This Is So Beautiful

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marshmallow 

i hope you know you're enough, right now and just the way things are. you might not agree, but this is not an opinion but a fact. and i hope you realize that you are enough for others, for your dreams and ambitions and most importantly of course, for yourself.

Zukka is a ship that I'm ultimately indifferent to but its existence gives me more glee than any other ship. As someone who obnoxiously spent the majority of my pre-teen years going to forum war for Kataang against Zutara, and watching as that war went on strong for years after I'd left my station, the rise of Zukka basically felt like this

"After ten long years the fight shows no sign of stopping. Kataang is once again bringing its ultimate attack of canon-compliance, while Zutara has released another essay on how it better suits the show's themes of balance- wait. What's this? Why it's-it's- IT'S ZUKKA WITH A STEEL CHAIR!!!!"

Ok, update time! So for a while I have been kind of living off of T-shirts and shorts, but recently my mom took me clothes shopping for the first time in like 5 years. Now it’s not bc I don’t like clothes shopping, I just forgot to do so along with some probable self image issues. However, in this new look I feel like a whole new person! I also got my hair dyed this Monday by the AMAZING Erica Wilson, if you need an excuse to get your hair done, go see Erica! These past few days have been really good for me, I didn’t know I needed this. For those who know me, I don’t really think of my own self care as much I think and put others emotional health before my own. (I’m not trying to sound egotistical, that’s just how I’m programmed.) I’m really happy how these past few days have turned out for me. If you need time to get some self care, do it. Taking care of yourself, whether it’s getting a makeover or just taking a day off, is not selfish or self centered. We all need some time to refuel, never be ashamed of making sure you’re ok too.😊❤️ (at The Salon Professional Academy Dallas) https://www.instagram.com/p/B22kFyGJcE80pO7Q78pux9DDyxLf6mJeyDCqX00/?igshid=1bki5o79xwzw8

Healthy Date-Sweetened Chocolate Peanut Butter Ice Cream (V)

Happy pride! May the Ohio invasion prove fruitful for us all.

Apothecary Diaries is pog as fuck bc serious political issues and dynamics from a woman's POV are rarely depicted in ANY form of media

It's always a man's world where women's issues surround him. Even if we get a female perspective once in awhile- it all comes back to how it facilitates his game in the end. She's a footnote in the overarching scheme of things. Misogyny exists. Back to the real plot.

Apothecary Diaries is strictly from a female perspective and how each class of woman has to act, what limits they have, what rights they have and don't have between each class, etc. These women have to behave a certain way under a patriarchy, which you would think makes it a man's story, but it never is. The women are THE focus of this show, their struggles are THE plot. The focus is about how the patriarch effects them.

Take the concubines for example. The show dives into how bearing a child affects their rank, how traumatizing it is to lose that child, the consequences of that, etc. We have barely seen the emperor who sired all these kids because this is not about him.

Jinshi's personal plot is secondary to Mao Mao's journey- he is mostly there to provide new cases for Mao Mao to solve and to learn more about the shortcomings of his class when taking care of citizens like Mao Mao.

Jinshi is not a bad person, but by virtue of his position in the higher classes, he cannot understand how harsh life as a poor WOMAN is specifically- he can only catch glimpses of it from what Mao Mao tells him and feel outrage but powerless in his wealth and luxury

Mao Mao is a fortunate commoner woman for what privileges someone in her class should and shouldn't have. She happened to be adopted by a knowledgeable man. She is allowed to read, write, learn, and has enough skill to be a poison tester and have a job EXTREMELY out of her class limit as an apothecary, also a job not traditionally meant for women

Mao Mao is not a "noT lIkE oThER gIrLs" protagonist, she is FOR THE GIRLIES. She only wants to help the women around her, and women are whom she has the closest relationships to. She sees a woman being harassed and can't let it stand. She sees a frail, traumatized woman dying from the recklessness of those who should be caring for her and spends day and night nursing her back to health, while also punishing the people who were so careless with her needs.

My girl has STUDIED UP on THE BODY to TEACH these upper class ladies on how to really HEAT things up in the BEDROOM

Sex depicted in Apothecary Diaries is both something women are not shamed to be enjoying, while at the same time being acknowledged as an unfortunately huge economic necessity to market themselves.

Like shit is just so real in this series???

Listen, I can go on and on about how GOATED the series and especially Mao Mao is but you get the picture

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And then I find out the fanfic hasn’t updated for over a year.