Using My Laptop ONLY For Tumblr Is Strange But Refreshing. I'm Doing My Before Bed Scrolling, On My Laptop,

Ran out of milk and my housemates milk isn’t open so I can’t steal it, time to channel seasoned black coffee drinker 17 year old me

the thoughts have gotten me again (too much ketamine, much too big a heart etc)

a process

Something so fatherly about cleaning and polishing my shoes

Really wish I kept my teeth when they were taken out, I had so many and they were such strange shapes

I haven't made a new social media in way too long idk how to curate my feed from scratch

dale cooper means so much to me as someone who also has weird and insane dreams that must tell everyone i know about them in case there’s anything to learn from it

living in a city known for being weird means getting sad when someone takes the free stuff on the street that i had previously decided was mine (i miss you artwork i found opposite my house </3)

very few of my tattoos have meaning but this one is quite personal, its a reference to a lot of the art i've done over the years which is lovely and a reminder that creating things is something i'll always enjoy, but also i came up with the idea for it in the last potentially not good mental health period i had (too many drugs mixed with being confused about everything that was going on at the time) where i kept questioning if there was something after death and (not in a bad way) if i wanted to be on this earth and feeling like i was meant to just be floating around in another realm instead of being a person, it felt very similar to past periods i've had of feeling like i was somehow morally evil (which were normally accompanied by a lot of art with crosses and angels and feeling like i had to repent/i deserve to feel negatively about myself) and feeling somewhat spiritual and this tattoo feels like a way of maybe giving myself some grace(?) in those times and not embracing the thoughts i had in those times but admitting that, that was me and sometimes continues to be a part of me which is nice and feels relieving in some way and like i can move on

I might be slaughtered for this but I cannot get into twin peaks: the return and it’s really annoying I watched twin peaks non stop for however long it took me to finish it+ the 2 movies but watching the return is a struggle 😔