Worshipherforever - My Deviant Obsessions

Newbie here. We have been experimenting in the lifestyle for just a few months. My best friend is a long time swinger and hotwife. We have not played with them because we are afraid it would get weird. Mostly it has been good. We have played with 3 couples full swap and a single male for a threesome before this all with condoms. We met a couple and they had good chemistry. We went to their place. The man had mentioned fucking his wife that morning. When playing my husband went down on her and was totally into it. The man asked if we could go bareback. We all on the spot decided to try it. Something new. Our rule had been condoms. I know it is dangerous to change rules on the spot, but we did. Sex was good. Better than with a condom by far. After every play date before my husband and I had great sex again when we got home. This time he claimed he was tired. The next night I initiated sex. I usually sit on his face a while during foreplay. It gets him really excited. He pushed me away and said he didn't want the guys cum in his mouth. We got in a massive argument. I'm livid. I literally had watched him go down on the other woman and they'd had sex that same day. He admitted he'd said he wasn't in the mood because he knew he'd be expected to eat me out because that is always part of our sex. I'm so mad. He actually said we should just wait one more day. I called my friend and she said I should completely stop swinging which I don't want to do because we've mostly had fun times and even when not it has been interesting. I said I think I liked it to much. She then offered to loan me her husband. Said I could use him once a week and then my husband would have the option of either getting over it and eating me or go without sex. She called it training. Her husband never needed training though as he supposedly gets off on her getting creampies. Neither of her suggested ideas work for me. I'm hurt and angry about this. Our rule would still be condoms usually, but now I'm wanting to not have them just because of this. He should like me sexually at all times I think. I'm so mad. Advice would be good.

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