We Actually Have To Defeat The Loft Before We Get Buddie Canon Cus Wdym Allie Found It For Him, Taylor

Okay so the snowstorm episodes were a freaking ROLLERCOASTER lemme tell ya. AMAZING spectacular gimme fourteen more of them right now.

BABY CHARLIE’S BORN!!!! FUCK YEAAAAH!!!!

TK & Carlos are together again!!! Good for them!!!! (Also they look very adorable holding a baby. IM JUST SAYING.)

And ofc, the 126 is BACK BABAEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! Marjan our queen you deserve the world actually we cower before your feet🧎‍♀️‍➡️🧎‍♀️‍➡️

Lowkey starting to like Billy too IM JUST SAYING!!!! ME PERSONALLY!!! He’s a loser but he’s sad enough about it to be likeable. Good for him.

Dialogue from a fic I probably won’t write

„Hive him a gun“ okay Maddie

god i loved bucks little crash out in the car. his boyfriend broke up with him. his other boyfriend is leaving him. his sister is missing. give him a gun

Oh boy I love this already🤭🤭 keep giving predictions its super fun to see your thoughts!!! lol

911 thoughts from a newbie watcher:

spoilers for 1x01 - 1x05

(excuse name errors/spelling mistakes i am not good at remembering shit hence why i want to make this post cause i think it’s fun to do & people might enjoy reading my brain pluckings as i fight to catch up with you all)

- buck?? he’s so dopey but cute. his birthmark is so adorable and his personality is charming. it’s interesting that they made him a sex addict, im sensing possible trauma? we shall see on that.

- bobby is my favourite character at the moment. the backstory with his wife and children broke my heart and i wanna put him in a jar and keep him safe forever!! also his relationship with buck is cute i love their father/son bond. he’s literally doing his best and i believe in him, i have faith.

- hen is an icon and im loving her so far, stubborn and smart. we love a powerful woman! i do not trust her ex, idc if she’s changed im not buying it. she looks hella suspicious to me and im not trusting this chick at all.

- chimney my sweet boy. the car crash was definitely unexpected also the fucking metal pipe lodging into his brain??? yikes. also idk why he’s lying to this girl to be loved, he’s handsome he could pull a much better woman who would actually give him the love he deserves, anyways im praying he returns soon cause i miss his face.

- abbey i am indifferent about. i can see she’s going through a lot but thirsting over a man half your age isn’t the best way to go about things. im happy she told buck to go home after they found her mum though but still, find a new man and stop calling him at work, it’s unprofessional! that includes your naughty freaky phone call >:((

- man my girl athena is fucking going through it. gay husband, her daughter tried to od and then she got in trouble at work for making the little bitch pay for hurting her child? excuse me, fuck off and leave this baddie alone. she’s just doing her job and protecting people. i am demanding some peace for athena please :((

- THE PLANE EPISODE??? what the actual fuck was that?? the phone call mark? left for his wife made my heart hurt. also the scene when bobby was helping the mother ruined me, i was on the edge of my seat pleading he would save her and not live with that guilt, and ofc that he wouldn’t die because they had me worried for a second.

my predictions for episode 1x06 - 1x10

- abbeys mother will die. don’t ask why but she’s declining so much already and i just sense it.

- abbey and buck are going to do the nasty and im going to bleach my eyes out.

- bobby is gonna either go to rehab for his drinking or he will tell his team so they can be more help to him when he needs it.

- athenas husband will move the fuck out and go be with his new man which fun fact, is an actor who was also in empire!

- chimney will wake up and return (im manifesting this because i miss him already!)

anyways, bobby is currently my #1 and i adore him so very much. athena is right behind him and than id say buck is my third spot!

before you write: THINK!

is it Tender?

is it Homoerotic?

is it Implicitly homosexual?

is it Noticeably repressed?

is it Kind of gay?

Eddie isn't sure what he's expecting when Buck meets him at the airport. Red-rimmed eyes, splotchy face, hunched shoulders probably. Not this. Distant eyes, blank face, straight-backed. He'd been braced to catch Buck as soon as he landed, had spent his whole flight locking every bit of his own grief away to be thought about at a later date, let the guilt pool in his chest instead.

I should've been there, I could've -

He'd been ready to catch Buck, but it's Eddie who falls into Buck's waiting arms. Eddie who tears up. Eddie who clutches at the back of Buck's shirt like a scared child. And it's Buck sweeping his hands up and down Eddie's back, holding him together, murmuring:

"It's okay. I've got you. It's not your fault."

Eddie doesn't cry in LAX. His grief is a private thing. Always has been. He locks it into his bedroom and lets it out behind closed doors. But Buck is the safest space he's ever had, so he lets himself break a little. Lets himself shake apart under Buck's hands until he can ground himself with a deep breath at the junction of Buck's neck and shoulder. Until he can stand on his own.

Buck looks at him, eyes searching, deepest of furrows between his brows, so devastatingly gentle. And Eddie kind of wants to fucking scream at him for being okay. He'd needed to take care of Buck. He'd needed to have something to do. But now Buck is looking at him like he can fix him, and Eddie wants him to. So badly. But Buck knows Eddie's grief is for South Bedford Street, not LAX, so all he does is lead Eddie out to the parking lot.

It's a silent drive. Buck tells him the details of the funeral. Clinical. Sparing. And Eddie watches Buck's knuckles turn white on the steering wheel. Listens to the creak of leather under an unyielding grip. And he sees it then. The countdown over Buck's head, ticking away steadily. He's grateful in a way.

They pull up to the house silently. The engine falls quiet. And they stare at the door. The door Bobby had appeared on the other side of just a few months ago for a goodbye dinner. At the house. The house Bobby made coffee in when Eddie couldn't stomach being alone. At the home. The home Bobby helped him build in every way.

Buck gets out of the car. Eddie follows. Buck unlocks the door. Eddie locks it behind them. Buck disappears into the kitchen. Eddie pauses.

Can't quite separate Bobby from kitchens in his mind. And it's not like Bobby ever cooked anything in Eddie's kitchen, but there's some stupid grief-crazed part of his brain that thinks he'll find Bobby at the stove for a last supper. A parting gift to Eddie. Because Bobby was always too good. Too generous. Too understanding. When it came to Eddie.

When he finally makes it in there, Buck is stood staring into the fridge. Vacant. Eddie joins him, presses their shoulders together as hard as he can without knocking Buck away, and looks at Buck's fingers curled loosely around two beer bottles. Eddie knows it's not the early hour staying his hand.

It feels wrong. To find comfort in alcohol at Bobby's expense.

Carefully, Eddie unpicks Buck's fingers from the bottles and watches as Buck's arm falls limp to his side with such weight it bounces off his hip. Swings once, twice, stops suddenly. Eddie grabs the water filter. Closes the fridge.

"Sit down," he whispers. Sure, steady.

Buck sits down.

Eddie grabs two glasses. Fills them with water. Leaves the filter on the side. Who cares? Who fucking cares? Takes the glasses over to the table in shaking hands. Spills only a little. Sits opposite Buck. Stares into his cup.

"I didn't say it back," Buck rasps eventually.

Eddie picks his head up with great effort. Ony manages it because he wants to see what hurt he's caused. Their missing medic. Absent in their hour of need.

"What?"

"B-he-he told me he loved me." Buck's eyes go wide. Horrified. Haunted. Hollow. "He t-told me he l-loved me, and I could-couldn't say it back be-because that would mean..." Buck chokes a sob into his hand. "I thought we'd fix it. I-I-I thought we'd find a way. We-we always do. I couldn't say it-it. I didn't want t-to let him go. And now, he's..." Buck's face crumples first. Then, the rest of his body follows, folding in on itself in the chair until he looks almost as small as Christopher had the first time he'd ever sat at this table. "He's d-gone, and he doesn't know I love him."

"He knows, Buck." Eddie's hand curls into a fist on the tabletop. Doesn't know what to do. For all he'd been ready to hold Buck together, he's not sure how. "He knows you love him, Buck. You told him every single day."

"But I never said the words!" he snaps. Pure rage. Pure guilt. He looks up at Eddie. Blue eyes wet and red and wild. The rage and the guilt seeps away, leaves only pure grief. "I never said the words."

He sobs then. Doesn't choke it down. Lets it out. Eddie reacts like it's instinct even though he's never done this before. Just somehow knows in his bones what to do when it comes to Buck.

He stands, rounds the table, slides a hand into Buck's hair, one on his shoulder, pulls Buck's face into his stomach and holds him there, holds him together. Buck's fingers tangle themselves in Eddie's belt loops. A lifeline. And Eddie holds him tight as he can.

"All the times you cooked for him. All the times he cooked for you. The two of you cooking together. You had your own language, Buck. He knows you love him."

And all Eddie hears is: you're gonna stand there with a hundred-something bodies on you and tell me I'm not fit for duty. Did Bobby know Eddie loved him too?

Squeezing his eyes shut tight, Eddie drops his cheek to the top of Buck's head. Stops holding Buck together and starts holding on. Buck's hands grasp at his hips, twist into the back of his shirt just like Eddie's had at the airport.

And all Eddie hears is: I just want to make sure you don't think you have to lose everything before you can allow yourself to feel anything.

i watched one (1) video on how to draw hands that changed my life forever. like. i can suddenly draw hands again

these were all drawn without reference btw. i can just. Understand Hands now (for the most part, im sure theres definitely inaccuracies). im a little baffled

911 Lone Star end of season 1 thoughts:

Sister’s not dead! YAAAY!! Already like her better than Michelle (sorry Michelle) (hope I spelled her name right)

TK and Carlos!! YAYAYAYAYA!! “We make a pretty good team” “we really do” stfu they’re so cute. And TK got over some stuff of his, well done babe👏 👏

Judd is one of my faves as well, he really do be drinking his “I-love-and-respect-my-wife” juice, good for them!! Also GRACE!!! BAMF!!! LOVE HER!!! Nothing bad can ever happen to her tho pls and thx

Oh how I wonder who the will-they-won’t-they couple will be🤨 oh how I wonder🤨🤨 wherever might the captains end up in the end🤨🤨 its a mistery fr.

Underwater CPR seems to be a running theme in the franchise, but u know what, why tf not. Love that for them.

I want more Marjan and Mateo and Paul!!! GIVE MEEEEEEEE!!!!! I love them all (but like,,, Marjan my queen)

The lighting is still so fucking weird I can not and WIL NOT get over it WHO EDITED THIS. WHO AND WHY.

Overall, very excited to see the rest!!!!!

close enough rest in peace dean winchester

I haven't actually been following interviews and promos much for 8b, but it seems that buddie shippers everywhere is convinced it's going canon.

Is this serious, or is it just the usual clownery?

And if y'all seriously think that... Why? Based on interviews, the thing that they have very demonstrably just straight up lied in, previously?

EDIT: it has come to my attention through a not-at-all helpful (and frankly, rude) anon that I am not allowed to ask this because I like Tommy as well as buddie. I apologize for asking a 100% genuine question about what has got people so convinced this time around.