Shifting - Blog Posts

I think it’s time I bring back my Outer Banks dr from 2021… purely for season one vibes and absolutely no plot like I just wanna vibe with the homies.

Sighs, opens notion.

the playlist for my band’s discography (hogwarts dr) is almost 6 hours long… I may have gotten carried away 😀

kinda bored, might script a new dr just to feel something

hello I am drunk and here to remind you that shifting is supposed to be fun so MAKE IT FUN AGAIN romanticize the fuck out of it i don’t care just find some goddamn joy in this it isn’t supposed to be all doom and gloom you’re a shifter you’re infinite anyways goodnight go shift bitch

more Jello tea wisdom. Go shift 💖

Jello’s daily dose of tea wisdom. Goodnight.

back on my bullshit (my nightmare before kissmas dr is looking mighty fine these days I might start shifting there instead)

I don’t care I don’t care I am shifting I don’t care I am shifting I am shifting I am shifting I don’t care I am shifting I DON’T CARE I AM SHIFTING

I always thought my eyes were special. They’re icey blue with a dark ring around them— and they stand out, but they’re cold.

His eyes are warm. They’re a brown backlit by the sun. They’re the chocolate chips in freshly baked cookies, melted and sweet and from home.

My eyes may be the sky, or the ocean. But his are the earth, the soil where flowers bloom. My eyes reflect the sun but his absorb the light and shine it upon any who are fortunate enough to be seen by him.

I look into his eyes and I feel my ice melting.

Plan A failed. Time to enact plan B:

WE ARE SHIFTING TONIGHT LET’S GOOOOOOO

Headed to a little movie premiere in Toronto. You know who else is in Toronto? Matthew Gray Gubler. You know whose birthday it is? Matthew Gray Gubler’s.

I am meeting the love of my life. I’m manifesting.

Update: Well… this is embarrassing.

every night I am Coraline. I am her, huddled under those blankets, desperate to just go home… only to wake up and say “I’m still here?”

we hug now by sydney rose except it’s me who’s been desperate to shift since I first heard of it five years ago— and my friend who I told about it, who then shifted a week later but now doesn’t shift anymore.

I prefer sleep methods because I cannot fathom just— blinking and being there, ya know? But every time I go to shift I get insanely restless. So, like… fuck me I guess?

trying to sleep but I just imagined what it’ll be like to hug my dr s/o for the first time and started giggling

I did my laundry and showered and changed my bedding today— as a little treat, I shall shift realities.

I get all giddy just thinking about my dr like what do you mean that’s my life? What do you mean I’m literally there right now? I’m giggling and kicking my feet.

had a dream last night that wasn’t about my dr but may have just inspired a new one 👀

adding ‘Unsaid Emily’ to my Inheritance Games DR playlist and cackling maniacally (I’m so sorry Grayson baby I love you)

just found out my dr s/o is and/or was an hour away from where I live… what do you mean the love of my life who doesn’t know I exist in this reality is an hOUR AWAY what is he dOING HERE I actually can’t take it I’m shifting right the fuck now I NEED HIM

(edit: I was in shambles writing this okay I mean the actor who plays him is supposedly an hour away and my body did not know how to process that)

I was just talking to my mom about executive dysfunction and how it’s not just for things you don’t want to do (I saw a post on instagram and felt seen… anyways)

The words were out of my mouth and then I just had to stop and stare because— maybe I haven’t shifted because of this. Yes, I want to shift. I know I want to shift. But maybe it’s in the same way I think to myself “oh I want to play that game” or “oh I want to watch that movie” and then simply ✨don’t✨

Maybe that’s what I’m doing with shifting.

Now the question is… how the hell do I stop?

Because this is more than just a video game or a random movie. I want it, I crave it, I ache for it. I feel my drs in my heart and in my soul. I am haunted by the knowledge of what it will be like to love and be loved in my drs— and yet I remain here.

But I will break this godforsaken cycle if it’s the last thing I do because fuck you I want to shift and therefore I will.

god I just want to love him. I want to show him what love is supposed to be like. I want to show him that he doesn’t have to be alone. I want to hold him and comfort him and I want to give him everything he’s ever wanted. I want to spend the rest of my life making sure he is surrounded by love and happiness and oh my god I’m so desperately in love with him please.

yall ever hear a song and go “I want to base an entire dr off these vibes alone” or am I just that insane?

today is a good day— new dr just dropped. here comes the dopamine.

no, I’m not staring at my bedroom wall right now. I’m actually in the middle of training with Dick Grayson. Duh.

I will shift.

I WILL shift.

I will SHIFT.

I WILL SHIFT.

he is so gorgeous who let me script a two year slow burn I actually can’t do this good lawd

another night, another neocitran and a new dr to shift to.

the amount of research I put into establishing the timeline of a dr is astounding— more effort than I ever put into school

there is nothing quite as motivating as a fresh, new dr to script. I am vibrating with excitement I have so many ideas the possibilities are endless I am tHRIVING