Pink Floyd In Concert At Wembley Arena In 1973 © Alamy Stock Photo

it is absolutely essential to have friends you can have extremely insane pervert conversations with. this is kind of what makes life worth living

spent a large amount of the week in the library going insane and taking very sleepy pictures in the library toilets

Something so fatherly about cleaning and polishing my shoes

deleted twitter however i am just scrolling on tumblr more, but this is still a win since it’s not twitter

My beloved three graces that i sketched/monoprinted/sewed that i didnt get to pick up years ago because i refused to take all of my final a-level art work lol

recently got told its very likely i have ocd and i never realised how much it actually effects me until now its crazy, i thought i had like a few symptoms of it but nothing huge and i fear i may of been wrong

Have to choose my final year topics and dissertation in a few days, don’t particularly know what to choose, I constantly question whether dropping philosophy was a bad idea and I should of just stuck with it even if I thought it would be hard or uninteresting, and there’s the question of what I want to be when I grow up (I’m not sure when that point is) I just want to make an impact somehow and be remembered and it feels like doing that is dependent on my degree and what I do during it (I know realistically it’s not but some lecturers imply it is unfortunately).

vague ideas of starting to write things

I might be slaughtered for this but I cannot get into twin peaks: the return and it’s really annoying I watched twin peaks non stop for however long it took me to finish it+ the 2 movies but watching the return is a struggle 😔

very few of my tattoos have meaning but this one is quite personal, its a reference to a lot of the art i've done over the years which is lovely and a reminder that creating things is something i'll always enjoy, but also i came up with the idea for it in the last potentially not good mental health period i had (too many drugs mixed with being confused about everything that was going on at the time) where i kept questioning if there was something after death and (not in a bad way) if i wanted to be on this earth and feeling like i was meant to just be floating around in another realm instead of being a person, it felt very similar to past periods i've had of feeling like i was somehow morally evil (which were normally accompanied by a lot of art with crosses and angels and feeling like i had to repent/i deserve to feel negatively about myself) and feeling somewhat spiritual and this tattoo feels like a way of maybe giving myself some grace(?) in those times and not embracing the thoughts i had in those times but admitting that, that was me and sometimes continues to be a part of me which is nice and feels relieving in some way and like i can move on