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Electra drives me insane she's really like. This family tree is rotten and so I am rotten but the rot will end with me. And yes the father that lives in my memory is a fantasy and a stranger to the man that really lived but he's dead and every memory of the dead is a fantasy. And yes my father did horrible things but he did those things because he had to, I have to believe he did them because he had to. And maybe if he had lived, he would have loved me and I am so starved of love that I will beg for it from the graves of dead men. Yes this woman gave birth to me and shaped me into the wretched form I am today. No she is not my mother. Yes I hate her. No I can't remember a time when she didn't hate me. Yes I am desperate for her to love me. No I would rather die than do something to earn her love. No I am nothing like her. Yes I look into the mirror and see my mother, and I hate her, so I hate me. Yes I believe my brother remembers and loves me and will come and save me. No I don't know what he looks like or if he's still alive. Yes I love my brother unconditionally. No I don't really know my brother. Yes I know my brother intrinsically because he is the other half of my soul. No I don't believe he's coming. Yes I love him anyway because I am destined to love men who leave me behind in this house. This house that has been built on the bones of my murdered family, killed by my family, and their blood has poisoned the roots. Yes this house is my home. Yes this house hates me, and what does it mean when your home is also your prison? Yes I want to leave this house. No I will never leave this house. Yes this house has always been haunted. I am the thing that is haunting this house.

magnus archives update 😐👎 I've been JON CODED

there are no words for this

remember when u opened ur inbox for the first time ever and within minutes i just sent ‘[redacted tbos character] dies’ and you weren’t allowed to tell anyone. bc that was so funny of me actually

remember when I made strangers an akutagawa song. wasn’t that funny

huzzah!

flower meanings bc i put thought into this:

asphodel [the white spikey ones, and also the corn cob looking things at the top]: death

amaranthus [the spongey tentacles]: hoplessness

sweet briar [the cute little pink ones]: woundedness (specifically emotionally, in this case)

i didnt start this piece with the intention of it being so warm and bright but i like the contrast of it against the angsty meanings

OHHHHHH MY GOD

listen to maggot by dazey and the scouts NOW (sending u and rori the same ask bc i need my love as consumption insane people on board. we r holding hands talking about the most morbid lyrics we can find). this song got recced to me by an anon MONTHS ago and it’s been one of my fave songs ever since just bc it FUCKS like all capitals FUCKS it’s got so much personality but today im ashamed to admit i only for the first time actually listened to the lyrics and????? hello???? what if im just a cardiac arresting sweetheart, a half run over cat left in the street, and you’re the maggot craving rotten flesh left outside in the heat? ABSOLUTELY INSANE LYRIC HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT

historically taking recommendations from you has not gone brilliantly. for example watching mha. however—

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HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 1x07: “Driftmark” (2022)

STOP IT. GET OUT OF MY NOTES

I’M TOGA HIMIKO AND I LIVED EXACTLY HOW I WANTED TO. I WAS JUST A NORMAL GIRL WITH THE CUTEST SMILE IN THE WHOLE WORLD!

i have been listening to @mothercain almost exclusively this week

chuuya’s role in bsd is so funny to me. you’re watching this show and every 10 episodes or so this pretty guy drops in, and he’s the coolest most OP guy in the show so he can really only hang around for a few minutes before he makes any conflict obsolete. and he’s supposed to be part of the villains but he never really does anything that evil and is mostly helpful? he just appears and does something badass and fucks off again. and this is all already really weird but also every time he shows up it’s clear that he and one of the other main characters have like, definitely fucked, which adds a whole other layer of absurdism. and the best part is he accomplishes this in maybe 11 total minutes of screen time.