forcing a smile right back at him, āWanna kiss my knuckles before I do it, or am I gonna have to do all the hard work here?āĀ
āOh, trust me, youād never have to do all the work with me, ba-ā
āCan you two get a fucking room?ā Robin interrupts as she enters the room, clearly coming in for a refill but getting more than she bargained for.Ā
Youāre aflame with the shame and embarrassment, feeling it lick from your ankles up to your throat, as Eddie only chuckles lowly.Ā
āSorry, Robs,ā Eddie chirps, not sounding apologetic at all, āI promise Iāll behave myself the rest of the night.āĀ
And yet, despite the words youāre hearing him say out loud, he does the exact opposite.Ā
Thereās no real need for him to do it. Thereās plenty of space amongst the kitchen for him to maneuver his way out without laying a single hand on you ā and yet he still fucking does.Ā
His palm is shockingly warm when it curls around your hip, his other hand occupied with a drink, encouraging you to move a step forward so that he can brush behind you far too close for comfort. You nearly stumble over himself as he does it. The feeling of his barren chest barely bumping your bare shoulder blades sends your mind reeling, and his staple rings that have incorporated into his costume press right through the thin fabric of your dress.
Your breathing stops entirely as he pauses, the slightest bit of skin still brushing against yours, and leans in with a boyish grin, āWeāll both be on our best behavior tonight ā right, kitty?āĀ
Something clicks in your mind. The way the nickname rolls off his tongue as heās looking at you with eyes flaming with mischief, hand lingering on your hip for far too long.Ā
Your eyes flicker up to the hat on his head, and you smile slowly, meeting his toying gaze, āRight, cowboy.ā
Best behavior, your ass. Tonight, you have decided, ends the will they, wonāt they of it all.Ā
Itās about to either be the best night of your life, or the worst.Ā
ā
Another shot with Nancy. Another smoke with Argyle. Another adjusting of Steveās corset when he complains he canāt breathe (he certainly can, but youāre starting to think he just likes the attention). The pregaming continues on as more of Steveās friends from work show up, the apartment slowly beginning to buzz with the chatter of more strangers than you can count on one hand.
Youāre not even at the club yet and youāre already regretting your revealing attire.
Eddie stays mostly preoccupied with his own devices, and only gets scolded a handful of times by Nancy. You can hear every lewd joke he makes, of course. At some point, you make a private drinking game out of it; a sip for every time he makes the stereotypical joke of āsave a horse, ride a cowboyā.Ā
Well, it was a sip the first time. A slightly larger gulp the second time. A chugging of half your drink the third time.Ā
āThereās no fucking way,ā Steve laments at the table the boys as well as a few guests you donāt recognize have taken over for a game of strip poker, āJonathan is cheating. Or counting cards.ā
āI concur,ā Eddie mutters around his cigarette, scowling at his losing hand.Ā
āYouāre also cheating, asshole. This is the first round youāve lost the entire game.ā
āOr maybe Iām just really good at cards, Harrington.āĀ
āOh, yeah? Well, maybe Iām really good at-ā
āHeās not cheating,ā Nancy interrupts with a sigh from the couch, lounging as sheās served as a referee of sorts for the group. Her entire body weight is draped against Robin, and youāre certainly not going to comment on Robinās hands toying with her permed locks, āStop being a sore loser and just strip.āĀ
You get why Steve was the most upset. He was down to his underwear and socks, corset tossed somewhere far behind him and bunny ears placed on Robinās head in place of her pirate hat that she had claimed became too warm.Ā
āI think Steve should trade both socks and put back on the bunny ears,ā she quips as she reaches up for the headband, flicking at one of the floppy ears, āHeād look cuter that way.āĀ
āFuck off,ā he snaps, throwing up a middle finger as Argyle finally loses his shirt.Ā
When your attention has drifted, you know he did exactly that, though.Ā
The game had been boring you half to death, honestly. Watching Steve strip without fail every round, hearing the loud cheers from Argyle when he managed to win a few rounds in a row and exclaimed it was a turkey (it had taken a ten minute intermission to explain to him that was bowling, not poker), watching a few of the girls that Steve had invited fawn over him as they carefully removed boots and gloves when they lost ā none of it sparked your interest. The only saving grace had been every smug look Eddie offered as heād win, time and time again. So far, heād only lost his boots.Ā
He was hot when he was cocky. There was no way around it.
And now, as he carefully pondered as to which part of his precious costume to part with, you were on the edge of your seat. He was lovely and enticing when he was excited, when he was jubilant with victory, but as a sore loser?Ā
Dear God, Eddie Munson was a gorgeous specimen with a pout on his lips.Ā
āTrying to decide what to take off, Munson?ā Jonathan notices the way Eddie is hesitating, even through the offset of conversations that had sparked up in the brief pause amongst the growing group.
You lean forward on the couch, almost subconsciously.Ā
You donāt care what Stacy from Steveās job thinks of their manager or the latest drama ongoing there, and Steve would probably agree with you if it werenāt for Stacyās all-red, latex Devil costume.
Eddie scoffs, waving a hand over his attire, āObviously. You know, itās not easy to choose when you have a costume as damn good as mine.āĀ
āWhat? Donāt think youāll be as pretty without your hat?ā you decide to contribute to the teasing, shocking yourself in the process.Ā
The last thing you should do when youāre staring him down in this way, is bring attention to yourself. And yet you were, like some fucking idiot with a death wish.Ā
āYou think Iām pretty?ā
Itās the fluttering of his lashes as he says it that gives you the courage. They match all that fluttering in your stomach, all that buzzing across your nerves. Because ā yeah, you thought he was real fucking pretty. Youād spent the last half hour imagining how pretty heād look in all sorts of places, too, especially between your sheets and between your thighs.Ā
Youāre up off the couch, taking confident steps towards where heās seated at the ground on the other side of the coffee table. Itās a little inconvenient now, but it had been a blessing in disguise for most of the game as youād had a front row seat to the sight of him.Ā
āOh, donāt get ahead of yourself,ā you tease, entirely ignoring that lightheaded feeling you get anytime Eddie looks up at you this way. Half-lidded eyes, crooked grin. Heās dangerous and he doesnāt even know it, āI only meant you were pretty with the hat.āĀ
āYou wound me,ā he gasps, dropping back on his hands dramatically, his pout now for dramatics rather than genuine, āGonna stand there and tell me Iām not pretty when I dressed up just for you?ā
You have to take a deep breath to compose yourself, cross your arms to steady your guard, āJust for me?āĀ
He was playing that same old, tired game of yours. The same dance the two of you had memorized the steps to ā and something inside of you has grown restless of it. You donāt want to keep skirting around each other with double-meaning jokes, you donāt want to keep painting humor over your flirtatious remarks. You want a damn answer to the age old question of will they, wonāt they?
And you want that answer to be will they ā terribly, terribly so.
His eyes trail along the room slowly, not avoiding you but trying to draw out the anticipation in you as he sucks in a breath, āOkay, and maybe for Steve. And Nancy. And Argyle. And Jonathan. And- Well, Iād say Robin, but I donāt think sheās looked twice in my direction all night.āĀ
āI havenāt,ā the brunette chirps happily from the couch, still letting the weight of Nancy comfortably dig into her.Ā
You have no idea how sheās tuned into the conversation, given the way most of everyone else around the room was entirely ignoring the two of you.Ā
āSo,ā you all but purr, leaning down to be more level with Eddie. You already know where his focus wanders when his eyes donāt meet yours, āNot just for me, cowboy.āĀ
Heās distracted, staring at your chest as you notice him slip up in his brave facade for a second. Almost as though youāve gone too far, pushed the limits a bit too hard. Good. You want to break this. You want to shatter whatever cage the two of you have built.
In one smooth movement, your hand reaches out and snatches the hat right off his head.Ā
He lets out a yelp and tries to grab it away from you, but you have the advantage as you stand up straight once more. Your free hand reaches up and tears off the cat ears you had donned, and in their place, the hat is deposited.Ā
It fits you a little big, and you nearly make a joke about the size of Eddieās head.Ā
āHey!ā he argues, moving as though he might stand up and put up more of a fight, āI didnāt say the hat is what I wanted to take off.āĀ
āTook too long,ā you shrug innocently.Ā
āYeah, well, just carefully add it to the pile,ā he jabs his thumb over his shoulder, towards his boots, as he relaxes back into his recline.
You should probably behave yourself.Ā
āNo.ā
But this is more fun.Ā
Eddieās eyebrows shoot up in shot, disappearing behind the bangs that are flattened far more than usual. The entire crown of his head is absolutely crushed. No sign of his usual frizzy roots and unruly volume, āNo?ā
āNo,ā you confirm a second time.Ā
And youāre done with this game of back and forth.Ā
The hatās staying on your head. It smells ever so faintly of his shampoo, the slightest whiff of his cologne even, and itās staying on your head for the exact reason he believes is about to be a gotcha! moment.
āOh, sweetheart,ā heās just tipsy enough that heās not putting on any specific accent. Instead, his natural Appalachian accent inherited from his uncle begins to break the surface, āSurely you know about the hat rule.āĀ
Damn right, you know about the hat rule.
You cross your arms, huff a little, tilt the hat for effect, āThe hat rule? Please, enlighten me.āĀ
āYou wear the hat, you ride the cowboy.āĀ
Perfect.Ā
You donāt even attempt any sort of surprised act. No exaggerated gasps, no fumbling to remove the hat. You knew all about this rule, and it had been one of the first things to come to mind when youād seen him enter this damn party with the hat on.Ā
āYeah?ā you question, mocking raising your eyebrows at best, āHm. What a shame.ā
And then you turn on your heel, not awaiting a single response from Eddie as you escape to the kitchen.
You almost wish you would have stayed an extra second to properly witness his reaction. Thereās no doubt in your mind that heās gone pretty and pink, a flustered mess for at least a second as low laughter sounds from the rest of your friends. A tell-tale snort from Robin, and a silent cackle from Nancy. You swear you even pick up on one of the extra guests muttering a confused what just happened? that goes entirely unanswered.
Strip poker doesnāt continue on for long after that.
You refill your drink, this time sans the alcohol, and return to find Steve has officially begun to call for cabs to the club. He busies away on his phone as everyone debates whoās riding with who, the entire party slowly coming to life as everyone stands to prepare to leave for the main attraction.Ā
When you meet Eddieās gaze from across the room, the shadow of the brim of his hat cutting into your vision a little, his cheeks match the cranberry juice in your cup.Ā
Good.Ā
ā
The ride to the club is a blur, and all that really stands out to you is that Eddie makes sure he does not ride in the same cab as you.
Which is fine. Really. It doesnāt cause a single spark of panic in your chest. Not one.Ā
Youāre definitely not working yourself up over the thought that your plan is crumbling right before your eyes, that youāve gone too far and entirely misinterpreted everything Eddie has ever done during your entire friendship. Youāre not mulling over every dirty joke, not dissecting every single line that felt like he was flirting with you and attempting to look at it with fresh eyes. No, the entire ride to the club, you are definitely not beating a dead horse dead.Ā
Maybe you should have set off to ride the dead horse and not the cowboy. Maybe, then, Eddie would have gotten into the fucking cab with you.Ā
Your anxieties only worsen once you get inside the club. Pulsing beneath your skin, right in rhythm with the music. Your entire group had each been handed a drink ticket on your way in, and you had noted the fact that the girls of the group were slipped extra tickets.Ā
Nancy had given all her tickets to Robin, and Steve had given his singular ticket to Stacy.Ā
āSo,ā Robin runs up to your side, Nancy not far behind, āDo we waste our drink tickets on shots or real drinks?āĀ
āReal drinks,ā you immediately reply, eyes scanning the bouncing crowd for a certain head of curly hair, āShots are⦠well, they can be cheap. We can just avoid the top-shelf shit.ā
Was Eddie really going to ignore you the entire night?Ā
He needed his hat. He couldnāt ignore you the entire night.Ā
āYouāre right,ā Robin shuffles the drink tickets in her hands, turning to Nancy, āOn a scale of one to ten, how bad would it be me to ask you to flirt with men to get me-ā
āGive me ten minutes and Iāll have us a round.āĀ
Nancyās smile is sweet, courteous, as she gives Robinās shoulder a squeeze on her way past her.Ā
Where the fuck is Eddie?Ā
āDid you see where the guys ran off to?ā you blurt out. Most of the guys, aside from Steve, took the same cab.Ā
Robin also joins you in a quick survey of the club, lifting onto her tippy toes to squint over the current light show, āHonestly? I have no idea.āĀ
Fuck.Ā
As she drops back down onto her heels, Robin looks at you knowingly, eyes flicking up between your twisted expression and the hat on your head.Ā
āTrying to find a certain cowboy?āĀ
āWhat?ā you look at her, already defensive, even if it was stupid at this point. Who cares if everyone knows you have a crush on Eddie? Who cares if everyone finds out the very foundations of your friendship with him were built upon quite a bit of truth? āI mean- yeah, he kind of needs his hat to complete his outfit.āĀ
āShould have just given him your ears for an even trade,ā Robin shrugs, clinging to your elbow to avoid getting separated as a few bodies push past the two of you, āIām sure heāll pop up soon enough, though. Besides, I donāt think anyoneās too focused on what everyoneās costumes are as long as theyāre⦠wellā¦ā
āSlutted out,ā you finish for her flatly, trying to not get jealous as your eyes look across the sweaty crowd, stomach churning as you wonder how many other sexy black cats in the crowd would be approaching your cowboy.Ā
You fucked up. You shouldnāt have taken his hat.Ā
āExactly!ā sheās excited, unaware of your crisis, already moving along from the topic as she spots Nancy somewhere near the bar top, āLook, free shots!āĀ
The free shots donāt do much to quell your unease, but free alcohol is always nice.
You take the liquid down, burn and all, more than willingly. And then again, not even five minutes later when Nancy has caught the attention of another random man at the end of the bar. You almost partake in a third, but you finally hear a familiar voice saying a far too familiar joke.Ā
āYou know what they say,ā heās flirting ā heās using a tone of voice that he has never used with you, and itās clear heās fucking flirting, āSave a horse, ride a cowboy.āĀ
Instead of continuing your drinking game from Steveās apartment, you slam the shot back down and mutter some sorry excuse of being right back to Robin and Nancy before taking off in the direction of Eddie.
Heās stood a few stools down at the bar, hands leaning against the worn wood as his arms bracket a pretty blonde. It almost looks as if the line might be working on her.Ā
āIf youāre a cowboy,ā she giggles, and you almost stop dead in your tracks, āThen whereās your hat?āĀ
Well, thatās as good of a queue for your arrival if any.Ā
āGood question,ā you pipe up as you take a few brave steps towards him, āWhere is your hat, cowboy?āĀ
Youād expected him to be angry, or startled, or possibly even immediately take off running in the opposite direction of you. He doesnāt.Ā
He slowly turns, and his flirtatious smile has turned into more of a salacious grin as he faces you, āWell, well, well. Nice of you to join us, Kitty.āĀ
The blonde looks between you two a few times before shimmying down off her stool, āI thinkā¦. Iām gonna go. Nice to meet you, cowboy.ā
You expect Eddie to react, but he hardly does. A quick glance in her direction, a pathetic wave.Ā
Youāve just trampled over one of his chances of getting properly lucky tonight, and he isnāt even phased.Ā
āBeen lookinā for you,ā you mumble, looking over him. His hair seems to have been unstuck from his scalp a little, at least. As though he may have been running his hands through it repeatedly, āThought you might have gone home without your hat.āĀ
āNot a chance. I havenāt forgotten about the rule, you know.āĀ
Something twists in you, deep in your gut, between your hips.Ā
āNo?ā you hold your breath as he leans in a bit closer to you to be able to hear over the music, āGood thing I havenāt either.āĀ
He tilts his head, eyes glittering in the multi-colored lights, āYou havenāt? Then that means youāll be giving it back, right?āĀ
Over my dead body.Ā
Youāre on a mission tonight. Youāll either be ending this night in sore disappointment, drinking away your sorrows of rejection, or youāll be ending up in a bed with Eddie. Itās up to him.Ā
You lift a hand to the worn rim, tugging it a bit more securely onto your head, āNot a chance, Munson. You know where to find me once youāre done playing around.ā
As soon as your fingers leave the rim, holding tense eye contact with him, his own hand is coming up. You tense, worried heās about to steal the hat back now, but he doesnāt. Instead, his fingers pinch the same spot yours just had, slow tracing over the rim as his tongue darts out to carefully wet his bottom lip.Ā
From the front point, around to the side. When he reaches the bit above your ear, his touch drops to your cheek and tucks back some of the baby hairs sticking to your skin with sweat.Ā
āI do, donāt I?ā he hums, voice dropping a bit lower, focused entirely on you. āI donāt think Iām the one playing around right now, though, Kitty.āĀ
Does he think youāre joking? Does he actually, genuinely think this is all a game to you?Ā
You nearly make the decision to grab him right there, right at this moment, and shatter all the tension. Get his lips on yours and drag him into the darkest corner just to prove to him how serious you truly were.Ā
Suddenly, his hand drops away from you entirely, and you almost want to whine. You miss that warmth, that feathery caress, until it aches. āItās okay, though. Always knew cats were playful things.āĀ
Is there a dark corner somewhere near you two? Is there a dark hallway to drag him into? Just enough shadow to cover all the sins youāre desperate to commit, just enough light to see that blush rise across his cheeks again.Ā
āIām not playing,ā you whisper, eyes drifting down to his hand cradling a glass. Something deep and russet, just like his eyes. Likely whiskey. You wonder if youād be able to taste it all over his tongue before you had him putting it to work where you need him most right now. āWhenever you get that through your big head, come find me.āĀ
āBig head?ā he throws his head back in a laugh, and the tension mists away in seconds. āWho says I have a big head?āĀ
āI do, as the one wearing your hat,ā you readjust it for emphasis.Ā
You thought the tension had misted away until heās smirking, tsking a little, āOh, thought you meant the other one.āĀ
Itās a replay of the scene in Steveās apartment, but this time, the roles are reversed. Youāre the one left in shock, mouth agape, as Eddie spins around and walks away, leaving you to sit with what heās just said.Ā
āBastard,ā you breathe out as you watch him disappear in the crowd, eyes locked on his broad shoulders until one too many bodies separate the two of you.Ā
A bastard you want awfully, terribly, bad.Ā
ā
You wish you could say you threw back drink, after drink, after drink. You wish you could say you danced with a hundred different beautiful strangers, and each one strayed your mind farther from Eddie.Ā
You wish you could say you did anything but what the reality of your night had been.
A few men had approached you, only to be turned down repeatedly. Most of your night was spent all but moping at the bar, eyes diligently scanning the bouncing crowd for a certain curly haired figure that seemed to escape you. One moment, youād catch him pressed against a flirty stranger, hands holding onto whatever bare skin was available to him. And then, his eyes would find yours, and there would be a spark; a wink, a smile, a whisper across a bustling room daring you to come out and play with him.Ā
You never did. Youād look away, take a sip of your plain coke, and wait a few seconds until it was safe to look back and find him seemingly vanished.Ā
That in itself had started to become a game. Just like the hat, weighing heavy on your head.Ā
Youāre starting to accept that maybe you had just been a bit too brave. Youād jumped the gun, flown feet first into cold and ragged waters you werenāt prepared to navigate. You knew you wanted a change with Eddie, but were you ready? If you had been, you would have accepted one of his various invites. Would have strode across the room, shoved away whatever man or woman he was dancing with, and slotted yourself into their place. You would have been swaying your hips in rhythm with his rather than allowing him to cycle through strangers, and youād be reminding him that you wore his hat.Ā
Youād be the one bringing up the hat rule to him consistently, not him to you.Ā
When the night begins to wane, youāve already talked yourself out of it all.Ā
āIām heading out,ā you announce to Robin when she finally returns back to where youāve sat at the bar to babysit their drinks, hopping down from the stool before she could argue, āIām getting way too tired.āĀ
āWhat?ā your friend gasps, face pink from the heat of being in the crowd, a shimmering sheen of sweat across her forehead, āNo! Stay! We can take turns watching the drinks, or just-ā
āRobs,ā you smile as sweetly as possible, patting yourself down to make sure you have all your belongings. A whistle sounds from a group down the way at the bar, and you ignore them, āItās seriously okay. Youāre having fun! Iām just a senior citizen who needs some sleep. My bedtime was likeā¦. An hour ago.āĀ
You highly doubt youāll be getting any rest when you return to your apartment. Maybe some confidence can be built out of fantasies, letting your hands wander and sheets catch fire with all that could have been if you hadnāt talked yourself out of your perfect plan.Ā
Maybe, imagining Eddieās hot hands on you rather than getting to properly feel them will light a damn fire under your ass for the next opportunity that arises.Ā
āIā¦ā she sighs, glancing over her shoulder in the general direction of Nancy, āOkay, fine. But do we want to do brunch or something tomorrow?āĀ
Not a chance, you think rather quickly, eyes scanning once more for the metal-head-turned-cowboy. Not if Eddieās going to be there.
āSure,ā you lie, already knowing he will be there, āJust text me.āĀ
With that, you make your grand escape.Ā
Borrowed hat on head, phone in hand, you push your way out of the club with a newfound determination. You want to get home and take off this uncomfortable dress, finally do away with the thigh highs that have been rolling down at the most inconvenient of times, driving you insane the entire night. Trade the sexy attire for something comfy ā stay true to the cat essence as you curl up beneath your blankets for the night. Hang that damn cowboy hat on your door as a cursed reminder-
āWhere do you think youāre going, Kitty?āĀ
You stop a few feet short of the curb, a cab ordered as you turn to find that bastard leaning against the wall. Cigarette smoke is still clinging to the air around him as he looks at you curiously.Ā
āHome,ā you shrug, trying to ignore your pounding heart. Youād figured you wouldnāt see him again tonight, that your fate had been sealed. āWhat are you doing out here?āĀ
āSmoke break,ā he lifts his hand with the cigarette pinched between two fingers casually, pushing off the wall to come closer, āItās hard work, keeping you entertained all night.āĀ
You scoff, falling back into whatās almost a normal rhythm for you two, āYou were not the one keeping me entertained all night.āĀ
āI hardly saw you dance with anyone at all.āĀ
āI did!ā you try to defend yourself, deciding this could be fine. Some casual conversation as you wait for your ride, a way to pass the time. This is fine. āRobin dragged me out into the crowd at least twice.āĀ
āI watched you swat a guyās hands away not once, but three times.āĀ
āUnsolicited touching isnāt a compliment. He should have taken the hint the first time.āĀ
Eddie nods in eager agreement, taking another drag of his cigarette, āDamn right. If he had gone in for a fourth try, I was considering dragging him out here for an early smoke break.āĀ
āWhy do I highly doubt it would just be a smoke break?ā you question, glancing at him with a smile. Scandalous plans aside for the night, embarrassment swallowed down whole, itās nice to remember that Eddie is a friend. Albeit a bit flirty, and capable of driving you fucking insane, but heās a friend.
And maybe that isnāt the worst thing in the world.Ā
āOh, no, yeah. Youād be posting my bail.ā
āWhy me?ā
āBecause youāve got my hat, ā he reaches out and flicks the brim with his free hand, and you freeze up a little. You had hoped he wouldnāt mention it again, āKind of makes me your problem until the end of the night. Speaking ofā¦.āĀ
You already know what heās about to request as he trails off. This is it. You either give up the bit, hand the hat back over, and go home for the night ā or you make one final attempt to get what you had wanted.
Eddie. You wanted Eddie, as more than a friend.Ā
āIām gonna need that back, sweetheart.ā
At least heās asking politely, you consider, before it hits you why heās asking rather than taking.Ā
The looks across the room. The way heād been unbothered by the girl heād been flirting with running off at your appearance. The way he never just took back that fucking hat when heād been provided ample opportunity.Ā
He thinks itās a game for you, and keeps bringing it up, because it isnāt for him. Heās giving you one last chance to back out, or to stand your ground. To say you really want this.Ā
And fuck, you really want this.Ā
āNope,ā you lean into his space, pressing closer, fully committed. Your phone dings with the notification of your ride approaching, and you fully ignore it. āMy hat now, cowboy.āĀ
He quirks an eyebrow, and you hear the crunch of gravel behind you. Your ride. āIs that so?āĀ
āYep.ā
Another ding, another buzz of your phone.
Go ahead. Bring up the hat rule.Ā
āThat your ride?ā he asks, tilting his chin in the direction of the car.Ā
You glance over your shoulder, āPretty sure it is, yeah.āĀ
āAnd you remember the hat rule?āĀ
Your stomach twists with excitement. Your previous pity party is long forgotten ā youāre still hoping to get out of this dress, but you highly doubt youāll be slipping anything on after it. āI do.ā
āGreat,ā those hot hands youād been fantasizing about the entire night suddenly reach out to you, gripping your hips tightly as he tugs you into his body. You collide with his chest as he leans down and whispers in your ear, āIn that case, thatās my pussy now.āĀ
His lips linger against the shell of your ear an extra second, warm breath sending chills up your spine before heās keeping an arm around your shoulders as he guides you to the car. His cologne and the scent of tobacco is suffocating, and you crave to drown in it. You want him to consume you; you want him to take over every breath you breathe, every move you make, to finally get those hot hands and lips everywhere youāve only dreamt of.Ā
You barely hear him confirm with the driver that it is in fact your ride ā you can only focus on that hand on your lower back, palm heavy on you as his thumb traces arcs that nearly spend you spiraling.Ā
āAfter you, kitty,ā he murmurs, motioning for you to slide into the backseat first.Ā
In that case, thatās my pussy now.
You hope he ruins you.Ā
In the backseat of the ride, itās all polite distance and hands to yourself. You canāt even make eye contact with the driver, terrified he might be able to mindread and see all the filthy thoughts racing through your head.Ā
Eddie between your thighs, mouthing at your hips.Ā
Eddie hovering over you, pulling your knees to your chest as he stretches you out.Ā
Eddie, proving that your pussy is in fact his for the night. That it was made for him, sculpted out to fit the curvature and every single vein of him.Ā
Eddie simply fucking your brains out.Ā
Some polite conversation is exchanged, mostly between Eddie and the driver. The classic questioning of how the night has gone, small talk that buzzes in your ears mindlessly.Ā
The entire time, you can see Eddieās hand in the space between you two, fingers tapping away at dark leather incessantly. His rings shimmer like a siren calling to you.Ā
Itās a small movement, when your own hand drops near his. You keep your eyes trained forward once you begin your mission, inching your pinky closer and closer until it finally collides with his. You swear, you feel him fully jump out of his seat.Ā
Slowly warming the water, you start off simple ā playing with his fingers. Gentle caresses over his knuckles, little pricks to the pads of his fingers. He tries to capture your hand in his, but you have bigger plans at play here.Ā
Youāve spent the entire fucking night waiting for this. Youāre going to have fun with it.Ā
He huffs after you deter his second attempt at properly holding hands, his knees falling apart a little further. You twist at the ring on his middle finger, a clunky skull youāve always admired. It has minimal signs of wear, probably pure silver if you had to guess, and you can only imagine how cold itās going to feel against your skin.Ā
You can only imagine the imprints itāll leave if he grabs your hips just right.Ā
āYou know,ā the driver hums mindlessly over the low volume of the radio, āYou guys are my first ride of the night, surprisingly. Thought it might be busier with all the parties and clubs, but I think itās just barely picking up now.ā
āYeah?ā Eddie asks politely, nodding as he looks out his window. Perfect, āI think youāre right. It is getting pretty late-ā
Heās entirely distracted, your hand out of his line of sight as it moves in on its target.Ā
His thigh.Ā
Just a few inches above his knee, your hand grips at what is clearly sensitive flesh. You watch his entire body turn to stone when you do it, and he moves his head quickly to look in your direction.Ā
Youāre looking straight ahead.Ā
There had been a time, a few weeks ago, where youād learned Eddie had⦠sensitive knees. Youād been joking around about one thing or another, and when your palms had gripped at them through the torn fabric of ripped jeans, heād nearly launched himself across the room. He just kept insisting they were ticklish, that that skin was just delicate.
Youād seen the tent in his jeans then. Youād just been a bit more polite, a bit better behaved that day.Ā
āWhat are you doing?ā he hisses in a whisper, reaching for your hand, but youāre quick to slide it even higher.Ā
His hips jump a little, and the driver is none the wiser.Ā
āNothing,ā you innocently say, still looking ahead, watching the passing streetlights with intense interest. āAbsolutely nothing at all.āĀ
The entire ride, at every red light, your hand inches higher.Ā
And every time, you relish the way he squirms in your peripherals.
By the time youāre five minutes out from your place, youāve riled him up to impossible heights. Every little noise has him on edge, constant twitching and shifting in his seat as he tries to get you to just look at him. You know heās catching every sly smile that attempts to creep up on your lips ā youāre pathetically failing at every turn to cover them up.Ā
You think you have him like putty in your palms as you give yet another squeeze to his thigh, fingers starting to dance up even higher. When your eyes flicker to his crotch for just a second, you see him straining against that tight leather.Ā
And then he flips the script.Ā
Youāre so focused on your own goals, you never see that ringed hand creep to your own thigh. Itās not until cool metal nips at you, briefly, before you feel the warmth of his hand overtake, that you realize the predicament youāve gotten into.Ā
Just as your hand was beginning to skim over his crotch, Eddieās hand found solace between the meat of your thighs. Even as you try to clench them together, deny him the access he was seeking out, he finds his way in. Scandalous fingers dipping under the hem of your dress, fighting fire with fire when he lets his middle finger brush across the fabric of your underwear.Ā
Your touch from him nearly retracts entirely.Ā
āWhat?ā he leans in closer to you, the driver still focused on the road, āDonāt like a taste of your own medicine?ā
As he says it, his fingers dip lower. Hovering right over your protected clit, making your entire abdomen clench.Ā
You swallow hard, a bit of your jagged pride somewhere amongst the spit as you turn your head to look at him, āI donāt know what you mean.āĀ
āStill playing games I see.āĀ
In sync, the two of you lock eyes as you continue to test waters. You apply pressure with your palm and note the way his breathing hitches, and he draws a feather-light circle around the wet patch forming in your underwear. You can feel your bottom lip quiver as you try to refuse to give him any satisfaction, but when heās this close, itās a hopeless battle.
When had he gotten so near you? What happened to all that static distance from when youād first crawled into the backseat?
Youāre trying to only focus on your own hand. Eyes darting to guarantee the driver is still oblivious as you roll the heel of your hand harder against the seam of his pants, and biting your lip to hold back a successful grin when he has to cover a gasp with a cough. Itās all fun and games until the action is rewarded with his payback; his knuckle curling up against your cunt through your panties, pressing in hard before slowly sliding his way up, up, up.Ā
He deliberately stops when he catches on your clit, and youāre the one coughing now.Ā
āHad enough?ā he mutters under his breath, looking at you with half-lidded eyes. He looks good in this lighting, flashes of the streetlights bathing him in soft yellow, headlights of other cars fluttering in through the windshield as they hit his brown eyes just right to bronze them.Ā
āNever.ā
You almost think youāve won when his knuckle pulls back.Ā
But suddenly, his entire hand is cupping your cunt, two fingers pressing against your fluttering hole as another drags up your slit slowly once more. This time, when he reaches your clit, he continues moving in small circles.Ā
You have to bite your lip to hold back any noises, eyes closing for just a second as you hear him huff out a laugh.Ā
The final damnation is when he brings his lips to your bare shoulder, merely grazing your skin with them as he mumbles, āYou sure about that, Kitty?āĀ
You clench around nothing, and you know when he feels it from where his fingers remain pressed against you. His own hand twitches as the finger circling your clit stutters for a moment.Ā
āI-ā
āWeāre here!ā the driver says, not having looked into the backseat yet as he finds a safe place to pull the car into. In an instant, you and Eddie remove your hands from each other. Youāre both visibly flustered ā you can feel how warm your cheeks have gotten, and you can see clouds of pink splattering over Eddieās chest and neck.Ā
āThanks,ā Eddie is the one to speak up as the car comes to a halt, not even waiting for the driver to put the vehicle in park as he throws the door open.Ā
A bit rushed, but still polite as ever before heās grabbing you by your bicep to pull you out of the cramped space right along with him.Ā
You can hardly muster a weak wave to the man as Eddie is dragging you towards your apartment building, knees still a bit weak and mind still blank after getting a taste of your own medicine, as Eddie had put it.Ā
He doesnāt let go of you until youāre at your front door, those cursed shaking hands of yours fumbling with your key ring.Ā
āHere, let me-ā he starts to offer, reaching for the keys that continue to clank together, just as you find the one youāre looking for.Ā
āIāve got it-ā you try to cut him off, just as you drop the fucking keys in your haste. āShit.āĀ
You quickly drop to the ground to grab them, pausing once you have the metal digging into your palms once more. Thereās no real reason for you to do it, but you do ā you take a second to look up at Eddie from this position, and nearly drool at the sight of it.
Him, standing over you, still a bit flushed and still visibly uncomfortable in his pants. Pretty curls a mess and lips darkening from how much heās been biting them.Ā
You want him to ruin you. You want him to absolutely, entirely and utterly destroy you.
āDonāt look at me like that,ā he laughs, chest heaving a bit as he watches you carefully, pupils slowly growing in the dim light of your buildingās hallway.Ā
You can see his bare torso clenching, the twitch of his hands at his sides ā the same fingers that had just been caressing you over your underwear in the backseat of a strangerās car.Ā
āLike what?ā youāre dragging out the moment, taking time to appreciate the sight of him.Ā
āLike you want me to just press you up against the wall and fuck you out here, for everyone to see.āĀ
Thatās a new one. Thatās a vision that hadnāt come to you in all your dirtiest dreams of the night.Ā
It sends your clit throbbing.Ā
You rise slowly, pushing the hat back a bit to see him better, keeping your voice quiet so your neighbors wonāt hear as you ask, āWould you? If I asked nicely?āĀ
He doesnāt let out a laugh, but a breath of air, like youāve just sucked all of the oxygen out of his lungs.Ā
No need to say it ā you know he would. You probably wouldnāt even have to ask nicely.Ā
Youāre staring at him when he finally moves, one hand snatching your keys out of your hand and the other gripping you around the waist. Back to pulling you, man-handling you to get you right where he wants you ā where he needs you.Ā
One second, youāre pressed against his body in the hallway. The next, heās managed to unlock your front door and throw you both into the safety of your apartment.Ā
Hidden from the world, and youāre still reeling as you wonder what itād be like for the entire building to witness you calling out his name. Or him calling out your name.Ā
Here within these four walls, Eddie has put some space between the two of you, staring with blown out eyes and a shaking chest as he breathes out, āSweetheart.ā
A few seconds pass, the two of you just standing there, the click of the front doorās lock being the only thing echoing in the silence. If you focused over the roar of the blood pounding in your ears, you might catch every single gasp of his as he stares in awe ā but your focus is elsewhere. Far away and out of grasp for the time being. You can only think of one thing, and one thing only.Ā
Your body isnāt your own as you move to get exactly what you want; you drop to your knees hard enough that you should cringe at the thought of the pain that will linger, possibly for days, but it doesnāt even cross your mind as your hands begin to fumble with Eddieās pants. The oversized, gaudy belt buckle is in your way, glinting at you as if mocking the way your shaking hands canāt undo it fast enough. Youāre about to give up and just start unzipping the leather pants, desperate to get your hands, and your mouth, and your eyes on him properly, when he stops you.Ā
āHey,ā he sounds breathless - he is breathless - as his own hands quiver a bit and grab onto yours, āHey, hey, hey. Slow down.ā
Those hands let go of your wrists and reach for the hat, and youāre quick to try and swat them away only for him to grab at you, surprisingly gentle, as he drags you back up to your feet.Ā
āWear the hat, ride the cowboy ā right?ā you insist, chin held high, your gaze refusing to waver from his.Ā
His slow and buttery grin makes you lightheaded, his low chuckle sends shakes through every nerve and bone. āThatās right, but maybe the cowboy wants to take his time. Ever think of that, hm?āĀ
Were you moving too fast? Were you going to scare him off?Ā
Small, baby steps are taken by Eddie, the click of his heels shattering against your wooden floors until his hips are flush with yours.Ā
And - oh.
Oh.Ā
That surely didnāt feel like you were scaring him off.Ā
You could feel the outline of his cock, hard against your hip, as he gives a little roll. He catches his bottom lip between his teeth, nostrils flaring with a hard breath, and the fear leaves as quickly as it had arrived.Ā
He wants this. You want him.Ā
āIām not a very patient person,ā you murmur, eyes glued to his lips now as his head leans in closer, and his hands begin to explore your body. Taking their time as they travel down your arms from where heād held onto your biceps, slowing as they reach your wrists. Even the press of his thumb against the sensitive inner skin there sends jolts up your spine, little gasps attempting to escape your mouth.Ā
His fingers tangle loosely with your own for a few moments before his palms find your hips, and he continues his journey.Ā
āThatās okay,ā he whispers back, close enough now that his lips have begun to brush against your own. His nose bumps yours as his hands skate up over your ribcage, thumb sweeping out over the hill of your breast and intentionally avoiding your nipple, āI can teach you, baby.ā
Your mouth finally collides with him at the words, nearly going limp in his arms at the words.Ā
Youāve thought about kissing Eddie for a while now. Every time a snarky remark fell from his lips, youād wonder how his tongue might taste afterwards. Every time heād pout his lips at one of your comebacks, or blow a kiss teasingly in your direction from across a room, youād wonder how hard you might have to bite down to make him bleed. Every drag of a cigarette youād witnessed, every hard gasp in faux offense, every breathless chuckle at a joke he didnāt want to find funny but did ā you had spent a lot of time wondering what it might be like to steal all the air from his lungs, to kiss him until the two of you were both blue in the face.Ā
āCanāt the lesson wait until tomorrow?ā you mumble against him as his mouth, your own fists now gripping onto the lapels of his vest. His hands have reached your shoulders, memorizing the outlines of the curve of your neck where it meets your collarbones, the slope of your chest as you take hot and heavy breaths.Ā
āNope,ā he insists, pulling back from the kiss, a little bit of spit on his pink lips, āBut itās nice to know youāre thinking about tomorrow.āĀ
A hand finally finds your chin and pinches it carefully between his thumb and fingers, a careful grip on you to angle you just right so he can all but devour you. Lips, tongues, teeth ā itās a messy ordeal, and you almost make a smart-ass remark that this kiss doesnāt feel very patient.Ā
But you canāt. Eddieās taken away all your breaths, all your words, as he starts to guide you backwards.Ā
Your knees hit the cushions of your sofa, making you jump back from him with a gasp, palms going flat against his chest.Ā
He feels good. Tender skin soft to the touch beneath your hand, tattoos tempting to trace the outline of. Later.Ā
āFigured you might want a more comfortable ride,ā he laughs against you, breath smelling ever so faintly of mint and whiskey washing over you, before he dips to mouth away at your neck.
You drop back onto the sofa, bite your tongue on a comment about how this cheap piece of furniture most definitely wasnāt the most comfortable option, simply eager at the fact he was letting this move along.Ā
You want him, you need him, and you have no time for patience.Ā
His exploration of touches have lit you aflame, and youāre growing a bit desperate at this point. It might be pathetic, it should be embarrassing, but you really donāt care.Ā
āBy all means,ā you break out of his hold entirely, catching the way his hand holding your chin lingers a few extra seconds, reluctant to let you go, āTake your seat, Cowboy.āĀ
He joins you on the couch, eyes never leaving yours even as he throws himself down. Knees spread wide, inviting lap on show, cock still straining against his pants.Ā
The best seat in the house, as far as youāre concerned.Ā
āYou just gonna keep starinā,ā he mocks lightly, looking you over slowly. Taking his time, you suppose, āOr you gonna get over here?āĀ
His words are all you need. Youāre quick to climb onto his lap, swinging your legs so that each thigh brackets his hips, your cunt pressing down on crotch carelessly. You love the way it feels ā the outline of him hard against you, the cooling effect of the leather, the sharp edges of the zipper catching just right.Ā
āThere,ā he huffs out, grabbing onto you when you give the slightest roll of your hips, āNow weāre both in our seats.āĀ
When you go to press down harder, guiding yourself over his lap, hands steadying you by gripping his shoulders, he surprises you by his hips jumping up to meet your slow rhythm.
āWhat happened to being patient?ā you try to tease him right back as your forehead meets his, hat comically struggling to stay on between the two of you, āThought you were gonna take your time with me-ā
āBetween you and me, Iām not gonna last,ā he pants out, hands finding your hips. Those rings youād been fantasizing of leaving an imprint on you are doing just that as he guides you, āBeen dreaming of you too long, sweetheart. Wanted this for so long.āĀ
Your heart nearly stops. Your hips stutter, pausing as his words rush over you.Ā
āWhat?āĀ
Your head lifts away from his completely, grip on his shoulders tightening.Ā
Heās wanted this, too? This entire time?Ā
Eddie takes your pause as a bad thing, a terrible omen as his face pales, āI mean- I just-ā
āMunson,ā you say lowly, narrowing your eyes at him, āYouāre telling me, this entire time, youāve been flirting with me?āĀ
Had that tone he used with the girl at the bar been flirting as youād thought, or simple for show? Youād so cluelessly assumed heād never used that tone with you because heād never genuinely flirted with you ā and yet, it seems, heād never used that tone because heād been genuinely flirting with you.Ā
āI-ā his cheeks are brilliant red, and the wide eyes are from something different than lust now, āMaybe?āĀ
āMaybe?ā you almost laugh, throwing your head back. The hat falls off, but Eddie is quick to retrieve it, āMy God, weāre fucking idiots.āĀ
āHey, Iām not the one who stole my hat-ā
āI like you, dumb ass,ā you state plainly, āI wanted this for a while, too.āĀ
He pauses, one arm outstretched as his hand grips onto the hat, āWhat?āĀ
āBeen thinking about this, too,ā your voice drops a little, almost a whisper, even though you two are the only ones in the room. For all you know, you two might be the only two people left in the world with the way heās looking at you, āThinking about you and your lips. Thinking ābout your hands and the places theyād go,ā as you point out every detail, his body seemingly reacts. A lick of his lips, a squeeze of his hand still on your hip, āThought about your fingers and tongue a lot, too. How good theyād feel inside me.āĀ
His hips thrust up at that, and suddenly, heās placing his hat back atop your head.Ā
That, it seems, was all the encouragement Eddie needed.Ā
He deals with that belt buckle that had given you hell, bouncing you a bit on his lap as he fumbles with yanking the entire belt off and tossing it to the side. One hand busies with undoing the button and zipper of his jeans, as the other starts to bunch your dress.Ā
āNice and slow,ā he insists, looking up at you, absolutely vibrant. Somewhere between the tightness between your hips, all the throbbing between your thighs and in your chest, you feel a sort of bubbly delight creeping up along your spine. āGot it, kitty?āĀ
You nod once. Twice. On the third nod, he cuts you off with a kiss.Ā
Your dress is up to your waist, and you donāt know how, but he manages to shimmy off his pants without throwing you off his lap entirely. Itās impressive, really. Probably a symptom of him having thought about this, dreamt about this. Heād probably thought up every scenario possible, and was prepared.Ā
āOh, and these?ā his fingers find the waistband of your panties, tsking a little as he pulls at the elastic and lets it slap back against your skin, āThose definitely have to come off.āĀ
āWhatever you say, cowboy.āĀ
You take your time sliding off his lap, making sure to grind against him before you properly lift away. He throws his head back in a groan, Adamās apple bobbing as you stand up straight. You take that moment to just admire him, capturing the clench of his jaw to memory, the way his eyes screw shut in pleasure at your influence.Ā
Heās fucking perfect. Youāre sure thereās others who disagree, but youād pay them no mind. Heās perfect, and heās all yours.Ā
You make a show of taking off your panties only once heās properly looking at you once more, craving his eyes on you as you keep all your movements fluid and steady. No rush, exuding all that patience heād prattled on about.Ā
You want to see his face when you gently toss the black lacey piece in his direction, watch him fumble with his own desperation to catch them.Ā
āSeems a bit unfair that Iām the only one undressing,ā you hum as you go a step further and begin to shimmy out of the dress.
āYeah, well,ā he grins cheekily at you, fisting your panties, a hand trailing down to the waistband of his boxers as he eyes you, āOne of us was showing a bit more skin than the other.ā
āTake off the vest, Eddie.āĀ
Your command is velvet, and heās quick to obey. His hand stubbornly refuses to let go of your panties as he rushes to shrug out of the thin fabric over his shoulders, tossing the vest to join his pants and your dress on the floor.Ā
āAnd the boxers.āĀ
You stand there, in nothing but his cowboy hat, as you wait pretty and patient for him to listen. And listen he does.Ā
The moment his boxers are discarded, his cock is standing at attention, leaking from the tip and deep shade of pink that matches his kiss-bitten lips. You think it might be the prettiest color youāve ever laid eyes on as you watch a drop ofĀ precum slip down his shaft.Ā
Heās pretty, even in the fucking pants.Ā
Girthy, thick enough you almost arch your back before youāve even sunk down on him. All veins and soft skin, a sensitive tip that youād trace your tongue over for hours if he let you.Ā
āGonna just stand there, or are you going to ride your cowboy?āĀ
He surely meant to sound more cocky, but the words come out as more of a whine as you watch him twitch under your stare.Ā
Heās right though, and youād rather get him inside you than spend another second gawking. There will be time to pay more attention to him and his pretty cock tomorrow. Right now, you need to finish this god-forsaken mission.Ā
Your thighs find his hips just as his hands find yours, choosing to grip the couch rather than his shoulders as you steady yourself.Ā
Nice and slow, his words echo in your mind.Ā
You could have prepared yourself more, but youād already made it clear to Eddie that you are not a patient person. The fact that you even take your time as you sink down on him, going as far as to grab him by his base and guide his tip to smear precum across your clit, is impressive.Ā
The stretch is a bit painful. A bit much. A bit dizzying. But you refuse to stop as your jaw drops, eyes fluttering shut in ecstasy.Ā
āFuck,ā you breathe out softly as you feel him fill you, āFuck, Eddie.āĀ
āFeel good, baby?ā he questions, reaching up to grab your chin just as he had before. Forcing you closer to him, forcing you to look him in the eyes just as he bottoms out.Ā
You donāt answer him as you both moan out.Ā
You stay there for a second, unmoving as you swim in the feeling. Feeling him press into the depths of you, the overwhelming warmth and the coil in your abdomen tightening ever so slightly.Ā
Itās better than you had imagined it. No daydreams could compare to the feeling of Eddieās cock finally, finally filling you. Stretching you out, making you his.Ā
āGo ahead,ā he grits out, entire body tense, clearly holding out on you, āRide your cowboy, kitty. Donāt make me ask twice.āĀ
Nice. And. Slow.
Three little words that ricochet through your mind as you start to slowly bounce on him. Lifting ever so slightly, dropping back down, aching to feel him even deeper inside of you. Feeling the quiver of his thighs to match yours as you repeat the action, gasps and whimpers falling from both your lips. Youāre about to try and kiss him, try and swallow all those delicate noises from him, when he stops you.Ā
āNo, no, no,ā heās chuckling, giving your hips a few squeezes before his palms rub down your thighs, the friction sending you on edge, āCāmon, now. We both know thatās not how you ride.āĀ
His hands rake over your skin, down to your knees, lighting scratching and squeezing along their entire pathway until they make their way back up to your waist and hips.Ā
āDo it like this, sweetheart.ā
He guides you, no longer allowing you to lift up. You sink all the way down on his cock, whining out at the fullness, before he starts the pattern.Ā
Back and forth. Gentle circles amidst the rocking. Your clit grazes his pubes, and the coil in between your hips has never tightened more quickly.Ā
The motion feels familiar - like riding a bull.Ā
This feels right. You still press down, still clench down on him hard enough to make you both slip out obscenities, but itās getting you there.Ā
At some point, Eddieās grip on your hips slips, but itās fine ā youāve got the rhythm down perfectly. Slow, intermittent figure eights between the rolls of your hips, his occasionally slamming upward to reward you with that deepness you need. You can feel him in your stomach, in your chest, in your throat.Ā
You get a bit daring, and take one hand to his shoulders, as the other reaches up for the top of the hat on your head.Ā
Just like a cowboy.Ā
āLike this?ā you pant out between harsher rolls, eliciting curses that continue to grow louder from Eddie.Ā
āFuck, baby, yes,ā he groans out, head thrown back, mouth open in gratification, āJust like that. Keep- keep going just,ā he thrusts up, āLike,ā another thrust, āThat.āĀ
You nearly lose balance, falling forward a bit, too stubborn to let go of the hat. Thereās a grin glimmering at the corners of your mouth, and it fully blooms when Eddie throws up a hand to catch you .
A hand on your throat.Ā
He doesnāt squeeze, doesnāt cut off blood flow or breathing. He keeps that warm palm there at the base of your neck, cradling you, holding you. A reminder that he could squeeze if he wanted, that he held you in the palm of his hands currently, but he wonāt.Ā
āYou like that?ā his eyes shine as he looks up at you, the sight of his rings decorating your neck.Ā
You nod.
āTell me with your words,ā he commands.
āI like it,ā you whimper, looking up further, stretching more of your neck to be vulnerable to Eddie. āI like it so much, baby.āĀ
When the pet name falls from your lips, you can feel him twitch inside of you. The sudden jut of his hips, the sharp intake of breath.Ā
āYou like that,ā you laugh breathlessly, your hand atop the hat the only thing keeping it from falling as you lean your head fully back, eyes beginning to roll back into your head. āWanna be my baby, Munson?āĀ
āAlways have,ā he grunts, the hand on your throat slipping up to cup your face to drag you towards him, āSince the fucking moment I met you, sweetheart.ā
When he kisses you, it tastes like the closest to Heaven you might ever get. Soft, plump lips, and an eager tongue. All the wasted time hiding behind jokes and teasing, playing pretend like the flirting was never serious.
It was serious. And if youād just come clean sooner, you would have had this long ago.Ā
Your hips are still rolling as your hands begin to roam. Youāve found your balance again, lips pressed to Eddie, and itās your turn to explore all he has to give you. Your nails graze his stomach when your clit catches once more on that rough thatch of hair against the base of his cock. Your fingers dig into flesh wherever they can find it ā his chest, his arms, his hips. At some point, you throw a hand out behind you, grasping for his knee. Learning every curve and every point of his body as he had done for you.Ā
You wanna memorize the roadmap of him. Take a snapshot in your mind so that next time, none of it is unfamiliar territory.Ā
Your touch is driving him insane; it doesnāt take a genius to pick up on the way his hips falter to meet your movements, or how he keeps breaking the kiss to gasp, letting his jaw fall slack when he hits a particular deep spot within you.Ā
Itās when your lips finally trail down the stubble sprouting across his jawline, mouth sucking on the soft skin below his ear, that heās finally a goner.Ā
āāM close,ā he gasps out, almost sounding drunk as he slurs through his pants, āAh, fuck, Iām gonna-ā
āCum for me, Eddie.āĀ
Maybe itās the way you had been touching him, or the way your cunt had been fluttering around him, or the persistent rolling of your hips that had become so focused on his pleasure. Maybe it was the sight of you in his hat, looking at him like that. Maybe it was the way his name sounded on your tongue.Ā
Either way, when Eddie Munson comes undone, heās beautiful.Ā
Your own movements slow involuntarily as you gaze starry eyed, watching the way his face scrunches and feeling his grip on you tighten impossibly. Leaving their mark, making you his in yet another way. Warmth fills your cunt and every curse word under the summer sun is falling from his lips.Ā
Your name, curses, prayers, gratitude ā a jumbled mess, and it sounds fucking fantastic when itās said in Eddieās desperate tone.Ā
āShit,ā he gasps out, finally coming back down to Earth, āShit.ā
You sit still on his lap, skin sticky with sweat, lips spread thin in a cheeky grin, āSounds like I get to keep your hat, cowboy.āĀ
His eyes shoot open, and for a second, youāre terrified.
Those arenāt the eyes of someone satisfied.Ā
āYou didnāt cum.ā
āWhat?ā
āYou,ā he says, stressing the word as he shifts you off his lap. You donāt miss the way he winces, clearly a bit sensitive, āDid not cum.āĀ
You hadnāt really noticed, too wrapped up in him to notice your high slipping away from you. Youād been too focused on Eddie: on feeling him cum inside you, on watching him break apart, on tracing the outline of the blood rushing to his cheeks with your eyes and that fresh burst of violet on his neck in the shape of your lips.Ā
āItās fine,ā you start to argue, feeling the warmth of him leaking down your thighs. You should be a lot more worried about making a mess all over your sofa. You should be, but you arenāt. āI can-ā
āYouāre not keeping that fucking hat until you cum for me, sweetheart.āĀ
And, oh, maybe your own orgasm wasnāt racing as far away from you as youād believed, because those words nearly push you over the edge for him.Ā
āGet on all fours for me, baby.āĀ
Yeah. You definitely could still be close. For him.
When you donāt move to follow his command immediately, heās using those gentle hands to guide you. Encouraging a twist of your hips from how youāre reclining back across the couch, letting you press your cheek down against the cushion.
You open your mouth to argue, to insist it was fine, to say anything, but youāre cut silent when a sudden slap lands on your ass.Ā
A silent command this time, and youāre finally listening.Ā
You lift your ass up for him on shaky knees, elbows digging into the cushion now instead of your face. The hat on your head is lopsided, and you almost reach up to fix it when-Ā
āIāll be taking that,ā For the first time since youād stolen his hat, Eddie takes it back. Right off your head, too fast for you to protest. When you dig your chin into your shoulder to look back at him, heās smiling, hat back in its rightful place atop his curls, āYou can have it back after you cum for me, at least once.ā
āAt least once?ā you mean to laugh, to sound cocky, but it comes out as more of a squeak.Ā
He shrugs, leaning forward, his bare chest pressing against the skin of your bare ass ā right where an imprint of his hand still sings, āAt least. By all means, if you feel the need, donāt hesitate to give me a few. God knows youāve earned it.āĀ
You donāt have time to banter back; he retracts before bring his mouth down to your cunt, and your elbows quickly give out at the first long stride of his tongue.Ā
āGotta get you cleaned up,ā he murmurs, a bit muffled, against your cunt.Ā
Another stride, and this time, his tongue spends an extra second at your clit, circling it salaciously.Ā
āOh, God,ā you moan out into a mouthful of couch cushion, tempted to bite down to hide all the noises creeping up your throat when his tongue draws yet another circle, tip of his nose pressed to your sensitive hole.
He brings his tongue back to that space, that hole that feels gaping without him filling you now, and you try to bury your cheek only to earn another slap on the ass.
āDonāt be shy now, kitty. Let me hear you.āĀ
And let him hear you, you do.Ā
Each lick, short and timid or long and confident, is dredging up obscene mewls from you. When he enters you with it, curling it and pressing as deep as he can, truly cleaning you up as he had said, youāre chanting his name.Ā
āFuck, Eddie,ā you cry softly, rocking your body back against his mouth, āYour fingers. P-Please, use your fingers.āĀ
Your wish is his command as he brings his hand up between your legs, breaking from having his tongue buried inside of you and using a calloused pad of his finger to trace over your clit before he begs, āSay my name again.āĀ
You do. Over, and over, and over as his mouth and his fingers begin to work against you. Careful focus is placed on your clit, and his mouth runs amok between your cunt and thighs. You feel what will no doubt be hickies along the curve of your ass, nips of teeth against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh as he presses two fingers into you. With every thrust of his hand, your hips are rocking back to match his rhythm, wanting more.Ā
More, more, more.Ā
Thereās nothing nice and slow about this. Youāre chasing after a high, and Eddie is listening to you every step of the way.Ā
Your thighs begin to shake terribly right around the time your vision blurs, unable to contain the whines that have grown to echoing volumes. Surely, your neighbors can hear. Probably confused as to who Eddie is, probably considering how embarrassing it would be to knock down your door and complain about the noises.Ā
You really, really donāt give a fuck when white speckles flood your vision, even with your eyes screwed shut, and that tension between your hips threatens to snap.Ā
Right before your knees give out, your entire body trembling, Eddie pulls back and grabs your hips. You cry out, so close yet so far, until heās flipping you back over.Ā
You get one glimpse of him before he goes to work to bring you over that edge ā lips and chin slick with you, hair frizzing beneath his hat, a determined glint in his eyes that have your thighs clenching around his ears.Ā
You were right. Eddie Munson looks damn good between your thighs.Ā
He quickly returns to his mitigations, and this time, itās all a bit more strategic. Lips suctioned around your clit and three fingers curling deep within you, a beckoning motion as he urges you to let go for him.Ā
The white returns behind your eyelids. Your back arches up off the sofa. Your ankles lock as they cross behind Eddieās back, almost effectively trapping him in place.
You cum hard for him.Ā
Youāre entirely unaware if you scream his name in the process, but you hope you do. As that relief, that ecstasy, floods your system, you hope you make sure everyone within a five mile radius knows whoās responsible. Your entire body continues to shake for far longer than you believe it ever has before. Your hips had lifted, begging for Eddie to keep going even as it all grew painful.
He does. He keeps going, sucking you dry for every drop you have to give him, until youāre physically having to shove him away.Ā
Your hands are weak as you sink down into the cushion, eyes still closed as you hear him chuckle before you feel him crawl his way back up your body.Ā
āThere,ā you donāt even need to see his face to see that smug satisfaction ā his voice is dripping in it. āNow you can keep the hat.āĀ
One of your hands blindly throws itself through the air to smack him, missing entirely as you drift through the afterglow of it all.Ā
āIām not sure Iāve earned it,ā you mumble as he catches your wrist, limp in the air, āPretty sure I didnāt break you when I made you cum.ā
āOh, you did,ā he notes, hand curling around your wrist. You watch as he slowly brings it to his lips, peppering a few chaste kisses on the soft skin, āJust in a different way.āĀ
You raise your eyebrows, smiling at the tingling feeling left behind on your skin in the wake of his mouth, āYeah?āĀ
āYeah.āĀ
He tugs you to sit up despite your groan of protest, somehow smoothly maneuvering the two of you so that heās now the one beneath you, letting the full weight of you bear down on his chest as you lay on top of him. The hand wrapped around your wrist brings it back up for more kisses, more repetitive gentle pecks of affection, as his other arm is quick to wrap around you. Holding you in place, as though heās scared you might disappear.Ā
āWell,ā you whisper against the bare skin of his chest, nearly shivering when his free hand starts to trail slowly up and down your spine, āGood.āĀ
Your cheek feels the vibrations of his chuckle, āThatās all you have to say?āĀ
āGive me a few minutes to recover,ā you insist, all but nuzzling into him, āIām sure Iāll have a smartass comeback for you once Iāmā¦ā you trail off, heavy eyes looking up at him, the words lost on your tongue and in the air.Ā
The gentle curve of his cupidās bow. The roundness at the end of his nose, still a fading hue of pink. The freckle beneath his right eye. The way the phantom of the dimple of his left cheek never quite leaves his face.
All the things youāve dreamt of seeing so up close, never knowing it could have been a reality.Ā
He lets go of your wrist, smiling softly with a shake of his head, āCanāt believe youāre gonna fall asleep on me.ā
āAm not,ā you nearly say under your breath, sighing in content.Ā
āAm too,ā he mocks, a certain docility to all his teasing before he sighs as well, āItās okay. You can. Iāll still be here when you wake up.ā
You hum, eyes fluttering shut as you hear some rustling, āPromise, cowboy?āĀ
āAbsolutely, kitty. You said something about tomorrow, remember?āĀ
You both laugh in sync as your couch suddenly becomes the most comfortable place in the world.Ā
Just before losing consciousness, right as you feel Eddieās breathing even out along with your own, you decide to open your eyes one last time to catch sight of the cowboy hat perched carefully on your coffee table.Ā
Tomorrow. You hope for a thousand tomorrows as you decide that that hat is definitely yours now.
eddie sprawled out on your bedroom floor explaining in full detail of his role playing character that was supposed to be just for sexy fun time
you sit on your bed half naked with one eyebrow raised at the man still talking about how his characters mom died
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That's so cute ???
one of the things you'd never understand was how goddamn silent bakugou katsuki could be.
he was huge, for one thing, all six-foot-something of iron muscle and sharp angles. the training he had undergone in the past and continued doing to this day made him bulk upāparticularly around his upper torso. a small waist led up to thick pecs and wide shoulders with just as wide biceps. he could crush you so easily with one hand alone, his palm big enough to cover nearly your entire face.
he was also so fucking loud at times. that was his entire hero personaādynamight with the loud explosions that could temporarily deafen anyone who was close enough to them. his entire hero costume was a deadly configuration of grenades and other heavy gear tooāthings that cluttered and banged together whenever he moved around too much.
you'd seen him stomping around his agency before in his heavyset boots, so you knew he was the type to be big and bold with literally anything he did. he was always barking out orders with that raspy voice of his or yelling at his co-workers whenever they appeared at his agency to bug him for one reason or the other.
katsuki's very presence, personality, was just so. loud. thunderous.
so you didn't fucking understand why he kept sneaking up on you so easily.
it happened more often than you liked to admit. you'd be in the agency's breakroom, grabbing a cup of coffee to help you stay awake for the day when you'd turn around and he'd justābe there. standing silently behind you.
it made you jump every time, a yelp escaping your lips as you'd clutch a hand at your heart and glare up at him as he'd look down at you with a raised eyebrow.
"jeez! don't do that!" you'd scold him, scooting away slightly to put more space between the two of you. that was another thingāhe just always seemed to be invading your personal space, intentional or not. "scared the hell out of me."
"'s not my fault y'don't pay attention," he'd grumble before reaching past you to grab one of the protein bars from a cabinet. you'd roll your eyes and walk away with your coffee cradled in your hand, not wanting to put up with him so early in the morning.
sometimes he'd get you while you were tinkering away in his agency's support lab.
in your defense, you tended to get absorbed in your work a lot, your hands fiddling with materials and tools that could be pretty loud or distracting. you didn't always hear when people would enter the lab, but they usually left you alone.
not katsuki, though.
you'd turn around with the intention of reaching for an item on the table behind you only to get startled when your face would come into contact with a broad chest.
fuck him and his steely pecs. nearly broke your goddamn nose.
"bakugou!" you'd screech, jumping back as you'd rub your nose with your eyes scrunched together. you had to force yourself to not tear up with how much it'd stung. "stop doing that!!"
"doin' what?" he'd say as though he wasn't fucking creeping up on you on purpose. and maybe he wasn't, but the amount of times he'd done it was no coincidence. "need my bracers. goin' out on patrol."
"fine, fine," you'd mutter, giving him a suspicious look before you'd stomp away to grab his stuff for him. you didn't like the way he stared at you, with his eyebrows raised as though you were the one acting crazy and not him for silently standing behind you.
but you knew, you fucking knew, that he was experiencing some sick, twisted amusement at seeing your reactions. you just knew. there were a few times where you'd catch him with a smug smirk on his smooth face as you'd leap away from him. the bastard thought it was funny seeing you all jumpy. and it irritated you more than you'd like to admit. but he'd just pretend he wasn't doing it deliberately. asshole.
at one point, you'd considered doing the same to him. but you'd brushed the idea away pretty quickly. his hero senses were honedāhe'd be able to tell you were coming from a mile away. and even if you did manage to sneak up on him, you knew he was a pretty tense guyāhe'd blow your face up before you could even raise your own brow at him.
so you just decided to do your best to ignore him. which was hard, considering the fact that he was practically everywhere. it made sense, considering it was his own agency, but still. you'd walk into a room sometimes, and he'd just be there. or you'd turn around and he'd be behind you again. it was frustrating!
but what you didn't know... was that katsuki had been trying to work up the courage to ask you to dinner all this time.
for all the villains he fought and strength he had, he just couldn't muster up the words. he'd make it all the way up to you, standing behind you as he tried to get himself to clear his throat and just fucking say the words he needed to say. but he couldn't. and you'd turn around, get startled, then get irritated at him that he just couldn't ask you out.
so for now, he was simply stuck in this endless cycle, hoping that one day, he'd be able to break out of it.