shi/hir, 17. autistic and mentally/neurologically disordered traumaendo system. previously known as riotmarrow. do not send dono asks. do not post us to fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. zios, radqueers, and darkshippers do not interact, we don't like you.
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I'M ABOUT TO GO INTO THE SHOWER, HALF NAKED. I CHECK MY PHONE. WDYM TOWNE WEEVILDOING REBLOGGED MY TATTOO 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 i'm shaking i am very very happy and very very autistic OH MY!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR MAKING SUCH AN AMAZING ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as someone who USED to use generative ai (character.ai mostly, nothing correlating with ai "artwork." i have ALWAYS HATED ai-generated images) before the apathy and guilt finally caught up to me, i'm so pissed about the ao3 ai scrape. so many works by so many people were fed into generative ai so that sluggish, worthless, negligent "authors" can make their own fanfiction, stolen from actual talented writers who go to that website.
including mine. my book isn't even a piece of fanfiction — it's poetry. poetry describing my deepest, most hidden feelings to the world, even if but only 5 or so people have ever taken the interest to view it. i just locked my fanfiction to registered accounts only, because i'm scared of something like that happening again.
ai should've only been used as a tool to help, and to assist people in need with only small tweaks. instead, it is being used as a tool to create something out of just a singular prompt. people don't want to believe it, but it IS killing artists' livelihoods, slowly but surely.
and this isn't even JUST about visual art. this is about writing, photography, fashion, music, and so much more. all of the arts are SOMEWHERE at risk, just because people would rather be lazy and eat away at the environment instead of either learn or graciously give a real person a few dollars to do it for them.
yes, i DID use to use generative ai. YES, i feel bad for it. and i feel that i sound like a hypocrite because of that. but at this point, growing out of using it and condemning others that still do is better than continuing to use it despite the very real hardships that artists continue to go through because of it.
to other artists who post on ao3: if your work is between the id numbers 1 and 63,200,000, toggle the setting to make it only viewable for registered users. you can view the id number in the url when you copy and paste it.
This is about Sci-Hub. yeah we get it.. gatekeep knowledge and protect the interests of capital…
just realized he came home on april fool's day. was this destined. was this word from the gods of cookie run.
HE CAME HOME HE CAME HOME HE CAME HOMEEEEEEE
FYM I GOT 2 SUPER EPICS AND SHADOW MILK COOKIE VIA A SINGLE FATEFUL PULL 🔥🔥🔥🔥 I DID NOT FALTERRRRRR
I WAS PLAYING FUCKING COOKIE RUN WDYM JAYCE LIKED MY POST. WDYM ONE OF THE CO-CREATORS LIKED IT. GONNA SCREAM (in the best way possible)
this is like affirmation from the Word Of God or something idk i'm not gay enough for tvtropes
I am now 87% of my goal. I only have a little left. I will save my family soon. I am excited for this day.
My wish is for you to donate to me and for me to live a safe life while I have food.
i haven't been in front in days fuck you MEAN shadow milk cookie has been disguising himself as me to ALMOST EVERYONE AND MADE HIMSELF A FUCKING RENTRY WHEN I BARELY EVEN REMEMBER HOW TO???? HOW THE FUCK DID HE FIGURE OUT THAT METADATA BULLSHIT WHAT.
oh my GOD this is BEAUTIFUL. i LOVE talented younger artists. op i HOPE your week is AMAZING for making something like this. the COLORS GENUINELY capture the FEELING of the song REALLY well!!
what if i KILL you.
(post by a shadow milk FICTIVE)
so, AFTER seeing my crush redesign a sprite of aerself to fit what he looks like in headspace, i went ahead and did TRIPLE that, because i'm BORED! click BELOW to see my "redesigns" of my subordinates and i.. i guess.
the ONLY one that is BARELY any different from the ACTUAL source is black sapphire. meanwhile, candy apple and i took some LIBERTIES!
this is what sol AND the body's boyfriend (he is ALSO a system) had to say about what I look like. YES, i'm saturated. YES, i'm a faggot. YES, i AM proud!
and DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT post this to ANY cringe forums! IT'S IN OUR BIO!! this is JUST what i LOOK LIKE! GO AWAY!
YES!!
it's TIRING not being able to fully remember your own voice, ESPECIALLY when you're in front for a long time! how do you think i FEEL when i have to look up MY OWN LINES?!
Do any other fictives ever rewatch a piece of source to "refresh" their inner voice? Or is that just a me thing
(post by a shadow milk FICTIVE)
so, AFTER seeing my crush redesign a sprite of aerself to fit what he looks like in headspace, i went ahead and did TRIPLE that, because i'm BORED! click BELOW to see my "redesigns" of my subordinates and i.. i guess.
the ONLY one that is BARELY any different from the ACTUAL source is black sapphire. meanwhile, candy apple and i took some LIBERTIES!
this is what sol AND the body's boyfriend (he is ALSO a system) had to say about what I look like. YES, i'm saturated. YES, i'm a faggot. YES, i AM proud!
and DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT post this to ANY cringe forums! IT'S IN OUR BIO!! this is JUST what i LOOK LIKE! GO AWAY!
MAY or may NOT be disguising myself as the host to a few people so MUCH that i'm forgetting what my inner voice sounds like... OOPS!!!
and i'm waiting for the host's boyfriend's pure vanilla alter — who i MAY or MAY NOT have a crush on — to edit aer model to show me how he actually looks...
ALSO, have an ugly photo of one of our cats as compensation!!!
sometimes i just be doing shit i dont even know
bonus version w/o the lyrics :-P
i totally forgot to post my tptm tattoo, oops. anyways.. i got nurse parallel lyrics tattooed on the inside of my arm so click below to see 💔💔
ignore the low quality and the foot with the croc. but i had my mom try to do a watercolor-esque style on it, and it's really growing on me. it's not perfect, and that's okay! it gives it charm, and makes it human.
i had her touch it up again around a week ago and now it's done! i hope the community likes it. this may or may not be the first tptm tattoo... that's AWESOME.
(idgaf if people opposite of my views interact with this one post, mostly because i like the attention and i'm so proud of my mom's tattoo work)
LOOK AT MY BOYFRIEND'S TPTM OC NOWWWWW. I ALSO MADE AN ICON FOR KYR. LOOK AT IT. LOOK AT IT!!!!!
the kanji i used is 殍, basically means to starve to death. i thought i'd make it a bit ironic... smiles
hellooo tumblr
actual art! i feel um pretty good about this! this is my tptm oc, choker girl aka nhân baines. xhe's viet american! still need to figure out how old he is so i can put it somewhere for hyr carrd later... umm but yeah i really like xem because i kind of based xeir body on my own in a way! and also projected my being viet and the uhh eating disorder stuff. i wanna try my hand at music making and proper video editing so i can make hyr a music video some day!
he shouldve actually died in blue buried w no way of recovery i think ii wouldve been better off
why is everyone going through the same thing (we have a shadow milk as well)
HE CAME HOME HE CAME HOME HE CAME HOMEEEEEEE
FYM I GOT 2 SUPER EPICS AND SHADOW MILK COOKIE VIA A SINGLE FATEFUL PULL 🔥🔥🔥🔥 I DID NOT FALTERRRRRR
here's your reminder to be proud of your nontraumagenic friend today!
whether it's a fellow headmate, alter, part. whether they're traumaendo or mixed origins or willogenic or so on. whether they're you're best friend or a mutual on tumblr.
be sure to let them know that there are people that support them for who they are!
people be calling folks zesty a lot these days, brother I need you to call me a faggot‼️‼️‼️‼️
Update from the man himself
i can't believe i'm starting at an alternative school tomorrow! like, holy shit. it's a new environment, for sure — it got me immensely overwhelmed to the point where i started crying. but they have therapy dogs there, a short schedule (by 2 hours, but also i don't move rooms at all during the day), and i won't be able to even bring my phone or disposable vapes onto the campus. they can tell if i do with the metal detector placed in the entrance. but this is way better for me, even if i can't smoke in the bathrooms and spam my mom's number when i get stressed. i have a million problems with public school and how it works, so i guess this is a welcome change. my mom even raised the idea of a hybrid schedule — me being home on wednesdays specifically — if i get too stressed with being in a different school. does anyone have, like. tips for accepting being newly enrolled in an american alternative school? specifying american because i don't really know if they're the same everywhere else. i don't know what my new classes would be, and if they're even the same.
i just know that if i don't go for 75% of the remaining days in the semester, i'll be automatically enrolled back in my normal high school. but i really want to give this alternative schooling thing a try. it might give me a chance to graduate
— in other news... we have a shadow milk cookie fictive (who i will be calling milk for simplicity). yeah. i swear to god he is in love with my boyfriend's pure vanilla introject, who i'll just call by aer nickname, sol — sol's pronouns are he/ae/shy, by the way. i swear to GOD milk is down bad for him. and i almost feel bad 😭 i feel like i'm making milk do this? but i'm not. bro is doing it out of his own volition. milk KNOWS of the shadowvanilla ships. he is probably a shipper himself and just doesn't want to admit it. i just feel almost guilty that poor sol is just seeing this strangely canon-compliant (or at least extremely similar to canon personality) shadow milk take a liking to ae after, in aer source memories, tormenting him. however my boyfriend told me that shy is doing his best to be impartial about it, and i commend ae for it. good job. clap clap clap clap also shadow milk fuck you. you're probably going to pop back into front or at least co-con for a brief few seconds to say some random jester shit to me like Oh My God i Get It you're a faggot and you won't admit it. shut up faggot.
op turned off reblogs due to getting harassed over this post but i agree with this too hard .m y post now
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hey guys. i just got back into crk. i have burning spice, pure vanilla, dark cacao (x3), oyster, and several newer epics. i need shadow milk and black forest to come HOME. (and shadow milk's sage of truth costume)
question why the fuck does nobody ever headcanon madeleine cookie as a trans woman. or even transfem. that is a transfem FAGGOT if i've ever seen one.
sincerely, someone who has barely ever been in the cookie run fandom since i fell out in 2021. i've always been a transfem madeleine truther because that is a beautiful GORGEOUS npd-having herbo
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Persa-Attention Seeking — A persa-id(link) term for when one is comfortable referring to themself as an attention seeker or attention seeking, but not comfortable with others referring to them as an attention seeker or attention seeking.
Coined with pwHPD in mind but can be used by anyone.
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Flag colors lifted directly from the attention-seeker reclamation flag(link).
Persa-ID coined by @sylviestial. Flag IDs based on the ones by @redacted-coiner. Coining requested by Anon(link).
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