In Dreams I Hear A Wind-chime, Clarion And Beckoning In It’s Soft And Solitary Tone // Part 6

My feelings are transparent, dangerously luminous, and they remain.

Edna St. Vincent Millay, from a diary entry written c. September 1911 (via violentwavesofemotion)

You are healing.

You are growing.

You are evolving.

This is a quiet magic.

Love Notes from the Venus Signs

Venus in Aries:           It was like a moment of clarity, the day we met; a sunny blur cast on morning dew and you glimmered like the god damn ocean itself. Maybe I shouldn’t have grabbed your hand, or I shouldn’t have run or screamed, “you- attractive one.” But when you see so much light in one person, you just have to do it. Nothing matters, then, just them. Just you.

Venus in Taurus:      I never fancied romance novels because there was too much plot and too little character. Men aren’t so dynamic and girls can’t hold their tongues. But you have the finesse of fine wine. In your silence I find comfort and in your irritation I know that what we are is real. Because books don’t explain the way a lover’s hand on your hip can silence the chaos in your mind and lull you to sleep. You are the most difficult person I’ve ever had the pleasure of interacting with, and I will fight for us, I will fight for our love.

Venus in Gemini:     I don’t know where to start. Remember that bird we saw a few days ago- yeah the pigeon I think. Well I know you think street birds are dirty, but when it flew off into the air and circled us, you wrinkled your nose a little. You didn’t see me smiling because you were watching the pigeon, but I was mesmerized. You’re beautiful, not just because of your nose or eyes or wonderfully erotic body, but because of everything you do. And when you pulled me away for cover, I couldn’t stop laughing. Partly because you stepped in a big wad of gum, but partly because I’ve never been this happy. I love you.

Venus in Cancer:    Nights with you are the best. Your arms are a coven, a person reminder that I am part of something greater than myself, that I am worth something. Before you, there was a loneliness that never left, a creep of darkness that followed me and swarmed me as I slept. You are my everything. I will support every decision you make, I will be here when you can’t hold a strong front- when life gets too hard. Because, love, if anyone understands, it’s me. And I know how to be soft, how to hold you until your tears dry and how to bake your favorite cookies. I will tell you I love you every morning and every night as long as we are together, and I will mean it every time.

Venus in Leo:    People saw a lot in me, maybe they still do. You always have. The thing about people is they come and go, but they don’t know me. You know the way I like to sleep in until noon and what dumb memes will make me laugh. You know how to make me feel special when everyone else sees someone who doesn’t exist. Your kisses are important to me, not because you mean it, but because you understand who I am and you’re still willing to fight for me. Cuddle me into the night and tell me those joke your coworkers like, they make me giggle. I love you for everything that you do, I love you for making me feel real. 

Venus in Virgo:     This is a confession, nothing more and nothing less. I am neurotic. I find solace in cleaning and can’t have sex knowing that their are dishes in the sink. I know that I am riddled with a touch of crazy, but you see more in me. You find me charming and understand that everything I do for you is because I love you. For whatever reason, telling you isn’t easy enough. I want to show you. I want to help you shop for groceries and then satisfy you fully in bed. I want you to know that I can change for you, but you never seem to mind my quirks. You are how I know love exists. 

Venus in Libra:     My divine, I never doubted your existence. I wish I could have saved every first experience to share with you, and only you. There is a softness when you look at me, when you graze my body and conjoin our fingers until they are so tightly interlocked I believe we may never separate. It is in your presence, in your spontaneous flowers and mountain retreats, that I know this is where I’m meant to be. Nothing is full without you. Even in your bitterness I am contented, although I will do anything you make you happy. You are my whole heart, my other half, my love. 

Venus in Scorpio:     The world is cruel. We grow up with pain, reoccurring and pungent in our viscera. It doesn’t always heal either. And people will cause it with their carelessness, using others as if they are puppets. It is in you that I can heal, from your scent, within your laugh, and in the breath of your sleep. There is purity within you, a truth that I am fixated upon. I want to delve into the depth of your mind and comfort your pains, I want to hold you and understand you until you are fully exposed and fully fixed from the trials of your past. There is no person as rich with depth as you, no person so worthy of complete love. You have given to me without hesitation, and I long to share with you everything I have.

Venus in Sagittarius:     The world seems small when you think about it long enough, or when you look up at the midnight sky and see the flaming memories of stars that once were. We are that, a microcosm of existence- a memory recurring time and time again. But no matter how small I am, I am overwhelmed with the concept of you and you totality. There is no person worth this short trip, no one except you. Your company is valuable, your opinions intrigue me, and you have a curiosity for this world that rivals mine. It’s okay that we fight, I think, even when you’re wrong. You are a star in my mind, ever-present until the day I die, and maybe in another lifetime. 

Venus in Capricorn:     I am not one to share myself. I find solace in safety, I find solace in predictability. You fight everything I have refused to share. You don’t let me leave, even when I’m certain that I’m best left to my own devices. I never wanted you gone, I never wanted silence between us, but my head is raging with fear. I can’t handle heartbreak and I can’t handle humiliation. I promise that as long as you don’t let me leave, I will help you. I will be loyal, I will hold you when you sleep, and I will be here when you need support. You are worth the risk an I love you with all that I am.

Venus in Aquarius:    There are moments where I find myself totally lost and totally irrational. The moment I knew I’d fallen for you was when you’d become too invested. I thought I’d drop you like I’d done with others in the past, but I couldn’t. You were too important- someone I cared about, someone I craved to touch. And now, honey, I think about you every freakin’ day. I think about you from the crack of dawn to the moment I fall asleep. And even when I need to be alone, I think about you. You’re special: curious, insightful, interesting. I see the world in you. And now, well, nothing can convince me we’re better apart. I love you with every strange thing I am.

Venus in Pisces:    Nothing blisters my skin so gently as your morning kisses, which I cherish. The haze of midnight holds your last breath, the one before I elicit the most delicious of moans, and fall into a daze of dreams about us. I am hopelessly risen from this earthly pull, I am devoted to our love, one which I knew to be destined. With you I will be ever-present, and ever-kind. You are what makes flowers bloom and raindrops crystallize. With you, I am completely enamored and totally in love.

I am not a bit tamed…I too am untranslatable…

Walt Whitman, “Song of Myself”, Leaves of Grass (via wordsnquotes)

Some of my analog pictures I took in the park in June🌷

No one warns you about the amount of mourning in growth.

Té V. Smith, Releasing & Recieving (via wnq-anonymous)

Royalty

A stag stands alone in the autumn mist.

God, how painful it is, being angry.

Simone de Beauvoir, tr. by Justin O’Brien, from “The Woman Destroyed,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

The Signs Falling In Love

Aries: Impulsive; falls fast and hard; likely to say I love you first; very intense, jealous, and giving; likes to show off; constantly trying to get their love to laugh; overprotective

Taurus: Caring, generous, and loving; actually shares their food; very insecure, always scared of being left or rejected; cocky at times; strong but also stubborn at times; not likely to say I love you first but is likely to say it back if the other person says it

Gemini: Surprised at the new feelings they have; crazy; loud; indecisive; not always sure if they love the person or if they want something else; loving; flirty; have a lot of love to give but it comes out in spurts because they are scared of being hurt; not likely to say I love you first and will only say it back and mean it after a long time of debate and getting comfortable

Cancer: Falls head over heels, becomes overwhelmed with so many different feelings, constant butterflies, very sweet, caring, generous, and loving; does a lot of little things all the time to make the person feel special; overprotective; sometimes naive, but other times not as trusting because they are so scared of getting hurt; very scared of saying I love you so they won't say it until they are absolutely sure

Leo: Easily hurt; has high expectations that may not be met and lead to hurt; they have very big hearts and will do anything for the person they love; starts becoming less self centered and considers the other person quite a lot; very charming and silly; laughs and smiles a lot; will say I love you when they feel the timing is right

Virgo: Very reserved; hard to tell when they are falling in love; shy about certain things; probably won't say I love you and mean it for a long time and are very unlikely to say it first; you might notice slight changes in them; laugh and smile more; seem happier and easier to talk to; more fun to be around; they will do anything for the person they love; not super affectionate, but they throw in some affection here and there in small ways; jealous and crazy

Libra: Giggly; flirty; quieter than usual; they honestly have more of a glow and are always smiling; bounce in their step; gentle, loving, and bubbly; are somewhat likely to say I love you first; can get a bit jealous and indecisive; fall in and out of love easily

Scorpio: When they fall in love, they fall deep; jealous, possessive, and crazy; love intensely; extremely likely to say I love you first; very suspicious; caring, sensitive, loving, and very attentive; constantly texting the person and wanting to see them; express their love with sex quite often, which they feel is making love rather than sex; very loyal; overprotective

Sagittarius: Their mysterious exterior softens and they become more open and expressive; actually let themselves be vulnerable for once; likely to say I love you first; will chase the one they love for as long as it takes; very smiley and always laughing and joking; will support the person in every way possible; chill but still overprotective

Capricorn: Actually very caring under that hard exterior; willing to support their partner in anything; generous and caring; not likely to say say I love you first but will probably say it back if it's said to them; actually appears a bit happier; less resting bitch face; loyal

Aquarius: Even weirder than usual; may make a lot of philosophical and deep comments; show their love through sex; non judgemental; very torn between realizing it's love and it just being friendship; not likely to say I love you and mean it for a very long time; stays best friends with the one they love

Pisces: Look starstruck; fall hard; will do anything for the person they love; become a little less selfish and a little more giving; overprotective; very loving, kind, attentive, and generous; fifty fifty chance of saying I love you first; wear their heart on their sleeve for all to see