Grey Academia - Blog Posts

"We don't even ask for happiness, just a little less pain."

Charles Bukowski

~✧°+* 41/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

13.09.2023

I had one of the most stressful e-mail exchanges ever today. It was with a professor of mine (the dean of the English department and therefore also technically my boss) and it was... a truly surreal experience. It was basically just both of us trying to be as polite as possible which, in the end, lead us to basically get nowhere with that conversation. It was so strange it was funny, but I hope something like that never happens to me again :')

Other than that my day was mainly filled with chores. Sadly, I still haven't managed to fully get back to my academic tasks. I want to but I just can't concentrate. On Sunday I'll be going back to my appartment and things should improve from there! Next weekend will also be super packed (more birthdays and plans with friends), which gives me a nice, gentle personal deadline.

Positive things I did that day:

did two loads of laundry

went grocery shopping

fed the pets

cooked lunch for the family

started doing some paper work

watched 2 episodes of the Netflix show Liebes Kind (very good so far!)

Hours slept: ~ 8hrs 30mins Screentime: ~7hrs Steps taken: ~1.000

~✧°+* 39/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.09.2023

My younger sister started school again today! She graduated earlier this summer and is now starting vocational training. I am super proud of her! She has some health issues that affected/affect her development and because of that many doctors predicted that she wouldn't ever be able to get to where she is now. Despite all that she worked hard and got far because of it. She'll have to keep working hard and it won't always be easy for her, but I believe that she's going to accomplish great things <3

I also did some self reflecting those past days. My mental health declined a little bit ever since I arrived at my parents'. I'm pretty sure it's mainly stress and the change of environment that is messing with me, but I do believe that my diet is playing a part as well. My family eats a lot of processed food as well as a lot of animal products. When I moved out last year I changed my diet quite drastically. I don't eat animal products often anymore and rarely buy candy and so on because I know I tend to over-eat on things like that. Now that I'm surrounded my all those foods again I gotta make more of an effort to watch what I'm eating. I really hope that'll help.

Positive things I did that day:

started research for my big essay again

continued looking for internships

got some work done for my job at the university

watched Breaking Dawn part 2

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~600