I've Had A DS Emulator On My Phone For A While And I Haven't Used It Much Recently. Today I Opened It

I just remembered a dream I wrote down a long time ago and...I don't know- it felt SO REALISTIC IT WAS INSANE- IT WASN'T A LUCID DREAM BUT IN THE DREAM I LITERALLY WONDERED IF I SHIFTED BECAUSE OH MY GOD-

Thank fuck I wrote it down- so here's the dream! :)

I remember I was going to a fair in my town. My town in real life had a fair not too long ago, so it was probably that one. In real life the fair had a bouncy castle for the kids. Basically in the dream there was a super huge bouncy castle and my dream self gave herself the goal to explore every inch of that thing, she knew there were some parts of it that led to places we shouldn't be in, so she was determined to find out more. But to get to a higher part of the bouncy castle you had to go through a little obstacle course. And let me tell you, this part of the dream felt magical!

This part of the dream was so realistic that my dream self wondered if she shifted or not, but eventually settled for thinking it was a dream. But somehow this wasn't a lucid dream-

Basically the entrance to the obstacle course was under huge trees and if you looked back you could see how the leaves made some kind of cave entrance shape. From the inside you couldn't see the town, you could see a prairie with beautiful trees in the distance, the sky was clear and birds were flying. From the inside you could see the sunlight coming in and don't get me started on the wind. I found myself onto a wooden bridge without railings, I was admiring the beautiful view while I could feel the wind hitting my face and messing up my hair. It was an amazing feeling. It was at this point that my dream self was confused about it being real life (and I shifted somewhere random) or a dream, because it was just too realistic compared to what I was feeling earlier. I remember my dream self thinking that dreams can be super realistic like this- but then she fell into the water underneath the bridge, since the wind was shaking it, but then she just thought how it was so realistic that when she was going to step out of the water the wind was going to make her feel even more cold. So she stepped out and yes, it was colder! But eventually my dream self remembered her goal and decided to go away from that beautiful place.

When she stepped away the dream went back to feeling like a normal dream, so I said goodbye to that realistic feeling.

The dream goes on but like...did I shift or what?- I NEED TO KNOW BECAUSE IT WAS THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME SOMETHING LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!😭🙏🏻

I'm tired as fuck and I feel like I just spawned here,

These are some goofy ass options, dayum💀

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

What’s your favorite thing (or things if you can’t pick) about your s/o? And maybe your favorite scenario with him

RAAAAHHHH I COULD TALK ABOUT SPINNER ALL DAY, EVERY DAY!!! I LOVE THAT MAN SO MUCH IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY-

I'm still finishing up my script, so I don't have a lot of scenarios currently. But I do have some ideas!! So if we're looking at the postwar, my favourite scenario for now is me and him trying to nuzlock Pokémon Emerald Kaizo together, calcs and all!!

Well, that's my favourite one if we don't count the still non-existent scenario of us getting together because JSHEBIDBDHSHS I CAN'T WAIT TO BE WITH HIM- MIGHT ALSO SCRIPT US GETTING MARRIED BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO SCRIPT IT OR SEE WHAT HAPPENS-

As for my favourite thing about him...picking a favourite thing about him? You're asking me to do the impossible, anon- I love everything about him!!

But something that stands out a lot to me is the fact that sure, he's a tough guy who tries to make himself look bigger than he actually is (especially to people he doesn't trust and enemies) and is probably the first one to act seriously when things get...well- serious, but he's so so so sweet to me and the LOV. He's always available and loves helping us with whatever, he's caring and loving and he can be so gentle AND HE'S SO FUCKING FUNNY- LIKE- MY BEAUTIFUL BOY HOW DO YOU DO THAT???

Also, about the gentle part: it also counts for physical touch- have you seen those beautiful claws? Well, you don't need to worry about them hurting you because OMG HE'S SO GENTLE!! I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH!!!

HIS PERSONALITY IS JUST A BIG CHEF'S KISS- I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH!! AND WE'RE BOTH HUGE NERDS SO YOU KNOW WE'RE YAPPING 24/7 ABOUT THE THINGS WE LOVE!!

ALSO HAVE YOU SEEN MY BEAUTIFUL BOYFRIEND??? HE'S SO FUCKING PRETTY- I COULD ADMIRE THOSE BEAUTIFUL PINK EYES ALL DAY, EVERY DAY- I JUST WANT TO MAKE LITTLE PINK BRAIDS WITH HIS PINK FLUFFY HAIR WHILE HE TEACHES ME ABOUT SWORDS AND STUFF!!!

BRIDBEHEBDBD THIS SEEMS FUN- IF ANYONE CARES PLEASE SEND ASKS!!

[I'll answer for my main bnha reality because it's the reality I have the most information of!]

EXCUSE THE MESS ✶ ASK GAME

౨ৎ excuse the mess is a shifting ask game inspired by frank ocean's channel orange with a focus on your relationships in your desired realities. ﹙ reblog for asks & send emojis to ask ﹚

cw! a few of these questions are less "fun" and more phycological. i completely understand if that's not your cup of tea. take care of yourselves <3

𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🍃 ⋮ PILOT JONES ֹ ₊ ꒱ who is your bad influence? the one person you can count on to be involved with something insane and drag you along with them? have they always been "bad"? why won't you let them go?

𐔌 . ✈️ ⋮ LOST IN THE HEAT ֹ ₊ ꒱ was there a point where you were "lost" in your desired reality? a point where you knew you weren't going the way you want but couldn't recognize the way back? could be physical or emotional.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

𐔌 . 🍊 ⋮ FORREST GUMP ֹ ₊ ꒱ who runs your mind? the person you're always thinking about? when you make a joke that doesn't quite land, who do you know would've loved it?

﹙ ordered by track list ﹚ ꕀ would you laugh if i told you one of my least favorite colors is orange...

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

I'm working on both my main bnha reality script and a new one (that I won't be sharing because it's a little bit too personal) so now I'm alternating obsessing over these two realities.

But my little human brain is worried that if I make an attempt to shift to another reality different from my bnha one, which is the one I put more effort in, I'll magically lose the progress I made.

Can someone be like "the fuck are you talking about? You won't lose anything!" because I'm going insane-

I love making memes of my dr self absolutely demolishing All For One😘🥰😍

(I'm currently sick and have nothing better to do)

Ok...guys, I know I said I was going to be in my drafts all day, but not only my internet connection fucking sucks today but I also just found out about freeform poetry and you know I'm about to write some corny shit dedicated to my s/o-

Spinner I'm so sorry for whatever monstrosity I'm going to dedicate to you- please don't make fun of me pookie😭🙏🏻 (I know he'd never, he'd actually spontaneously combust positively if I were to write poetry about him, but I'll say it anyway)

I didn't think I would have to say this but I am obviously against transphobia, terfs do not interact. I can't believe that there's a terf shifting community. If you are a terf, transphobic, homophobic or have any bigoted ideology for that matter do not interact with me.

dream journal: entry 1

february 5th 2025

As I said in my pinned, I'm interested in using the lucid dreaming method to shift, so why not use this blog as a dream journal too! Surprisingly to absolutely no one, here I am sharing a dream that may or may not tie with my symbol of fear dr!

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This dream was actually pretty fucking sad- I woke up somewhat disoriented because I was super tired and then I was extremely sad because what the fuck brain?

It wasn't a lucid dream and maybe it was better that way, I wouldn't have known what to do- I'd have probably panicked and woke up anyway. I was my dr self and I remember being…somewhere with the lov? I have no idea where we were to be honest. Basically we were ambushed by pro heroes. I don't know how this happened, but suddenly we were trapped in a 'metal box'. It was pretty spacious inside, but suddenly there were just four of us: me, Dabi and some other two that I don't recall at all. And quirks didn't seem to work there either.

And you know that thing in dreams when you know things even if you shouldn't? Yeah, so apparently the heroes had the 'brilliant idea' to try and kind of negotiate(?) with us and then help us in some way, which doesn't sound too bad, but the execution was absolute dogshit. They thought that by reconciling with the person/people who hurt us would help us kind of calm down and we'd be more willing to trust and listen to them. Well that went horribly-

They couldn't bring anyone in for me- they probably could have went with All Might, but they didn't. Kotaro was dead (and they didn't know about him anyway) and bringing in All For One would've been the stupidest thing ever (also they just couldn't- like why would he ever side with the heroes and ruin his own plans?). So all I could do, since my quirk didn't work and I was all skin and bones, was watch what the hell was going on.

Not even a minute in and immediately Dabi and Endeavour are at my right, screaming at each other like there's no tomorrow. I didn't do anything at first because, again, quirks didn't work and Endeavour could've destroyed me with one hand, but when I finally decided to step in the scene changed kind of drastically. But before that, let me explain what was going on a little better:

Apparently in that 'room' everyone's quirk didn't work, including the heroes'. In fact, Endeavour didn't have his usual flames surrounding him, which I thought was a little strange but maybe they wanted us to feel like we were equal. Both of their designs weren't 100% perfect, especially Dabi's. He was a mix between a younger and older him, if that makes sense. His hair was grey, the damaged skin looked a little healthier than it was supposed to be and his clothes were a little bit on the lighter side. Their argument was, unsurprisingly, about how Endeavour was the worst possible father (and husband) on the fucking planet. At first it was pretty generic, but then Dabi quickly began talking specifically about what he did to him. I specifically remember hearing something about how he didn't feel and wasn't seen by him at all and how shocked he was that, despite being right in front of him, he still felt that way. Endeavour didn't care about his identity at all, he cared more about his job at that moment. He was also being pretty fucking hostile (verbally), raising his voice and shit.

So when I decided to step in I took a few steps forwards, trying to get closer and maybe set myself between them, but Endeavour literally disappeared into thin air. I remember immediately turning towards Dabi and he had an extremely distressed look on his face. I instinctively opened my arms to offer him a hug and he basically threw himself at me. And oh, he cried so fucking hard- I was hugging him and rubbing his back trying to calm him down while I heard him bawling his eyes out right next to my left ear. It was fucking soul wrecking to be honest (can't wait to shift and, once we meet and get closer, hug him :'D)

Not too long after this Dabi vanished, but Endeavour reappeared. As soon as he came back literally everyone, villains and heroes alike, was looking at him like "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?!"

I also remember yelling something at Endeavour, but I don't remember what it was to be honest.

And then I woke up- this dream didn't have the right to make me feel this shitty, I've been thinking about it all day😭🙏🏻