I'm Actually Tweaking Right Now-

I love making memes of my dr self absolutely demolishing All For One😘🥰😍

(I'm currently sick and have nothing better to do)

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

Yesterday I randomly found something that really reminded me of Kurogiri from my main bnha reality. I was tired so I didn't think too much about it, but I took a screenshot anyway.

A few minutes ago I was in my gallery, thinking about my dr and all, and I saw the screenshot.

"I'm not crying, you are!" that's what I would say if I wasn't crying- I'M CRYING-

I MISS MY BIG BROTHER SO MUCH- GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!

↑ this was the thing I saw by the way. If I don't shift tonight and I don't get to hug Kurogiri for AT LEAST an hour straight, I'm going to make it everyone's problem-

What is your favorite thing from any of your DR’s?

Thank you for the question! I'll take any opportunity to yap about my drs LMAO-

I'll start by saying that I love all my drs and all of them have that one special thing that makes them unique.

But most of the drs I wrote in my pinned post don't have a script yet, I only have a general idea for them, so here I'll only talk about the ones I have a good amount of information about. So sorry if I don't cover all of them!

symbol of fear: main bnha reality → this is obviously the reality I'm more attached to. This is the reality in which I'll spend most of my time in and it could easily become my 'new cr', if you get what I mean. I love a lot of things about this one, so it's difficult to pinpoint THE favorite thing. But the first thing that comes to mind when I think 'favorite' is my found family. The League Of Villains has a really special place in my heart and I genuinely cannot wait to be with them. I also cannot wait for the postwar. I'm still scripting it properly, but it'll be absolutely amazing. Another thing that I guess I could add as a favorite is the fact that I'll be myself. I've been trying to connect more to my dr lately and it's gotten to the point that whenever I get to the 'my dr self' part of a new script it feels strange to not write 'Shigaraki Tomura'...so yeah- I'll take it as a sign that I'm close to shifting to my main dr LMAO-

cozy lov: waiting room → in my pinned post I didn't call this a waiting room because my plans for this reality changed only recently. This will be a waiting room-ish kind of reality. Basically take my dr self and the LOV from my main bnha reality and put them in a reality in which only they exist and can basically do whatever they want (+ immortality because I'm terrified of death). What I really like about this reality is that I can be with the LOV and be completely free to do whatever we want. It resembles my main a bit, but I don't really care-

???: a bnha reality → I haven't started scripting this one yet, but I can safely say that my favorite thing about it is the music- I love music and I can't wait to make something majestic! Also, you know the drill, the LOV is there too and all that!

home: main waiting room → what I love the most about my main waiting room is that it basically functions as my 'secret hideout' or something. I can just go there whenever and do whatever I want without being bothered by anyone. I'm also the only person in the world, so I don't have to worry about things like social standards or things like that LMAO-

I wanted to write about other drs, but lately I've been working on other drs I didn't share here because they're quite personal, so this is all I've got for now- I'm sorry 😭🙏🏻

Also I'm pretty tired and my brain isn't cooperating right now💀

The drs I wrote here are the ones I'm planning to talk about the most on my blog, so at least I covered the bare minimum-

Me and the League Of Villains reuniting after the war is over like:

symbol of fear: main bnha dr !!

(WORKING ON NEW VERSION)

This is my main bnha dr!! I consider this to be a pretty personal desired reality because of the reasons I want to shift here.

This is probably the most intense reality I'm shifting to. In fact I've thought about it for literally 2 years before deciding to start scripting. This is the dr I'll talk about the most in my blog, so keep this in mind!!

The reason why I decided to start this blog, aside from helping me and hopefully others with motivation, was because I really wanted to talk about this dr. I needed a place where I could talk about it freely, but my notes app wasn't really doing it for me. So here I am!! And also who knows, maybe I'll find someone with a similar dr too!!

before reading: why do I want to shift to this dr? Where do I begin? Well, I absolutely hate this reality. Everything is going to shit and I really want out of here, plus I really don't like myself- but this could apply to my wr and other drs as well. So why this one in particular? In 2019, while I was making my first ever script, I immediately thought about a flawless world. Then, in 2020, I went on a 4 year shifting break. After two years, in 2022, I wasn't done with my break but I was trying to pick up shifting again. That's when I looked back at my script. Coming from an extremely flawed reality, the idea of shifting to that perfect world seemed…underwhelming. I'd feel like a coward, hiding away in a perfect world instead of fighting for a better life- I know there's nothing wrong with it, in fact my wr is some kind of perfect world, but it wouldn't be as gratifying as I'd like it to be. I absolutely hate the society I live in and I feel completely useless here. I want to go to a reality in which I serve a purpose and things actually get better. That would be a satisfying reality to go to.

So this is basically what this dr is about. A reality in which I serve a purpose, a reality in which actual justice will be served, a reality in which society at large will learn and grow from its mistakes, a reality where everyone will feel heard and have a chance at life. A reality in which the world will change into something beautiful and life will begin to feel like it's worth living, like it should.

But why bnha? Because not only I've been hyperfixating on it for an extremely long time and I'm really attached to it, but also because justice and society are really important topics in canon, so I was really drawn to it when I decided to script and go to a reality such as this.

summary of contents:

my dr self • plot and main events • important people • miscellaneous

last update: january 25th 2025

← previous [main wr] || next [???] →

my dr self

If you read everything until now, you're either thinking that I'm a pro-hero/hero student or you're doubting that because of the name I gave to this dr and the picture of Shigaraki at the start of this post. Well, here's the most 'controversial' part of my dr:

In this reality I'm not a hero. I'm a morally ambiguous villain.

And if you happen to have seen the post about my wr you might be wondering why I didn't put a picture of my dr self at the beginning of the post like I did in the other one.

I actually did. That's me. In this dr I'm Shigaraki Tomura.

A morally ambiguous villain that, at least in my dr, ends up actually doing something amazing.

→ “Moral ambiguity: a lack of certainty about whether something is right or wrong”

→ “Morally ambiguous refers to situations, characters, or actions that do not have clear ethical implications and can be interpreted in multiple ways.”

→ “Morally ambiguous characters can start off with good intentions and then be driven to evil by others or by society, or they can start off evil and come to redeem themselves. Alternatively, they can remain ambiguous and complex throughout the whole narrative, and leave the reader to make up their own mind about them.”

This is the most difficult part to explain about my dr, but I'm going to try my best to make it understandable:

I always find myself relating to Shigaraki in one way or another. If you knew me in real life, I'm sure you could kinda see the similarities.

When I first started to script this dr I tried countless times to basically make an original character to insert myself into the bnha universe. But it'd always, and I mean always, end up being really similar to Shigaraki, like some kind of bad rip-off- it was just uncanny, really. I'm one of those people who whenever they start hyperfixating on a series they attach themselves to one character...so this kinda explains it- but that aside, as I already said, I relate to Shigaraki, a lot. I'm genuinely not surprised I couldn't come up with something original in this case.

And then it just kinda…made sense- it made more sense for me to shift to a reality in which I'm him instead of trying to insert myself into the bnha universe being a cheap copy of him.

I really don't know how else to explain it, but it just feels right for me.

So yeah…Shigaraki Tomura from the Shigaraki Tomura series-

I don't have anything to say about my dr self, really. He's Shigaraki Tomura, that's it basically- according to my interpretation of the character, that is!!

plot and main events

When I first shift to this reality it'll be the 4th of April 2124, my 19th birthday. I'm still confused on when bnha is set canonically, I keep hearing it's in the present or an hypothetical future, so I picked future. In 2124 the class 1A students are going through their last year of middle school and in 2125 they'll be in the first year of UA and I'll turn 20. I decided to shift a year before canon events to kinda get used to a new reality- I know that once I get there it'll feel absolutely normal, because it is, but I'll do that anyway. Also because I don't want to shift and immediately be forced into utter chaos…and because I want to spend time with Kurogiri without worrying too much about being caught!! (since after the USJ Attack the public will know the LOV is a thing)- for context: he's not 100% like he is in canon, go to the "important people" section for more info!!

Everything will be like canon bnha, but there are some changes. For example the War Arc is almost completely different, consequently the Post-War is not even close to canon. The war will start like canon, but there will be no hero or villain deaths. After the war society will begin to change (in a good way) and me, the LOV and people like us will finally be able to actually have a chance at life. Does this mean there's zero criminal/villain activity? No, but it'll be significantly reduced and will be dealt with way better than it was before. There are other changes, but those aren't as important as the ones I already mentioned.

Another thing I feel like I have to mention is the fact that, as I said earlier, I'm an ambiguous villain who commits ambiguous actions. Although more than half of everything I do is not my fault (All For One), that doesn't mean that I won't be responsible for at least some of those actions. I'll be accountable for the acts that are exclusively my fault (so there's no proof of them deriving from All For One's influence- or maybe I just straight up admit it), but not for the ones that derive from All For One's manipulation and grooming. But neither me or anyone in the LOV will be given life in prison or a death sentence. We'll spend a lot of time in the hospital, unsurprisingly to absolutely no one- but not just any hospital, it'll be like a prison's hospital, so regular civilians aren't treated in the same building as us. After that we won't be immediately free, we'll probably be staying…somewhere under surveillance- I don't know- and then we'll be under probation and then finally we'll be completely free!! Is it realistic? Probably not for this reality, but that reality is different and society will undergo a massive change too, so it makes sense to me.

...also after all of this I'll be spending my life with the LOV and my s/o- me when I can find love as a ex-criminal in another reality and I can't pull anyone in the cr: 🤡

Once I shift to this dr I'll forget about what I've scripted and the plot (only when I'm in this dr- so when I'm in my wr or any other dr I'll remember everything)- EXCEPT: I shifted, I can't and won't die, I can't get traumatised in any way, it's going to end well, other safety things like that.

important people

I absolutely love everyone in the LOV, but I'm not going to talk about everyone or this would be an endless post. I'll talk about three people for now: the first is basically a family member, the second one is my future s/o (we'll be together after the war) and I can't wait for the third's slow and painful death.

Kurogiri !!

In my dr, Kurogiri isn't 100% like in canon, but he isn't too different either. In canon he basically lacks a mind of his own, bound to listen and obey All For One's commands and whatnot. He's a highly intelligent nomou, but that's just so he can better assist All For One and all. In my dr there's still a trace of that, but he's quite different.

In the early phases of 'testing', so not too long after he was created, a certain event took place that influenced his 'programming'. He began to progressively act less and less like some kind of machine and instead acted more like a normal person. But never in front of All For One (and heroes once canon events will begin in my dr). Not only because he wasn't completely independent and still couldn't disobey him, but also because there could've been consequences (he could've been 'reprogrammed', losing the progress he's made, or worse). All For One would've probably done something about it, but he noticed this once it was way too late.

Canonically Shigaraki has been staying with All For One since he was 5 and he's now 20, in my dr it's no different. And Shirakumo was killed when he was in his second year of UA, so he was probably around 17. If you consider Eraserhead's age, since they were in the same year, then this would make Kurogiri 30 years old, his age in my dr. If you do a little bit of math: when Kurogiri was killed at 17, I (and canon Shigaraki too) was 7, I was already with All For One. In my dr it didn't take too long to make Shirakumo into Kurogiri, it took around a year. We met when I was 8 and he was 18. So we've known each other for a really long time.

After the event that changed Kurogiri's programming, we began to properly bond. All For One couldn't just change or get rid of him, losing Kurogiri would have affected me greatly. That could've impacted his plans for me. So as long as Kurogiri 'doesn't do anything funny' he's free to stay the way he is. Little does All For One know that he'll continue to get more and more independent until, after the war, he'll be truly free to be himself.

We bonded especially when I was around 14, when All For One died to All Might (and then got revived by Garaki). Since All For One wasn't in the way, Kurogiri had a little bit more freedom and that was absolutely amazing!!

He's my older brother. The best older brother there is.

He took care of me, he taught me stuff, he gave me company, he listened to me, he made me feel better whenever I felt miserable and so much more. And he still does. He, alongside the LOV, is the main reason why I'm so determined to shift to this reality.

I've never shifted there before but I miss him greatly.

Spinner !!

I don't have a lot to say about Spinner actually. He'll be my best friend (I say 'will' because when I'll first shift there we won't know each other)…and my s/o after the war!! When I first started scripting this dr I wasn't thinking about having a s/o, it didn't really seem to fit. But as time passed I started feeling more attached to the people in my dr and whenever I found myself thinking about him…I don't know, scripting him as my s/o just felt right- everything in this script is based on a 'it feels right for me' feeling!!

So yeah: acquaintances to friends to lovers I guess LMAO!!

Also, a little fun fact: in the cr I have a necklace with a little gecko!! The base is silver and it's divided into 4 sections. In each one of those sections there's a (fake) flat gem. Also I got extremely lucky because on one side it's more green, on the opposite side it's more light blue and in the middle the two colours kinda mix together in a cool gradient. Me when green = Spinner and light blue = my dr self-

All For One. . .

Alright, what can I say about this man?- the term 'man' doesn't even suit him, this is a fucking monster- thank god I can script whatever I want and I scripted lots of things for safety!! Most of those safety things are related to this guy- they apply to everything, but mainly him and his actions.

I still have to register the fact that for a long time (until the war starts) I'll consider this man my ally- like- the one that saved me and shit- god damn-

Anyway-

PRAYING FOR HIS DOWNFALL🙏🏻‼️

Can't wait to kick his ass!!😘🥰😍

(I don't know what else to say actually-)

miscellaneous

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I suddenly got the urge to make a new pinned message which includes my main bnha dr and my waiting room (and other things). Not sure why but…oh well-

There's a chance I'll delete the old ones after I'm done with this post so…yeah-

Why am I making a post about it? It's my blog, I can do whatever I want with it- just like with reality shifting, I can go wherever and I can do whatever I want😏

See? This post wasn't useless after all!!

(please laugh-)

I may or may not be working on a post about my most personal dr so I can share it here (the reason I created this blog was mainly to yap about that dr).

I have multiple reasons for why I want to shift there and, since I'm really attached and focused on that dr, I'd love to talk about it here. The thing that's kinda pushing me back from finishing and publishing that post is the fact that I don't really know how people behave/react on here when it comes to the kind of realities people want to go to (I'm pretty new to Shiftblr, so…yeah-)

This dr, in the previous shifting communities I was in, could've been considered a little controversial in a way. So I really don't know what people could think here- and that's kinda scary to be honest.

I believe people can shift to whatever reality they want regardless of how it is (since it's their journey, their decision, etc) and no one should judge anyone for that. Realities are still going to exist and the events in them are going to take place regardless of if we shift there or not, so it's not like not shifting there is going to change anything anyway. This is one of the reasons why I believe people can shift wherever they want, because at the end of the day it doesn't change anything at all.

But again, I don't know how people are on here exactly and I don't know if they think the same way I do. I heard very good things about Shiftblr, but I tend to overthink a lot and end up making silly, little posts under which I hope people are going to comment "nah, we're chill over here, post whatever you want"

So…yeah- now I'm contemplating whether I still want to do this or not😭🙏🏻

I'm tired as fuck and I feel like I just spawned here,

These are some goofy ass options, dayum💀

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

Wait for me Iguchi "Spinner" Shūichi, my dr is not too far away