The Years By Alex Dimitrov

you're allowed to be messy, you're allowed to fuck up, you can be emotional and stupid and frantic and confusing and weird and any other embarrassing thing. anyone who makes you feel otherwise, or who makes you feel like you're walking on egg shells, like you're doomed if you slip up, they shouldn't be such a big part of your life.

when you first moved in with me, you got a new vase. i’ll buy you flowers and we’ll put them there, – you said. for two years it remained empty on the windowsill, covered with a coat of dust.

when you moved out, you left some things behind. the empty vase, a little toy your late mother bought for you when you were a kid, a mug i gifted you for your birthday. things of no importance.

i can see everything a little bit clearer now. you never cared for little things – not really.

i think i’m going to buy some flowers for myself.

— 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙜𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙛𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙨.

hannah, ulrich and egon be like:

When I was alive, I aimed to be a student not of longing but of light. ― Maggie Nelson

1. Vincent van Gogh / 2. Alexander Harding / 3. Egon Schiele / 4. open house 1998 / 5. Ocean Vuong / 6. open house 1998 / 7. Leonard Cohen / 8. Alexander Harding / 9. Ocean Vuong / 10. Richard Siken / 11. Alexander Harding / 12. Richard Siken / 13. Jungho Lee / 14. Bram Stoker / 15. Alexander Harding / 16. Richard Siken / 17. Alexander Harding / 18. Don DeLillo

[oh how fast the evening passes

cleaning up the champagne glasses]

did its people want too much, too? did its people want too much?

marina 23/ kady 40 “So, darling, how about little rebellion?”

* rereading the secret history and kinda thinking about calling my cat francis *

on my 5th cup of coffee today #DEATHCORE #VIOLENCE #MALICE #HATRED #CHOMPING AND BITING #DESTROY #KILL