headphones aren't enough. i need the song to stab me in the chest
She could stab me repeatedly and I'd thank her
I don't think y'all get how incredibly gay I am for her
I WANTED TO BE HAPPY, THAT'S WHY I CAME ONTO TUMBLR AND YOU'RE THROWING THIS AT ME THINKING I WON'T CRY ABOUT IT?????
We do not talk about this passage enough. Because WHAT, Leo?
You nearly what trying to finish the Argo II?
:,(
Gonna throw up If I can't talk about them-
Bunch of Aiden analysis under the cut because he's just SO OBSESSED CODED AND NOBODY TALKS ABOUT IT π (I will be very weird about it)
The way it's so doomed from the start. He's already so fascinated by her. It's in the little jump he does when she sits in front of him, like a secret they're both in on, like her sitting in front of him is some obscure way of her inviting him into a conversation.
Why is he like this (not positive but not negative either)
He has such a cocktail of personality traits and, most certainly, mental disorders, and his own history that makes it so, when he's in love, that it WILL blow up in his face.
The fact that he's been homeschooled for his entire life- he has no idea. HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW. He doesnt realize that its not normal. of course he doesn't :( His parents obviously leave him alone for long stretches of time and he doesn't seem to mind this. He hasn't had the chance to develop his social skills at all-
It's why he's so, let's be real, creepy. Ash makes it very clear she's not interested and he just keeps worming his way into her life. He plots so that she'll go on the field trip, he follows her around, he goes to her fucking house on the first day. LIKE, HELLO? RED FLAG?
He's having evil thoughts here I swear π
And already so quickly after meeting her he makes Ash his priority. He asks to sit next to her, he engages and makes an effort to talk to her. Tries to joke around with her. Gives her a nickname. Touches her. He's so touchy.
And defends her!!! When Tyler gets pissed at Ash, he honestly goes off on him even tho he KNOWS Ash can defend herself- and he's so...dark about it. There's a threat hidden behind his words. He's MAD here, right? Tell me I'm not crazy, please-
He also very clearly has violence on the forefront of his mind π He's the first one to actively attack the phantoms; not to defend himself, not to defend somebody else (well, he pulls Ash out of the way), but for fun. And he's disappointed when they don't scream. He's sadistic, he likes causing pain, it's something he relishes in.
I mean look at how he smiles!!! None of the other kids have such an...active ENJOYMENT in fighting the phantoms, but for Aiden, it's almost like he finds relief in it, some way to vent out his frustrations. He's eager for a fight, for a thrill.
That's how Aiden sustains himself, he pretty much operates under "I'm here for a good time, not a long time." Everything he does gives him a boost of adrenaline, no matter the consequences. He got into a fight? Eh, who cares about all the bruises, at least it got his blood rushing. Broke a bone while doing parkour or smth? Whatever, the way his stomach dropped when he was falling as totally worth it.
It's a very dangerous mentality to live with, obviously. He's an adrenaline junkie. He's an addict. More than anything else, Aiden wants something that makes him feel alive.
And what makes you feel more alive than love?
Like not to minimise or anything but he's known her for like. 2-3 months- and he's already SO scared of losing her. Like I just don't think he would have had this type of reaction with anybody else besides Ben. He would have absolutely lost his shit if Ash 'died'.
He's a straight up love junkie. He's obsessive. Nothing beats the high love can give you. It overrules everything else. If Ash (or whoever he's interested in) feels bad because of smth, he's done with it.
He LIKED dying. He LIKED the adrenaline rush. But he won't do it again. Not because he had some realization that he didn't want to die, that he still wanted to live and do things, but because Ash was upset. Because this, this rush of care from her part, the way she was so scared of him dying that she was shaking, nothing could fill the hole in his heart better than that. And now that he has a taste for it, he won't let go easy. He will keep on living- if it means Ash will be by his side.
Which is a very dangerous position to put her in. Ash already feels responsible for her friends, and she doesn't even know that Aiden has "put" his life in her hands, not that it's her responsibility, because it isn't, but she will certainly feel responsible if Aiden does something FOR her.
Like He's so fucking obsessed and he doesn't even realize it- like look at how he sees her π THE HEAVENLY GLOOOOOOW, LIKE SHES AN ANGEL AND HE THINKS SHE CAN SAVE HIM. BABY SHE CANT, YOU HAVE TO SAVE YOURSELF.
He could spiral so fucking bad. He could do some absolutely heinous things. Because he just doesn't know. He doesn't know how to love truly, yet. For him love really is that rush of adrenaline, the knife carving out his heart, he could be putty in her hands, or her executioner. This love that can be so obsessive, that he NEEDS it to function, like its water, like its the air he breathes. Its a compulsion, a fixation, a longing that burrows into your very soul. Ash doesn't even know what she's getting herself into-
Godddddd, it makes me so sick/ pos, it's SO FUCKING INTERESTINGGGGGG. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
I literally cannot function around this drawing π«
The. The hand. That way he's grabbing her. He's pulling her back. Towards HIM. like "this is mine. And I'm not sharing." And that little fucking look in his eyes, he just looks SO fucking pleased with himself. And Ash looks so...resigned. they're so doomed-coded, i love them so bad.
I don't know how I was supposed to NOT make a killer au, when he's just...like that around her.
Love is a wonderful thing. But love is also cruel, it is vicious, it is possessive and obsessive, and it will leave carnage in its wake.
Romantic love is an obsession. It possesses you. You lose your sense of self. You cannot stop thinking about another human being. -Helen Fisher
Sanzu says pick up a pencil and learn how to draw.
+Sanzu in ghibli artstyle made by human hands.β
Words cannot describe how much I love this π
Imagine Ekko's comrades complaining about their leader's uncharacteristic slowness to react whenever Baby Blue is throwing her explosives at them, and him struggling to find a new excuse every time he is given a stern talking to about it.
Imagine Ekko's struggle to maintain long-term relationships being somewhat of a running joke in the community until rumours spread of a past love on the memorial he continues to mourn, and everyone trying to guess who it is.
Imagine Ekko getting all prickly when a child innocently asks if the blue-haired little girl on the memorial is related to the vile villainess Jinx, evoking suspicion and speculation on her true identity as well as Ekko's secretive past.
Imagine Scar, possibly in a moment of intoxication, accidentally letting slip that Ekko had his heart broken by Jinx once upon a time. Cue speculation from the Firelights on the nature of their relationship, only for him to seemingly reappear from the dead with a desolate Jinx hanging from his arms and confirm what they already knew.
Imagine some of the Firelights' disgust at how gentle Ekko is with this twin-tailed demon who murdered so many of their own. How he insists on caring for her himself. Imagine the rumours that fly due to him keeping her in his own room.
Imagine how astonished they are to see Ekko and his sworn enemy bickering over their pre-battle engineering like an old married couple. How they fight perfectly in sync, how they exchange quips like they were never separated.
And finally, (don't) imagine how mournful they are at their leader's despair when he loses her for the very last time.
crazy how fanfic authors drop the most beautiful and gorgeous pieces of work ever, leaving you speechless and sobbing at three in the morning as you quietly contemplate the masterpiece you just read
and they donβt get paid for it they just do it because theyβre having fun and they want to share their joy with you
like I would literally die for all of you fanfic authors out there reblog to swear your allegiance to fanfic authors
My name may not be Brutus but I'll take two!
Knives! Get your Knives here for no particular reason!
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Get em while they're cold, get em while they're sharp!
Special discount if your name is Brutus for no reason in particular!
I'M SCREAMING, I NEED HIM SM
Was that something anyone expected when coming on here?
i love how none of you are normal
She/her. Minor. TokyoRevengers, BSD, Arcane, PJO, SBG (But mainly hyper fixated on TR rn)
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