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So last and this week have been crazy, meltdowns that affected my time on the drawings. And a personal problem that happened on Saturday that I will be quiet for a few days or more, maybe a month.
Let me explain, some people in Wattpad knows a bit that I had a problem with my armpit that hurted so bad that I stop writing and moving my arms for a few days. What I didn't continue on saying, I had these problems for more than two years. Long ago, I had this pimple-like bumps under my arms for a few weeks and I never thought about it, even if I was close off the outside and I stay in my room.
To warn you, I'm an autistic teenager who suffer depression, anxiety, diabetes, and many issues. Basically, I'm a very sick person who have many mental health problems. I like to be in my room most of the days because my anxiety keep me away from the outside world when my family goes shopping. There are some times where I am happy to go out and stretch out my legs.
Anyways, I didn't think much about the lumps, even it's weird that I stay in the room yet it came out of nowhere. It wasn't until a few days later, it open into holes, throwing pus and blood goo that dirty any towel within that day. It even stink the room from the smell but the worst was that it gave me huge pain when I move a muscle on my arms. It last a few weeks before it close up and leaves scars under my armpits but in a few days, my other armpit started to repeat that cycle of pain. When it close up, my other arm open up again, repeating all of the years. No pain killers stop the pain for a day, only hours before it sting back again. We went to emergency room more than three times, never telling me what it was and just to "air it out" but they also have me Cephalexin or Keflex pills (was the first thing they gave me when I came in the second time) but I found out that I'm "immune" to it so there was almost nothing to help me.
Until a year ago, my mom took me to my primary doctor instead and they said that I might have Hidradenitis suppurativa. When they send me to a Dermatologist, she said a few words about it and related to me so much, she only have us a pill to stop the flare up (the shocking pain in the arms and muscles). It made me sick and have extreme diarrhea for weeks so my mom decides to stop giving it to me and I got a lot better. The flares up stop for a year but just last week, it created three balls and made a huge lump and when it popped in my sleep, I just cover it with a bandage to stop the blood. When the next night came in, I was have a huge meltdown from the stress of homework I missed (that week before that, I didn't went to school cause the whole household got sick and no one could drive, I'm homeschooled) and the pain came in more extreme than before, my mom took me to the emergency room again but this time, the doctor saw me in pain and told me it was Hidradenitis suppurativa which we knew but he noticed I was really young and sick for this so he wants me to get into surgery to get rid of it which we didn't knew that can be a option until now. We change doctors because they were shit from the beginning and refused to take the hospital referral for an emergency surgery.
So just yesterday, I went to see the new doctor and he sent a note for an urgent surgery to the office, they said that they will send a call for a 24 hour warning to meet the surgeon but they don't know the date it will be for it but it will be this week.
This morning, the doctors who going to do the surgery approved me but they need the notes from the hospital emergency room and see me. So it will happened tomorrow or the next day before that. I seen video of the procedure they do and it looks like I won't able to use my arms for a while. I want this so bad, the freedom of the one thing I have. I may be suffering with others things but I want to move my arms freely to do my drawings and writing my stories. I also scared of the outcome of it after the surgery, also I don't want to wake up in the middle of it.
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So I want to show you how I draw my way, it's weird but it gets the job done under an hour.
I doing a new cover for a book I published. I just wanted to show you how I draw.
So I use a big or small sketch book, it depends what I want to draw but I'm drawing eyes. So I use my imagination and sketch with a 2H sketching pencil (light tone).
As you noticed, I made some mistakes. Happens all the time.
Next, I use a 2B pencil to sketching it and add more details to the eyes.
Now, this is the best part, coloring!
I grab what I need, mostly Markers and Color Pencils.
Now I try a new trick with the coloring. It actually an old trick I use a lot when I was a kid, use markers on the outside and color pencils in the inside. You'll see.
I use a black marker to do the eyes lines and the details.
Then, I color the lines.
To clean this up, I erase the pencil lines and make it look like I use the marker only ;)
Next, I kind of fill it in with the markets.
Lastly, I color the rest in color pencil! The end result!
For the other eyes, I repeat this and put my signature and date and.....
¡Boom!
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Update
The surgery is tomorrow, it's at the early in the morning and I feel like I wouldn't sleep tonight so I'm just getting ready, I'm a bit scared and worried but happy that the pain will be forever gone. I guess wish me luck?
We'll see if I act high like others I have seen in videos 😂
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Hello! My name is ZickNette but call me Zick, your choice. I am a Wattpad writer and I have no idea why I'm here but I like art. I might post my art works and books that I write so you can read them! I can answer questions but will not take art requests since I'm still learning and have a lot on my plate. Please don't steal anything from here or I'll find you and make your life hell....Thank you!
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