I’m Being So Serious Btw When I Say That Aziraphale Needs To Break Down And Scream And Cry And Shout

I’m being so serious btw when I say that Aziraphale needs to break down and scream and cry and shout and express his anger for once. Like I’ve already made a post about how Aziraphale’s response to his abuse is different from Crowley’s, how it’s less socially acceptable and less represented than “instinctual aversion to anything that reminds the victim of the abuser” and how the fandom has reacted really poorly to it (hey maybe instead of blaming the victim for returning to the source of abuse we should… idk, be blaming the abuser?) but I really really hope that Aziraphale gets to actually recognise his abuse and be allowed to process it properly.

Throughout the whole show, and I think we can safely assume, his whole life, he has not cried. He has not cried, or shouted or screamed or let his cheery facade slip for more than a few moments at once. He does not have any healthy coping mechanisms, he cannot acknowledge his abuse and he cannot escape (nor does he feel like he can escape) from the source of abuse. He is still there. He is still being abused, controlled and manipulated right down to the last second of season 2. He has not had the time or the freedom to unpack or even recognise his religious trauma, let alone learn how to deal with it properly. You have to understand this before you blame the entire final fifteen on him.

I am so tired of people thinking that Crowley has faced more abuse than Aziraphale just because it is less subtle and more widely recognised. That is honestly such a harmful idea to have, especially considering how common it is for abuse victims to react in the exact same way as Aziraphale before, during and after they’ve escaped the abusive situation. And you know what? I think the one person who would understand this is Crowley. He knows that Aziraphale is in an abusive situation, he’s been through it himself, and he can recognise what is going on. He knows that Aziraphale is not the enemy, and yes, Aziraphale does need to apologise for hurting him during the final fifteen but if Crowley forgives him, there isn’t anything wrong with that. Crowley understands the context and he understands that Aziraphale is just as much of a victim as he is.

The fandom would do well to understand that too. We’re not picking sides. Aziraphale is just as much of a victim as Crowley is and the person to blame is, and always has been, Heaven’s corrupt and manipulative system.

Ok, so I’m new to tumblr and I just saw an art piece with the comment “Reblog, don’t Repost” so my question is what’s the difference between the two of you decide to reblog something? Just asking for my own knowledge and sanity, thank you

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youraveragehyperfixator

1 year ago

THIS!!! RIGHT HERE!!!!

if you aren't best friends with your lover and a little bit in love with all your friends than what's the fucking point

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10 months ago

Zukka is a ship that I'm ultimately indifferent to but its existence gives me more glee than any other ship. As someone who obnoxiously spent the majority of my pre-teen years going to forum war for Kataang against Zutara, and watching as that war went on strong for years after I'd left my station, the rise of Zukka basically felt like this

"After ten long years the fight shows no sign of stopping. Kataang is once again bringing its ultimate attack of canon-compliance, while Zutara has released another essay on how it better suits the show's themes of balance- wait. What's this? Why it's-it's- IT'S ZUKKA WITH A STEEL CHAIR!!!!"

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4 years ago

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3 years ago

Please stay safe guys. Hydrate and make sure to wear sunscreen even if you have a darker complexion.

For anyone in SoCal or the Southwest, excessive heat warnings have been issued for Phoenix, LA, Las Vegas and record temperatures have already been recorded. Stay safe this week and make sure you’re aware of the signs of heat stroke and heat exhaustion!

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3 years ago

If your feminism doesn’t include brown and black women, sex workers, poor women, women who sleep with anyone, women who sleep with no one, trans women, and sexual assault victims, I don’t want to be part of it.

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6 months ago

So one of my tweets kinda blew up. :v

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4 years ago

For anyone who needs to hear this.

A reminder to everyone:

If you’re hungry, you should eat. It’s okay. It’s nothing to feel guilty about.

It’s okay to live in a larger body. I promise. You can be healthy in a larger body. Buy clothes that fit your beautiful, perfect body and love that body. It loves you.

Are you craving a certain food? Carbs or ice cream or bananas or chocolate? Eat it. It’s fine. Your body wants it. Restricting your food and dieting makes your body want them more which leads to binging when makes you feel bad.

Move in a way you love. Walk and listen to books or swim or lift weights or dance or jump or play with your kids (or your friends kids! Or with a pet! Or alone!)

You don’t need a “cheat meal” or a “cheat day.” Eating is not a test. There’s nothing moral about it. You can’t cheat at it. Eat what you love.

You don’t have to be on a never ending quest to make your body smaller. Your body is worthy of love and care the way it is.

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1 year ago