Just Finished My Sketchbook (will Add More But Technically This Is The Last Page) With A (bad) Painting

>be me

>go clubbing

>leave headphones in friends flat

>leave the club before everyone

>I cannot get my headphones

>2016 era wired earphones

hey can i sleep inyour bed tonight the ominous creaking noise came back

did draw the moon though so

the thoughts have gotten me again (too much ketamine, much too big a heart etc)

dale cooper means so much to me as someone who also has weird and insane dreams that must tell everyone i know about them in case there’s anything to learn from it

silly thing i did at the library

Gods favourite cross dresser

very few of my tattoos have meaning but this one is quite personal, its a reference to a lot of the art i've done over the years which is lovely and a reminder that creating things is something i'll always enjoy, but also i came up with the idea for it in the last potentially not good mental health period i had (too many drugs mixed with being confused about everything that was going on at the time) where i kept questioning if there was something after death and (not in a bad way) if i wanted to be on this earth and feeling like i was meant to just be floating around in another realm instead of being a person, it felt very similar to past periods i've had of feeling like i was somehow morally evil (which were normally accompanied by a lot of art with crosses and angels and feeling like i had to repent/i deserve to feel negatively about myself) and feeling somewhat spiritual and this tattoo feels like a way of maybe giving myself some grace(?) in those times and not embracing the thoughts i had in those times but admitting that, that was me and sometimes continues to be a part of me which is nice and feels relieving in some way and like i can move on

Really wish I kept my teeth when they were taken out, I had so many and they were such strange shapes

strangely miss the summer i spent feeling like i had to repent for being 'inherently evil', doing coke, dating too many people i possibly didn't love, only listening to pulp and the manic street preachers, being deeply in love with my ex, only wearing a minimum of 5 necklaces daily and getting into silly clothes